Chapter 6: Line Crossed, Heart Shattered.
The hours went by, much too slowly for the ivory hedgehog. Said hedgehog was downstairs in the kitchen, sitting by the table, still looking a wreck. Those empty amber eyes stared into space, occasionally glancing back at the laptop sitting on the table, each time the song he was listening too had fingers slid across the mouse pad back over to the replay button "I-I close my eyes, a-a-and live to t-tell." he stuttered before hitting the replay button, ivory ears flattening as the soft sound of the acoustic guitar began.
'Inside this life
Under it's spell
I close my eyes
And live to tell.
The hands we're dealt
Will never disappear.
Death she grows near.'
The ivory hog just sat there in silence, listening to the soft tune, and deep meaning lyrics.
'People change
And instantly.
I'm not the same girl
I used to be.'
Tears began to bubble in those empty amber eyes, with a sniffle the boy hung his head low, his gaze on those dried blood covered wrists, soon tears began to blur his vision as memories of last night's event whirled through his mind. Clenching his eyes shut, the deeply hurt boy roughly grabbed his ears and pulled. "Why Sonikku? Why?" he sobbed quietly, not wanting to wake his supposed to be lover.
'I can't erase all the memories
But I can explain
If you're listening.
People change
Not just me.'
He didn't understand what last night was about, the poor boy was so hurt and confused. Sonic had said that he loved him, yet why did he hurt him like that? Why did he continue to hurt the boy, even though he cried, begged him to stop, how was that being loved?
'Locked up in silence
A living hell.
My heart still beats
So I bid farewell.'
"Wh-what did I do wong?" the boy sniffled as he released his now sore ears. His gaze drifted to those angry wounds on those stained wrists, more tears formed in the hegdehog's eyes, shaking ivory hands clenched tightly. "I-is this why? Is m-my way of r-release, th-the reas-son?" the boy sobbed quietly, as a single tear slid down his tear stained cheek, and dripped from his chin, onto his abused wrist.
'The loving hand that saved me
Held too tight.
His darkness weighs
On me at night'
Dull amber eyes stared at those crimson stained wrists, so were they really the reason that the ivory hedgehog was put though something quite traumatizing? "I-I will really have to stop, n-no more cutting, no more razor blades, no more hurting." The boy was trying to believe that this was just a once a off, a punishment for cutting himself, when he promised he wouldn't. "Y-yes, once off, i-it was my fault, I deserved it, I will try harder, yes harder." A smile formed on those bruised crimson stained lips, however the tears in his eyes never stopped flowing.
'People change
And instantly.
I'm not the same girl
I used to be.
I can't erase all the memories'
Silver turned his attention back to the laptop and smiled, before giving a soft giggle. "I can change too, I won't be the same hedgehog I used to be either." he grinned as he wiped his eyes with the back of his hands. His smile still remained, and a his eyes were now showing a slight sign of happiness. The poor boy. "Pfft, I can erase my memories, this morning w-was just a once off, an accident, I can forget about it, I know I can, Sonikku loves me, and I love him, he was just trying to help, hehe, yeah!"
'But I can explain
If you're listening.
People change
Not just me.'
Gently wiping the remaining tears on his cheeks, the hedgehog took a deep breath and clasped his hands together, a dreamy smile on his lips. "I can make him some nice breakfast, he'll like it, mmmhmm he deserves to be waited on, mmmhmmm." The boy giggled, and stood up from his seat, much to quickly for his bodies liking. "Ahh! O-ow" ivory ears fell flat, a hiss of pain could be heard from the boy as he walked over to the fridge. "I-it's ok, I'll h-heal quickly, h-he didn't mean to hurt m-me too much, hehe." the boy laughed weekly, he continued to fool himself.
'I never asked
Or wanted to.
You stepped across my threshold
How could you?'
The song ended, but the determined white hedgehig paid no mind, he was too busy ignoring the pain in his abused backside, and wondering what to cook, to even think about it. "Ahh, maybe scrambled egg? With rashers? Ohh! We have Hash Browns! Great!" The boy chirped, as he took what he needed from the fridge, but paused for a moment and stared at the oven. "Hmmm, home baked muffins might go well with this? Kyahh, it'd be like eating at a cute little diner, only without gum under the table~" The hedgehog giggled and got to work on the breakfast.
Meanwhile back in the bedroom, the blue hedgehog continued to slumber, until single ray of light shone in through the bedroom window, shinning right in front of a certain blue hedgehog's face, earning a grunt of annoyance. Eventually blue eyelids fluttered open, revealing tired emerald orbs. The azure hedgehog gave a yawn as he sat himself up in the bed, those tired orbs glanced over to where his lover would be sleeping, much to his surprise, the space was empty. "Hmm, must be downstairs." He yawned and ripped the blanket off of him, only to find himself completely naked, with some white substance on his chest. "What the?" it was only then did he noticed the dry blood on the sheets. Emerald eyes widened, as everything suddenly came back to him.
