Hanna's POV

"Dad?!" I said completely shocked at the sight before my eyes. I had a million questions running through my mind right now but only one seemed appropriate to come out. "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I came to make things right."

"Make things right?! You haven't been there for me for 9 years, what makes you think showing up now is suddenly going to make things right again?" I said with anger raising more and more in my voice.

"Hanna, I know you're still angry but I regret leaving." Even when he tried to sound sincere I saw right through it.

"You regret it? You should have thought about that a while ago. Now leave…"

"Hanna wait there's something you need to know!" He said as I closed the door on him. Who did he think he was showing up like that after so long? I went back up to my room even more frustrated than before, all I need right now is for Emily to come home. Things seem to be better when she's here, even though I was still slightly insecure about this Alison girl. I tried keep myself busy, taking my mind off things but they always seemed to go back to what my mom was hiding and why my 'dad' came back to Rosewood. Suddenly I heard the door open, I ran down into the arms of my girlfriend, who's hair was still dripping wet from swim practice.

"Hey, did you miss me?" She asked flashing a smile.

"You have no idea," I said pressing my lips to hers. I pulled away looking down feeling this dreadful feeling come over me. "Han?" Emily says placing her hands under chin, tilting my head up. She watched me intently as if trying to study to look on my face. "What's wrong?"

"N-nothing.. everything is fine I promise," I felt a the lump in my throat grow 3 times it's size, I just wanted to break down right there & then, but I knew I had to be stronger than that. Turning away from Emily I walked over to the kitchen taking a seat on the leather covered chair, putting my head in my hands. "Hanna, are you sure it's nothing.. Come on, talk to me. What happened from lunch till now? Did someone say something to you or do something?"

"I really don't want to talk about it, there's too much. I know you're just trying to be there for me but right now can we just go upstairs & can you just hold me?"

"Of course, just warning you though. I smell like chlorine."

"I really don't care right now.."

"Okay, let's go." She said quietly leading me up the stairs, carefully she pulled me down onto the bed as if I was about to crack with one wrong movement or too much force. I snuggled in closer to Emily, I felt her arm snake around my waist pulling me impossibly closer. Her other hand gently played with my hair, wrapping the curls around her finger. Moments passed as I started to feel relaxed as if nothing had ever happened, my breathing started to even out while my eyes felt heavy, slowly I closed them falling into a light slumber.

I woke up later still in Emily's arms looking up I saw that she too had fell asleep. I truly felt like i had the best girlfriend in the world, even after a long, tiring day she still worried about what was going on with me, Emily had always been the one to put me before herself. I began to move out of her arms, careful not to wake her up, but the second I shifted the slightest, her eyes opened up.

"Hey, how are you doing?" She asked in a tired voice.

"Fine.. Just like I said before."

"You did say that.. Also I remember you saying that there's too much. So there is something Hanna just tell me… Is this about you finding out about Alison?" Right after she asked that I looked away, trying to hide my face so she couldn't see.

"Don't hate me when I say this but yeah.. It is.." I said while giving her a convincing look that this was the only thing that was off about my mood. I let out a sign before continuing on. "I just can't stand the fact that you loved her, she was the girl that you fell for first.. Not me.. It just makes me feel… Insecure, like what if she comes back & you fall back in love with her. What if you leave me…"

She looked down giving me a sad look before saying, "Hanna, that's never going to happen. Don't, for a second think that I'm ever going to leave you. Plus she's been missing for over a year now, I highly doubt she's coming back, even if she does that shouldn't even cross your mind that I would leave her for you.. Hanna, I love you & only you.." She said sincerely, placing a chaste kiss on my lips.

"I know, I love you too, I just can't shake the feeling. She was your first love, & first loves aren't easy to get over."

"You're right, they're not. The things Ali did to me while she was here, I remembered after she went missing. They made getting over her a lot easier."

"What do you mean? What did Ali do to you?" I asked while playing with Emily's fingers trying my best to not get jealous of the situation.

"She knew I loved her, so she used it to her advantage. She let me kiss her once, it was the best thing that ever happened to me & the worst," I could hear Emily's voice cracking as she continued talking about the past moments she had with Alison, "later that same day in the locker room I made the move on her only to tell me that when we kiss -it's just practice-, there's always some part of me that thought she had some feelings for me too, but with Alison you could never know what she was really feeling inside. She had her moments where she was this amazing person, then other times when she was the biggest bitch…. I don't know what else to tell you about her."

