CHAPTER TEN: CHOICES, CHOICES , CHOICES.
Normal POV
Supper was fine, I didn't really eat well I just watched everyone else eat. Logan kept asking if I didn't like the pasta, I couldn't really speak with him looking at me , staring at me. Adian fell asleep in Amber's bedroom with Kyle, three sleeping angels. I feel that letting him see Adian is better for both of us and I hope he tries to…I don't know I just don't feel safe around him alone and I don't trust him with Adian but I feel drawn to him, like a bee is to honey.
For days after I left him, I would dream of him taking me away again and I would go willingly but after Adian was born, I had dreams of him taking him away and leaving me to suffer and die with this big hole of longing and agony for my son…I am scared of him, I have seen and experienced what he can do when he is crazy and full with bloodlust…when he is heartless and cold. Now you would say he has changed for the better, I agree he is different but that doesn't mean I will…accept him or forgive him.
Adian is fine with Mickey and my father, those are his fathers in a way. I don't need some hot-than-cold action near my son, he already needs to drink blood so he doesn't bite his friends. I hope that the witch in him doesn't fade when his body has to choose which side it wants to be, My mother said to me when he was "you shouldn't fear what he will became, you should love who he is and he is yours" that was when Logan was out of the picture.
Like shit man, I don't get it. I can't be selfish well except with Mickey and the last piece of choc-caramel cake my mother makes every second Sunday and the my sour worms, nobody touches my sour worms, I even buy Adian his own packet, which only lasts two minutes. But I have to overpower my fear and let Logan in.
The walk or run home is quiet, I told Mickey to go home , I was going to let Logan walk us home. He was reluctant but I told him I would call when I got home. After some time having everyone worry about is the best feeling or the best place to be in, I hate having people worry about and having people give me so much attention it's like they forget to live their own lives, but if they insist then what can I can do but let them. Like once I didn't answer my phone at 7 in the morning , about a month I "mysteriously" returned and Adam came over, in a panic thinking something had happened to me I couldn't help but laugh at him, I miss him. he moved to London to work with some publisher on a book he was writing about year ago and well Amanda decided to go too just for fun she said.
Logan knows I don't want to talk so we walk in silence…well not really silence. He carries Adian like he is a butterfly, and if he holds him too tight, he'll crash his wings and stop him from soaring far away from him. I think he would do that, but he wouldn't stop him from flying away, he would cage him and keep him to himself, away from me. Like he kept me from my family, he caged me. I looked like I was handling it fantastically but inside, ooh I wished there were no windows in that building so I could just jump out of there and be free. I always wanted that…Freedom, to be away from all the things that made me like i was caged, the way I felt when he first told me, that wherever I go, he would find me if I told anyone what I saw in the locker room and bury me alive.
We reach my door, I dig in my pocket for my keys when I find them I unlock the door and switch on the lights. I try to take Adian but he steps back.
"invite me in" He looks me in the eyes, like his searching for something.
"fine, come in" he steps in, and I close the door behind me.
"his room is-" he walks past me , and into Adian's room which is just down the hall from mine.
He lays him down on his bed, with jungle animals on his blanket. I stand in the doorway as I watch him take off Adian's shoes and tack him in, Adian stirs a bit, opens his eyes just a little when he sees me he sits up a bit, half asleep. After a few seconds he is fast asleep. I open the door for him and he steps out, looking at me, waiting.
"Thank you for walking us home" I smile, greatful.
"you welcome" we stand in awkward silence for a few seconds.
"well then, Goodnight Lo-" he blocks the door with his foot.
"I was wonder I may see him…again tomorrow?" I take a deep breath in.
"sure, come over tomorrow around 18h00, I 'll be home from work" he nods and removes him foot.
"Goodnight Logan" he smiles.
"Goodnight love"
intense pain as he sheathed inside me for the 5th time in 3 days, 3days of laying naked on my bloody sheets, when he comes in, he just takes off his clothes and climbs on top of me like he did today. I know the ceiling of by heart now, where every rose is and where every vine ends. I wince when he thrust harder than ever ,cold hand grabs my cheeks, his nails digging into the flesh of my cheeks. He makes me look at him.
"I want you to look at me" tears escape my eyes as I look into his completely black eyes.
Is this how all girls…well most girls are broken by these monsters? Who created these…creatures? They are so different, stronger and cold hearted, merciless. But maybe that's why they were created,humans we forget to fear what we don't know, there are things out there we don't know and the scary thing is that we've suddenly become the hunted instead of remaining the hunters.
His razor sharp fangs piece my skin, I try not to scream, I struggle and try to push him away from me, my neck but I'm like 2 year old fighting a bear or something way larger than it. He grabs both my hands with his big hand, pushing deeper into me. he kisses my neck, my jaw, my lips forcing his tongue into my mouth, I can taste it, copper.
"you are mine"
Memories, some are like treasures and some you just want to lock in a vault and thrown it into the deepest part of the oceans. When he said those words, I almost fainted…well I did from the blood lose but those words…can words scare you?.
"you okay?" breath out, and look up.
" yea Sammy I'm fine" I get up and put my cup in the sink.
"is it Logan?" I tense up but relax after inhaling and exhaling a few times.
"i think it is time Adian and I move again" I smile at her.
