"Sofia, Momma has a surprise for you tonight" Callie wants her daughter to be excited about having her own room, but is still worried that she'll be confused about where it is. And she has to admit, waking up this morning in her old room, was comfortable yet confusing.
"A brother?" Sofia asks, ever since Bailey was born, Sofia thinks she's going to get a brother too.
"No, not a brother." Callie replies laughing, "I can't tell you, that will ruin the surprise."
"Good morning", Callie says greeting Arizona in the cafeteria later that day. "How is your day going?"
Smiling, Arizona responds, "It's good. Have you decided what to do about Joan yet? Maybe we should plan her discharge together?" Her words suggest a patient meeting, but the look in eyes suggest something completely different.
Callie flushes, thinking of last night and waking up wrapped in each other's arms this morning. Now, an on-call room in the middle of the day?
Seeing the indecision on Callie's face, Arizona decides maybe it's too soon, but after two years of self-imposed celibacy and then finally being with Callie again, she's about to explode every time that she sees her. Trying to be cool, she simply says, "I'll be in my office, when you have time."
Watching the blonde walk away, Callie wills herself to move. Paralyzed by indecision, she realizes that she can't do this unless they are back together and she doesn't know if they are. Tempted to walk into the blonde's office and ask, but deep down, Callie knows it's not something that is easily asked and answered. Moving to grab a smoothie for lunch, Callie decides to go back to her office and review Joan's file. They actually do need to work on the discharge plan.
"Hey, you're right we, uh, we do need to work on this discharge plan." Callie says standing at the door to Arizona's office. Looking around, she notices the couch. When did Arizona get a couch in her office, Callie wonders.
"Right, okay. Let me get the file and let's work over there." Arizona gestures to the couch, so Callie walks over and sits down.
Laughing to herself at how nervous Callie is, Arizona decides the only nice thing to do will be to break the tension. So she walks over and sits down beside her. "Calliope, I'm sorry if I freaked you out earlier. My libido has been in hibernation for two years and last night, well, last night definitely woke it up. So I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable." Arizona apologizes.
"Arizona, that's not it. I just don't want to have a casual relationship with you." Callie blurts out.
"Callie, if I wanted casual, I'd have had casual and not gone two years waiting for us to happen. I want you, I want everything with you. Don't you see that?" Arizona asks, turning to look into those soft brown eyes and seeing everything Callie is feeling.
"I just, I just need to be sure. I don't think I can lose you again Arizona." Callie says softly.
"We are different people now. Wasn't that the whole point?" The blonde asks. "That we had grown apart and needed space to find ourselves again. Well, I've found myself Calliope. I've found my place and it's right here. I told you last night and I'll tell you every day if I have to. I'm not running any more. I'm in this, I want to find us again. Do you?"
Licking her lips unconsciously, Callie can't help but stare at the blonde. She's saying everything that I've wanted to hear for so long, but I'm afraid to trust it. Afraid to trust her. Afraid to trust us. Finally breaking the silence, Callie begins to speak.
"It's not that I don't trust you, I'm just having trouble trusting us." Callie says moving closer to Arizona. "I love you, never stopped loving you. Even when I'm mad at you, I'm still so in love with you that it makes me a crazy person. I don't think you understand what happens to me when I hear you laugh from across the room."
"I'll always be in love with you Calliope. And I do know what that feels like. When I saw you kissing Heather in the lobby last year, I couldn't breathe. I saw how that kiss made you feel and I was jealous. Then I realized who you were kissing and I knew that I had to warn you. And you made it so hard for me. But I had to protect you, even though you made it very difficult for me." The blonde admits.
"I, uh, kind of forgot about that. Yeah, I was rather full of myself. But it felt so good to be wanted and you were playing so cool. I really wanted you to be jealous as hell." Callie replies.
"I didn't have a right to be jealous as hell. But believe me, I was." Arizona says softly, reaching out for Callie's hand and intertwining their fingers.
"She loves the room Arizona." Callie says laughing as they stand in the doorway watching their daughter carefully examine everything in her new room. "The whole place looks amazing. Why did I not trust your decorating skills?"
"I believe you said and I quote, 'I don't want to live in an Easter egg colored house'," Arizona replies smiling.
"Oh, I did say that." Callie admits wincing at the memory.
Turning to face Callie, Arizona reaches out to take her hand. "Can we talk a minute?" She asks.
A little tentative, since they've been talking so much the last 24 hours. Callie nods and follows the blonde to the couch.
"I once said that you were my anchor, which implies that you hold me in place. You don't hold me back, you've never held me back. I never would have gotten pregnant, or applied for the Fetal fellowship if you were holding me back. You were my harbor, my safe harbor. But now, I've become my own safe harbor and I still want you beside me." Arizona takes a deep breath and waits for Callie's response.
Looking down as she carefully selects her words, Callie pauses. When she looks up again, she looks directly into those eyes as blue as the ocean, "Arizona, when you said that I was your anchor, that's when I realized that we had to separate for real. I couldn't be the one that was holding you back. Arizona, I wanted to watch you fly, but you said I was your anchor and I just couldn't be that to you." Callie says, unsure what to do or say next.
Leaning forward, Arizona lightly presses her lips to Callie's. "That's why this will work Calliope, we're both flying now again. See?"
A/N: I'm not sure where to go with this now. I am going to move it back to complete. So I can finish up Sexy Mistake. Then, I'm not sure what I'll do next. I'm apartment hunting and work is about to get super crazy. So maybe I'll go on hiatus too.