"I'm really not sure I wanted to hear that… Can I just ask, when did you get over her completely?"

Emily looked away trying to avoid any sort of eye contact with me, "when I met you…"

I let out a loud sigh to her confession, "I kind of wish you had gotten over her before you met me but as long as you say you are, I believe you."

I got up out of Emily's arms to sit directly across from her on the bed, I must have had an inconsolable look on my face still for her to continue with asking me. "Now tell me, what else is wrong?"

"What are you talking about, I just told you & we just talked about it…" I said letting out a soft chuckle, pushing the hair that had fallen in front of my face back.

"No, Hanna. You know exactly what I'm talking about. This morning.. when you said you thought your mom was hiding something from you… Is that what else is bothering you?"

"That & uhm…" As I started talking my eyes began to water, I felt Emily's soft hand reach up gently grabbing my cheek allowing our eyes to meet. When I was with her I felt safe. "My dad…. He came back today—"

"Wait, hold on, what?!" She asked completely startled & angered by the thought.

"Yeah.. He came by while you were at swim practice, it was so weird, like he hasn't been in my life for so many years but he feels like he can return one day & magically think things are all better now… I don't even care for what he has to say. I don't want him anywhere near me ever again!"

"Okay okay. That's understandable, but don't you think you should at least give him a chance?"

"NO! Why should I after what he did? Why are you picking his side on this?" I said while getting up setting a distance between Emily & I.

"Because he's your father who's trying to fix the mistake he made, I know what he did to you was bad but at least be happy he's making an effort to be a part of your life."

"Okay just because you don't have a dad right now who's not trying to make an effort to be in your life doesn't I should be happy because I have one that wants to make it right. You don't even understand what it's like, Emily. You have no idea!" I yelled out, as I ran out the house with tears running down my face.

"Hanna wait!" Emily called from the front door.

"No, Emily just leave me alone!"

Emily's POV

I ran down the stairs chasing after Hanna, stopping by the doorway calling for her to wait only to tell me to leave her alone. I had two choices, either to give her the space she needed or to just go after her, the best thing for me to give Hanna right now was her space, she needed to clear her mind. I went back upstairs, laying down on the bed trying to figure out why she lashed out at me when I was only trying to comfort her… Hours passed, Hanna still hadn't come home, I reached for my phone on the night table, searching through my text message threads until I found Hanna.

Hanna, can you please come home? It's starting to get dark & I'm worried about you! -E

I waited a few moments before texting & calling her, over & over. Thinking back I had a feeling of her whereabouts… Hanna would only go to two places when she wants to be alone, either at the mall for some retail therapy or, Wrights Playground. I quickly checked the time realizing the mall would be closed by now. I grabbed my keys, hopped in my car, driving over to the playground. As I was pulling up I noticed a blonde sitting on the swings. "There she is," I whispered to myself. I stepped out into the darkness of the night that was lit with pale moonlight & one street lamp. Hearing nothing but the sound of wood chips beneath my feet & the swing Hanna was sitting on, creaking.

"Hanna…" I said quietly, placing my hand on her back, "please, don't send me away. I just want to talk…" I sat down on the swing next to her, looking at her face. It was the most heartbreaking thing ever. How long had she been here crying?

"There's nothing to talk about," she said with her voice breaking for each word she spoke. I reached over intertwining our fingers together, this time she didn't push me away, she held on tighter as my thumb gently rubbed the back of her hand. "I-I'm sorry Emily, I didn't mean it…. I didn't mean it when I said you have no idea… I shouldn't have even said that. I'm surprised you even came to look for me," by now there were a rain of tears rushing down her face. I got up from the swing pulling her up with me, engulfing her in a hug as she cried into the crook of my neck. Her whole body was shaking as I held her.

"Shh, Hanna. It's okay, I'm not mad at you for what you said. Please stop crying…" In all honesty I was sort of wounded by what Hanna said, but she was clearly in pain. People lash out when they're hurt, I couldn't blame her. "Come on, lets go in the car & talk, it's getting chilly out here," she shook her head, walking back with me. Once we were in I grabbed a pack of tissues from the glove compartment to wipe away her tears. Before asking her to talk again I let her breathing even out, as she became steady I asked her again. "I know I keep asking you over & over what's wrong but I'm only doing this because I care, & I know there's something else.."

