It hurts... It hurts so much... Why did I think I could trust her when it was such a blatant lie? I turn in my bed again. I can't sleep. Not with what she did eating at me. I sit up and start doing what I really shouldn't: think. Who knew thinking could be bad for a person?
Why didn't she just tell me? I question. What did I do to make her think lying was the way out? She should know that I'm an extremely understanding person... well. Understanding in the sense that I won't get extremely pissed off at her. I chuckle quietly. After all, I'd hate to wake someone up because of my pain.
I'm tempted to write more of my story, but I can't turn my light on. It'll wake people up so I'm stuck here in the dark with nothing to do but think and wallow in my confusion. And... a rubber band on my wrist. I pull the band back and listen to it snap back. It hurts less than her lying to me... I pull it back a few more times, keeping a straight face.
She isn't the only one who can cover up their feelings. I say in my mind snapping the rubber band repeatedly. Just because I don't bring it up anymore doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. she should relise that. She's poker-faced her way through situations before she told me.
I stiffen. She says she loves our friendship, but... everything could just all be a lie.
So um... this is the first fanfic I've ever posted. It's just kinda to see how people respond. And in case anybody was confused, Beca lied to Chloe for a really long time. I'm still a bit of a noob when it comes to writing, but I've been wanting to put something up for a really long time. so here it is. Constructive critisism welcome :3