This chapter is a bit longer and complicated. There are thorough explanations about Rose's condition and I did the best I could to describe it as I see it in my head, but I am no RTD and not even Moffat, so forgive me if anything

Rose Tyler, or specifically the echo of Rose Tyler that she created during her Bad Wolf time, was sitting in the Doctor's room. Even though she wasn't technically alive, she still was Rose, with all her experience and memories, plus the knowledge of all of the time and space. That's a lot to have in one head, good thing she is not really here, and will disappear as soon she'll finish her business. River made her choice, so now Bad Wolf's echo rippled to this very moment and a fixed point in time and space was created, now Rose will always appear in this specific moment, until the universe itself will perish to exist, which will happen someday as well and then everything will be reborn again, she saw it happening after all. That's a mild consolation. Sometimes she wondered maybe there is something after death, some place like Heaven, she wanted to believe that. Guess, I haven't lost it all, she thought, I am still Rose Tyler in the end not only the Bad Wolf.

Rose looked around, the Doctor's room looked exactly as she remembered, big windows with fake, changing views, a lot of shelves with books, some toys and devices, a gorgeous desk with some kind of a computer, big bright-blue sofa with cushions and clothes on it, a big mirror on the wall and a king-size bed. She never understood why the Doctor had this bed, he rarely slept and when he did, he usually dozed off in one of the hundreds of the TARDIS's room. She remembered that one time when he slept in his bed, with her. But of course they just slept nothing more, it was after the Krop Thor Planet. During their travels the Doctor was always reserved, this was the day when he put his guards very low. He allowed himself to hug her so gently and lovingly that her toes curled, they slept whole TARDIS-night together and that day she knew, she WAS going to die in battle and the Doctor knew that too, they were preparing themselves, but still it wasn't enough. That day in Torchwood 1 she really died and then was reborn, she became a different Rose: strong, confident, determined and…lonely. Just like her Doctor. Then, when she and her human Doctor came to Pete's World she became more like her old self, but still that naïve, carefree, impressionable shop-girl died on the Bad Wolf Bay.

Rose looked at herself in the mirror, she looked exactly like she looked in Melody's prison, just her eyes were glowing more rapidly, she was nervous. It was strange, she felt almost alive. She heard a sudden noise of china breaking, Rose turned around and her golden eyes met wide, green eyes of her new, new, new, new Doctor.

-Rose…-the Doctor breathed. – Rose…you are… I am…-The Doctor looked and looked and looked at her, it seems like he has never seen her before, and in a way it was true, he never saw her with his new eyes. He tried to calm himself down a bit. – So River was right, then. You or something like you is really here.

It felt like the time stopped, she didn't say a word. She just looked at him drinking in his new face. One thing was watching him from afar, away from time and space, another was standing here, feeling his warmth and emotions. It didn't matter to her which face he wear, she loved him, any version of him mortal or Time Lord, Valeyard of DreamLord, it didn't matter one bit. Rose could feel the power of the Bad Wolf in her rising, all of the memories all of the things they've been through crashed on her at once, she could feel that her eyes were glowing even more rapidly than ever and something else…like her eyes were burning with tears unleashed.

The Doctor's usual gob disappeared in a second, he was really trying to say something else but his mind was whipped clean. All he could think was that Rose stood in his room, she really was here. He didn't even care that it might be a clever trap or maybe one of the TARDIS's ghosts or maybe he just gone finally mad. He just looked at his perfect Rose. She was shining, her eyes were golden and he could feel that it was the Bad Wolf who surrounded her. She was looking at him the way she always did with love and warmth. And he knew, he knew it really was his Rose Tyler, not something the Dreamlord created for him, or his sick imagination, it was really Rose…

-How can you be here? – the Doctor finally asked in breathless voice.

Rose was trying really hard to make her voice steady and calm.

-Didn't River told you?

-Yeah she did, but I still don't get anything. Plus it's not like you shared with her all story. – The Doctor finally was able to move. He entered the room and overstepped the broken china, the door behind him closed as if the TARDIS felt that nothing in the world should disturb them. The Doctor carefully crossed the room and stood face to face with Rose, he didn't know what to do or say, he just waited for her to answer him, to explain. He didn't even know what kind of explanation he was waiting for, he just wanted to know something, anything.

-I didn't have much time –Rose finally answered, after a long moment – And I did ask her not to tell you anything about our little chat, if she didn't I wouldn't be here now.