The memory of this morning made the blue hedgehogs stomach turn, the image of him holding his lover down, against his will, violating him, taking away his innocence. The blue hedgehog placed a hand over his mouth, feeling the urge to vomit. Emerald eyes clenched shut as the memory continued to play in his mind. The cries, the whimpers, every word and sound that escaped the ivory hedgehogs lips, echoed through his mind. "What have I done?" he whispered in disbelief. Emerald eyes opened once again, and glanced down at those peach hands, those hands that promised to love and protect the ivory boy. "What the fuck have I done?!" He yelled as he held his head in his hands. He was sure now that Silver had gone, left him, he couldn't blame him really, after hurting him like that, couldn't blame him either if he went back to Shadow. "Shadow." the teen growled and raised his head, anger and jealously suddenly bubbling within him. "It's his fault, he made me do that, made me so angry! " he growled again and slammed his fist into the mattress.
"I need to get MY Silver back, it was an accident, I-I didn't mean it, he has to believe me." The azure hedgehog whispered, trying to fight back the doubt that was trying overtake the hope he held. "I'll leave right now." In a flash the hedgehog quickly ran into the en-suit and wiped himself down with a damp towel, then slipped on his shoes and gloves and ran out of the room, but as he was nearing the stairs, he came to a sudden halt. What was that appetizing smell? "Ugh, that smells great." The hedgehog groaned, and quickly ran downstairs, following the delicious aroma. The blue hedgehog ended up in the kitchen, and what he saw, shocked him and at the same time made him want to leap for joy. He saw his beloved by the kitchen work top, yellow frilly apron tied around his waist, the ivory hedgehog hummed softly as he placed the food onto the plate.
"S-Silver?" An ivory ear twitched and the boy turned around, and saw the blue hedgehog standing there. The boy suddenly became nervous, weary, he placed a plate of scrambles egg, rashors and hash browns on the nicely decorated table. "Ah, Sonikku, y-your aw-ake, heh." he stuttered, his head bowed slightly. "I-I made breakfast for you, I hope you enjoy it." The blue hedgehog just continued to stare, making the poor ivory teen very uncomfortable and self conscious.
The blue hedgehog felt an ache within his chest, just by looking at his lover, seeing his fur in a state, visible tear streaks on his matted cheeks, the dried blood and bruises on those poor lips. 'Did I really do that?' the azure teen thought. "Silver..." the azure hedgehog spoke and slowly stepped towards the now trembling hedgehog. The panic, that the ivory hedgehog felt earlier was returning, images of the 'accident' flashed within his mind, a gasp passed his lips, and he took a step back, holding his hands to his chest, as if trying to get some form of comfort.
Fear was now visible, in those amber eyes, which made the azure teen wince. He opened his mouth to speak, but was cut off by the ivory hedgehog. "P-please eat up, i-it'll get cold you know. Th-the muffins should be done soon, m-may I ask y-you to watch th-them a moment?" The ivory hedgehog looked away from the other, his fingers gently gripping the white tuft of hair on his chest. "I-I just want, a quick shower, i-if that's ok with you, S-Sonikku."
The azure hedgehog walked over to the table holding the delicious meal prepared just for him, however his eyes were not on the food for long, they returned to the object of his affection, the one who he hurt. He just stared he never bothered to reply to the boy. The ivory hedgehog turned back to look at the blue hero, only to see those emerald eyes bore into him, it made the poor boy shudder. "D-don't stare pl-please." The boy whimpered softly. "E-eat up, please, I-I want to wash up, please take care of the muffins, th-the timer should go off in a few m-minutes, when it does..." he trailed of, as tears began to bubble in those amber eyes. "STOP STARING!" the boy screamed as he ran out of the room, ignorning the throbbing pain in his behind.
The blue hedgehog didn't bother to go after him, he knew he would just make it worse, just standing in the same room as him made the white hedgehog tremble with fear. "He'll never trust me again." the azure teen whispered regretfully. Once again he felt anger swell inside of him, hist fists were clenched, his eyes were narrowed, and a deep growl could be heard. "He'll never trust me again, for what I've done." he growled "All because of that bastard hedgehog! Trying to take him away from me! Made me angry, made me hurt him! BASTARD!" He roared and tipped over the table, spilling all the contents to the floor, some smashing, some just laying their, ruined and no longer edible.
The ding of the kitchen timer was what brought the blue hedgehog back to reality, and it was only then he noticed the mess he made. The lovely setting Silver had done for him, was now completely ruined. " Ah fuck." he hissed, and kicked over the chair before heading towards the oven.
End of another delicious pile of confusion ;)
The song used in this chapter is called Threshold, I heard it on an episode of the hit crime drama Castle, it was in Episode 7 of season 2. In the show the girl singing is named 'Hayley Blue' but the real name of the singer it Anna Waronker. Look it up, it's a good song :) And please R&R if you wish for more delicious nonesense ;)