"Fuck. Are you serious." Ash says frustrated. I feel his body tense up and he rolls off the top of me. I reach for my sweater but before I can throw it on I look up and see Luke staring down at us. His eyes are filled with shock and despair. He doesn't say anything at all he only pretends like he doesn't see anything and he runs upstairs and I hear his bedroom door slam.
"Fabulous." I say under my breath. That is the last possible thing I wanted Luke to see. I finally get my sweater on and the other guys walk in.
"NOT ON MY TWISTER!" Calum shouts. Michael just stares at Ashton with judgemental eyes.
"Alright ASH! Way to go bro!" Michael says as he walks past Ashton giving him a high five. Both the guys walk upstairs leaving us behind. I look over at Ashton and he is red with embarassment.
"I'm so sorry babe. I wasn't thinking" he says.
"It's fine really-"
"No. It's not. I know you didn't want anyone to see you like that. Or doing that. Or-"
"Ash it's fine. Really." I say wrapping my arms around him kissing his cheek but Ashton's face still remains emotionless and he leans away from me. I look up at the clock.
"Well it's only 7:00." I say
"But we should probably go to bed early tonight since we're leaving early in the morning" he tells me. He gets up from the floor and I get up with him. That's weird. Ashton hates going to bed early no matter how early he has to wake up. I look at him and he is packing up the twister kit. Once he's done he looks at me.
"But Ash it's only 7-"
"Yeah. And we have to get up at 5 Dani." Ashton says assuredly. "I'll be right back I'm going to go give this back to Cal" he half smiles at me and runs up the stairs. I go to the kitchen and I take water from the fridge and sit down at the kitchen table. I sat there wondering how things will be the same yet totally different on tour. I was happy I'd be with him but I was worried maybe being together for a whole three weeks would cause tension or he'll grow sick of me. I shake my head. I was worrying to much. That wouldn't happen we loved each other too much. Too much love is never a bad thing...right? After a while of thinking I start to wonder what's taking Ashton so long to give the twister kit back to Calum. I grab my water bottle and I walk up the stairs to find him. Alright Irwin what are you up to.
I reach the top of the stairs and as I look down the hallway Ashton walks out of Luke's room and he brushes his hands through his hair and he leans up against the wall. What was he doing in there? Ashton turns his head in my direction and see me.
"What were you doing in Luke's room?" I ask squeezing my water bottle causing it to crackle. He just walks towards me and wraps his arms around me.
"I wasn't being with you, and that's a problem." He says, smoothly dodging the question and his mood has become happy again. I roll my eyes and decide to drop it, he'll tell me if he wants to. "We should go to bed." He says and I nod. He grabs my hand and we walk into his room. I change out of the sweatpants but leave the sweater on. He changes out of his clothes and gets under the covers. I get in after him and he kisses me quickly on the lips, says "goodnight" and turns his back to me. Ok, he was acting really strange. I whispered goodnight and turned away from his as well. He didn't say 'I love you'. I mean he said it so many times today, maybe he doesn't want to be too repetitive. But at the same time I knew something was bothering him. I looked at the clock, it was 8:30. I can't sleep. I mean it was 8:30! What teenager goes to sleep at 8:30? Plus, I had taken that nap earlier today so I really was not in the mood for sleep. I was annoyed and horribly embarrassed about today. The moment was so perfect and I really needed him but BAM! In come the boys, in comes Luke and ruins it. He was still gentle and sweet but the second the guys came in he turned all frigid and distant. Something must have happened. The only thing that happened that had me a bit worried was when Luke came in and saw us both lying topless on the floor, I mean it doesn't take a detective to figure out what we were up to. I felt so guilty and part of me wanted to chase after him and apologize but that wouldn't have fixed anything. If at all, it would have made Ashton pretty damn furious. I've learned my lesson since last night and this morning. Do not, under any circumstances, go talk to Luke secretly.
I turn around bed and face Ashton. I can hear light snores coming from him so I know he's asleep. I decide to just let it out.
"Ash? Are you awake?" I ask to make sure he wasn't. "I'm sorry about all the stress you've had to go through just because of me. Please don't feel guilty about today, I'm not mad. I mean, yeah I'm a little mad that the guys interrupted us because I really wanted you then and there but..." I sigh. "I love you. So. Freaking. Much." I start to whisper now. "I can't imagine my life without you and I would never leave you. Ever." I take in a deep breath. "Just, don't feel like you need to hide anything from me. We can do this, together. You don't need to do anything alone because you have me." I look at him longingly almost. I laugh a little "I don't even know why I'm making such a big deal out of this." I shake my head and smile at the ceiling. "Just know, I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. That's so I can catch up to how many times you've told me that you love me. We're even now Irwin." I finish and snuggle into his back. I flinch a little as the body I am up against moves and turns around. His eyes are wide open and even in the darkness I can still see their color. He's looking me straight in the eye.
"I don't want to be even." He kisses my head. "I love you." I smile and he pulls me in, wrapping his arms around my back. Charming little bastard.
I wake up to the sound of the shower from down the hall. I realize it's 5 A.M. and that me and all the other guys had to get up and be ready to go by 7 A.M. I force myself out of bed, rubbing my eyes open. Today was a new day, a new beginning for Ash and I and I couldn't be more excited and frightened at the same time. I make my way out of the bedroom and I see all the boys except Ashton sitting at the kitchen table eating. Ashton must be the one in the shower. I walk downstairs pour myself a glass of water and sit down at the table. "Morning" I say tiredly with a smile and a small yawn.
