Hey everyone! Thanks for the reviews and follows. Sorry I took so long to update... Things have just been going on. Sorry! :p So I put in some uhm "good" time between Hanna and Emily.. Sorry I suck at writing sexual scenes x_x BUUUT there is some.. For how long though? ;) Hope you enjoy this chapter, don't forget to leave a review. PM me on here, DM me on Twitter, or send me a message on Tumblr on what you want to have happen in future chapters. Your opinions make the story! I tried to write in what some requested so, ENJOY! ~ShayMitchCanada
Hanna's POV
The second we got home I pounced on Emily. I so desperately wanted to do to her exactly what she did to me this morning. The first thing I did was attach my lips to her neck, based off out texts today I knew how bad she wanted to feel my lips on hers, and I wasn't going to be so quick to give her that. I snaked my hand up her shirt roughly massaging her breast over her bra, I wished I could go under it to feel her warm, soft skin. I leaned in going right for her neck sucking on it in different places trying to find her sweet spot, the second I heard a moan escape her mouth I took her hand dragging her up to our room. I had her body pressed against the closed door, my hand grazed against her soft skin pulling her shirt over her head. I was shocked in all honesty, I had thought she wanted to wait until our one month anniversary.
"Damn Em, you're beautiful," I said before giving her a slow, gentle, passionate kiss. I moved my hands up to the straps of her bra, instantly she tensed up, my brows furrowed at her action. She had continued kissing me back, sending me mixed signals whether or not to go further. Trusting my instincts, I slowly let my hand trail above her waistband, without hesitation I slipped my hand down, before I got to my destination she pulled back.
"No, Han we can't do this." She said sternly.
"Babe I thought this is what you wanted," I replied pulling her body back into mine, shoving my hands down her pants, just as I was about to place my lips on hers she pushed me away.
"Hanna, stop. Keep your hands off me"
My heart felt like it had just been shattered into a million pieces there was no reaction to any of this, the girl I loved just walk out on me just as we were about to take the next step. Where did she go? What did I do? Why did she just leave me like that? Does Emily not love me? I was beyond hurt, Emily had been the one to fully make me love and trust someone again, and that… just hurt. After some time I ended up calling her and texting her, it was starting to get dark and all I really wanted to know is if she was safe, she didn't have to come.. but I needed to know if she's okay. Call after call and text after text, there was no answer and no reply. I sat in my bedroom, in tears, with emptiness consuming me. I was constantly replaying everything that happened. How could this day start with me waking up with the love of my life beside me to going to bed alone.
There was a light knock on the bedroom door, my heart was racing, hoping it was always. To my dismay, it was my mother. "Hanna honey are you okay?"
"Yeah mom, I'm fine," I said giving her a weak smile.
"If you're fine why do you have tears in your eyes? And where is Emily?"
Hearing Emily's name hurt a lot more than I had anticipated. "Sh- She's gone," I couldn't hold back I starting bawling my eyes out as my mom held me.
"Did you guys break up?"
"No, I don't know. She just walked out an- and I've been trying to ca-call her but she won't answer," I was broken, even if it was probably my fault she left. "Please mom, just don't ask why she left." Knowing my mom she was curious.
"Shh, it's okay Hanna, she'll show up when she's ready. She may just need her space right now. Get some rest now, you'll see her at school tomorrow Goodnight."
"I hope so, goodnight mom." After what felt like forever I drifted into a slumber.
Emily's POV
Walking out of the house I didn't have any plans, I didn't know where I was going but I needed space away from Hanna. Everything that just happened in there felt all too familiar, the only difference was it was with a person I love, the thing was that I didn't want it to happen like that, Hanna seemed a bit too aggressive… Ever since last year I couldn't go through that again. I had finally made a decision to go right to Aria's house. Her parents were always welcoming. As I pulled up to the driveway I noticed Spencer's car was also there, I walked up to the door and rang the bell.
"WOO LOOK WHO IT IS IT'S EMILY," Aria called up to Spencer when she swung the door open, I lifted my head meeting her eyes. Immediately a worried look washed over her face, "Em, come in, what's wrong? Where's Hanna?"
"She's.. at home.."
"What, why?"
"It's a lot to explain, can we just go upstairs. I'd rather talk to you and Spencer at the same time instead of explaining twice."
"Yeah sure, let's go." i followed Aria up the stairs, walking into her bedroom.
"Hey Em!" Spencer said loudly, after a few seconds she looked at me again "wait…. What's wrong and where's Hanna?"
"I asked the same thing," Aria said.
"She's at home," I said again for the second time.
"Why? Are you two okay?"
"That's what I came here to talk about…"
"Please don't tell me you guys broke up," Spencer said giving me a sad look.
"No, we didn't.. well at least I don't think we did.. I kind of just walked out on her in the middle of something…"
"Wait, like…." Aria started off.
"No, not that. But something close to that. It just all felt too familiar."
"Woah Em… Start talking, we need details." Spencer said.
"Remember what happened with Ben last year?"
"Did Hanna try to rape you?!" Spencer yelled out.
"Spence… You wanna let her finish before you jump to conclusions?"
"Sorry… continue Em."
"In all honesty it felt like Ben on me not Hanna, she was just so forceful even when I said to stop, I think I just need some time away from her which is difficult since I live with her… I still can't believe she did that especially when I told her no…"
"Did she hurt you?" Spencer asked.
