Okay, just a couple of things I want to address before we get into this chapter. First and foremost I need to thank each and every one of you who reviewed, favorited or followed this story. It still blows my mind. Secondly, I got a question from a reviewer if I was going to put the reaction of the team into a future chapter (about trying for another baby) and I decided against that. I had this chapter mapped out in my head before that question came and I feel like I don't have enough of a grip on the other characters than I have on Kensi & Deeks for it to do it justice. That also gets me to my last point. I feel like the natural progression of this story is working its way to an end and I don't want to put in 'filler' chapters just to make this story longer. It ends when it ends and I just want you guys to realize, we're nearing the end (of this story off course)
Anyway, without further ado here's chapter 15.

Why, he wondered, was it so hard to see humankind as capable of creating miracles?
Miracles were just second chances if you really thought about it,
second chances when all hope was lost
- Kaya Mclaren

When they eventually found out she was pregnant again, they had conflicted emotions. On one hand they were extremely happy to know it was still possible for them, but on the other hand the thought of going through something as horrible as losing Kaylee again had crippled them with fear. The fear of losing this baby comes with an ebb and flow throughout the first four and half months of this pregnancy. Deeks had ordered them into another round of therapy after he found out, before they actually managed to drown. She was still so very happy to have him by her side through all of it. He might never admit it but she knew that deep down Deeks was as scared as she was that they wouldn't make it through this pregnancy unscathed.

Things got even trickier when the twenty week ultrasound provided them with not one but two heartbeats. Never in a million years would they have thought that having twins was a possibility for them. She had been happy enough with the positive pregnancy test, knowing it was still possible.
The thought of not having to take care of one but two babies in her belly had managed to cause a terrible case of anxiety, which in turn could cause depression. Turns out, depression during a pregnancy isn't as uncommon as it sounds, especially not after a stillbirth. Their psychologist even told them to prepare for some of it before they even knew there would be two.
So, that's when they don't freak out when it eventually happens. She's almost 28 weeks pregnant when she slips into a two week depression. She calls in sick, locks herself up in the house, refuses to eat anything other than graham crackers and milk, and stays in bed for the entirety of the two weeks with the Doppler on her belly every hour to listen to their heartbeats.

Somehow around week 30 she manages to pick herself up, dust herself off and move forward with a new found optimism. As quickly and quietly as the depression spell came, so quickly and quietly it vanishes as well. One day she wakes up, shakes off all the negative thoughts, gets dressed and walks in to work like nothing ever happened.

She has been put on desk duty for the entire duration of the pregnancy before she could even protest. Not that she would have. She knew that right now, this time, she would do anything in her power to protect those babies in her belly and if that meant desk duty for nine months, then she'd lovingly provide that for them.

At the end of her pregnancy Deeks is even more concerned than he's ever been, and it's driving her nuts. She knows he means well, and it's just that he's scared but she just needs to breathe, a little.
Her phone rings for the fiftieth time that day and she simply presses the ignore button before letting out a really big sigh. Callen is sitting next to her and he can see the irritation resonating of her in waves "Kensi, give the guy a break. He's just scared," He knows that checking up on her fifty times a day might be considered a little excessive but after everything they've been through he can't fault the guy for being careful "I don't need to tell you that stress isn't good for the babies".

Kensi sighs, she knows that he's right but some days Deeks just really gets on her nerves. She's already 33 weeks pregnant and that means she's over the point where things went wrong with Kaylee and although this is a twin pregnancy and there are more risks involved, she's much more relaxed and optimistic than she thought she would have been at this stage. Deep down she knows that the easiest way to deal with him is to simply pick up the phone, tell him they are fine or maybe just send him a little text but somehow she decides against it. She might understand where this concern is coming from but that doesn't mean she has to accept it "I know" she answers simply.

