"The best fighter is the one with nothing to lose. They have nothing to fear, they have no one to love. Those who have someone to love have everything to lose."

Finnick Pov:

A couple of days have gone by since I have confessed my love for Katniss and everything has been going fantastically. I am starting to improve well enough to convince the nurses to begin to move around the hospital with a limited amount of supervision. This means that I get to visit Johanna when Katniss is training.

It isn't that Katniss or Johanna dislike each other. It's the hospital authorities being worried with Johanna's PTSD acting up at the wrong time and hurting someone 'valuable' to the rebellion. The only reason I was able to visit her constantly was because it became immediately clear that I was the only one who could calm her down during her panic attacks.

However, I had a great feeling that she was going to improve vastly today.

I softly knock on the door.

"Johanna?"

"Yeah…"

"It's me, Finnick."

I hear the slight increase of happiness in her voice when she says, "Oh hey, come in."

I slowly open the door in order to prevent startling her and hobble into her hospital room. Even though I have improved vastly lately, I still have a slight limp due to my knee being smashed in repeatedly by one of the Peacemakers because I said something negative about Snow.

Even though the knee still hurt like a bitch, I refused to become a Morphling like some of the other previous victors had done. I had a high pain tolerance, so I knew that I could overcome the pain over time.

The room is dark, as normal, because of Johanna's depression. As usual, I throw open the curtains to let the artificial light in.

And, as usual, she says, "You fucking dick! Goddammit Finnick!"

I turn to her and smile softly as I respond with a sarcastic "You were looking a little pale, thought you could get a little tan."

I see her shake her head vigorously before she responds with a glare as she said, "Even after all these times, you still try to find new ways to piss me off. Why boyfriend of brainless, why?"

I roll my eyes playfully at her anger, but a hint of a smile graces my face when she mentions the word 'boyfriend'. No matter how many times people say that, it never gets old. I can't believe that I am so fortunate and lucky that I was able to find the love of my life and not lose them to Snow, especially after all that I have experienced and that I have seen happen to other victors.

"You are making that stupid face again…" Johanna's voice interrupts my reverie.

I give her a goofy grin. I know what she is talking about, since we have this conversations all the time. But, because it is more fun to piss her off, I innocently ask, "Oh, whatever do you mean, my dear angry counterpart?"

I see her give me a hardened glare as she answers with, "You are a pain in the ass. Anyway, it's that stupid ass look that you give whenever you think about her. It always makes me want to puke."

I give her my puppy dog look that makes her roll her eyes exaggeratingly in response.

"Aw, why do you want to hurt my feelings Johanna? I'm so happy, why are you trying to bring me down?"

She chuckles lightly at my stupidity before she closes her eyes and sighs, "To be honest, I am…"

My playfulness melts away when I sense her vulnerability.

I limp over from the curtains and sit down in the chair next to her bed. I give her an encouraging look that hopefully will her know that she is safe and that she can continue.

She opens her eyes to see me give her this look. Although she looks a little uncomfortable, she mostly gives me a look that lets me know that she is encouraged by my kindness.

She sighs again before she continues.

"I'm so sick and tired of losing any and everything that I love. Whether it be my dad, my brother or my dog. I have lost them all due to that asshole wanting me to suffer for shits and giggles. I had a fiance once. I was going to marry him once we were both 18. But, after I refused Snow's demand of doing what you did. Back then, I thought that you were a coward. Now, I realize that you were trying to protect those close to you."

When she takes a moment to collect herself, I ponder some of the things that she had said. I never knew that she had a fiance. She feels the most comfortable with me. Yet, she never mentioned a word about him. But I understand, especially with everything that happened with Annie. I know that this is part of the reason as to why Johanna was telling me this. As we have discovered, the both of us have more in common than we used to think.

I notice that she is looking at me again, silently asking if she can continue. She knows that she is talking about a sensitive subject for the both of us.

I nod at her and give her a gentle smile.

She continues.

"Anyway, I return home and saw him smiling at me. He started calling my name as he still viewed me as Jo, not as some psycho murderer who slaughtered innocent children. I thought that everything was going to be okay, that everything was going to return to normal. That was when I saw the Peacemaker right behind him. I screamed at him to look out, but it was too late. He turned around to see a knife stab him right in the throat, right in front of me. They then trapped my family in the house that my great great grandfather built and burned the house to the ground. They made sure to not let anyone survive that as well as make me see the entire thing. That changed me Finnick. It fucking changed me."

I have to refrain from tearing up at her story. I know that I have stay strong for her, but I can feel her pain from a mile away. I slowly move my hand to grasp hers in a comforting gesture. Although she is startled at first, she gradually relaxes into my touch.

She gives me a weak smile as she says, "Thank you Finnick. For everything. You are all that I have left."

I give her a small smile in response as I whisper, "Of course Johanna. I'm always here for you. I'm sorry that you had to suffer through that. And I am so sorry that you had to keep that in for so long. No one deserves that burden ever."

I can tell that she is physically drained after her confession, as her eye lids start to droop. I squeeze her hand reassuringly before I let it go.

"Finnick?" She whispers.

"Yes Jo?"

"If you tell anyone this story, I'll kick your ass so fucking hard. Don't think that I won't."

I smile at her words, knowing that she is on her way back to the girl that I know and love.

"Of course not Jo. I won't. I know not to mess with you." I softly answer before I quietly start walking to the door.

Right before I reach the door, I hear Johanna whisper one more thing.

"Finnick?"

"Yeah?"

"Close the fucking curtains you idiot."