Yes, I know it's not Sunday yet but I found a little time to write & didn't know when the next time I could update would be.

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To the one person who reviewed that the bold and italic letters distracted her from the story I just want to say that I understand where you are coming from and I won't be using bold letters anymore but I'm keeping the italics because it illustrates what's been said and I personally think it makes it easier to read. But, to each it's own, so I'm sorry if it bothers you.

Just in case anyone forgot, neither NCIS LA nor Kensi & Deeks are mine. The story is.

Kensi gives him a tentative smile upon hearing her nickname "That's not what I meant Deeks" placing a hand under his chin she pushes him to look at her "I need you to keep loving me" there, she said it.

Her words don't register with him immediately, he's still trying to figure out how he didn't see her coming towards him, trying to come to grips with her close proximity. When the words finally do register, he manages to crack out a strangled "Why?"

"Because I need to keep loving you"

If you take a chance you may win and be happy,
or lose and be wise
If you don't, nothing changes
- David Muecke

"I need to keep loving you, Deeks" Kensi repeats clearly, looking straight at him.

"What does that mean?" Deeks breathes, casting his eyes upwards, looking at Kensi.

If she didn't know any better she would have sworn there was a flicker of anger in his eyes. Becoming visibly frustrated Kensi takes a deep breath "You know what it means"

He knows this is the time to push, to not let her shut down on him again. Even if it means they fight. He's not going to back down that easy, not this time.
It had taken a lot out of him to come to terms with her rejection but he was managing. Now here she was, pretty as always, looking at him with her emotion filled eyes, telling him in not so many words that she'd changed her mind "Do I?"

"Deeks" Kensi says exasperated. She should have known he wasn't going to make it easy for her. She knew she had hurt him and he had been trying everything in his power to move on from their thing, from them. They both knew it wasn't that simple. It had taken a lot out of both of them, to try and move on.

Looking straight into her eyes, he sees the emotion swirling around and the only thing he can think about is how this is it. The yes or no, the do or don't, their breaking point "Kensi, I don't want cryptic clues as to what you are trying to tell me. If you can't just come out and say it, how am I supposed to know you really mean it?"

It's not that she doesn't agree with him, she does. And, the words are on the tip of her tongue but she can't seem to get them out "Deeks, I -"

Deeks rises from his seat "Forget it Kens"

She follows him with her eyes, and her breath hitches when she sees him walking towards the door. She can feel her panic rising, he's going to kick her out "No, Deeks. I need you to know what I mean"

Turning around he stalks towards her, determination in his step "Then say it, woman"

Kensi takes a deep breath, walking towards him she places both her hands in his "Deeks, I lo-" she starts, but the moment her eyes lock with his the rest of the words get stuck in her throat.
His gaze is so intense and it scares her beyond believe how much love this man has for her.
Love, for the woman who is broken beyond repair, with scars deeper than the deepest ocean. Love, for the woman who doesn't know how to open up, to trust completely, to love unconditionally. If she tells him how she feels about him now, there's no going back. She'll have to open herself up, let him in, make herself vulnerable, give away a piece of her control and she doesn't know how to do that.

"I think you should go" She anticipates the words before she actually hears them, and it's a double punch in the gut.
Knowing that he's giving her an out, again, she knows that this really is it. If she doesn't tell him now, she's never going to and things are truly going to be over before they began.

Willing herself to look at him one last time, she takes every ounce of determination she has, looks straight into his eyes, and states without hessitation "I love you, Deeks"

"Now that wasn't that hard was it?" Deek says, trying to lighten the mood.

Kensi gives him a tentative smile and inches closer to him "Shut up and say it back"

His eyes shine bright and he can't help but laugh at the beautiful woman in front of him "I love you, Kenselina. I really really love you"

Those words somehow break the last of her resolve "I'm truly, madly, deeply, head over heals, never going to recover, in love with you, Deeks"

After finally laying everything out on the table, realizing they're completely on the same page this time, it takes about all of two seconds for things to go back to normal.

They bicker and flirt like before and they both agree to put all of their effort into making their partnership work, profesionally and personally. They both realize that this is it and neither of them wants to screw it up.

The entire team dynamic changes now that they officially acknowledge there is a thing worth considering. Callen and Sam don't tease them about it anymore because they know how big of a deal it actually is for them to finally stop hiding behind the jabs and innuendo. Nell just squeals from delight and Eric just wistfully looks from Nell to Kensi and Deeks, hoping that one day soon he'll fight up the courage to do what they a chance.

Although they originally decided to take things slow it takes Deeks about two words and Kensi about all of one week to pack up her stuff and move in. A very small part of her wonders if she's moving into his apartment to make it harder for him to actually walk out on her, but the part of her brain that thinks rationally knows that Deeks would never willingly walk out on her and his place was just a tad bit bigger and relatively closer to work.

"Kens, you okay?" Deeks asks, wrapping his arms around her from behind. She relaxes into his touch and hums contently "What's on your mind Kens?"

"Noth-"

He cuts her off "Don't say nothing. I know you better than that"

Kensi can't help but smile, loving the fact that he indeed knows her, that he's actually the only one who really truly does. But she wonders if she should share this with him, she feels stupid for even thinking it "It's no big deal"

"Let me be the judge of that" Deeks says, turning Kensi around.

Somehow she feels that she owes it to him to tell what's on her mind. Isn't that what relationships are all about? Isn't that what it means to open up? "It's just that I wondered if a part of me moved in with you to make it harder for you to walk out on me" she stops, looking for any signs of frustration but the only thing she sees shining back at her is complete understanding, so she continues "I know it's unreasonable. You're not Jack. I know you love me and would never just walk out. There's just a part that thinks that you wouldn't leave your home as easily as you would mine"

"I wouldn't leave you even if we lived in a tent on the arctic" Deeks says. He knows that this is a realistic fear she has developed in life because of all of the people who left her but he wants her to know he's not one of those people.

"I wouldn't blame you if you did. The arctic is cold" Kensi counters smiling

Deeks laughs, "Life without you would be colder" giving a tiny kiss on her nose, he continues "Kidding aside Kens, I don't ever want you to doubt my love and devotion to you. I will never leave you like Jack did"

"I know" Kensi answers without hesitation "Just promise me one thing"

Deeks nods "Name it"

"Promise me we'll always try to talk things out"

It's quiet for a little while and Kensi briefly wonders if he didn't hear her "We're not good at that. You know. Talking" he finally says, uncertainty clouding his voice

"Deeks" Kensi warns, knowing he's only partly kidding.

Giving a weary smile, Deeks put a hand on his chest "Kidding Kens. I dashing Marty Deeks solemnly swear to always try to talk things out with kick ass Kenselina Blye" he states

"You're such a child" Kensi chuckles

"Oh hush Fern, you love me for it"

Kensi smacks him lightly on his shoulder before giving him a firm kiss "That I do shaggie, That I do"

A/N: Don't exactly know how I did it but I managed to put another chapter up for you guys through all of the hassle of moving. Please excuse any mistakes made because I'm on a foreign computer that doesn't recognize all of the words.

Anyway, don't forget to let me know what you think of this chapter and/or maybe even speculate on what you think will (our would like to see) happen next.