His hearts broke, again. She didn't want to be here, she just had to, because of some mission she assigned for herself when she still loved him, well he didn't expect her to love him forever and ever, it just was a bit harder to take then he thought. He swallowed hardly.

Rose didn't mean anything like that, she could see hurt in his eyes.

-Doctor, -she stepped closer.- I didn't mean I don't want to be here, it's just if it wasn't for River I wouldn't reveal myself to you – She hesitantly and slowly put her hand on his cheek. He leaned into it at instant, God, how much he missed her touch, it was like he was bathing in sunlight, he didn't feel that good….well since he touched her for the very last time.

-Rose, I – and then he hugged her, fiercely and closely, he could feel every curve of her, he could feel the way she smiled into his neck, how her arms wrapped around his neck and all he could think of not letting her ago, ever again.

Rose was trying really hard not to cry, she felt so human right now, the way she felt in her real life. It was so strange and wonderful, but she had to remind herself, that she could never stay that the Doctor has a new life now, that he was married…more or less.

She freed herself gently from his embrace and took his hand, the Doctor smiled so brightly, so happily that it took her breath away. They sat down on the blue sofa never letting the hands go. Rose started to talk.

-I know you have questions, my Doctor. – he smiled even more brightly at this, she sadly smiled back – and I will answer them, at least those I can, it's hard to know everything, you know.

-So you are the Bad Wolf then? – he asked – How is it possible? I mean, I distinctly remember taking it out of you! Are you really here or this is just something…I don't know, different.

Rose took a deep breath and began her story.

-I am not really here …

-But…

-Let me finish, Doctor. And then you'll say anything you like. As I said, I am not really here. I am just an echo that exists at certain fixed points of time and space, never changing, never interfere anything, well almost never – she smiled. – When I looked into the heart of the TARDIS I saw everything, as you know, I saw any versions of reality and I saw the future and the past, I saw that I'll be gone soon, I saw the moments where I should help you and I created This. I created not only the words and names and stuff, but I sort of projected, printed myself in certain points in time, all this moments they have my consciousness, my face and well part of my and TARDIS's soul, basically I live in the vortex itself, everywhere and nowhere at once, but at this fixed points I can reveal myself. It's like being Rose Tyler with Bad Wolf powers which I can control. When I looked at the heart of the TARDIS, I became the part of that power, I became the part of the vortex and time and space – she looked into his eyes. – And now I am here.

The Doctor sat in silence, that was too impossible and too much information even for his remarkable brain. He always felt that it was more to the Bad Wolf than he originally thought but this… And then he thought of Rose, of the woman he loved so deeply, who did it for him, who stayed with him forever like she promised at least in some way.

-Rose, I am sorry.

-What for?

-You did that, and now…

-Doctor, it's not like that. – Rose tried to calm him down, she knew he would think she suffered and was alone but it was different. Those concepts didn't work for her anymore, she wasn't really alive she was the part of the vortex created by her human self. - I live beyond time in space, I am the power of the vortex. It's not like I wait for the moments when I need to help you, I do it just because I can and because, well, many thing depends on you. It's like I live in the ocean, but once in a while I step out of it in order to do something useful. All these – she looked around – for me it's just a glimpse. All those times when I helped you, when you didn't even met me yet, all those time I will help you, from my point of view they already happened and I am at peace. I am here today just because I know that after everything River said to you, you won't be able to find your peace and move on.

The Doctor had so many questions that he thought his head will blow up now. He thought he started to understand what she meant but…

-Why did you never reveal yourself? – he asked – When I called for you after I lost you, I called for you so many times, I begged you to come back! Why didn't you show yourself if you were around?

Rose sighed.

-I couldn't – she looked away

-Why not? – the Doctor said almost angrily.

Rose looked into his eyes once again

-Because you had to live through that. You had to move on, meet new people, live your life. –she squeezed his hand gently – You shouldn't dwell on the past, Doctor, out of all people you know it the best. Answer me this, if you knew I was around, at least in some form, would you take Martha or Donna with you? Would you meet Amy? Would you start your journey with River?

He knew the answer. Of course he wouldn't, he would be waiting for Rose and their next meeting, he would sit in the TARDIS for days doing nothing. He wouldn't be able to move on.

-It's still not right, Rose. You should have given me a choice

-Now , who is talking about taking away people's choices – she said sarcastically.

