Second Worst

Chapter 8

Usagi POV (Yea I know but third just didn't work)

"This elevator is just..."

"Not right." I gave Mamoru a strange look watching as he leaned his back against the glass closing his eyes in frustration.

"Yea..." Awkward silence full the ride as the elevator inched closer to whatever Zoisite had planed. My curiosity started to build as I wondered why he was even here. "Um, Mamoru-Ba..san." It felt strange not to pull my usual nickname.

"Yes." He replied, not brothering to open his eyes.

"Why do you want the Nijizuishous ?"

He opened his eyes and sighed deeply. For minute I thought he wouldn't answer my question. I fear he was finding me to pushy, but I had to know why he was mixed up with neageverse. He stared into the night sky, as if it held the answers. My heart beat frantly, praying he would say something.

"When I was six years old, my parents and I were in a car accident, They die on impact. I escape with few injuries but with no memory of who I was or who they were. The only reason I even know my name is cause of the doctors. All my life I've wonder who I really am."My heart went out to his story as I listen intently. " I'm hoping that the Nijizuishous,will lead me to the Maboroshi no Ginzuishou. And that it will tell me the truth." He looked back at me. " I don't why I just told you all that."

"I've been told, that I can be easy to talk to." I shrugged before placing a comforting hand on his shoulder and smiling gently at him. " I understand and hope I can help in someway."

He smile back at me. " They seem to be right, Usgai-Chan."

"You see, you do know my name." We both laughed, I couldn't help noticing the small smile that he gave me. "You know, I used to think you were the worst person in the world, but now your the second worst..."

The dream faded as the sunshine started to peak thru the living room. It disturbed my sleep pulling me away from my dreams. I grabbed my pillow and tried to block it, but it was no use. Dawn was here and I was wide awake. I rolled over a bit on the small some what comfy couch; to read the main computer clock. Five forty five..way too early to be awake, but I knew sleep would not come back to me. Stretching out the few knots I had gotten from it, I made my way to the small kitchen. The aches of my muscle made me wonder why on earth I had gave Luna and Artemis the only bed in our headquarters.

For a basement though it seemed to be decked out with everything anyone could need. With a small kitchen, with plenty off space for food for three. With a built in microwave and medium side fridge. The living area had a large couch, that I had claimed for my bed. As well as the main computer, that Luna would consonantly be on. There was also a small bedroom that Luna had offer me at first but I turned down. Thinking that her and Artemis would be more comfortable together. I laughed thinking back to her blush, it had been fun to see the all in mighty Luna embarrassed.

I quickly garbed an apple before heading to the only bad thing about our home. The small single bathroom. Two woman and one bathroom was never a good thing. I constantly felt bad for Artemis who would have to fight for his chance for a warm shower. After three days of him sulking I had decided to try and be the first one to shower. In hopes that it would help the poor guy.

I finished the apple quickly before throwing it and missing the trash can. I debated picking up, but decided on leaving it for now before garbing my pink towel. Luna knew that I wasn't the cleanest person and had gotten used to my clutter after five weeks. Well sorta, she still nagged me to clean up after myself. Which sometimes I would, other time I just didn't want to. This was one of those times.

I close the door, locking it behind me. I did not want an repeat of were Artemis had walked in on me...again. I stoked a way the memory before throwing my shorts and tank top to the side. Quickly turning the shower on to hot, I turn to look into the mirror.

My long blonde hair sloppily spread around my face. I sighed in annoyance, I had tried to cut it short the minute I return form the battle with Beryl. But unfortunately it seem to have a mind of it own and after getting a short cut that made my old friend Ami hair look long. It grew at least three inches in one day. Luna had stated that the moon royal family always had long hair. I had told her that it might have been nice then but now it was just annoying. She simply rolled her eyes and dismissed the subject. Probably something she would do if I told about my dreams.

The steam started to fill the bathroom, telling me the water was just the way I liked it. Steaming hot. I step slowly allowing the hot water to hit my sore muscles just right. Feeling the comfort of the shower I allowed myself to think back to the dream. Well the memory, that had been the day to change everything.

The day I learned that my so call arch enemy/secret crush was my other crush and somewhat partner Tuxedo mask. As well my lover from different lifetime. I could remember feeling both shocked and happy when I found out. Mostly for two certain reasons. One having two crushes was hard, even for a boy crazy sixteen year old like me. Though who wouldn't fall for Mamoru Chiba. With his short onyx hair, that always reflect the sun just right. His midnight blue eyes, that always pulled me in. And muscles that made any girl swoon at sight. The best benefit was height, I like tall men. Though most men are taller then five foot four self. But he was just right, the perfect for me to fit my chin just at chest. A perfect man for cuddling. Though the only way I knew this was because we frequently bumped into each. And I mean literally bump into each other. This cause teasing and childish manics.

