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Chapter 2
All I saw were blood red eyes staring back at me, standing in the corner of the room I occupied. The moonlight did not touch the corner where it stood, lingering, almost beckoning me to call out. At least that's how I felt at the moment, staring back into the glowing eyes. I could not feel anything, it was like my entire body was paralyzed and my voice... I could not even whimper, I was not sure if I was frozen in fear or if somehow I had lost all control, like the shadow figure was in complete domination. That thought perturbed me greatly.
I wondered silently if this was even real...had my new medication, the one my psychiatrist had insisted on prescribing me...did it cause hallucinations? I hadn't bothered to ask and well I actually had tuned him out, insistent that I, in fact, did not require medication. I was not crazy, I did not need help mentally. So why bother with the bullshit? But now as I lay staring into the eyes of the strange being before me, I contemplated whether that had been a good decision on my part. It just stood there observing me or for all I knew it was floating? It wasn't like I could really see it.
The blanket I had been covering myself with quickly slid down passed my chest, and that's when I noticed how cold the room was... I was still unable to move even an inch of my body. I tried willing my fingers to life, but without luck. I felt panic rising up into my chest as I noticed the figure had swiftly moved and now hovered at the foot of my bed, it had moved so quickly my eyes hadn't processed. It stared down at me and all I could do was stare back.. I wanted to cry. I was so fucking scared. I knew I wouldn't make it out alive... I watched way too many of those paranormal movies.
This thing, it was going to possess me in this mental hospital, fuck a few potential people up and then kill me as my use was used up, I was in no way ready to die. But what could I really do? I couldn't even scream for petes sake. As the moon rose higher in the black sky it rested on a part of it, it had a human form but there was no way it was human. Those eyes were to unnatural. It slowly walked from the end of the bed towards me, stopping at the center of the bed. I released contact with its eyes and stared down at my pale numb hands. I squeezed my eyes shut and clenched my teeth so hard I thought they might break. I willed the figure away with my mind. If this wasn't actually happening, I could make it disappear?
Fear and doubt plagued me, but when I reopened my eyes I realized it was no longer standing there, but I still felt its presence unfortunately. Why me? I silently asked myself. I looked all around the room with my eyes, I could not move my head still. I closed my eyes once again because I knew where it was... it was right beside me. I felt its strangely warm hands gently caress me, trailing the contours of my face, down onto my neck and stopping right above my chest. This was to weird, how was this even happening? Was it an apparition? Could apparitions or lost souls have whole bodies? There was no way it was a living human being. For one, humans are incapable of moving that quickly and two no one could be born with eyes like that? Plus the security was so tight around here, no, it was not possible. Humans were definitely ruled out of this one.
"You have no need to hold such fear for me." It had spoken with such a smooth, beautiful, deep voice. Slender warm fingers now tracing my collar bone, its eyes revealed such depth of emotion, but I felt nothing in particular, too clouded by fear I assume. I had no need to fear? Yeah, sure. Why not be normal and come during visiting hours? Oh yeah, because, well I dont even know what you are. So not really a good comeback there? "I will return soon, now wake." it ordered. My eyes fluttered open to hit the bright light of the room, my hands shot up quickly to shield them from further discomfort. I looked around and noticed it was daylight and I quietly processed to myself that it was all in fact, only a dream. I sighed with relief, as I glanced up to the clock on the wall, it was 7:05 am. I lowered my hand to hold myself where the figure had touched. That had felt insanely real. Interrupting my thoughts, I heard a gentle tap on the door.
An older nurse walked inside the room, she looked to be in her early forties, with dark skin and black hair slightly greying on the sides. She held kind eyes,and she had brought with her a tray, pushing it over to my bed. "Ready for your breakfast and morning meds?" she beamed at me with a small smile. She took the small paper cup that held my pills and handed them to me along with a cup of water, swallowing the pill, I then took the tray after proving I had indeed swallowed it. Oatmeal and toast. Something about its smell made my stomach churn, so I only ate the toast that was provided. I noticed she jotted in her pink notebook she carried. I then drank some orange juice from the little carton and set it back onto the tray, thanking her quietly.
"No problem honey. My names Ms. Suzy by the way, if you need anything just ask." I gave her a small smile as she turned to walk from the room, I hadn't asked about the pills because frankly I didn't care to share the intense dream I had with anyone just yet. I looked at the paper she had left with me, I scanned it and in that moment realized just how much my life actually sucked. It was my daily schedule. 7 am breakfast. 7:30 I was to get ready for my day. 9-11 group community. 12:30 Lunch. 1:30 Vitals. 3-7 pm was visitation. 5pm was dinner. 9pm night meds, and finally 11pm lights out. Wow, most of my day would be inside this bare room. I concluded, I would never get out, I was going to go insane merely just from being here. I looked around my prison, white walls, barred windows, white tile. I sighed out loud, self pity was taking over. I stood up and stretched, made my bed, and walked to the bathroom area.
I brushed my teeth with a green toothbrush they had supplied me, I never had the chance to pack any of my things before I was shipped off. I grabbed the hair brush and stroked it through my light brown hair, I balled it all up and put it into a messy bun with my pony tail holder. Unfortunately I was not blessed to have long hair, its growth stopped at my shoulders so not all of it stayed secure in the bun, loose ends fell around my face. Bobby pins were much needed, but I wasn't allowed any here. I stared into my reflection, while tears slowly formed into my eyes. I was truly alone, I had no one in this world. Forsaken by everyone. My own husband of 3 damn years didn't even want me. Was I that much of a bother? Or was I hard to love? I knew I was not the greatest looking, kind of average, and my IQ was not outstanding but I was intelligent in my own way, I pleaded to myself.
I thought we were happy. But I suppose I had been terribly wrong. I had wanted to expand our family...wanted to become a mommy..it was all I had ever truly wanted. A family of my own. I wiped the tears away and pulled a grey sweat shirt over my head, it was a bit baggy for my tastes but really who was I going to impress? I laughed to myself. My eyes were blood shot I noticed, the red almost overriding the blue. Red. My mind wandered back to the dream I had last night. It was all the medication right? The dream was so vivid almost lifelike, I still remembered the helpless way I had felt. Not being able to move my body. And those blood red eyes... I strolled back over to the bed and sat down replaying each memory I had from that dream.
One thing I loved was to analyze dreams whether my own or others, the human brain in itself fascinated me. I felt like there was still so much left to discover in regards to it. I looked down at my feet, hmm I wonder why some people just snap. Like what creates serial killers, missionaries, soldiers, doctors..? Was there a bigger plan in life? I know I am random at times, my mind jumps from different topics and ponders life's biggest questions that I will never know the answer too. I heard a light tap, Ms. Suzy walked back in, she asked if I was ready for community? Oh, that time already? I replied yes and I stood to follow behind her.