Disclaimer: All rights to the wonderful J.K. Rowling.

I took in a deep breath, eyes closed with a slight smile on my face. I felt completely free to do as I want for once. I was standing by the edge of the ferry; my hair was whipping around and I could feel drops of water spraying my face. "Couldn't sleep?" I heard from behind me, I didn't turn around.

"No," Sirius walked up next to me.

"What's the deal with you? I can't imagine this is all for some spur-of-the-moment vacation time, is it?" I shook my head.

"It's complicated."

"Isn't it always?" I opened my eyes to look at him.

"Sirius Black, Walburga and Orion's oldest son?" He nodded and I laughed, coldly. "Even I from the states have heard about you, how you were disowned, you chose to leave your whole life behind you, and for what?" I exhaled, "I just don't understand, how did you just pack up and leave? How did you leave your family?" He stood quietly for a moment before shrugging.

"Wasn't that difficult, I s'pose, I guess my biggest regret is not getting my brother to come with me." He gave me a sad look, "Regulus, he's not a bad kid, he's just- not as strong-willed as me I guess."

"But then why wouldn't you want to stay for him?" He cringed.

"Part of me wanted to, but I couldn't, I couldn't handle being there anymore, I was suffocating! You should understand." I nodded.

"I do, I definitely do, but I still don't understand," he stared at me.

"You mentioned a boyfriend this morning, do these question have anything to do with that?" I hesitated.

"I broke it off about a month ago, Dad's orders." He nodded.

"You always do what Daddy tells you to?" I glared at him.

"I had to, Sirius, unlike you, I'm actually devoted to my family; I stay with them because I have to, no matter what, it's what family does." He rolled his eyes.

"Yeah, just like how family tells you to not talk to someone, not befriends with someone, not love someone." He shook his head. "C'mon, Cass, you can't listen to that shit, everyone is wrong at some point, even Ministers of Magic like your dear daddy." I turned my head away.

"It's not that easy! My parents care about me!"

"And that's why you're running away?"

"I'm not!"

"You are, you're running away because you don't want to be under your parent's control, you're exactly like me." I shook my head.

"But I'm not, I just wanted one summer to myself, the fact that I had to abandon my dad is irrelivent, besides, I'm planning on going back after the summers over." He stayed quiet for a while after that.

"Do you still love him?" I looked to him again.

"What?"

"Your old boyfriend, do you still love him?" I scoffed.

"I never admitted to loving him," he gave me a look.

"That's irrelivent." He said, mocking me.

"Yes." I said, finally, "Yes, okay? I'm in love with him, but I can't change the fact that family is more important."

"You mean the same family that doesn't even want you to be happy?"

"Stop putting words into my mouth, Black! That's not what I meant and you know it!"

"That is what you meant, though! You can't honestly tell me that doing what I did isn't a little bit tempting! Just think about it! Living life the way you want to, no one telling you what to do, spending your time with whomever you want to!" I didn't want to admit to him that it was tempting, that I thought about it constantly.

"That doesn't matter, the truth is that I'm not leaving my parents no matter what, I know it may not seem like it to you, but they care for me; it might have been different with you and your family, but that's just how it is." I turned around and walked away from the railing, Sirius followed.

"Look, I'm sorry, I didn't want to make you upset, I'm just curious about you is all." I nodded.

"Are the others asleep?" I asked him, he nodded.

"Yeah, it's been a surprising day, how long do you think it'll be till we get there?"

"We should be there by dinner tomorrow, I called a hotel a few hours ago for us to stay, don't worry, I'm paying for everything." He nodded.

"Hey, I never really said 'thank you' for doing this, you didn't have to." I laughed.

"Oh really? Even after that very poor attempt of blackmailing me?" He rose his hands.

"Hey, I was never trying to blackmail you! I was just suggesting a very fair agreement." I snorted.

"Yeah, one the involved blackmail." He scowled and I laughed at him. We walked back to my room and stopped at the door. "Hey, I should really be thanking you as well, you were the one that let a strange girl onto your bike and drive away." He shrugged.

"Wouldn't be the first time," he said, smirking at me. I rolled my eyes and pushed him.

"Whatever, thanks," he nodded.

"Don't be thanking me yet, in a couple of weeks you're going to be sick of me." I smiled.

"Probably, but at least they'll be an interesting couple of weeks." He smiled back at me.

"Get some sleep, Cass," he turned to walk back into his own room that he was haring with the other boys, he turned around again before he opened the door, "Oh, and I know it isn't really my place, but if I were you I would really send a letter to that boyfriend of yours, sounds like he didn't get much of a fair amount of information on the break-up." He went into his room without saying anything else, and I went into my own, feeling guilty.

"What? Come on, Sadie, you can't be serious!" I couldn't look at him, my eyes were getting watery.

"Just let it go, Dom, I don't need to explain myself to you," he gave me a sad and angry look.

"But don't you think I deserve it, Cassandra?" I flinched at the use of my full name.

"It doesn't matter if you do, I don't have to, besides, school is ending soon and my dad is taking me to Europe or the summer, it's not like we'll get much of a chance to see each other." He rolled his eyes.

"Oh, and what an excuse that is! Is he the reason you're ending it? Your dad? Cause honestly, Sadie, he doesn't control you! I've told you before! You're the one who lets him control your life, just a few weeks ago you were telling me you wanted me to go with you! Just last night you were telling me you loved me! And now what? It's over just like that?" He shook his head at m.

"It isn't like that! I just-"he looked at me.

"Just what?" I didn't answer and he looked down.

"Fine, do whatever you want to, but it's only going to get worse, some day you're going to realize that you made a mistake, and your dad isn't going to be the one to help you; he's just going to be there to ruin your life even more." He walked away and I put my head in my hands, shaking.

The memory wasn't a happy one, and it wasn't one I wanted to remember, I took a deep breath and fell down onto the bed. I knew he was right, I just didn't want to admit it to myself just yet.