-Yeah and look what it done to me! – he yelled suddenly and jumped of the sofa. – Look what became of me, I am playing a God because I can! I re-write peoples' lives, I got myself into the relationship with a woman I don't even know and can never love, but we both have no choice now and I didn't even know why! I destroyed my own planet! And now you, my anchor, the woman who made me better, becoming me! How do I know you didn't re-write my life? Or someone else's? Or maybe you were the one who created my human self and to got a happily ever after, so I could rot here without you!

Rose slapped him as hard as Jackie Tyler's daughter could do it. She was angry, no she felt like a wild wolf she was! She practically growled at him in her wolfish voice.

-How dare you? – Rose was trembling with emotions, it took all her willpower not to turn him into atoms like she did with Dalek emperor. – How dare you to accuse me of controlling your life! – she bellowed – I never put a finger on your it! Do you think if I did, I would let myself be trapped into the Pete's world!? Or maybe you think I didn't have enough power to make myself immortal and stay here forever? Or do you think I couldn't re-write River's life so she would have never met you, if you think I am such a monster! Or maybe I could have erased Charlie! Or bring myself to the beginning of your life and haunt you forever! I could have done anything I like! But I didn't even say a word until today! All I did, was sometimes, saved your damned life, because no one else could! So don't you stand here and accuse me of the things that you have no idea about!

The Doctor felt so, so ashamed. How could he think of that? How even such a thought could come into his head? It was Rose for God's sake, Bad Wolf or not! He knew he stepped over the line and regretted it immediately she slapped him. He would beg for her forgiveness even if it will be the last thing he'll ever do.

-Rose, Rose I am sorry, I am so sorry, I am such an idiot – he started quickly, he tried to take her hand but she refused even to look at him – Rose, please…I just, I don't know what came into me! – He sighed and fell on the couch heavily, he looked old and miserable - It just…Since I regenerated I feel that something is wrong. It's like something or someone controlling my life, all those cracks in the universe, this entire River situation, the Silence and just everything! It's like I am pray in someone's game and I don't like it!

Rose looked at him and set next to her Timelord. She was still angry with him but she knew exactly how he felt and she knew he was right to. Someone WAS controlling his life and those someone were very powerful and to tell the truth Rose didn't even know if he'll live through Trenzalore. There was a chance that he might get new regeneration cycle but she couldn't know for sure. Plus, in order to get those regenerations, he had to save Gallifrey first and she still didn't know if he'll chose to do it or not, or will she be able to get his Tenth and War self into the right place and right time and she didn't even know how the Doctor will handle Clara and her jumps…This Eleventh incarnation is too damn complicated! Too many paradoxes around him, only the Eights was more complicated with different universes and all. Even though she knew about some future possible options for him, she couldn't say word, not about Gallifrey not about Trenzalore, but she could confirm things that he already suspects.

-Doctor, - she said carefully, the Doctor looked at her he was grateful she didn't hate him for what he said, but he could see that Rose was still angry– You need to take in patiently things, I am about to say to you.

-OK – the Doctor answered, he knew that being Bad Wolf she knew something, but he also knew that she won't tell much, foreknowledge is very dangerous, especially from such a reliable source as the Goddess of Time.

-You are not totally paranoid. There is someone after you as you already guessed, and yeah they sort of influence your life.

-They? – so there were many of them? Who hated him that much? Apart from Kovarian's gang of course and the Daleks, and maybe some Cybermen, ok he DID have a few enemies. The Doctor was trying really hard do not think about Pandorica and the army that waited for him there.

-I say "they" in general, not because there is a group of someone, but it doesn't mean I am saying there is someone specific, so I'll just call whatever it is "they". – Rose said

-All right – how he hated all that "future" precautions! They couldn't even talk like normal people. Well, they weren't normal and not people exactly.

-So this "they" are after you, they did blew up your TARDIS and "they" kidnapped Melody.

-But I know who kidnapped Melody. It was the Silence and Kovarian. – Ok, then it's not this gang, how many gangs are after me? Why am I so popular?

-Correct, but it's not that simple and there is a much bigger picture to this. I am telling you that you need to be double careful in this incarnation. – she was so concerned about him, this crazy church and their stupid plan was awful. You can't punish a person what he hadn't done yet! Especially considering that he did the right thing!

-You mean it'll last till my death. – the Doctor stated flatly. Rose glanced at him. - Come on, we both know that this is my last life.

-Just be careful and watchful. – was all she said - Pay attention to all things, even if you think they are irrelevant, this might help you in the future.

