My Name Chapter 8: Demons

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Hi! Uh, really nothing to say today... o.o Enjoy the chapter!

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I never thought of my powers as a gift; but rather a curse, despite the fact that having them saved my life on more than one occasion.

When I was born, I wasn't even aware that I had the ability to manipulate fire in such a way. Sure I noticed that candles and fireplaces would ignite suddenly, but I was a toddler, you couldn't expect me to notice it. My parents certainly did though.

When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

My mother would usually end up beating me if she found evidence of fire being unleashed in a room, even if it wasn't my fault. I had no control of the powers, even on the best of days, and as a result my bruised face was never far from the back my mother's hand.

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale

As I grew, I learned how to focus the power, how to control it, and there was only one way to do that; become an emotionless bastard, unconcerned with those around me. It was hard as hell pretending that whenever I saw someone fall to the ground or cry for their parents, that I was unconcerned with their plight.

It wasn't until I joined the military at 16 that I learned just how hard suppressing my erratic emotions could truly become, for both me and those around me.

I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide

Throughout training, my superiors noticed my proficiency with hands to hand combat, and so they decided one day to watch a training session that I was involved in personally. Needless to say, I was so nervous that they figured out I had powers fairly quickly.

They ordered that I keep my powers a secret even to my future squad, for everyone's sake. If I were to be captured by Russian forces, the Marines didn't want my secret coming to light, and thereby endangering those around me ten-fold.

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

Unfortunately, my powers were revealed in the first battle that I was ever in; the Siege of Shanghai. We were being beaten back, but we resisted every step of the way, giving no ground unless it was ripped away from us.

Just when it seemed we would all be killed, I lost control. I don't remember what happened after I decided to use my powers, and all that anyone would ever tell me was that it was as if they had a dragon fighting on their side.

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Eventually we met up with forces from the opposing side that had defected from the empire that their nation was creating, and one of those men were placed in my squad. His name was Casimir.

At first I was untrusting of the man, but who could blame me? After he saved our lives at the cost of the vision in his right eye, I knew that I could trust him. He was no longer the enemy... He never was in the first place.

At the curtain's call
It's the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

After the war, my squad and I were dumped onto the streets on what used to be New York city until a missile attack leveled half of the city. It had a new name now to go with the buildings that rose with an eerie yellow light. Neon City.

We knew we wouldn't survive long without a place to sleep and after a decent amount of searching, I found a job... Once again thanks to my curse, my powers.

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you've made

I met Bridget 3 years later, and after days of convincing myself that maybe, just maybe, I was a different person than the boy who joined the Marines 4 years prior. I showed her my powers, and she immediately agreed to go out with me.

The relationship lasted for a year surprisingly enough. I still should have known that it was much too good to last.

Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth

I never knew, but it had turned out that was cheating on me from day one. Literally going on a date the moment after our first date had ended. I only learned of this on the last day of our relationship.

She announced in the middle of the club I worked at that she was dumping me, in front of my squad and all of the people I considered friends... All 5 of them if you include my squad.

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

I met an angel that night. She may have looked far from dignified in her torn dress or mud covered hair. I saw through that though, I saw my angel in those eyes. Look into my eyes my angel and tell me, what did I do to deserve you?

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

I'm no more than a demon; a dragon, who is proficient at no more than pain and suffering. So why is it when I feel you in my arms, all of my strength melts away like water?

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

You showed me that life was worth living once more... That I wasn't just some weapon to be used... That everything that my parents, superiors, exes, and the rest of the world said was wrong, at least in your eyes. That's more than enough for me...

Why are your lips on mine so comforting? I'll probably never know the answer to that... I do know one thing though; I love you...

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

I'll never be free of my past, of the things that I've done to stay alive. I'm not proud of it; I never will be, but I know that at least now, with you by my side, that I'll be able to repair what I've broken. To show people that there is truly more to me than a killing machine.

Elsa, I know I'm a fool at times, that you'd probably find better husband material in any of those prince's that visited you back in Arendelle... But you can be absolutely sure that I'll never take advantage of your love...

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide.

I'd die for you my angel... I'd show the world... That a demon can love an angel...