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Kim looked at the water that was under her as she stood against the railing of the bridge. Her chin was on her arm and she looked as boats were sailing over the water.

Turning around then, she looked at all the people walking by. The couples passing by. The boys had their arms around the girls, holding them, protecting them and the pretty girls smiled back.

She knew she would never be that pretty again in Ruzek's arm.

''KIM!'' Adam yelled as he came home. He hoped that she was here, but she was nowhere to be found. He tried her phone again, but got no response, not even over the phone.

''Oh please Kim…please.'' He begged his phone but it changed to her voicemail again.

Worried he called Voight and Voight called Antonio, but Antonio did not know where she was either.

He had to find her!

Upset he got to his car again and drove around the streets that surrounded the gym and where she had been laughed at by the boys. He saw them and he felt the need to drive the car against the bench, so they would all fall off but he just kept on driving because finding Kim was more important. Driving for hours and hours he got disparate as he could not find her and he kept calling her but there was nothing.

It was already evening when he returned home, panicked because he could not find her. He had to find her! Even if he had to keep driving his whole life.

Then he called back Voight, hoping that he had hear anything on Kim.

''Still haven't heard anything?'' Voight asked worried. Then the door of his apartment opened and he could hear it was Kim by the footsteps.

''She is here.'' Ruzek said then and he hung up the phone.

''Ooh…ooh.'' Adam said with tears in his eyes as she came walking in, relieved and ran her way, pulled her in his arms. He almost started to sob, so relieved that she was found and kissed her all over her face.

''Why did you walk away…I was so scared…I didn't know where you were.'' He whispered then.

''I was just taking a walk. I am okay. Forgot my phone, it is on the charger there…on silence.'' She said, pointing at the phone on the charger in the living room and he sighed, almost angry.

''You are not okay. You walked away and you were gone for the whole day…I was so worried! I was scared you were going to do something stupid because you were so upset!'' He said, upset and crying and she was looking at him, trying to smile.

''I just took a walk.'' She said again.

''You were gone the whole day. I was so worried. Can you imagine that I was so worried. Why didn't you take off your phone and I know you are not okay.'' Adam said then and she shook her head.

''I am okay, Adam. I am.''

''You are not, you are not okay and you are not talking to me. Don't you love me that you can't talk to me?'' Adam asked, concerned and hurt.

''I can't do this anymore if you can't talk to me.'' He said then, looking at her with tears in his eyes and she just looked with him.

''Are you going to break up with me?'' She asked concerned.

''I don't want to break up with you. I just want to be okay with you again. I want you to talk with me so I know that you are okay, but you just don't talk to me and I feel like you are lying to me.''

''I don't want to hurt you.'' She said then, concerned. She wanted to talk about it to him.

''Then tell me what is wrong with you. Are we moving too fast? Is it the new job? Are the nightmares of getting shot….or is it me?'' He asked then.

''No…it is not you…it is just…I can't handle these changes very well. I love you so much.'' She said then and she felt bad because she still didn't dare to tell him the truth.

''Let's go to bed. Tomorrow is Sunday. We can talk about it tomorrow.'' He said then. He laid his arm around her as they walked to the bedroom and she thought about having to tell him what was happening in her head, how she hated her scars and herself for it and that she was worried that he would leave her because of it, eventually, when he would meet a prettier girl, that was better for him.

He fell asleep beside her, closing his weary eyes after the fear the whole day. She just sat on the edge of the bed after he fell asleep, not sure what to do. In the end, she would love him if she wasn't going to talk, but she was worried she would lose him too if she was going to talk. She didn't want to lose him!

Maybe if Roman had had her back, she wouldn't be shot. Slowly she walked to the living room and took her phone of the charger there and called Roman's number.

''Hey, can we talk tomorrow over lunch?'' She asked as he took of the phone. She was very upset with him, still and she waited nervous for his answer, as he was making unsure sounds on the phone, trying to think of a way to say no. At least, that was what it sounded like.

''Sean, come back to bed. We aren't done yet.'' She heard with a giggle and she recognized the voice. It was Jenn, they were back together.

''Roman don't you dare to hang up on me, you owe me this.'' Kim hissed but then he hung up the phone. Angry, Kim threw the phone aside. She had been thinking about jumping off that bridge….she had been so close but she loved him and she wanted to keep fighting for him. She wanted to be with him and be happy again because she knew she had to, she had him and she had the job she wanted, she needed to stay strong.

Trying not to think of her scars she looked in the mirror one more time, trying to tell herself she was beautiful, although it did not work.

Maybe she would feel better if she saw her friends again whom she knew from her work as a flight attendant. Maybe it would make her feel better and she wouldn't have to think of the scars so everything would be better with Adam as well, because she didn't want to lose him.

She laid down beside him in bed, kissing Adam on his cheek, laying close to him and hoping she could fall asleep, but the laughs and the jokes of the boys about her scars kept sounding in her head.

NOTE: Kim has been on the bridge with very dark thoughts when she still decided to come home because she wants to keep strong for Adam. Adam was very upset though and still worried about her and thinks it is his fault she is unhappy. They are okay now and can they keep going like this? Kim is trying but can't work through it all and can't alk about it and she is slowly getting estranged from Adam and her new job.

Still coming up: Kim is going to try to Roman again and things are getting out of hand and she is going to meet her flight attendant friends, but how will that go?

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