"I think,-" Callen starts but he gets interrupted by the blasting of his own phone and he casts a quick glance away from Kensi "Hi Deeks" Off course he would call him if Kensi didn't pick up. Deeks knows that Callen is at OSP right now and has the best possible knowledge as to how Kensi's doing

Kensi sighs again; this is so typically Deeks that she manages to let out a quiet chuckle. Most days it's simply adorable how much he worries and cares for her and the babies, but today is not that day. She grabs Callen's phone away "Deeks, I'm fine. We're fine. All good. Go back to work" she says before pressing end and giving the phone back to Callen. She looks at him sternly "And don't you dare pick up again if you see it's Deeks" '

Callen thinks about saying something but decides against it. Never argue with a pregnant woman, the hormones will fight double the battle for her "Wouldn't dream of it" he says instead.

"Deeks, please. I can go" she says one day when he in not so many words forbids her to come with him to Nell's birthday party. She knows the worst thing that can happen but right now she's almost 35 weeks pregnant and every single day those babies stay inside her womb is another day they have a better chance at survival. And the shrink told her that she needed to relax for as long as she could. Right now, a party in honor of her best friend's birthday is as relaxing as she thinks she's going to be.

Deeks shakes his head vigorously "Kens, It's just a birthday. Nell will understand" She's thirty five weeks pregnant, has a belly that looks like a blown up basketball, her feet are swollen, sore and she can't even manage to tie her own shoelaces but yet she wants to sit at a birthday party for hours on end. Sometimes he really hates the stubborn streak Kensi has

"It's Nell. I'm going and that's final" she says resolute, and the way she looks at him lets him know he's going to lose this battle one way or another so he better just cave right now "Fine, your choice," he says, but he shakes his head when she throws her arms in the air to get him to help her up "No way Kens. You're the one who wants to go. You can get up yourself"

Kensi huffs "Jackass". Yes she wants to go to the party. It's Nell, her best friend. She's not going to stay away from one of her best friend's birthday parties because she's eight months pregnant. She huffs out another breath before she pushes herself off the couch and she smiles broadly when she manages to stand upright. She doesn't even needs Deeks help anyway, she can get ready herself. She'll show him.

One hour later she almost admits defeat. She had managed to change into something more party appropriate but she had to admit that it nearly cuts of the circulation to her brain and it's not nearly as comfortable as the maternity pants she had been wearing for the past few months. Right now, she's trying her hardest to put on her favorite pair of black heels, but somehow her bloated feet aren't cooperating. She looks at her comfortable sneakers and then back to the black dress she managed to worm herself in. That simply wouldn't do, she was going to have to make a choice. Either she changed clothes into something more comfortable so that she can wear her sneakers or she'd have to bite her tongue and push her sore swollen feet into the black heels. She feels the tears prick behind her eyes, and lowers her head, closing her eyes for a second.

That's how Deeks finds her twenty minutes later. "Kens? Are you ready to go?" he pops his head around the door. She's still sitting on the bed, head in her hands, crying softly "Kens?"

"I'm too big to fit into anything that's party appropriate," she sniffles. Her bloodshot eyes focus on him before she huffs "You were right. I should just stay home"

"No, I was wrong. You're pregnant, not an invalid. If you want to go with me then by all means I want you to come. But please just change into something more comfortable. You're eight months pregnant, nobody expects you to dress up" Deeks explains, dropping a kiss on her cheek.

Kensi gives him a smile through her tears, that's why she loves this man. He always knows exactly when to apologize or what to say to make her feel better. "Give me ten minutes" she says before disappearing back into the bathroom.

Exactly ten minutes later she reappears in a floor length summer dress that hugs her in all the right places and shows of her prudent stomach in the most beautiful way. Her hair is down and wavy, something it's been doing naturally for the duration of this pregnancy and it makes her look like a goddess. "You look breathtaking" Deeks says honestly, before he extents his hands and draws her in for a hug.

