A/N- I would like to bring attention on a certain matter...not trying to give anything away but.. Please do not disregard any dreams or other things that may come along that my OC creates. Lol sorry that's all I can give you. They are important for later chapters. :) This took a few days to complete and many energy drinks...lol jk. Enjoy! Thank you to my reviewers I really appreciate you guys :) let me know what you think!
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Chapter 4
"Imaginary"
I sat there staring at the walls of my imprisonment, I felt like I never even knew that man. Where had I been the last three years of my life? He was so evil... I could sense it, he meant to do me harm, but why? I had never felt something so terrible in my life.. I was not imagining it.. it was not the medication which would come any minute now, oh and plus I would be getting an increase thanks to Henry, if that was even his real name. I sighed to myself, why had I lost control like that? I didn't understand, I didn't feel malice at the point and I would never do something like that in front of people...I was more passive aggressive.. But even so, no one would believe me. I mean whose the one locked away again? Yeah that would be me. God I hated this forsaken place, I have never felt more alone than I am right now, I didn't even have paper or a writing utensil to draw or even write to keep me occupied.
I used to love creating stories, and drawing, mainly the anime I watched. But now that I was trapped in hell all I could do was sit on my bed and stare, or sleep. It was so boring. Which brought my attention to my new friend Ren, I wonder if he would actually come here, he was supposed to come tonight.. I guess I would find out. The night shift staff were younger and more rambunctious, so he may have a chance. I thought back to his emerald greens, how kind he was and how easy it was to talk, it was almost like I knew him from somewhere but that wasn't possible, who could forget that face? Not that I deemed him as a romantic interest, he was very attractive but he was unfortunately not my type. He was too pretty I admitted, I think he is even prettier than me!
I laughed out loud from that one, how could you date someone who was prettier than you and they were male...? I am not sure I could do it. I still had some feelings for Henry. You would think after what happened I would completely hate him but I couldn't shake those feelings firmly embedded in my heart. This would take years to remove, just like those three years I felt like he stole from me. I heard a light tapping on the door and in walked a younger staff girl she had to be about 25, long blonde hair pulled back into a ponytail and deep brown eyes, she was way taller than me. She wore pink and purple scrubs that were somewhat to small for her frame. She smiled casually but not with the warmth Ms. Suzy usually radiated.
She handed me my tray, and I observed the contents. Pizza and salad, with a small somewhat burned cookie. The disappointment washed over me, why burn the cookie, why not the salad? I joked to myself, I didn't think she would take kindly to it, I felt a slight anger from her. I wasn't sure if it was directed at me but then again, why would it? I had never seen this girl in my life, maybe she is just weary of me because of my "outburst" earlier today, I may just be getting the two feelings confused. I eyed her cautiously as she handed me the paper cup that contained my meds, instead of a half pill, it was now a whole one that looked like it could choke a horse "figuratively speaking" and two other ones, a small blue, and a pale yellow.
I did not like this at all, I had a bad feeling and I wondered if I could somehow fake her out? I thought carefully as I raised the cup to my lips, she watched me with anticipation, her subtle "anger, turning to satisfaction" and that's when I decided to somehow hide them, pushing the pills inside my lips up above my upper teeth. I opened my mouth to verify that I had swallowed, took my cup of water and stated that I was not hungry. I told her that my stomach was a bit upset, she removed the tray and carefully walked out my door. I stood and walked into the bath area, being as quiet as possible I removed the pills from my mouth and dropped them into the toilet water. I still had the unpleasant taste where they had lingered floating around in my mouth. They would never know the difference. At least, I hoped they wouldn't. I walked over to the counter and looked at my reflection, picking up my toothbrush, I quickly brushed my teeth to rid myself of that terrible taste.
I was still kinda shook up, maybe I was overreacting over the whole Henry situation, there was no way that girl would have wished me harm? Right? I silently tried to convince myself but my conviction remained firm. Something was not right here at this hospital. Especially during the night. I would have these crazy dreams of demons standing over me and all around feel terrified. Did everyone feel this way or was it only me? All I knew was I couldn't wait for Ren to come, somehow I knew he would understand, at least I silently hoped he would. I walked back over to stare out the barred window, something caught my attention though, so I turned back to look up at the ceiling, I could see a part of it begin to move, I stared harder bracing myself for whatever was about to come through when plop out falls Ren.