He took her hand once again, she didn't take it away, so he knew she forgave him. She had such a big heart. Well, at least he didn't screw this up today. Rose looked at him and said:

- I need to get going

-What? – she winced at the painful expression on his face. - So soon? I mean, I know you can't stay for long but you could for a while!

-I can't – she said quietly

-Why not? – the Doctor felt like something pierced his hearts.

-Because you have your life now, you real life. – Rose said - You have your Ponds, you have River, you have Vastra, Jenny and Strax and many other people who cares for you. –she turned her face away from him, it was hard to admit this painful truth. - I am not the part of your world anymore

-What if I want you to be? – the Doctor asked a bit harshly.

Rose resumed an eye contact with him.

-That is exactly why I never revealed myself before, especially to your last face.

-Yeah, there is no way he would have let you go. – he was telling the pure truth. His previous self would tear the world apart if he knew that Rose was around him, his wound were way too fresh. - Nor that it's easy for me, but he was…

-I know, I was too. – Rose said quickly -When I was human, I never moved on from you, Doctor, not really. I always hoped that I'll see you again someday that I'll find a way. I guess sometimes miracles do happen. – she smiled with her signature smile, with a tongue between her teeth. That was such a painfully beautiful memory, one of which he'll take to his grave.

-It took years and regeneration for me, finally at least to be able to find a new companion, when I lost you for the second time. – the Doctor said. And again it was the truth. It's like they were making up for all the secrets they had before. It was good for once to talk to someone who really knew him, every bit of him.

-I know – she answered breathlessly.

He wondered for a moment if his human self ever told Rose their true name, the Bad Wolf surely knew it, but he wanted that Rose found it out directly from him, not because of her powers. But that the question for the other day. Now he needed to know something far more important.

-Were we happy?

-What? – Rose was visibly surprised. It was nice to know, that he could surprise this almighty version of her.

-Did I make the right choice? Were you and well…him happy together? – he asked impatiently.

-Yeah, Doctor. – Rose said sincerely -You did the right choice. I don't say it was easy, especially at first. – it doesn't even cover it. Oh, the hell she dragged her poor husband through, it took weeks for him to persuade her, to prove that he didn't leave her, that he gave up his mortality in order to be with her. - I didn't really believe that he was you, that he was the Doctor…

-You kissed him, you chose him – the Doctor said with a hint of jealousy. He still remembered that passionate kiss she gave to his mortal version. How he envied him that day, he would gladly give up his heart and regenerations to be with her.

-Think for a moment what was it's like for me. – she smiled at him sadly -I was exhausted and tired, we just won another battle and then I thought you were dumping me with the clone, God I still feel ashamed of thinking about him like this. Anyway, I kissed him on instinct. You refused to answer me. I understood why after awhile and now I understand even better, but that day it was horrible for me. Yeah, I kissed him because when he answered me I felt with my very soul for a moment that it was really you, and I gave in, I think unconsciously I saw what was really going on, that he was the Doctor, just a mortal one.

-I am glad.

-Are you? – Rose asked a bit doubtfully.

-Yes, no matter what. I've always wondered if did work out for you two, because I wanted to believe that at least one of my incarnations will be truly happy, even if the rest of me didn't get a happy ending. – he put her hand on his chest. -Did you manage to grow a TARDIS?

-In fact we did. After about 3 years we gave it a first ride.

-Really? 3 years! Well it was even quicker then I hoped for!

-Yeah, the Doctor said exactly the same. – she laughed . And then she decided to give him a bit of the insight on their lives. He had the right to know. - After we "retired", we gave the TARDIS to Tony, my younger brother and… our daughter.

The Doctor felt tears coming to his eyes. He was so happy that Rose had a full life, even though not with this him and now they had a child together.

-We had a daughter?

-Yes. – she smiled again - She was so like you, I mean the part human/part Timelord you. She had your mind. Sometimes I felt a bit too brainy around you two.

-But you are brilliant! – the Doctor exclaimed , he wanted to know more -What was her name?

-Ellie, in fact she had a child of her own, I hope that he'll have children of his own someday. We died when he was 23.

It stung him a bit that Rose mentioned her death so casually, but he had to remind himself that she was in a form of an all-mighty deity and death was something very simple for her, like falling asleep. But something bothered him in her words.

-Wait a minute…What do you mean "hope"? Can't you tell for sure?