"No, the one thing that hurt me is that she continued.."
"She said she would never hurt you either.." Spencer said irritated.
"Spencer, Hanna doesn't know Emily almost got raped last year, I'm not okay with her trying to get in your pants that way Em, but don't you think she kind of deserves an explanation too?"
"Yeah, but don't you think me telling her to stop would have sent a clear message that I didn't want to go there? I need a couple days to breathe .. and think about this."
"Well, you're welcome to stay here."
"Thank you Aria."
A whole week had gone by… A WEEK! I had constantly been getting calls and texts from Emily, I would see her in English class but she wouldn't really try to talk to me, any time she'd come over Spencer would get in the way and simply tell her I don't want to speak with her, truth is though I did want to speak with her but I was still hurt and I could clearly tell she was too.
Hanna's POV
Sitting through English class was agonizing. It was so hard not talk to the girls, but it was especially hard not talking to Emily. I was glad that she was okay, but I still hadn't known where she was staying, every time I would try to talk to her Spencer would get defensive.
Come to my house after school, Emily has been staying here for the past week and Spencer won't be there. I'm tired of you guys not talking. We're supposed to be best friends. -Aria
I read the text feeling happy, I just hope Emily doesn't reject me even when I show up.
Okay, thank you Aria -Hanna
Just as I sent the text the bell had gone, I headed home first just to kill some time before getting to Aria's, I walked up and rang the doorbell.
"Hey Han," Aria said. "Can we talk just before I let you go to Emily?"
"Yeah," I replied.
"Spencer and I know what you almost did.. Next time if Emily tells you to stop just stop.. I know you both want each other, and you wanted her a lot more in that moment but she went through something last year, let her explain that to you. Please just make up so we can all be okay again, I've missed you and Emily's missed you. Surprisingly Spencer has too even though she's been a bit hostile to you.. Anyways just talk to Emily and take her home because since she's been here all she's talked about is you."
"I've missed you guys too and I know I screwed up but her leaving me like that kind of hurt me too…"
"I know it did, your face made it very clear this whole week. Now go! Make up! I'll be down here so you guys can have your privacy."
I headed up the stairs to Aria's room, walking up each step my heart began to race, to be fully honest I was scared to see Emily because I know I hurt her, I'm not sure why her reaction was so bad but hopefully I find out after today… this has gone on far too long. When I got to Aria's bedroom door I pushed it open gently hoping not to startle Emily.
"Hanna?!" she said confused, "wha-what are you doing here?"
"Something that I should have done right after you walked out. Emily you're my girlfriend, the love of my life. A week without you hurt like a bitch, but what hurt more was you walking out. I'm sorry I forced myself on you….. I just thought you.. you know.."
"Loved you?"
"Yeah," I said looking down.
"Don't look away.. I do love you, don't get me wrong, it's just what you did triggered a memory.."
"Woah, wait, what!?" I said loudly as I moved across the room to sit beside her. "Would you tell me what happened?" I asked in a softer tone.
She sighed heavily before starting, "it was last year, with my ex Ben. I was changing after swim practice and he tried to… rape me. Thankfully Spencer's boyfriend came in and kinda beat him up.."
"Does he still go to Rosewood High?! I swear to god if he does!"
"Hanna, relax.. please," Emily said trying to ease my tense nerves.
"I'm sorry I just.. Why didn't you tell me? I would have backed off… A lot."
"Well, it's in the past and I didn't expect you to do that, we said after a month not two weeks in."
"I'm sorry.. it's just that…" I started to say before I sobbing.
"Just what?" Emily asked with concern filling her voice."
"This definitely isn't an excuse but, I just love you so much, although I hate to admit this I feel like making love to you is the only to have you stay with me forever… Right?"
"Wrong. We're in love, that's not going to change any time soon."
Emily's POV
Hearing Hanna come in and say that to me broke my heart, sure what she did gave me an instant flashback of Ben, but that's in the past. It doesn't matter. Right now what mattered is why Hanna thinks having sex is the only way to keep me around. After I told her that she and I were in love she didn't reply. Regret filled her eyes. Not knowing what else to do I leaned in connecting our lips, this was a kiss fuelled by love, passion and regret. After a couple of minutes she pulled away.
"Why did you leave me and not come back for a whole week?" This time Hanna's eyes were filled with something I wish I would never see again, pain. I knew Hanna's biggest fear was having anyone walk out of her life.
"I'm sorry, I just needed a bit of space. Can we both just forget that we hurt each other and just work through it?:
"I wouldn't have it any other way," she said kissing me softly. "You know falling asleep without your arms wrapped around me is hard.."
"I know, I can tell," I said while tracing the bags under her eyes, "how about we go home, cuddle and you can get some rest?"
"Sounds perfect."
We walked downstairs, gripping on to each other's hands.
"So I see you two have made up,"Aria said smiling.
"Yep we did, thanks for letting me crash here for the week and also texting Hanna to come and make up with me today. We're gonna head home now."
"Really Em, it's not problem. Same goes for you Hanna! Ever need a place to crash, I'm here. Bye guys!"
As soon as we got home we kicked our shoes off and headed upstairs into our room, and right to the bed. I pulled a soft, warm blanket over us and wrapped my arms around Hanna. From there on, I knew I never wanted to sleep if she wasn't there with me.