My Name Chapter 10: Northern Light

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Hey everybody! So um… I'm in London right now so writing is going to be faster… But updates will be slower… :p (Sowwy) I'll be back on the 21st so don't worry! On with the chapter!

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Hope. I gave you that name because that's what you are to me; the one shred of hope left in this unfair and brutal world, and I thank God that I had the opportunity to be your mother.

When I'm gone

Like the northern light

I'll shine down on you

I will keep my magic sparkle brighter

And higher for you

You were conceived by the first man I had ever had relations with, Andrew Consara, when we were both only 16 years old. He was being shipped off to fight in the third world war, and I couldn't bear the thought of losing every aspect of him. So I stopped taking birth control, and 9 months later I had you.

I can see sadness in your eyes

Remember our love will never die

To watch your future from afar

Will surely leave me scarred

You were everything I wanted in a son; sweet, kind, selfless, you listened to every word I said and followed my instructions to the letter. You were the perfect child, and I'll never forget you, wherever I'm going.

But I have to face my demons

I have to realize

That I cannot be with you anymore

But it's alright, yeah it's alright

Yeah it's alright, you just gotta be strong

The first few years were hard, I'll admit. Every day was a fight to survive after my parents kicked us out, saying that I was an ungrateful daughter for having a child at such an early age. I don't regret having you; I never did.

Eventually I began to hold down various odd jobs around the city, which funded a small apartment for us to stay in. It wasn't much compared to what I was used to growing up, but I was fine with that, because it meant I had you in my life, and I was perfectly content with the rest of the entire world ignoring me and branding me as an outcast, as long as I had you Hope.

Cause when I'm gone

Like the northern light

I'll shine down on you

I will keep my magic sparkle brighter

And higher for you

One day though, our lives changed once again. I came home one day to find the baby sitter cowering behind our couch, screaming about how diablo himself had found his way into our home. When I called out to you, you came toddling in as you played with a small ball of fire in your bare hands. You had inherited your fathers powers; you could use fire as easily as one speaks.

I paid the baby sitter 3 times her usual fare to be silent and packed our things the same night. We moved to a small farming community that was more accepting of your powers. They hadn't ever seen anything like it before, but they weren't about to complain; after all you, being the little angel that you are, helped them with anything that they required.

We were happy for the next few years. You grew and I learned how to be a seamstress in order to help the old woman who rented us out our little log cabin house pay all of her bills.

I know it might seem unfair

That tomorrow's not ours to share

But let me guide you when your lost

I'm so much more than shadow and dust

But I have to face my demons

I have to realize

Then one day your father, who I had assumed was dead, called out of the blue asking if he and his friends could come and visit!

Now don't misunderstand me, I want you to know that despite your father and I splitting apart when he went to war, he is far from a bad person; in fact he is one of the kindest I have ever met, despite his past. I know that he'll raise you to be the best you can possibly be.

That I cannot be with you anymore

But it's alright, yeah it's alright

Yeah it's alright, you just gotta be strong

The same day that he came to visit men attacked our town. They were searching for something; for what I do not know. What I do know was that it was the day I witnessed you becoming a man at only 4 years old; standing up to four armed attackers like they were no more than insects.

Ooohhh, when I'm gone

I saw Andrew save you, and it made me realize that he had become a man who truly cares for those around him, just as he will teach you to be; my Hope...

As I lay here dying in a pool of my own blood I revel in the knowledge that Andrew will raise you as best he can, and that he will always protect you, from anything that comes your way.

When I'm gone

Like the northern light

I'll shine down on you

I will keep my magic sparkle brighter

And higher for you

I'm proud of you... I love you my little angel of Hope...

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Alright… Well I really don't have anything to say except that I will see you next time my minons!