"Well, I told you about my mom this morning, then Alison, now my dad. I don't know why they're all bothering me so much. My mom constantly leaving & for once when she comes back she's sporting this whole new secret that I can't even know. It only leaves me to believe worse. Alison on the other hand, I know we talked about her already but there's just some part that I can't let go of, even if you are over her & in love with me. Finally seeing my dad, it hurt a lot more than I thought. You're right when you said I should give him a chance, I will… Eventually but not anytime soon."

"Okay, starting with Ali… I don't know what else I can do to show you that I'm over her—"

"I have a few ideas…" Hanna said smirking at me.

"Amazing! Even when you're upset you still think like that, & I might just take you up on that offer… Anyways, before we become that couple that do each other in the car I still need to tell you. I know seeing your dad hurt, but I'm going to be right by your side through everything if he comes back. As for your mom, I believe she is home by now. Let's go home & you two can talk," I said starting the car.

"Wait but what about car sex first?"

"Hanna." I said sternly causing her to throw her arms up in defeat. The drive home was short & quiet, it was nice to see Hanna smile after so many tears even if her smile would fade when we get home. Just as I suspected Ashley was home, we walked inside noticing her sitting on a stool along the kitchen island, drinking.

"Oh, hello girls. I didn't know you two would be out."

"Yeah, it wasn't exactly… Planned." I said looking over at Hanna who didn't seem so pleased at this moment.

There was a long awkward pause before Ashley spoke up. "Hanna, I think we need to talk…"

"Well! I'm going to leave you two, & go shower since I still smell like chlorine, so if you'll excuse me…" I said turning away, walking down the hallway to the stairs.

Hanna's POV

"You wanted to talk, so talk." I said to my mom, which came out mildly rude.

"Look, I know you're upset about this morning. I know we have our no more secrets value, but it's not that simple. I don't even know where to start…"

"Here's a thought… The beginning or maybe, what happened on your last business trip," I said with a taint of anger in my voice.

"I want to tell you but there's this fear that you won't forgive me for it." She said looking down at her feet.

"Mom, what ever it is you know you can tell me." Seconds past by we heard water running from the taps upstairs indicating that Emily had gone into the shower. "Are you going to start talking or what?"

"Yes, just give me a moment to think about how to word this… Uhm, your father—" As soon as she said that I rolled my eyes.

"He came back today you know.."

"Yeah I know." My mom admitted sounding guilty. "There's really no easy way to say this but, your father is actually the one I've been seeing when I leave out of town…"

"Wait wait wait.. You mean all these 'business trips' you've been taking? Hold on. So you're saying you left me while I was in the hospital signing off on my papers & just left for dad? I'm sorry but have you forgotten how long he's been gone for? Have you forgotten what I went through weeks after he left? Do you just have a bad memory or what?"

"Hanna, I'm trying to do what's best for you by bringing him back into your life. You need a dad." My mother said sounding sincere.

"Is that what you're telling yourself, that this is what's best for me?" After I said that I turned around heading up the stairs.

"Hanna wait!" My mom called after me.

"Why wait? This is not what is good for me, I don't care if you love him or not. You two are worse than Emily's parents." I trudged upstairs walking into my bedroom, slamming the door. Knowing my words hurt my mom just as bad as her words hurt me. Anger filled within, I couldn't even look at my mom the same way anymore, after everything we both went through, after he left how can she be so easy to forgive. After what seemed like forever, Emily finally walked in.

"What was all that about, all I could hear was yelling, stomping & slamming," Emily said counting each action on her fingers, while giving me a look filled with concern.

"It's nothing. We'll talk in the morning." I replied to her dryly. Not bothering to argue with me, Emily just climbed into bed with me, turning the lights off, I had my back to her, feeling her hand snake across my waist pulling me closer, she could easily tell by now that I was crying, the more I shook, the closer she held me.

"Whatever just happened, I'm here for you okay? Please Hanna, stop crying. I love you so much," she said quietly before leaning over pressing a kiss to my cheek with my body still pressed to her own.

Hello! I know.. It's been a while so I gave you guys a somewhat longer chapter than usual, this one was about 3,000 words not counting the A/N. Back to HanilyAlwaysOn, I did say your suggestion would be in this chapter but NEXT ONE! I can guarantee you that because I've already started writing it. So I guess you ALL should expect a hurting/jealous Hanna in the future chapters. Maybe, just maybe, sex with Emily will be her coping mechanism, since she doesn't like talking about her problems that much. ;) Hope you enjoyed this chapter, don't forget to review. If you're not following this story.. That button is very sexy, tap that. Okay me and my bad jokes are going now.. BYE! (Review, review, review) ~ShayMitchCanada xo