I'm sorry for all the time skips! I hate them myself, but I hate boring parts of a story even more! I'd rather not make a bunch of boring filler chapters, so this is necessary. This should be the last skip for a while though! Thank you so much for taking time to read this story! I love you all!

-1 month later-

Dear Mom,

Umidjon still haunts my dreams. He's there, every night when I fall asleep. It does help to think of Natsu. He stars in my mind every night. When I feel like Umidjon is about to finally destroy me, Natsu is always there, bathed in a gold light, giving me hope that I can defeat him. My friends at Fairy Tail have tried their hardest to show that they love me. I feel terrible for making them work so hard, but I highly doubt they would stop if I asked.

The good news is that Natsu said he loved me. Can you believe it? He finally returns my feelings for him. I don't understand why I still can't tell Umidjon he's wrong after that. I thought it would be proof enough. But I guess there's still something somewhere in my heart that refuses to believe any of it. I don't know how I'll ever be able to get rid of it.

But when there is good news, there is always bad news. I'm slowly losing this fight. I know I said that Natsu was helping in my dreams, and he is. But Umidjon is seriously damaging me. The only motivation I have in the mornings to get out of bed is Fairy Tail, like if I didn't have them I would probably wither away to nothingness. Sometimes, I give up all hope of ever getting rid of this constant voice in the back of my mind, or the terrible nightmares that plague my dreams. I don't know what to do. I feel like Umidjon is slowly taking over my mind. I think Natsu notices what's happening to me sometimes, but he hasn't tried to talk to me about it. What would he say? 'I'm sorry you feel that way, I'll try to make it more obvious that I love you?' That won't help me. It will only make me feel guiltier. All I want is for everyone to treat me normally again.

We're at an impasse, Umidjon and I. He can't completely destroy my will, but he can crush it until I can barely feel it at all. I can't destroy him. We are at a standstill. It's like the eye of a hurricane. The messy part so far was getting through to the center. Any moment, we could be plunged into the storm once again.

I've made up my mind. I'm going to sneak out tonight (and yes, I have to sneak out or else Natsu will insist on coming with me) and go back to Acalypha. Maybe if I talk to father, it'll help. I hope it will, at least.

More than ever, I wish you were here right now. I hope what Umidjon has said isn't true; that your death wasn't my fault. If it was, I am so sorry. I can never make up for what I could have done to you. Wish me luck.

~Lucy

My door creaked quietly as I looked over my shoulder to make sure it didn't wake anyone up. Natsu still snored on my bed. Happy murmured something about fish in his sleep. I breathed a sigh of relief and continued down the creaky stairs and onto the deserted sidewalk. I ran for as long as I could, until my chest hurt. I wanted to get to Acalypha as soon as possible and finish up quickly. Hopefully Natsu won't worry too much. I left him a note that said I'd be back soon, and to not worry.

Big mistake.

The moment I stepped outside of our town, a group of robbers surrounded me.

"Ooo, she's a little fairy," someone said, noticing the mark on my hand.

"If you don't leave me alone, you're begging for Fairy Tail to come and hurt you," I threatened. The men laughed.

"Fairy Tail couldn't defeat my grandma," one of them scoffed. My blood boiled. How dare they make fun of my beloved guild!

"I'll give you one more chance to leave me alone," I said darkly.

"Yeah, what are you going to do? Kick my shins and go tell your daddy?" he taunted.

"I'll show you not to mess with Fairy Tail! Gate of the bull, I summon thee. Taurus!" I called, turning his key in the air. The large cow appeared out of the ground

"I will protect my master and her body!" he yelled, pounding two of the men in one swing of his axe.

I dodged out of the way of who I assumed to be the leader. He was coming straight for me. Taurus was busy getting everyone else, so this guy was all mine. I took out my whip and flicked my wrist. The rope coiled around his ankles and knocked him off his feet. I stood over him and laughed.

"Now say you're sorry," I taunted. I don't know what came over me. I was so angry at this man, I felt like I could kill him.

'I'm sorry! Please don't hurt me!" he cowered beneath me.

"Not good enough," I hissed. I pulled my foot backwards about to swing, when I froze.

This wasn't me. What's going on? Taurus left already. These people were already down. They were saying they're sorry, begging for me to forgive them, that they won't ever bother Fairy Tail again. My hands shook. Why was I doing this?

Because you are a terrible person. You enjoy other people's pain.

No, I don't. I never have.

You're lying to yourself. Stop. You were secretly happy when Natsu was about to be consumed by that imposter dragon. You were ecstatic when you thought Erza and Natsu had been destroyed by Ertheon. Admit it.

I was not.

You were cheering in your mind when Gray was almost killed by Lyon.

"Shut…Up… Stop telling me these things!" I forced through my teeth.

Why? It's true, isn't it?

No…No it isn't…

If I'm telling lies, then why do you believe me? You hate your father. He hates you. You would be happy if he died.

"Stop," I whimpered. I forced my legs to move, to take me away from the robbers. I walked further down the road until I could no longer see them and sat on a stump by the trees.

It's the truth. You wanted Laxus to destroy everyone in the guild. You wanted Phantom to destroy your guild, to destroy Levy and her team.

"No. Levy is my friend," I said weakly. Dark spots were breaking across my vision.

She's your friend as much as Angel was when you almost killed her in your fight against Oracien Seis. You remember, when you used Uramo Meteora?

"STOP IT!" I screamed clutching my head.

Why? It's all the truth. This is why you can't destroy me. Because you know deep in your heart that this is all right.

"No, no, no, no, no, no," I chanted. I gasped as I turned cold all over. Umidjon appeared in front of me and laughed.

"Not only do I have control of your mind, now I have control of your body, too!"

A/N : I'm so sorry for any words I miss-spelled in this chapter! If you PM me the correct way, I'll update the chapter immediately!