-No, - she shacked her head – I can only see everything in this universe as I was born and then created here, from Pete's world I only have my human memories, that' s all. Anyway, you won't believe the name the Doctor picked for our grandson. He insisted to name him Jack!

-No way! – the Doctor said loudly - He named him Jack, seriously?!What was I thinking!?

-Oi, Jack was great! – it was so good to talk about something really nice, not about battles or her new abilities or future. - I really do think you should visit his stag party or something one day!

-That's just simply impossible! – the Doctor said with his I-know-for-sure voice, - Even with the TARDIS it would take years to go to all his stag parties!

-Well you could always console yourself that one day he'll stuck in a giant glass jar. – she joked

-Ha, maybe I should visit him before he gets stuck. – the Doctor chuckled.

They sat in a comfortable silence for a few minutes. Her hand was still in his hand and he kept it near his hearts.

- I never forgot you, you know. – Rose said gently, she continued when seeing the question look on his face- I mean this you, the Timelord you. I've always wondered how you were doing, even though I was happy. And then I started to have dreams. – he needed to know, that she never forgot him. That there was always a place for him in her life.

-Dreams?

-Yeah, dreams. About me being Bad Wolf and seeing parts of your life.

-You saw this? I mean, when you were human.

-Yep. First, of course, I didn't understand them, but later I told my Doctor and he did some telepathic tests and confirmed that I indeed were seeing some episodes from your life. We figured it was something to do with the Bad Wolf and all.

-I bet he was jealous. – Rose quirked her eyebrows - Don't look so surprised, the same man, remember?

-He really was, especially at first until one day he accepted and even well, he was grateful for this ability. – especially, when he found out that Gallifrey might have been saved, but she can't tell this Doctor about it, not yet.

-Really? – somehow it was hard for the Doctor to believe that he won't get jealous about Rose, even if he was jealous of himself.

-Really –Rose confirmed - not only because of things I told him, but because he saw how important that was to me. I've always felt a bit guilty for being happy, when I knew that you were here alone.

Oh, no! She felt guilty? He was the one who manipulated into that choice, even if it were for her own good, it still was his deeds, she had nothing to worry about! He made his choice in order to ensure her happiness and he didn't regret it one bit, especially considering how it all worked out for her.

-You shouldn't have, Rose! I never wanted you to feel guilt, let alone blaming yourself for making the right choice! It would never worked so perfectly with this me, you know that.

-I do and I did, but I still was worried about you and with me being able to see episodes from your life, I knew you were all right, roaming the Universe, saving worlds and being the Doctor. That was more than I could hope for. – she smiled again.

-I should be really going now. – Rose finally said.

-Will I ever see you again? – the Doctor had to know it.

-Do you really want to? – Rose asked, she need to be honest with him - I can never stay.

-I do want. – oh, how he did, but he wanted her to stay here forever even though he knew it's impossible - I know that you think that you are not part of my world anymore, but it's not truth. I care for all my companions past or present, and there is always a place for any of them in my lives, especially for you. I won't dwell on our past or expect that you'll stay here for long, I know you can't, but I will always be happy to see you. Because – he kissed her hand gently and looked straight into her golden-brown eyes - No matter what face I wear, how far I'll run or how many people I'll have in my life I will, always, always…

-Don't, please. – Rose pressed her fingerprints to his lips. She couldn't bare it. It will be hundreds time harder to leave if he'll say it - Don't…There is too much weight in those words. I understand it now. It doesn't need saying, I've always knew that you do, even when you had that leather jacket of yours. Because, I do too. – Rose got up and freed her hand gently from his. - And I always will, no matter which face you wear. – with that she started to glow -Goodbye, my Doctor.

-Until next time, Rose Tyler.

And the Bad Wolf Rose vanished into the golden light. The Doctor stood and not bothering to undress jumped on his comfy bed. He remembered when he really slept here for the last time. It was after the Impossible Planet when he knew that Rose will disappear from his life soon and he wanted to do something that will chase his nightmares away, so he slept with her in this very bed, embracing her, trying to say every untold word between them, he knew she understood that. He knew Rose felt his love for her and knew that he did indeed believe the Beast's words.

The Doctor looked at his hand, it's still held Rose's warmth from moments ago. It was hard letting her go, but with her being around he felt like he was protected by his personal deity, his angel. After all, he did once said that he believed in her. With that, the Doctor smiled and fell asleep. Tonight he had no nightmares, only dreams, about his Wolf.