AN- This really has taken hold now. I have to give a big shout of Thank You to BonesBird for talking me in to getting this back out.
As they turned to face the test and the two sets of lines that were now sat there Brody let out a cross between a a strangled sob and a no. He watched as the realisation she was pregnant finally hit her and she literally crumpled. Turning in his chair to face her he pulled her to him as she sobbed and repeated the word no over and over. As she buried her head in his chest and cried he looked at the test on the table. There it was in front of him, prove we was going to be a father again. He couldn't hide away or pretend it wasn't real, it was there now in front of him and the woman who was carrying his child didn't even know it was his as she broke her heart as she finally saw for her own eyes she was pregnant.
All he could do was hold her as her world fell apart. He had no idea how she felt about having children or even if she wanted children. It was not something they had ever discussed and he never thought they would. He ran his hand up and down her back as he placed small kisses to her head. He had never ever thought he would be in the position, he was not only going to be a dad again he was going to be a dad after getting his junior agent pregnant by way of a one night stand that she had no memory of.
This was messed up, messed up big time. As he sat rubbing her back he felt her slowly gain some moderation of control as she finally sat up and looked back at the test on the table.
Taking it in her free hand she brought it closer as if it would change if she looked at differently.
"I can't do this." It was as simple as that for her as she put the test back in the bag and closed it.
"You have to do this, it's not going to go away." Pride told her as he squeezed her hand.
"It will go away if I make it." She looked down at their joined hands not being able to face him when he worked out what she meant.
It took a few seconds for his brain to work out what she had said and when it did he felt like he had been winded. She couldn't be serious, could she?
"Meredith look at me," using his finger under her chin to make her face him again as he brought her face back up level with his. "You need to explain. I don't want to jump to conclusions here about what you just said." Fearing what she was going to say next.
"I can't be pregnant. I can't have this baby. Christ I haven't seen or heard from its father since I slept with him at my housewarming party. This is not how I planned my life, not how I planned having children." She took in deep breaths as she tried to stop the flood of tears threatening to take over.
Now he was the one who felt sick. She still had no idea the child she was carrying was not Daniel's, but his. He needed to suck it up and face the music and tell her that there was every chance in the world the baby was his. He decided to tread carefully at first to test the water.
"I take it you didn't use any protection that night?" Even though he had seen with his own eyes, the open condom wrapper, on the night stand.
"Yes but it must have failed somehow." He knew it did happen but it was very rare.
Now it was time to step a little further out, he needed to see how she would react to it possibly not being Daniels.
"Is it possible that the baby is someone else's?" Watching her face change from shock to disgust to rage.
Lucky he was quick as her hand came up to make impact with his face but he caught it before she had a chance.
"How dare you suggest that. I am not some little slut who sleeps with a different man every night!" She tried to free her hand so she could attempted to hit him again.
He held her hand fast as he felt her trying to free it, no doubt to slap him again or at least try to. He had to tell her what had happened that night but he didn't want to ruin what they had. How could he tell her he possibly took advantage of her even if at the time she made it seem she knew he was there. He needed time to find a way to tell her.
"I had to ask, I'm sorry. Why don't you wait a few days and see how you feel. Don't rush into anything you may regret. At least give yourself a few days to think it over." That way he was buying them both time to change the outcome.
Brody didn't answer, she just stared at him as she finally stopped fighting to free her hand and went limp. Letting go of her hand he stood from the table and disappeared into the office. He locked up and came back through as he grabbed the bag off the table and offered her his hand. She was passed fighting, passed crying, passed pretty much everything as she just looked at the hand and took it as she stood up and followed him out the kitchen and up the stairs to his room.
Once in his room she watched as he stripped off for bed and climbed in. She just stood watching him, not sure what was going on. They had just sat and found out she pregnant with another man's child and here he was climbing in to bed as if she nothing had happened.
"You getting in? We still need sleep no matter what you decide to do." Moving the blanket aside for her to get in.
This was so surreal. She took her clothes off and grabbed a t-shirt from the pile before slipping it over her head and climbing in beside him. He tucked them both in as he turned on his side to face her. She was still lying on her back as he nuzzled up to her side and wrapped his arm round her waist pulling her close to him. How could he be so calm? He was more than happy to cuddle up to her as if nothing had changed between them. The fact she was pregnant didn't seem to bother him, never mind it wasn't his. She wasn't sure what to do, her head was in turmoil as she found herself turning to face him as she wrapped herself around him burying her head back in his chest.
He felt her give in and turn to him as he used both his arms to pull her closer as she buried her face in his chest. He should tell her but at the present moment he had hopefully bought them a few days to get their heads around the whole situation. He hoped she would change her mind and see that maybe the baby wasn't as bad as she first thought and maybe just maybe they could still work through it. As he felt her finally fall asleep he hoped the next few days were quiet so she could have time to think. At least he still had her in his arms and for that he was at least thankful as he felt asleep.
Next morning he woke and the bed was empty and cold beside him. It was then he heard her in the bathroom throwing up again. He hated seeing her sick but he knew he couldn't do anything as he got out off bed and made his way to the bathroom. Going through the same routine he filled a glass with water and put it on the floor with a towel for when she was done as he stood back and waited. Helping her back up he again stood and wrapped his arms round her as she cried at what she thought was an injustice of being pregnant with a complete stranger's child.
When she stopped crying he left her to get washed as he went to get there clothes out to get ready. After swapping places he got washed as she got ready, or so he thought. When he came back he found her stood in just her underwear looking down at her taut flat stomach. He came up behind her and wrapped his arms round her middle. He could see she was deep in thought as he kissed her neck.
"Speak".
"There's a baby in there and I have no idea what to do. I just made an appointment for the doctors day after tomorrow. I have two days to decided my future and what I should do" finally placing her hand on her stomach.
"I am sure you will make the right choice. Can I ask something?" Bringing one of his hands to rest on top of hers.
She didn't answer but turned to look at him as she linked their fingers together.
"If it was a different father would you feel different about it?" It was out before he could stop it and he couldn't take it back.
"If I was in a relationship with the father then probably yes. As it stands this baby would never know its dad. He doesn't seem like the type to go all doting dad of the year on me." Letting her hand open as she spread her fingers out.
Now he was stood like this with his hand resting over hers where there growing child sat he couldn't wait. He needed her to know, he needed to stop the torture they were both going through.
"If the baby was mine how would you feel?" Now it was crunch time.