Hanna's POV

Days passed by, I continued to avoid my mom, especially when I would see her in the kitchen with my dad, it just made me sick to my stomach, but instead of being hurt by it I just let it slide. By letting it slide that just made me feel like I had to build my walls up even higher. Letting no one in.

Emily & I had been up in our room getting ready for school together as we usually do. Normally we would blast music & have a good time but Emily quickly turned things into a pensive conversation. "Hanna, I'm seriously worried about you. Lately you've even been shutting me out, well except for the times when we have sex, but even there you're shutting me out by not even letting me reciprocate."

"Em, you're too cute you know," I said pulling her body into mine, our faces were inches away from another. "You really have nothing to worry about, & the only reason I don't let you reciprocate is because I love hearing you scream my name, & after I hear that come across your lips I really don't want to hear anything else." I said, closing the gap between us, as I pulled away she bit down on my lower lip. That alone was enough to make me crave her.

"Babe, you know that makes me go crazy for you," I said after she released my lip, there was still a little space left between us, which I quickly close hungrily capturing her mouth with my own.

"I know… that's… why I do it," she said between kisses, as it became more & more heated. Soon after I found myself pushing Emily onto the bed, pinning her hands above her head as I roughly moved my lips to her neck, altering between, biting, kissing, & sucking exactly where she loves it most. I could honestly say I love the feeling of being on top of Emily, when I had her hands pinned down. I love grinding my hips slowly into her, watching as she became increasingly aroused. I love peppering kisses all over her body as she squirms beneath me & begins breathing heavily with slight moans. It's sexy.

I continued grinding on her knowing the friction was having an affect on her. "Oh, my god. Keep going!" She said in a raspy-out-of-breath voice. When I heard her breathing begin to pick up I knew she was close, in that moment I probably would have stopped just to be a tease, but the sounds she was making kept me going, just before she was about to let it all out I forcefully kissed her, muffling the sound.

"Holy shit. I love it when you are rough like that, most likely one of the best orgasms you've ever given me," she said causing me to smirk triumphantly as I got off her.

"Hmm, & I did all of that without moving a single piece of clothing off. Now, before school starts I think we both need to change out underwear…"

Quickly I reached into my drawer pulling out a fresh pair to go change as Emily did the same. The two of us rushed downstairs, realizing we had less time than anticipated. The drive to school was fairly upbeat except for the times Emily tried to get me to talk. I mean, I'm the one giving her more sex, why complain about that?

Emily's POV

All I wanted to do was talk to Hanna about what's been going on, but every time I would try to bring it up, she either changes the topic or my mood, there was no in-between, There was also no way I would deny sex, especially when it seemed to bring us closer intimately but lately all I feel like after is Hanna's toy, not her girlfriend. In more ways than one I was hurt. — We pulled up at the school, this time Hanna didn't even park she just stopped at the front as if she was dropping me off.

"Well… Have a good day babe. I'll be at your swim meet later, okay?" She said kissing me.

"Uhh, okay but where are you going? We have school you know," I said getting mildly frustrated with her current actions.

"I know, but like I said. I'll see you later. I have some things to do."

"Okay whatever," I said, stepping out of the car, before I could say anything else Hanna had already sped off.

"What was that all about?" I hear Spencer asked as she & Aria were walking towards me.

"Just Hanna feeling the need to shut me out of her life —" As I was about the continue the school bell rang indicating we had five minutes to get to class.

"So we have two choices either go to class or skip."

"Is Spencer Hastings suggesting that we skip class?" Aria said fake gasping.

"Yes, because one of Spencer's best friend is sad because Spencer's other best friend is seemingly toying with her," she said speaking in third person.

"Where to? The Brew?" Aria asked still laughing at Spencer. The two of us just nodded in agreement. When we arrived there we got our usual drinks & headed to the back of the coffee shop on the couches.

"So what else is going on exactly aside from the fact that there's some tension between you two?" Spencer asked.

"It's really a lot to explain guys…"

"Well if you start it will get shorter," Aria said sarcastically pointing out the obvious, before taking a sip of her coffee.

"Jheez, thanks Aria. Everything there is to know is more about Hanna,"

"But it's obviously affecting you Emily," Spencer said giving me a sympathetic look.

