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"Who's Carlisle?" I asked, not sure it was smart blabbering about myself like that. Why do I have to be so stupid all the time?

"He is…" Jasper started. There was a pause.

"He is our father, in a way." Sais Edward. "He is the one who created us, made us vampires."

I was surprised by the answer. I knew how Link felt about John Breed, he hated him for what he did to him, how come they don't?

"You live with the jerk who turned you?"

Now they looked surprised and mostly confused.

"What do you mean?" Asked Edward. He looked a bit unconfutable with the question.

"Well, he did this to you."

Now they understood what I meant. Edward smiled.

"It's not like that. He saved us. Without him, none of us were alive."

"Except from me and Jasper." Said Alice. "But we are together a long time now, and we are like a family. Who knows where we might have been without this family."

I knew the feeling. I would probably be dark right now if not Makon and aunt Del. They made sure I knew I was loved, and they believed that I was too strong to go dark. And to consider the history of our family, this is not something to take for granted.

"I see." Was what I finally said. "Why then we should see him? And by 'we' I mean I?"

They all looked a bit jumpier then before.

"After off course, you basically told me nothing." I added. I was beginning to think it might was a mistake to make this conversation. I didn't know them. I didn't know what they wanted from me. This might not be good.

"You said your uncle doesn't have to feed on blood." It was Jasper who spoke first.

"Yes." I nodded.

"We don't want…" He was stalling. "To be killers."

I didn't know what to say. This was obviously a different case. They didn't look very incubuses to me. They had golden eyes instead of black. They didn't age. It was a total different case.

"Listen…" I started. "I know you might think I could help you with this. But the more we talk, I see that you are probably not incubuses, I don't know if those rules apply here."

None of them moved. Except Bella, they all looked like they were carved in stone.

It was Edward who finally spoke.

"Yeah… we guessed." His eyes turn to Bella just for a fragment of a second. "But we'd still like you to come. If you don't mind off course."

It was the way he spoke that cracked me. The way he looked at Bella. I finally understood. He and I were in the same boat, in love over our heads with mortals we can only hurt, even if we really try not to.

His eyes were locked on mine, he was thinking too. Probably hang on the tiny little possibility that he and she could really have a future. I knew that lost hope.

"I'll come."

We decided to meet after school was over at their house. Since I was living in a motel room, I didn't argue.

We still had another Biology class to attend. The three of us, Bella, Edward and me, walked inside the class and sat down at our tables. People still stared.

"It's because you were talking to the unreachable Cullens." Said Bella with a smirk. "I used to get those looks too. Everybody is used to that now." Edward rolled his eyes.

The lesson was boring just as the first one, although this time I wasn't spending it starring at Edward and Bella.

This time I took out my notebook. I expanded the Invisible cast on the writing to effect non mortal minds as well as mortal's.

I read a line that jumped to my eyes.

'We are standing alone / we are losing our minds / no one is immune.'

Love. I wrote that on me and Ethen after he saved me at the Great Barrier.

I was still wondering what he was doing at the moment. I wanted to Kelt him so badly. Just an 'I'm thinking about you'. But I still knew better.

I miss you L.

I jumped. Edward turned to me and Bella after him.

"Are you okay?" She mouthed me. I didn't know what to answer. Was I okay?

He Kelted me. Just as I was thinking about it. I felt an imaginary hands wrap me into a hug. It was the way Ethan would do it. My heart missed a beat.

"Yeah." I mouthed back. Edward didn't look convinced.

With a one moments decision I Kelted back.

You have to let me go.

I wanted to cry. I felt the mixed excitement about the replay followed by grave sadness by the contents that Ethan was feeling. I wanted to Kelt again, scream to his mind, 'I love you!'

But it wasn't right, it wasn't fair to him. I left because he deserves better than me.

I can't let you go. I love you, L. forever.

I loved him too. But I wasn't going to replay. I left the line between us empty, void.

I spent the rest of the lesson trying to prevent a lightning storm escaping my head. I wasn't doing a very good job.

At Trigo class, I sat next to Bella. Our table was at the end of the class next to a window. I sew her look at me every few moments, sending me looks full of wonder.

"Just ask." I whispered. She was driving me crazy.

She turned to me. I could see she was considering her words carefully. "You left Gatlin."

I raised an eyebrow. "That's not a question." I said.

"Why?"

What was she trying to ask? I told her why.

"What do you mean why? I already told you…" I replied.

She sighed and send me a meaningful look.

"What?" The word came out a bit too fast, and made Bella jump.

"You aren't telling me everything." She was, off course, right.

"Off course I'm not telling you everything, but so are you, there's a lot to my life I didn't tell you." I got angry. I'm not telling her about Ethen.

That was her turn to raise an eyebrow. And I found myself telling her about Ethen.

I told her about the day I broke the windows, about how he came straight at me asking if I was okay. I told her how he came to Ravenwood, faced my scary uncle, my family, how he didn't ran when he found out.

She spent the whole period listening, nodding in the right places. When the lesson ended, she and I went to the cafeteria. We were the first out of all the resident of the table. None of the Cullens show any sign.

"So I still don't understand why you had left."

I felt bad. It wasn't like I wanted to leave. "It's not fair to him, he is better off without me, my entire family are. I'm putting them in danger."

Her facial expiration hardened. "Don't do that."

"Do what?" She got serious.

"Don't assume you know what's best. The Cullens did it to me. Last year, when I turned eighteen, there was an accident that almost got me real bad, and they left. Pretending they don't care about me anymore to keep me safe."

"Don't you think it would have been better if they never came back?" I asked, a little afraid hearing the answer,

"Those were the worst seven months of my life." Her voice was hard. She looked on the break of tears.

"I couldn't live with myself if something happened to him because of me." Was all I could say. I searched in my head his presence. I stayed connected for just a second. It was too hard.

"We have a telepathic connection." I found myself saying. "I know he misses me."

"Then why are doing this to both of you?" She pleaded. "As one who was on the other side, it is definitely not better. You can't go back to normal human life after you tasted the unnatural, it doesn't work."

"I don't deserve him." I said with a small voice.

She put her hand on mine and smiled. "Let him decide that."