"I'm wearing flip flops underneath," Kensi's breath tickles in his ear. It makes all the hairs on his arms stand up. She lifts her head up and looks at him with an intensity he'll never get tired of seeing. This woman, this beautiful pregnant woman, can still manage to take his breath away with one single look. Deeks chuckles lightly before letting their lips meet in a sensual kiss "I won't tell if you won't"

At that point the babies in her belly make themselves known, kicking up a storm "I think your children agree" she smiles, before she guides his hand to where the babies are kicking. She can see his eyes glaze over when they kick again. As much as it has become a normal reoccurrence during the day (and mostly nights, much to Kensi's dismay) it still manages to be special every time they tell them they're still in there. Deeks rubs her belly, drops a kiss to it fleetingly before extending his arm towards her. She loops hers through without hesitation "Let's go tiger"

37, 5 weeks into her pregnancy she gets labor pains at night and even though they scheduled the induction for the end of the week she knows that maybe those babies of theirs are as stubborn as the both of them combined and will come out on their own terms.

She's exactly thirty eight weeks pregnant when sporadically her water breaks and they rush her to the hospital. The entirety of the labor is pretty much a blur to her; the only thing she remembers is that exactly five hours, forty-three minutes and twenty-seven seconds later Jayden and Alyssa Deeks Blye come into the world, both perfectly happy and healthy. With only ten minutes old she can tell that little Jayden is a spitting image of his father and Alyssa is a good solid combination of the both of them, with Deeks' piercing blue eyes but Kensi's full head of hair.

"Can I come in?" they hear a voice come from the end of the room and they both smile upon seeing Julia. They had called her mother before they got to the hospital but they managed to talk her out of coming any sooner than they were born, as a precaution. The doctor also told them they wouldn't let anyone other than the doctor's and Deeks in the room during labor.

"Mom," Kensi breathes happily, before shifting her attention back to their babies.

Julia walks inside slowly, tears already forming in her eyes when she sees both babies. "They are beautiful," she breathes and drops a kiss on Kensi's head before giving Deeks a tight hug "congratulations guys".

Later that night, when all the hassle and fuss over little Jayden and Alyssa has died down for the time being (seriously, he's pretty sure the entire OSP team has visited alongside Callen, Sam, Nell, Eric, Hetty and much to his surprise even Granger) he looks at his beautiful wife nursing and a sudden feeling of pride and admiration washes over him. She's not only this beautiful woman, his wife, she's also the most amazing mother in the world and he loves her and his children more than he's ever loved anything in his entire life and he's going to spend the rest of his life proving that to them.

There's a sudden knock at the door that shakes him from his thoughts. A blob of dark brown hair shows itself through the tiniest of openings "Anyone still awake?" he hears the voice say and the rest of the door opens quietly revealing a very tired, yet lagged looking Nate

"Dude," Deeks whispers. Kensi had managed to fall asleep quickly after feeding their babies and he wasn't about to let her wake up just yet. "You're supposed to be somewhere around the Galapagos Islands"

"I already had to miss your wedding; you didn't really think I was going to miss this did you?" Nate explains, enveloping Deeks into a tight hug. "You did good brother" he says, when he sees the two little bundles sleeping soundly in their little beds

"We did," Deeks smiles, looking at a peacefully sleeping Kensi "you want me to wake her?"

"No, let her sleep a little longer. I'll just keep you company" Nate claps Deeks on the back before taking a chair and sitting down.

They sit there in quiet admiration of the babies for a little while before Nate suddenly asks the question that he never got an answer to all those years ago "So, have you figured out what makes your partnership unique?"

Deeks chuckles lightly but before he gets a chance to answer there's a little grunt coming from the hospital bed "It's a love story" Kensi says, opening her eyes slowly and she gives them the most breathtaking smile before her eyes find their children.

Nate smiles, his eyes dart from Kensi to Deeks and then back to the two little bundles. There was absolutely no doubt in his mind that this was where they were headed long before they both even realized "It sure is"

A/N And now there's only an epilogue left to write. Reviews are love!

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