"you mean run, but this time for how long?" I look at my hands.
I sit on the chair facing her, I nod no. I don't know how long.
"you have to think about it first you know? I know running is no solution. Everywhere you go, he will find you, he is a Vampire" I gin.
" and I am a witch Sammy"
He didn't know I was Witch. Adian's a Halfling, his body, his true self will choose in time. I hope he is witch, I have nightmares of him tearing people apart and sucking them dry, body parts and blood everywhere, then I wake up, sweat running down my face and the sheets wet, I get up and sit in his room till he starts stirring. I don't know if letting Logan in will be the right thing or give me comfort. Comfort who am I kidding .
I step out of my black Jeep, and wait outside for 5 minutes when all the children burst out of the school, I spot him running towards me and smile slow creeps onto my face.
"a real smile" a shiver runs through me.
" why are you here?" he smiles at Adian who is only a few steps away from us.
"I want to…may I…I just wanted to see how you guys are doing" I ignore him when Adian hug my legs.
"hey you" I pick him up, he suddenly becomes shy when he sees Logan.
"hey Adian" Adian lies his head on my shoulder, he waves his tin hand, greeting Logan back.
" okay lets go get some food" he puts his seatbelt on, and I close the door after making sure I make sure it is secure.
"you coming?" he raises an eyebrow, with a very cock smirk, I roll my eyes and get in the driver's side. After a second or two he gets in.
" so what do you want to eat little man?" unpack the food we brought.
"Pancakes!" I hear Logan laugh from the living room.
" okay fine pancakes and what type of…" I stop myself before I say the word.
"AB!" oh gosh! Logan runs into the room, shocked written all over his face. I am officially retarded.
"he drinks blood?" I put down the peanut butter.
"Adian why don't you go watch some cartoons in your room" he nods, jumps off the kitchen stole and runs to his room, I wait till I hear the door close.
"you lied to me" I laugh soft.
"I never told you anything, I never told you the truth so I never lied in the first place" I walks towards me slowly, I'm prey and he is the lion.
"I know. They said it, and I didn't listen. He is my son, just like I claimed you" his cold finger brushes the scars on my neck, my shoulders, my chest.
"he may be your son, but he is nothing like you" I push away him from me, he slaps me ,sending flying across the floor.
"I will make you a deal. You allow me to see him, when I want, for how long I want or I will take him away from you or no better yet I will take you back to…what did you call it? Your cage" I stand up, and wipe the blood off my busted lip.
"oh you fucked up now" I whisper a Latin spell my granny taught me, his hands fly up, surrounding his head as he shouts, or screams in pain.
"I don't like it when people threaten me and my, MY son. You are no longer welcome to my house Logan McShane" he goes flying out the front door.
"and Logan…stay away from my son and out my dreams" I close the front door, and turn to get dinner ready.
Days pass without seeing him, not once. when I'm at work, Adian stays with Sammy and Mickey. Other witches guard my house with Mickey when I'm home. I feel selfish that is all I can say. I want to make a deal with Logan and I that is exactly what I'm going to do…maybe when hell freezes over. Adian sleeps with me every night, he refuses to sleep in his room saying there is a monster to his window watching him sleep, I just know it is Logan, he watches my son sleep, that son of a breach watches my son sleep.
He is a crazy, bloodlust pig face, aaaah the way I just want to,…I want to kill him. " never think that killing your enemy is the only way to defeat him Jadie" my grandmother always had something wise to say. I once had a dream where I did…in my own freaky way want Logan but then those razor sharp fangs come out and his eyes went complete black and I realized I just couldn't accept him. Could someone love him though? When you think about he is bipolar. The scars on my neck remind me every day why I want to keep my family away from him.
I will never forget the mask I wore the whole time I was in that building, nobody really knew that I was broken from the minute he first violated me. I would stand by the window and look at the outside world, well wherever I was, was nothing like the human world. My father told me about the Underworld, a world that looks exactly like the human world so as to trap humans who dare cross into the world of the supernatural. I told he went there once my father Josh Matthew Winters went to the Underworld.
My phone rings, playing Dog Days Are Over by Florence + The Machine I answer it, half sleep.
"Hello" I lay on my back.
"So many Witches guarding your house" I sit up, and pull Adian closer to me .
"well you did mess with the cousin or rather sister of the King of Witches so this should come as no surprise " he laughs.
"what if he is a Vampire, a full Vampire and not a Witch. What then? Will you carry on feeding him blood with a plastic cup?" my turn to laugh.
"Logan he is only 2 and half years old, you speaking as if he is 18 years old. I will make a deal with you"
"you will come to the Underworld with me?" I knew he was asking that.
" yes, if I may live whenever I want, and I want protect at all times. I want my family to be able to visit me whenever they want"
"okay" I breath out.
"I want to work when I'm there, and I want to be in the same or the room opposite Adian and far, far away from your wife…and you"
"okay I can do that" I look at Adian.
"I want my freedom to remain mine. you will look after both of us…you know what I mean" I wait a few seconds.
"I know…I promise I won't hurt you" I laugh softly.
"don't make promise you won't be able to keep. We'll be ready next week" I drop the phone. I know my family won't be happy but it beats having a dead daughter, sister/cousin and aunt, oh and also a missing grandson and nephew.
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