He landed so gracefully, did he really just come through my ceiling? "How the hell did you do that?" I asked his eyes were lit up and he let out a small laugh, "I used this" he said handing me a sharp piece of glass. I looked it over, "Did you break a mirror?" I asked amazed. "Well sort of" he replied "I cut a small square in my room to have access anywhere." he said rather bluntly, "No one has noticed yet, they do not pay much attention to small details." I laughed silently like who was this guy? Who would have even thought that was possible? "Oh, I have some things that belong to you. I will have to bring them another time. I left them." I looked confused "What things and why would you have them?" still wearing that small smile he replied "Top secret information, I can not share." Oh, whatever." I replied looking at him.
He looked around my room taking in the bareness of it all, "I heard what happened today. I mean with that man." he said softly sitting on top of the bed, I looked down, "I am not even sure how to respond to that." I said bluntly. His eyes revealed a knowing look, and he said "You can trust me Lyric. I am not here to judge you." I stared straight in the eye and before I could stop myself I blurted "It was like I had no control over myself, all I could do was think my body acted on its own, and the man well his name is Henry..my husband. And I..I dont even know who he is anymore...Ren, he was evil. I could sense that inside him.. I felt tears forming, I hated showing emotion especially in front of other people, but more than that I hated telling people my feelings or anything regarding my personal life. I wouldn't look at him, I turned to face the window and let the tears fall down my cheeks. I felt a hand on my shoulder, glancing at it, I felt him lock me in an embrace. Well this was weird, but feeling someone else's skin was so nice, I realized that I had actually missed human contact.
I pulled my arms around him, and took comfort in the hug. Ren was a lot taller than me, my head was a little below his chest. His scent smelled like cedarwood and fresh cut grass combined. Reminding me of the outdoors. I finally pulled away from him and stepped away, not really knowing what to say. I wasn't good at small talk. He seemed so calm, I still could not get a read on him. I didn't understand that, he had to be feeling something right? Ren's eyes pierced straight to my soul it seemed like and he spoke "I can not stay for much longer, I fear they will soon discover me." I nodded, but did not fully understand his meaning, after they delivered our nightly medication we didn't see anyone until the next morning and well he came from the ceiling, so that rules out getting spotted.
The look on his face was serious, and then he said "Do not take anything they prescribe to you. I will get your things to you shortly, but you must keep them hidden from sight. I wish I could explain this to you but I... and then my door opened, fear shot through me as I played different reasons and excuses throughout my mind. I stood frozen in place as the blonde woman walked in, she examined my room, her eyes tracing every little detail and then asked me if I was alright. I nodded yes and abruptly sat on my bed. She didn't even say anything about Ren being in here? I looked over at him but he was gone. Trying to mask my astonishment I tried my best at the "poker face." How had he left so quickly? It was like she could see right through me, the way she glared under her long lashes. "You shouldn't talk with yourself like that. I was sure you had someone in here, with you." I stared back and remained silent, she flipped my light switch and I sat there alone and in the complete dark.
The next morning I jumped from my bed, and through on the sweats they had supplied. It was a good thing they kept it freezing inside the building, I told myself. I would die from a heat stroke, I looked at the clock, it was 7, so Ms. Suzy should be bursting through my door any moment, I quickly made my bed, and then did my normal routine, brushed my hair, my teeth. I heard a light tap on my door, in walked Ms. Suzy, her usual bubbly self. I almost beamed inside as I saw what was for breakfast, biscuits with white gravy. I was famished, I hadn't eaten last night. So I took the paper cup from her offering hand and I faked the pills again, remembering Rens statement, right before he had obviously teleported from my room. Ms. Suzy smiled and then she said "Community time will be cut short for you today. Looks like Dr. Sims wants to see how you are doing." You mean assess how much crazier I have become I corrected her in my mind.
I finished my breakfast and she took my tray stating that she'd return in 30 minutes. I watched her walk out the door. This time I had sacrificed the first bite of food to conceal the pills into, then spit it into the napkin. This time no aftertaste remained which I was thankful for. I wondered what the good doctor wanted to discuss? My anger outburst or the fact I was now talking with myself? Hmm I wonder, it couldn't be to supply me with more medication, I was already supposed to be drugged out of my mind. Like a walking zombie. I walked over to the door and opened it so I could look outside the room, I noticed other inmates, who seemed to have the same idea as me. I just lingered at the doorway, silently hoping I would see Ren, was he even close to me? I hadn't bothered to ask, to consumed with grief.
