Chapter 3

Blaine quietly got into their apartment and walked on his tips to the kitchen where Daniel was preparing dinner. He slowly stood behind him and put his hands on his eyes. "Guess what," Blaine whispered hotly against his ear and moved his hands away and let them slowly trail down his chest "I got us tickets for Katy Perry."

"T- that's great..." Daniel shrugged and focused back on their meal. Blaine didn't miss the lack of enthusiasm and couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed. They always used to love concerts together. Was this the beginning of the end? Would they already become one of those couples who never did anything fun anymore because they had fallen into a routine?

"Is there something wrong? You don't sound like you're really excited." Blaine mumbled and moved away to take his shoes off and put them away. It had taken him a lot effort to get them good tickets and now he pretended like it didn't even matter at all. Or maybe he wasn't pretending, he just probably felt sorry for him because he tried too hard. That was just Blaine. Once he was in love, he would do anything for that guy and do anything for him. Not that he had a lot of experience with love, since Daniel was his first true love.

Daniel noticed his fiancée his disappointment and sighed "Blaine. I would really like to go.. But my head." Blaine looked worriedly at him and stood up to kiss his temple "Is it still hurting, babe? Maybe you should consider visiting a doctor? I mean, even if it's only migraine, you can get some advice about how to handle it better and-"

"No. It's probably nothing. Seriously, I'll just take a painkiller and lay down for a bit," Daniel quickly said and grinned at him "While you give me an amazing full body massage." Blaine immediately laughed and rolled his eyes "Yes, of course you would try to bribe me like that."

"You know me too well." Daniel grinned and cupped Blaine's face strongly before he kissed him lovingly. The short man wrapped his arms around Daniel's waist and kissed him as sweetly back. "I love you." Blaine whispered before cutting the man off with another kiss, before he could say something back.

Now Blaine would give anything to hear him say it one more time.

[Blaine Anderson 2:34PM]
You're living in New York, right? Can we meet?

Kurt kept on looking at the message and bit groaned, lying down on the couch with the laptop on his stomach. What could he do? Part of him wanted to help this man, because somehow he had the right to know. But did he want to be the one who told him the truth?

[Kurt Hummel 3:02PM]
Yeah. But I'm not sure if we should meet...

He pressed the button and immediately closed his laptop after. Before those messages, he hadn't really thought about the whole incident again. It was something that was just too horrible to think of. Not that is had effected his life, but he used to care a lot about Daniel and it had hurt to see him like that. That's when he imagined how hard it must have been for Blaine. He had seen him struggling for years and there was nothing he could do about it. So he decided for himself that he would tell Blaine the truth... someday.

Blaine couldn't believe what he was reading. Why was it now such a big issue to meet him? Before Blaine asked him some questions, it didn't seem like a problem at all. The more he talked to Kurt, the more it became clear that he was hiding something. But what could it be? What could be so worse that it couldn't be told? Maybe Blaine shouldn't bother with this and go try messaging some other people who were in other clubs with Dan, maybe the other people would be more helpful than those glee club members.

[Blaine Anderson 3:14PM]
Fine. Thanks for your time. Don't worry about it anymore.

It was not his intention to sound grumpy or be annoyed with this guy. Kurt wasn't the reason why he was annoyed. He was just annoyed with life, because every time he had some hope, it just got crushed a few moments after. The curly haired man really wanted this pity party to stop, but he had no idea how. He even had no idea how to deal with his loss because nobody was there to help him and it was his entire fault. If he had just let people in when they were there for him, then he would at least have some friends left.

He took a quick nap on the couch, because sleeping was the only thing that got him through. Time passed quickly by if he wasn't awake. Maybe he had skipped a stage of grief and was already at stage four: depression. A depression sounded really bad, but it would also mean that he was closer to the final step. A part of him wanted to give his death a place in his life. Not that he was ready to move on and start dating again. He probably would never be able to put himself out there again, but being able to live again would be nice.

When he woke up, he took his laptop again and saw that there was a new message from Kurt.

[Kurt Hummel 4:45PM]
Blaine, I truly believe that this is not what you're looking for. I think you need something to hold on to.. Just someone to talk to and fill the missing gaps about his life... And I want to help you. I can talk to you about how a great guy he was, but I think you already know that. We can just have a coffee somewhere and talk about him... only if you want to. Because I know what it's like to deal with loss. I don't know anything about the support group you have, but I do know that you need people around you. Especially months after because people tend to... forget. You'll probably feel a lot of pressure to do anything to not forget about him... and I can tell you this: you won't. He will always have a special place in your heart so just try to live your life again. I'm sure he would have wanted that too.

Blaine wiped a small tear away. Kurt had hit a sore spot, because it was true: people really forgot. Not that he could really blame them for going on. It was what Daniel had expected him to do, but he just couldn't. It wasn't really a big question mark why. Daniel and Blaine were a team, partners in crime, lovers and soul mates. Moving on from that one person wasn't easy. It would take a lot of time to try and find his routine again... without him.

[Blaine Anderson 6:23PM]
I don't have someone, to be honest. Coffee sounds great to me, though. It would be really great to talk to someone again and bring up some memories about Daniel. I probably sound like a pathetic sad dude -which I totally am- but thank you. Thank you so much for wanting to have a conversation with me and sort of create an image of high school Daniel for me. This really means a lot, Kurt. Thank you so much.

When Kurt read the message, he recognized Daniel in this Blaine guy. After the whole incident, he had also preferred to handle everything on his own. Luckily -but unfortunately for him – it wasn't really easy to ignore people in high school. When you live on your own, you can just lock yourself up and decide to just be alone. Daniel had wanted to lock himself up, too, but he didn't have the choice. Everyone in glee club was really close and they were there for each other, no matter what.

[Kurt Hummel 6:43PM]
Sure. I'd be more than happy to meet the husband of my first crush (please don't ask). We could meet tomorrow around 4PM at a coffee shop? It's a Sunday, so I assume you'll be free, unless you already have plans. It would just be great to meet you.

Blaine must have been online because only a minute later he already got a message back.

[Blaine Anderson 6:44PM]
Sure. 4PM is great, do you know Cup'n Beans? We could meet there?

Kurt chuckled when he read that Blaine wanted to meet in Cup'n Beans, it was his favourite coffee place in the entire city and only three blocks away from his apartment.

[Kurt Hummel 6:46PM]
You already had me at Cup'n Beans. See you tomorrow, Blaine.

The taller guy put the meeting in his iPhone, because he had a many things going on in his head since there was a big fashion show coming up and his head was just a mess. He really would have to just forget about this and let the other man down.

[Blaine Anderson 6:47PM]
Perfect. See you tomorrow, Kurt.

Kurt couldn't help but smile a bit. He was just really curious about this guy. Not like he was crushing on Blaine, because he wasn't that guy anymore. Ever since he had come to New York, he was more self confident and aimed for bigger things. He focused on his career and friendships, which already absorbed most of his time since he was still friends with Rachel Berry.
Besides, crushing on someone who was going through the roughest time of his life would just be too weird. No, he just wanted to know what kind of guy Daniel had ended up with.

[Kurt Hummel 6:50PM]
Courage.

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