"Morning how'd you sleep?" Calum asks.
"Just fine thank you." I smile at him and take a sip of my drink.
"I'll bet you were pretty tired after you and Ashton foole-" before Calum can finish Luke bumps him.
"Stop it." Luke tells him as he tries to avoid eye contact with me. I look down at my water a bit embarrassed.
"Are you ready to live on a tour bus for 3 weeks?" Michael asks me.
"I think so. But I guess I can't tell you until I've been on one." I laugh. Luke gets up from the table and starts washing his plate in the sink.
"It doesn't really matter if she's ready or not she'll have to get used to it no matter what." Luke says. I think he was joking around so I give a slight chuckle. Although his stern face when he turns around and looks at me makes me think differently. "I'm gonna go kick Ashton out of the shower. He's been in there long enough. And I need to use the bathroom before we leave." Luke says as he runs up the stairs.
"Awkward." Calum says and Michael laughs along with him.
"Do you know what Luke and Ash were talking about last night?" I ask out of the blue. Surely these guys could tell me.
"Ummm. Nope. I have no idea." Cal says taking a nervous sip of his coffee. I didn't believe him but it was to early to try and bring it out of him. I wasn't quite hungry and I was done with my water so I decided to go upstairs and get ready as well.
I needed a shower to so hopefully Luke doesn't take too long either. But I'm assuming he will because...well it's Luke. I walk into Ashton's bedroom and see him standing in the closet with just his skinny jeans on and his hair not yet fixed.
"Morning." I tell him and he turns around to look at me. His face still tired and not quite awake.
"Morning babe. Did you sleep well?" He tells me with a restless voice. I walk over to him and I wrap my arms around his bare torso.
"Of course I did. I was sleeping next to you wasn't I?" I smile and kiss him.
"Good point." he says laughing as he leans in and kisses me back. I look around and see that he had already packed our stuff up.
"You packed my stuff up?" I ask.
"Yeah I did about an hour ago. I didn't want you to have to worry about it." He says. Why was he such a gentleman.
"That's too sweet...you packed everything right? I'm not gonna unpack my suitcase on the bus and realize that i don't have any socks?" I jokingly ask him. He turns to look at me as he pulls a band shirt over his head causing his curls to cover over his eyes and he takes his hands and pushes them to the side.
"No of course I didn't forget anything! What kind of boyfriend would I be if I forgot anything. And also I wouldn't worry about me not packing your socks. If I were you I'd be worried about not finding any bras when you unpack your suitcase." He says grinning. I push him
"Ashton!" I squeal.
"What! I'm just saying it would be very convienient those things are hard to get off especially when you want to-" I cut him off.
"Okay okay. Well I'm gonna go hop in the shower myself. I'm watching you though. And my bras." I laugh at him and kiss him as I walk out of the room. I reach the bathroom and see the door closed. Luke must still be in there. I knock
"Luke are you almost done" he opens the door immediately and I see him standing there with his hair all done and his face all washed.
"Yeah. The bathroom is all yours." He says pushing past you. Well then. I hop in the shower and start singing some tunes.
I'm not the best singer but hey, when I've got a song stuck in my head you damn well know I'm gonna sing it. Once I finish I get out of the shower and walk back to the room. Ashton's packing in a pair of shoes and sees me standing in my towel. He raises his eyebrows and says
"Now I really wish I didn't pack any of your bras" I roll my eyes playfully and walk to the closest to get some clothes. Turns out Ashton already packed them and I walk to the suitcase so I can pull something out.
"Oh, I already set something out for you babe. It's over on the chair" I kiss him on the cheek and say "Thank you". I walk to the chair and see nothing but a bra, underwear and socks. I turn around and give him an 'are you fucking serious' look and he just laughs.
"I'm just kidding. Here." He holds out a pair of jeans, a shirt and an oversized sweater and I walk over and grab it from him. I walk into the closet with my change of clothes and before I close the door I drop my towel outside so he can clearly see it.
"You're such a tease." He says and I giggle as I change into my clothes. I come out and he's not there anymore. I look at the time and it's already 6:45. My suitcases is already down stairs so I just grab my purse and phone and head down. I see the four boys packing their stuff into a black van. Ashton sees me and walks into the house. "
Hey, do you have everything?"
"I think so" I smile.
"Ok, well then. Let's go!" He grabs my hand and pulls me outside to the car. He drops my hand momentarily so he can lock the door. The other three guys get into the car and I follow behind them. Luke and Michael are sitting in the front row and Calum is sitting in the back. I glance at Luke but he's completely blocked out with his headphones in and with his phone in hand. I was both relieved and worried that he didn't at least notice my glance. Luke wasn't alright and I could tell. As I walk past him I can clearly hear the Foo Fighters blasting from his earbuds. God Luke at least be nice to your ear drums. I crawl to the back and Ashton sits next to me. He puts his arm around me and says
"Ready?"
"Mmhmm"
"Good." He kisses me on the cheek and the car starts to move. I was still a little sleepy so I decided to spend this time to get a little bit more sleep. I lean my head on Ash's shoulder and close my eyes. Before I know it, he's shaking me awake. "We're here." I open my eyes and the car door opens. Luke and Michael get out first and the rest of us follow. In front of me is this giant bus. The giant bus. "Dani, say hello to Gus 3.0" Michael says gesturing to the bus.
"Nice."