I sighed, taking a deep breath, "I'm not sure if Hanna ever told you this but, her dad hasn't been in her life for years & he returned just last week. Of course she completely shut him out, later that same day she & her mom finally talked—"

"Ouu! Talked about what?!" Aria asked cutting me off a bit too excited.

"Ar, if you let her get there instead of cutting her off you would know…" Spencer said.

I chuckled softly at the two of them, "anyways!" I said going back realizing there was a part I left out. "Her mom had been completely different when she came back home the day after our anniversary. Like she was holding back this huge burden, so of course Hanna asked her about it, & when they finally talked Ashley told her what it was.."

"What was it!?"

"Aria!" Spencer & I both yelled out her name because of her second interruption.

"Do I need to take your coffee away from you? How many shots of espresso did you get?!" Spencer asked, Aria just shook her head and held up 3 fingers. They both directed their attention back to me, "continue Emily."

"Ashley told her that she'd known about Tom coming back, & that he had been the one she was seeing while out on 'business trips'"

"Well, no wonder Hanna is hurt-"

"Spencer. I'm not done."

"Sorry." She said.

"It's okay, you are right about that being the reason she's hurting but I can't help but feel that the other reason is because she knows about Alison now so she feels the need to be more… Dominant & in control…"

The two girls furrowed their eyebrows at me. "By that you mean….." Aria asked trailing off on the last word.

"I mean that Hanna's been using sex as a way to cope… Sure it's amazing & I'm not gonna complain but I can't help but feel so used after, like that's how I feel right now."

"You guys had sex this morning?"

"Well, kind of ish. Every single time I bring up the topic of something being wrong she changes it or uses sex to distract me…"

"I feel like you have no self-control either," Spencer said giving me a look.

"Ha. Ha. So funny, but come on you've seen Hanna, how can you deny that?"

"Okay well, it's totally understandable that Hanna is covering her emotions with sexual activities. She doesn't really have much control of things in her life right now so she goes to you, I'm not necessarily saying she's using you, but from her point of view she's seeing that there's still something she has a hold on. By making you… you know what it gives her a sense of empowerment & for a short period of time it probably makes her happy. Although I'm not too thrilled about the idea of her coping mechanism, the only way to wake her up & make her see she can't hide behind sex is to stop giving into her. Simple."

"Should I just call you therapist Hastings?" I said causing her to put on a huge grin. "It's not that simple though because I don't want to see her hurting, & like I said. You've seen Hanna. How can you not?"

"Em, if you continue letting her go down this path it's just going to cause her to build up more anger & sadness. In the end she'll be more hurt than ever if you don't stop now. Trust me, you're most likely going to be hurt too." Aria said, providing a reasonable explanation.

"I guess you guys are right… It's just heartbreaking to see her like this. I love her so much, it makes my heartache that she can't even open up to me."

"Give her some time, she'll come around eventually. Hey, is she coming to your meet later? It's kind of an important one for you." Spencer said.

"Yeah, she said she'd be there. You two going to talk to her?"

"No… If we did then she'd know you spilled about her secrets," Aria said.

"She's your best friend too though."

"True. But she's your girlfriend."

For the rest of the day the three of us didn't even bother going back to school, by time we were finished talking & drinking our coffees it had been lunch at school. Neither of us had overly important classes that would kill us if we missed it, so we just stayed at The Brew until I had to leave for my swim meet.

Hanna's POV

I literally had no plans for the day, I just didn't want to be around Emily or the girls believe it or not. Although I would eventually have to face them at Emily's swim meet. Throughout the day I just spent it alone at the bar getting drinks with my fake ID, all I really wanted to do was drown away my thoughts even more. Thankfully by time I had to leave to go to Rosewood High I mildly sobered up enough to drive & act normal around the girls. I walked in getting a strong whiff of chlorine, I looked over at the pool seeing that the meet had already started, just to my luck I saw Emily doing her pre-meet ritual, she had the most time to prep since she was swimming anchor. Scanning over the crown I noticed Spencer & Aria.

"Hey guys! Sorry I'm late." I said attempting to sound really happy.

"Hey Han!" The two said in unison.

