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''I am so sorry, I am so sorry. You can't even imagine how sorry I am.'' Adam said as he brought another cooling back to her and she held it against her lip again. When his elbow had hit him in the face, her lip has burst and she looked up.

''It is okay. Don't worry.'' She just said and he sat down beside her.

''Sucks to be suspended for a week.'' Adam said then and Kim looked at him and let go of a wry smile.

''At least you got to punch Sean Roman in the face.'' She said then and he smiled then as well, carefully .

''You should punch him in the face too, just not in a working environment.'' He said then. ''might make you feel better.''

She smiled again and looked down.

''Punching him won't make the scars go away.'' She said then and he laid his arm around her.

''I get that you want them to be gone…but why do you let them bother you so much? They don't bother me and they should bother you. It will make you feel better if you just let it go.'' He said.

''It is not that easy. I can't let it go because every time I look in the mirror, I see them being there again.'' She said and he shook his head.

''Why are they bothering you? Please tell me, I want to help you.'' He said then.

''You can't help me because you can't remove those scars and they will always remain there.'' She said then, tears in her eyes. She wanted to get up and walked away but Adam took her wrist.

''Is there anything I can do for you?'' He asked as he didn't know how he could make her feel better.

''No, you can't do anything, it is me.'' She said sad, crossing her arms and she hated herself more than ever, he was so sweet but she could just not get better with this. The scars kept bothering her with the thought that they would never go away and she would be stuck with them forever and that was what made her most upset.

Carefully she pressed the cooling pack against her lip again and walked to the bedroom, sat down on the bed, upset because she didn't even know what to tell him. Slowly he walked into the bedroom as well. Almost without any sound, he sat down beside her on the bed and he looked at her.

''Can I show you I still think you are pretty?'' He asked then and carefully she nodded and he moved closer, took the ice pack from her hand and carefully kissed her, his hand moving under her shirt and he wanted to pull it over her head, when the doorbell rang.

''Let's get to the door.'' He said then, realizing that they could continue later and slowly they walked to the door and opened it.

Sean Roman was looking at them from the hallway, with a black eye and holding a big bouquet of flowers.

''Kim, can I talk to you?'' He asked then, holding the flowers out to her and Adam backed off a little bit.

''I am sorry I hit you.'' He said then, looking at Roman's battered face.

''I deserved it.'' Roman said then and Kim stood in front of him. ''These are for you.'' He said, holding out the flowers and Kim didn't take them at first.

''Thank you for coming but are you here because you want to come or is it just because you think you should because of the fight for today?'' Kim asked then.

He was silent and Kim shrugged.

''If you are not here because you are actually sorry then I don't want to talk to you. You are just here because you got your ass suspended by Platt and she told you to come see me.'' She said and he shrugged.

''But I am really sorry, I didn't have your back while I should have.''

''Yeah, you should have had my back when I got shot but also after! And you didn't have my back either time. And now you are together again with Jenn, right?'' She said and he nodded.

''I wish you lots of luck with Jenn.'' She said then, still not smiling and he sighed.

''Did you forgive me?'' He asked then.

''I don't know if I ever will.'' Kim admitted then and she closed the door.

''Those were nice flowers.'' Adam said, dryly.

''But I don't want flowers if they don't have any meaning.'' She said and he hugged her.

''I think you handled it well.''

''Did I?'

'''Well, you didn't punch him in the face.'' He said and kissed her on her forehead and they walked back to the bedroom. They kissed again, continuing what they had started and Kim did not feel comfortable at all, although she tried to. She wanted to be okay with him. They shared another kiss and Ruzek carefully pulled the shirt over her head and kissed her, held her as he unhooked her bra and she kissed his neck as well, trying to feel more and more comfortable. She kept kissing him as he let her bra fell to the floor and his hand was on her breast now, really close to the scar. His hand traced down to her jeans and he felt the scar on her lower side, where the vest had not been to protect her anymore and there was another small scar and he bend down, kissed that small scar as well as she caressed his back. Her heart was racing because she didn't know how to feel about this and she wanted to let go of him.

Adam's hands caressed her upper body and stopped by the scar in her neck and he put a kiss on it and moved to the large patch of scar on her arm, not sure how she would feel about him kissing it but when he looked up, she was crying.

''I am sorry, I didn't want to hurt you.'' He said then and she shook her head.

''You didn't, I just don't feel ready.'' She said then, and he nodded. He wanted to be intimate with her but if she wasn't ready for it, he could wait. He didn't want her to feel bad again and instead they just laid down in bed and he put his arm around her. As long as he could still hold her, it would be okay. Hopefully.

He just wanted her to feel comfortable again.

NOTE: Adam and Kim talked a little more and Adam wanted to show her that he still really loves her, scars or no scars but then Roman showed up with flowers and tried to make it up, but she realized that was only because Platt had told him to and said she isn't sure if she will ever forgive him. Ruzek tried to get to her again and although she tried, she couldn't feel comfortable but he promised to wait until she feels comfortable again and hoped that it would be soon.

Still coming up: Ruzek 's suspension gives him some time to arrange something special for Kim and Kim runs into trouble on the job because of being shot.

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