My heart picks up speed as I am driving towards Mo's place. Jimmy's words play in my head over and over again. It'd be a shame for her to just disappear. When I reach the gate I close my eyes and take a deep breath. My heart is still beating loudly and park my car in search for my daughter. Ignoring the hellos from the lads I race up the stairs and fling the door open.
"Momma!" Pasiely shrieks as she jumps off the kitchen chair and runs towards me. Her little arms wrap around my legs as she squeezes me tightly.
"Hi baby girl you have fun with Mo' today?"
"Mmmhmmm! We bakin tookies now momma! Untle Paddy gots me extra chips if I prowmie to save him some!" She tells me with a toothless grin.
What Jimmy forced upon me four years ago added more fuel to the fire of hate I have for him. But I did what I had to do to save Kerri. She was twelve at the time and started puberty. Her body was changing and I wasn't the only one who could see that. Jimmy saw it too and that's when he came to me. Pushing his way into my apartment my choices were Me or Kerri. It was an easy choice for me because the emotional damage Jimmy put on her at a young age was too much.
When I found out I was pregnant I went straight to the clinic. But when I heard her heartbeat my heart broke. It was the most beautiful thing I ever heard. How could something so beautiful com from someone so ugly? Walking out of the clinic Jimmy stood there waiting for me. He pulled me by the hair and asked if I got it done. Pointing his gun at me stomach I grabbed the picture and shoved it in his face. I knew in that moment Id be forever linked to him until he was six feet underground.
A kiss n my cheek brings me back to reality and I see my daughter jump off my lap and grab the timer.
"It's awmos time Momma!" She squeals causing me to laugh.
Forgetting that Mo was here with us I kiss her cheek and she gives me time alone with me daughter.
"Lads will be hear in an hour. SAMBEL is meeting them now." she tells me before leaving the room.
Nerves fill me as I think about what my Uncle will say about Pasiely. One look at her and you would know who her father is. The only two things we share is our black curled hair and me last name. It was something both of us agreed upon. Every feature she had screamed Jimmy! When people around the club would see her they would say the same thing, "I see Jimmy in her eyes Clo'" they'd tell me but I would just shake my head.
As we plate the last of the cookies I tell Pasiely to have a sat and I grab her a glass of milk.
"Hi Kerri Berri!" She greets. Turning my head I see my little cousin thumb in her mouth, headphones in her ears, as her bored expression breaks into a smile upon seeing my daughter.
"Hi Pae! You gonna share some with me love?" She says pointing at the big plate of cookies sitting in front of my daughter. Giving Keri a toothless grin she takes a big cookie off the plate and gives it to her.
Placing the milk in front of her I give both girls kisses before walking to greet Aunt Fi I the living room.
"How you doin Fi? Uncle will be here soon aye." I tell her before sitting on the couch. Hearing me greet her Aunt Pasiely runs into the room and hugs Fi tightly.
"Aunny Fi! I made tookies, do you want a tookie? Utcle Paddy got me extra chips if I saved him some tookies!" She says quickly which causes both of us to laugh.
"I'll grab one later love. Save me one?" She tells Pae before my little ball of energy runs out of the room.
"I'm nervous for Kerri Clo'. The last time she saw her Da' she was just getting potty trained! She hasn't said much since I let her know he's coming either! Just popped those damn headphones in her ears and went back to sucking her thumb!" Frustration and nervous clear in voice.
"I'm sure she'll be fine Aunt Fi!" I reassure her before we hear the rumble of bikes pulling in the lot.
We both share a look before standing. Aunt Fi grabs Kerri, while I grab Pasiely. I follow behind Aunt Fi ad Kerri and tears form in my eyes seeing Uncle Filip embrace his two girls. Pasiley wipes the tears from my eyes and gives me a questioning look. Kissing her cheek I tell her lets go meet some family before making my way down the stairs. I see some of the Charming lads send me questioning looks as I push my way through and towards me God Da'.
" Wow Uncle you've gotten Fat I see!" I joke out loud as he turns his attention away from Kerri. The boys laugh as Uncles teary eyes look at me. Pasiley buries her head into my shoulder as the attention in the lot turns to us.
"Clo? My little Lucky Clover is all grown up!" He yells excitedly before pulling me into a tight hug.
"Oh my little Clo look at you all grown up. Lads! Lads meet me God daughter Clover Larkin!" He tells his brothers before kissing both cheeks. Pasiley whimpers and that's when Uncle Filip notices her.
"Whose this?"
"Uncle meet me daughter Pasiley" I tell him proudly. Nudging Pasiley I tell her " Pasiley meet your Uncle Filip." She looks up at him and Uncle gasps. I know in that moment he sees what everyone sees before sending me a look of confirmation for his thoughts. Nodding my head he closes his eyes before kissing her cheek.
"Hi Pasiely, I'm Uncle Filip. You're just as beautiful as your Ma' darling." He tells her which causes her to blush.
"Aye your right Uncle but she is way more beautiful than me right love?" I tell them both as I feel everyone eyes on us.
Uncle introduces me to Charming charter before directing me towards two men and a woman.
"Clay, Gem, Jax this is me God daughter Pasiley." He tells them.
Gemma walks up to me and pulls me into a hug and Clay follows her doings.
"Thank You for calling sweetheart." She tells me before I see Jax walk up to me. Pulling me into a hug he kisses my cheek before moving a way.
"We've been following endless leads darling before we got your call. Thank you."
" Aye it's no problem, as a Ma' myself I knew I would want someone to do the same thing." I tell them before placing my wiggling daughter on the ground as she runs to her favorite Uncle Paddy. Uncle clears his throat and I know what he wants.
"Later Uncle. Ill explain later ok? Lets go enjoy your girls for now."