"So where did you go today?" Spencer asked.

"Just to the mall," I lied.

"That couldn't have waited until after school?"

"Nope, it's shopping. I do it no matter what time of day it is." I said as if stating the obvious. "Go Emily!" I said cheering from the stands.

"She's not even swimming yet," Aria said, causing me to glare at her.

"Well, she is swimming in less than a minute. Looking back to the pool I spotted Emily taking her track suit off showing herself in a Rosewood Sharks swimsuit. I couldn't help but let my eyes wander over her toned body, she stepped up on to the board preparing to jump in, I watched as she did a freestyle stroke gliding across the water to one end, flipping forward, & kicked off back to the start. She was going head to head with a student from Oakwood High, the crowd watched intently, as the two were close to the end Emily began to pick up her speed, granting the Rosewood Sharks first place. The crowd roared with excitement of winning championships.

As Emily got out of the pool she looked over, waving at the three of us. I noticed a certain other brunette had her eyes on Emily. I watched as she grabbed Emily's hand pulling her into a hug that lasted a second too long & a bit too intimate by her hand placement. She continued holding both of Emily's hand, lunging forward pressing a kiss on her forehead.

"Who the hell is that?" I asked Aria & Spencer.

"Paige McCullers. Why?" Spencer answered.

"Do you not see how she's hold Emily's hand, & don't tell me you missed that quick kiss she planted on her forehead. Why is Emily not letting go!?" I asked, yelling a bit about the sight before me.

"Relax Hanna, I don't think Paige is interested in Emily." Aria said trying to reassure me.

"None of her other team mates are holding on to her hand & kissing her! Again… Why isn't Emily letting go?"

"Okay… I think we should go wait in the halls for Emily to come out…" Spencer suggested. The three of us walked out, waiting in the crowded hallway. Soon after Emily had come out with the team, holding up a trophy.

"Hey champ!" Spencer said hugging her, Aria then did the same.

"Hey guys! Hey, Hanna! You came!" She said seeming surprised.

"I did tell you I was going to come didn't I? Now where's my hug?" I said grabbing her, pulling her body into mine. Just as we parted I pulled her back in this time giving her a far too intimate kiss in public.

"Woaahh guys. I think you should save that for alone time…" Aria said causing Spencer & Emily to give her a look.

"Is it okay if I steal Emily away from you guys?" I asked the girls.

"Yeah, go ahead. We spent all day together anyways, & you haven't really seen much of each other. Catch up tomorrow?" Spencer asked.

"Same time, same place. Bye guys!"

Emily & I drove the whole way home as she talked about her whole day with Aria & Spencer, & the feeling of winning the swim meet. When we arrived I double checked making sure my mom wasn't home, the second we got in we kicked our shoes off & I dragged Emily upstairs.

"Hanna, I think we need to talk before we do anything?" Emily said stopping me as I was about to kiss her.

"What would you like to talk about? You & Paige?"

"What do you me me & Paige, nothing happened."

"Let me give you a quick refresh. You got out of the pool, she hugged you, kissed you on the forehand, & held your hand. Is there a reason you didn't let go?"

"We held hands for a bit, that doesn't mean I'm not in love with her nor do I have any form of feelings for her."

"Well that's good to hear, but just in case you do… Let me just remind you why I'm better than her," I said, roughly attaching our lips together, she didn't pull away. Instead she gripped the back of my neck pulling me closer.

"Are you jealous?" Emily asked. Instead of answering I laid her down on the bed, demanding her to strip completely. Much to my liking she did exactly that. I hovered over her now naked body, just as I was about to kiss her she stopped me.

"How is it fair that I'm completely naked & you still have your clothes on?"

"It just is. If you want I can take my shirt off but that's it. You're not getting anything else." I said peeling my t-shirt off, then unhooking my bra.

"Perfect." Emily said just before I kissed her, at first it was slow & passionate then I remembered Emily & Paige causing me to then be rough, showing her who she belongs to. First I lightly massaged her breasts, & began sucking on her neck teasing her in every way possible. Moving my lips back up to her own & kissing her as if it were our last, as she & I continued moving our lips together in sync, I could feel her becoming more aroused as her nipples stiffened beneath my palm. Going down I tortuously shifted everything down, my lips roughly attacked her neck not too fast & not too slow, as my hand began gliding down her body to her now, dripping went core. As my hand began massaging her center, my mouth moved down, capturing her nipple, slowly sucking.

