I grabbed my stuff and was getting up trying to sneak off when a hand landed on my shoulder and spun me around, and I was looking into the eyes of Christian.
"Rose?..." he was just staring at me, then I saw the change in eyes, the realization that I was here, "What the hell are you doing here?" His voice raised. Oh boy.
"Christian, please let me go, I can't do this and… don't tell anyone you saw me here." I rushed out the words and started to turn to walk away when he grabbed my arm and spun me back around to face him, I dropped my coffee and food and grabbed his wrist twisting it so he had no choice but to let me go and the minute his hand was off my arm and I took off running. I could hear him following me, but I had to run, I couldn't face any of them and I didn't want to, because they would drag me back to court, and then the guardians would hold a trial for me for escaping and god only knows what they'd do to me. I just hit the door leading out of the mall when he had finally caught up to me grabbing my arm again and pushing me up against the wall.
"Rose, what the hell is your problem!?" He looked pissed, "Rose you're going to talk to me and if you try anything again you might want to remember that I'm a fire user, don't make me do anything."
"What could you possibly want to talk about?" I shout at him, feeling my own anger rising up.
"How about the fact that you left court, you left Lissa, and now you're here and was just sitting in there eating like nothing is wrong. How could you do that do her, to everyone. She has been a mess since you left and Adrian too, we've all been worried about you Rose!" He was shouting at me, and we were gaining a small audience that I don't think he had to realize.
"Don't worry about me; I'm fine as you can see!" I could feel my anger rising even more, I was getting pissed, and deep down there was something else, that darkness that fills Lissa, through here I will always have that darkness in me too and it was threatening to surface. "None of you need me, I'm not important to anyone there anymore, with time everyone will forget I even existed, so why don't you do us both a favor and forget that you saw me here!" I shouted at him and shoved him away from me.
He stood there staring at me with a look of disgust, "Fine, I'll forget I ever saw you here, but I just want you to know that you're pathetic!" He was no longer yelling, but you could here the venom dripping off of his words. He shook his head and walked back into the mall, I was getting ready to turn and walk around to where Abe's car was parked, I was stopped short by a site that hit me hard. I can't believe I didn't notice him standing there before, he must have followed Christian. Dimitri was standing by the entrance of the mall staring at me; he had his stoic guardian mask in place. I couldn't take anymore of this today, and I started blinking rapidly trying to fight of tears. 'I wouldn't cry, I don't cry' I thought to myself, but through the mask I could see the signs, the little ones that if no one really knew Dimitri, they wouldn't be able to see them. But I could, the creases between his brows and the little frown lines by his mouth, and the look in his eyes. He was confused, angry, and sad that I was here.
I didn't know what to do, seeing him standing there, I was frozen to the spot. He took a step towards me and waited, 'waiting for what?' I thought. When his actions hit me, he was waiting to see if I freak out and take off. He was treating me like I was some crazy, wounded animal. The pain was sharp, and it shot right through my heart, the broke what little control I had left, and the tears were running down my face now. I was mad that I couldn't keep from crying and that I knew I couldn't stop them, I felt like my own body had betrayed me. The look in his eyes changed, I always knew he didn't like seeing me cry and since he no longer loved me, I don't see why he would care anyways. He looked away as if deciding what to do, and then walked away and back into the mall. I just wanted to go home, to lock myself in my room and cry my heart out, because right now it was shattered and I didn't know how to put it back together. I should of known something like this would happen, the day started out so good, I know that there is never any good without the bad. I wiped my eyes off on the sleeves of my shirt, and focused on my breathing trying to calm myself down. When I felt good enough to go back to the car with Elizabeth, I went.
I climbed into the car and out of the corner of my eye I saw the shocked look on her face, she could tell I had been crying. She didn't say nothing though, which made my respect level for her go up; and she drove us back home in silence.