The silence enveloped the room. Olivia simply lay in bed, staring at the wall in front of her. After a sleepless night, filled with tears and worry and anger, Liv seemed to barely be holding on.

She had yet to hear anything regarding her son and his well-being. Dr. Dawson had come in already that morning to check on her, but had mentioned nothing about the baby. And as Olivia was already emotional after giving birth and not getting to see her son, the lack of news was not taken well.

"Do you need anything Liv?" Cragen broke the silence, solely because it was driving him crazy.

"I need to see my son." Olivia was stern and didn't even turn to look at the man when she spoke back to him.

Cragen sighed, but didn't respond to her answer. He would have given anything to secure the health of that baby boy and to be able to tell Olivia that it would all be okay. She had been through hell, pure unadulterated hell, multiple times now. No one he knew deserved a little happiness more than Liv.

There was another hour of tension and silence before the least expected happen. A doctor, not familiar to either Olivia or Cragen walked into the room. He was a young man, dressed in dark blue scrubs and a white coat. He wore a content look on his face.

"I'm Dr. Austin, the pediatrician on your son's case." He held his hand out to shake Liv and Cragen's hands. "I know you've been waiting to hear about the baby."

"Is he okay?" Olivia really wasn't one for small talk on a normal day, now was the last time she wanted it.

The doctor smiled. "He's better than okay. He's perfectly healthy."

Olivia stared at him for a moment. Had she actually heard him correctly? "He's what?"

"He's healthy and doing very well." The doctor confirmed what he had already said. "He needed a little help and we had to suction his lungs to remove a little excess fluid, but he's breathing all on his own, his heart rate is great, all of his tests came back clear, he is perfectly healthy."

Olivia felt the tears well up in her eyes at the words, but she held them back. "When will I get to see him?"

As if on cue, and before Dr. Austin could answer the question, a nurse came in rolling a plastic basinet containing the baby boy.

"There he is." The doctor moved out of the way and the nurse pushed the baby next to Olivia's bed. "I'll leave you to get acquainted, if you have any questions feel free to have one of the nurses find me." And with that the male doctor left the room."

But the last thing Olivia was watching that moment was the doctor, her eyes were locked on her son. He was small, with soft features, and Liv swore she saw a little bit of his father in him already. And he was the most beautiful thing the new mom had ever seen; he was hers, all hers.

The nurse unswaddled the infant and carefully picked him up. "The preference is some skin to skin contact with mom, so I'm just going to lay him on your chest."

She discretely slipped the baby onto Olivia's bare chest under her hospital gown. The new mom stared in awe at the tiny human laying against her. Wrapping her arms gently around him, she felt at ease. It felt natural for him to be there with her. It was all she had ever hoped it would be. From always wanting a child of her own to that moment with her son lying on her chest, Olivia felt like it was all she could possibly ask for.

After the nurse slipped out, Cragen went to stand on the other side of the bed to get a better look at the newborn. "He's absolutely beautiful."

Liv nodded as she watched the baby. "He is."

The room was quiet for a little while and Olivia enjoyed it. She got to take in every little aspect of her son. The way he fussed every time she made even the smallest movement, or how he cooed with content when she rubbed his back gently, or the way he snuggled against her like he knew he was safe, it all made her deliriously happy. And she felt like a mom, like she was finally connected to the little person she had been carrying with her for the last eight and a half months.

After nearly an hour of watching her son sleep on her chest, the nurse who had been there earlier came into the room. She helped move the baby and swaddle him back up, so the mom could hold him in her arms.

"Do you want to hold him?" Olivia asked Cragen. As much as she didn't want to give him up, she knew he had been patiently waiting and Liv wanted her son and the person, who was the closest thing to a father she would ever have, to share a bond.

"Please." Cragen carefully scooped the tiny baby into his arms.

Cragen watched the infant, who quickly fell asleep, and couldn't help but get a little teary eyed. He didn't have any children of his own and after spending fifteen years with Olivia, she was the closest thing to family that he had and now this baby would be his family too. In that moment he vowed to do anything he could for the little boy and his mother.

He looked up to see Olivia watching him contently. "Do you have a name picked out?"

That was probably the only thing Olivia had decided. "I think I do." The answer instantly brought her back to one of her memorable moments shared with Brian.

With a long day finally behind her, Olivia settled on the couch with a cup of tea and one of the many name books she had purchased since finding out that she was becoming a mother.

Brian walked in as she flipped through the pages. "Hey babe." He walked in from the front door, walked up to her, and planted a small kiss on her forehead.

He sat down on the couch next to her, picking up her stretched out legs and placing them on his lap. "Still looking at names?"

"I figure that if we start now we may actually have on picked out by the time the baby gets here." She joked, but knew that it wasn't much of stretch as the parents seemed to be unable to come to a consensus on even just one name.

"Actually I heard one I think I really like. Well if it's a boy." Brian admitted it to his girlfriend, who could see in his eyes that there was something about whatever name it was that he liked.

"And what is that?"

"Judson." Brian said it quietly, like he was almost embarrassed to have mentioned it in the first place.

"Judson." Olivia repeated it out loud. "You know, I think I really like it, too."

Brian beamed with pride at her response. He had heard the name a few days earlier, where he couldn't remember, but it had immediately resonated with him. Something about it stuck with him.

"What do you think of using Brian for his middle name?" Liv asked, suggesting a little homage to the baby's father and her boyfriend.

"Absolutely not. We're not naming him after me." There was something about a child with the same name as their father that rubbed Brian the wrong way.

Olivia laughed at his refusal. "Okay, it was just a suggestion."

Brian looked at her. "I was actually thinking we should name him after Don."

"Really?" Liv questioned.

"Yeah. He's important to you Liv, I know how much he means to you. And I would be proud to have our son named after someone so special."

It was the one thing she still had of Brian, the name they had decided on that evening in their apartment. It was simple and not forced; it was the name she knew was meant to be.

"But I have to ask you something first." Olivia prefaced her question. "Would it be okay if I named him after you, his middle name?"

Cragen stared at her, too shocked by her question to even answer. It was quite possibly the most important question he had ever been asked and he was at a loss for words.

With a lump in his throat and his emotions threatening to overflow, he finally gave her an answer. "I would be absolutely honored."

The same mass amount of emotion was taking over Olivia as she looked at the two of the most important people in her life. She was thrilled to have Cragen say yes.

"Well, then…" A few stray tears fell down Liv's cheeks as she tried to speak. "I would like you to meet Judson Donald."

And that was the exact name that was put on the birth certificate that afternoon, along with the last name of his father. The nurse had been slightly confused when she had answered that his last name would be Cassidy rather than Benson, but Olivia knew that there was no other name for her son.

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