I really wish that you could see the man that Steven is becoming. Yeah, he's only ten. But he's becoming something that I could never dream of. He's so much like you too. Inspiring, fun-loving, he sees the beauty in everything, and he's always there to cheer me up. To be honest - I'm often scared of losing him. Its not his fault or the Gems, maybe its just because I'm still shaken up from losing you. I didn't know what to do when I was staring at that little bundle and you were gone. I felt so lost. The Gems, they must think that I'm just some useless hunk of junk. That I can't do anything for Steven.
But Steven needs me, you said it yourself. He needs his father and I'm going to be there for my son. Even if I don't know what to do. Everyday it is like Steven is teaching me something new, if not about myself but about the world. And the kid gives me so many scares! Did you know that Pearl said she was going to take him away for fifty years?! I would be dead by then! But that doesn't matter. Steven is home, and he's alright. I'm just so scared that something will happen to him.
I know, it must seem silly to you. I mean you believed in him even before he was born. I always heard you. Talking to him as if he was actually there in front of you. Smiling at him even if you couldn't see him, I knew that you loved him. If no one else believed in Steven, Rose, it was you. Even when he didn't believe in himself, even when I ruined things for him with his powers - you were what kept him going weren't you? You wanted him to remember what he was meant for, what he could do.
Rose.
Steven will never be you.
Because Steven is Steven.
And I won't project my feelings and sadness for you onto my son. Because I love Steven, and I love you. And since you're not here, I'll love our son for the two of us and help him in any way that I can.
I love you, Rose.
Thank-you for everything and giving me Steven.
See you again one day.