I bring the blade to my skin once more. The blood drips down my wrist and a familiar sting is accompanied with it. Silent tears stream down my face as I continue the cuts..1.2.3

"Beth?!"

I quickly wipe up my wrist and follow where the voice was coming from, I halt at ricks cell where a meeting is being held...

"Okay so, if we get a group together some of us can go for a run for supplies, we need baby formula, blankets, pillows and hopefully some extra clothes and food.." I blank out as rick continues his weekly speech until Daryls eyes catch mine..oh we'll..not really my eyes but my wrist..I glance down to see some of the blood has seeped through my shirt and hurry to hide it. Daryl walks over to me and covers it in time for no one else to see. He glances at the door and I nod as we begin to back out slowly, trying to not draw anyone's attention. We make it out and head towards his cell. When we reach the cell he grabs me by the shoulders and shakes me. "What do you think your doing girl?!" I lose my balance and my eyes are blurry when he stops shaking me but I quickly regain both. "I...ever since..he..."

He sits on his bed and gestures for me to come and sit, "who Beth?"

He reaches out and puts his arm around my shoulder.

"Jimmy, he..."

My breathes is shaky as I say the next line.

"When we we-we're t-together he used to be a b-bit violent... A-nd one d-day he t-took it t-too far... He tried to r-rape me."

I'm crying now and I can't seem to stop. Daryl remains perfectly still.

"A-and I get n-nightmares about it and i...I didn't know what else to do."

By this point his holding me as I sob, patting my back smoothly and whispering soothing words. "Shhh, it's okay darlin' it'll be okay, he's gone now. Ain't no one gonna hurt you. I promise."

I wake up to the feeling of someone next to me. I shift and hear a moan...wait a moan?! I turn my head slowly and look behind me. Daryls sleeping figure shifts and something hard presses up against me...a blush creeps over my face until I completely still as he shifts once more, grinding into me as he whispers something. I couldn't make out what he said so I listen intently as he says it once more

"mmmm b-beth" a small gasp escapes from my mouth and his movements still. I know he's awake now. I slowly get up and sit on the bed, him following suit. I try to sound confident and casual but it comes out more as a squeak.

"Good morning daryl"

I cough as he says back "mornin'"

"How did you sleep?"

"Decent enough girly, how you feelin'?"

I looked down at my lap as my hands nervously fumble with each other "pretty stern I guess"

We look at each other and a small smile appears on my face, he's staring at me..."what?"

He looks around nervously and scratches the back of his head "just...never seen anyone so beautiful"

He looks back at me and we stare silently for a few moments before he starts leaning in...I take a deep breath and lean in as we both start inching closer and closer...only moments apart between our lips, they both start to touch and...

"What the hell is going on in here?!"

We jump apart as I turn to see maggie with her hands on her hips.

"N-nothing" I stand and walk towards her "we were just talkin' I'm thinking about doing some ahh..."

"Training." I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding as daryl cuts in saving me.

"She doesn't know much and she's never killed a walker so we might as well help her defend herself before something happens. Especially since she's always with Judith,"

Maggie doesn't look convinced at first but eventually she breaks, "hmm alright, good idea. So you gonna train her Dixon or what?"

His face remains unreadable; "sure, why not."

My heart leaps as I realise how much more time I'll be spending with him. Maggie signals me to walk with her and I say a quick goodbye to daryl before we walk out of his cell.