We had always seem to find something to argue about. He pick on about my terrible grades, my so call klutz attacks, ,u eating habits or any other flaw I had. I would tease him about being too smart and try to have good come back to his insults. He would call me Odango-Atma and I would reply with Mamoru-baka. It was everyday cycle. But I still fell for him, even though the word hurt. I guess I was begging for pain. Sorta the same way I had fallen for the mysterious Tuxedo mask.

Now that I think back to it. It was obvious that Mamoru was him. The man who save me the Sailor Guardian who barley knew what she was doing. They both had the onyx hair and same structure. The only that may helped protect his identity had been the domino mask that hid his eyes. I had fallen for him during the first save from Beryl's monsters. Fighting with had been fun, and I always something new about myself. He helped become brave. To find they both were the same was nice.

Well nice till he took an ice shard to the chests. Sacrificing his life for pitiful me, klutzy Usagi. Who just happen to be the moon princess. Though that too should have been obvious. I mean come on Sailor moon, Moon princess. To find out that we destine to love each other due to forbidden love in our past lives. Only deeper my emotions for him. Though I didn't get to explore those emotions long.

Before I knew it my Prince was taken from me. They had brained washed him. We would spend weeks fighting each other, for a pretty rock. A rock that was powerful, but just a rock to me. That rock had caused so much trouble. It caused my close friends to die for me, my love to die. He had even tried to kill me. That rock was only good for one thing; my wish.

I feel the water getting colder as I rush to finish my shower. Wishing I hadn't gotten loss in my memories. The memories only I had. A part me regretted wishing that no one remembered me. I had visited everyone the day after I had woke up. Just to check if they were okay, relieved to see them alive. I had had the guts to check on my family, the first I even saw my mom was that unforgettable grocery trip. My last one. But I had come to grips with it and was happy they were safe. Which brought to my dream.

Why the hell was I thinking about that day? Why was I thinking about that moment? I hadn't seem him since the spotting him in the store. I hadn't stayed long enough to even to even know how he was. He was still haunting my mind it seem. No matter I could never get far from him. Not that I didn't want to see. I missed him, more then anything In the world. He had been the only guy I ever loved. The only guy I would ever love. Even if our relationship was rocky, I love him. And wanted to see him everyday. Thinking about him was like an alcoholic thinking about his last drink. The need for more, even fighting to be sober. It was like I was still going long detox. My body even she shake with the need for just a peek. A sip to calm my nerves.

Without thinking about he consequences, I dressed in a hurry. I didn't brother to brush my hair, knowing that my transformation would take care of that. I rushed out to the alley. Ignoring the good morning call from Luna. I called out my transformation and headed up to the rooftops.

One peek was all I would need. One peek and I would stop thinking about him, one peak and maybe I could move on. Even though I was fighting alone and Beryl's youma were gone. I still enjoyed protecting Juban from mugger, break ins and rapist of the streets. It been a good way to release my bent up emotions. All I need was just small peak and I go back to my life as the lone guardian.

I came to stopped on of the largest apartment building and walked to the east side. I remembered that he was only four floor below the roof. A perfect view to his bedroom balcony. I looked over to see the reflection of his onyx hair. I knew he was man of schedule, and sunrise was the time he would drink his first cup of coffee and welcome the morning. I couldn't help but smile as I watched him. He looked well.

Okay, he looked perfect just the way I remembered. I felt the need to go down to him and embrace him. Kiss him senseless, but even if I did he wouldn't know me. No, our love would be a distant memory to him. I wiped away my tears before looking back at the sun. I had gotten my peek but it wasn't enough, I would always need more. The wind brush by me as I stared down at him. Praying he couldn't sense me. But as if to hear my thought he slowly started to look up. I ducked down, praying he hadn't seen me. I waited for wait seem like hours, in hopes that he wouldn't come up. After a few minutes I looked back down. He was gone and the roof was still empty. I felt a tear fall down my check as I started to move away heading back to headquarters. I knew that this wouldn't be the last time I took a peek at him. I knew the need would fill me again. I thought the loneliness was the worst thing about this wish. Being without my friends; even though I knew it right thing to protect them. But it was on the second worst thing this wish had cause. Being without him was worse...

(( A/n- I hope you enjoyed all my poem updates. I sorta wish this had made into the first chapter but at last it kinda came to while watching the old dub. Chapter 12 of home is on it's way look for later this week I promise. For updates like my facebook. I'm aware that the last few entries have not been funny like the first one but I do have a couple funny one planed. But I wanted to address some issues Usa is having; as well write poems cuz I like writing poems. If like my poems visit my blog for more. ((all links are in my profile)) Thank you for the reviews/fav/follows. Please leave a review! ~Saianio))