I saw Ms. Suzy approaching with a small man behind her, he walked with a small limp and he held a cane to keep his balance, black short hair like a buzz cut, with black beady eyes. He was dressed in a dark blue dress shirt and brown khakis. "Here she is doc." she buzzed no emotion behind her words. He gave a polite smile and asked if he could come in, I consented. I watched him hobble in and Ms. Suzy carried a chair and set it down for him. Taking the cue I sat on my bed and waited for him to begin with whatever he needed to discuss. " " he started, "Call me Lyric." I spat out, I detested being associated as Henry's wife now. "Very well then Lyric, I noticed your medication was slightly upped yesterday after your outburst with your husband. I did not authorize this. So from today, I am taking you completely off of all the medication. Until we find one suitable for you." I looked him over, he seemed sincere and from what I could tell, he was genuine.
"Now I had staff complaining you were conversing with yourself last night. So I took it upon myself to view your video. I did not see anyone, could you tell me who you were speaking with, Lyric? Didn't see anyone? What the hell? If he had reviewed the video from inside my room he could clearly see that I was not alone in there. I wasn't sure how to respond. "And yesterday during community hours it was reported you were again speaking with yourself." I was not! I exclaimed, "I met another patient yesterday and that was who I was speaking with." The doctor raised his eyebrow and said "What is the name of the patient?" "His name is Ren." There is no one here by that name." he simply stated, "Was that who visited your room?" I averted my eyes from his. "I believe the medication you were on was causing hallucinations. he said bluntly, "It's quite normal actually, you... I tuned him out, I couldn't bear to listen to any of this nonsense. That was not a hallucination, he was real..right? You know come to think of it, I never could pick up on his emotions..but last night I had skipped my meds and he had been there as sure as day. I sat there listening to him blubber on and on for the next 35 freaking minutes. No meds until further notice? Gotcha. I would be receiving some clothing items today? Awesome. I would not be leaving my room today. Say what? He stood to leave almost to quickly and easily for someone with a messed up leg. I watched him walk out the door with his "limp." I looked over at the camera that observed my room, I walked forward and jumped knocking it from the corner, it fell from the wall easily and it broke as it hit the hard floor.
Some staff came and gave me a stack of clothes, I placed them at the end of my bed. I unfolded each one to observe them then refolded. All I owned were yoga pants pretty much, which in this case worked out because lucky me I was allowed to have them here. The rest were tanks, black, white and some blue. One black bra, and some panties. I was also given some of my bath things, an unexpected surprise. I loved the scent of vanilla, so pretty much all of it was with that aroma. My shampoo, conditioner, body wash, etc. I grabbed some of my clothes and headed to the bath area. Since I was not allowed to leave my room today I would take the extra time to shower. I stripped off my clothes and turned the water on, I waited until the water was steamy before I decided to step in.
I let the water soak my hair and body, I lathered up my shampoo and worked it into my hair then quickly rinsing it out, conditioner next, without it my hair would be a tangled matty mess. I left it in my hair however until I had finished washing my body, then rinsed it as well. I was surrounded with the vanilla paradise all around me, it made me kind of hungry. I daydreamed of cake as I applied lotion to my face and body. Putting my clothes over my still damp body, I noticed the most beautiful red rose on the counter where my clothes had been. I picked it up and inhaled its sweet scent, how did you get in here? I questioned it as if it would respond. I wrapped the towel around my head to soak some of the water from my hair. Opening the bathroom door to release steam, I walked over to my bed, noticing it was slightly messed up around the pillow area. I pulled the blanket back and nothing, someone had definitely been in here though. Hence the rose on the counter. Instinctively I lifted up my pillow and wow! I hadn't seen that in weeks! I grabbed the notebook and stared delightedly at it. I was also supplied with a pencil. I skimmed the pages reminiscing old stories I had created. I wrote fan fiction, mostly about the anime Yu Yu Hakusho.
I would definitely have to reread these! Yay something to do in my spare time! Which was by the way most of the day here. I wondered who would go to the trouble of doing this for me? Ren had mentioned that he had something that belonged to me..but where would he have gotten the rose? No, it had to be someone else, he didn't exist remember? I reminded myself from what the doctor told me, but his embrace felt real.. I pulled my bed over in front of the ceiling where Ren had fallen from. I stood up and tried to reach the ceiling, standing on the tops of my toes. This would prove everything. My fingertips touched the ceiling but just barely, damn my shortness. This would hurt but I had to know, I jumped the tips of my toes and my hand smacked the ceiling. It didn't budge, I was dumbfounded, it was cut from the inside! How could it not move? I stared at the spot on the ceiling. I was so confused. I picked the rose up and held it firmly, this was real. Someone had been here. Someone had delivered the notebook and for some reason I was to keep it secret. Even though I couldn't prove his existence, I would still follow his last warning.