"Hanna… please…" She groaned out as I sped up the movement of my hand.

"Please what, darling?"

"Don't play dumb Marin, you know exactly what. I can't handle it when you alternate between rough & gentle.."

"Mmm, & what should I do about that?" I asked moving my face back to hers, with barely an inch between our lips.

"I need you to go down on me… Your hand isn't enough…"

"Huh.. as you wish…" I moved my hand out of the way & placed my lips moving down her body achingly slow.

"Further…"

I glided, kissing down her chest, & stomach. Stopping right where I knew she needed me. "You mean here?" I asked letting my hot breath make her even more wet.

"Exactly. There." She breathed out heavily

"Who's are you?" I asked inching closer & closer.

"I'm yours, Hanna Marin. All yours."

I smirked before diving in, the moment tongue made contact with Emily, she arched her back. I looked up seeing she was biting her lip in attempt to suppress a moan threatening to escape. She knew herself the second she moans when I go down on her I win. To get her to do what I wanted, I started a rhythm of sucking & licking, without any warning I shoved two fingers inside of her, quickly pumping in & out. As I felt her tighten around my fingers I sped everything up & did everything harder, knowing I would win in less than a minute. Her breathing picked up immensely.

"Oh, my god. Hanna!" She yelled out coming down from her high, I kept my fingers inside letting her ride out the rest of her orgasm. "Fuck. That was amazing!" She said closing her eyes, as she did that I decided to try something new. Normally after she came I would just leave it at that. This time I had a plan, she was more sensitive now, so I placed my tongue right back on to her clit, causing her eyes to spring open. Her hand moved to my head keeping it there as she spread her legs further, moving her hips up & down. With both hands I pinned her waist to the bed not allowing her any additional friction. At this point she moaned with every stroke of my tongue, it only took seconds for her to scream my name for the second time. I felt pretty proud of myself after that.

Emily's POV

"So how was it?" I hear Hanna asked me.

"Amazing, I can't believe you did that when I was still so sensitive. It felt so good."

"Good." She said smiling before getting up & grabbing a robe for me to wrap around my body.

"What happened to cuddling?"

"Oh yeah." She responded dryly as if it were the worst thing in the world.

"You don't have to if you don't want to."

"No no, I do."

"Actually wait, can we talk about the thing I wanted to talk about before we did all that?" I said giving her a pleading look.

"Sure. I guess."

There was a long pause as I was trying to figure out how to put the words I was about to say nicely. "Why are you just using me for sex?" I asked, having those words come out worse than I thought.

"Emily.. I'm not." Hanna said remaining calm at the accusation.

"Really Hanna? So just recently when you have a lot of stuff going on, we start having more sex & you start shutting me out."

"How am I shutting you out?"

"Whenever I want to talk about other things like what's bothering you, you seem to change the topic fairly quickly… Or you just use sex to distract me." I said trying not to raise my voice.

"Well…" She said trailing off.

"Well what, Hanna?!"

"You really shouldn't think that. Just because certain things are going on right now doesn't mean I'm just using you. For example we just did it, & I'm still here talking to you aren't I?" She said trying to reason.

"You leave with nothing but thinking that I'm just being used at some points… Sure the sex is great, whatever. Lately it doesn't feel intimate anymore at all, even when you trying to make it seem that way it doesn't even come off like that. I get that you're hurt, but you can't even bother saying I love you to me anymore…"

There was a long pause, Hanna looked at me saying the most heart wrenching words I've ever heard.

"Don't you think we said I love you to each other too quickly?" She said quietly.

My eyes began to fill with tears. Each word I spoke, my voice cracked in pain. "What are you trying to say, Hanna?"

The next chapter will be written based on what you guys want. If I get no reviews, then you guys will be in for an even more heart breaking chapter. So uhh review, review, review. ~ShayMitchCanada

P.S Who else is extremely sad that season 4 is over? :( I am... Guess we have to wait until June 10th... So. Far. Away.