The story ends here ^_^ Thanks to everyone who stuck with me to the very end. I hope you will enjoy the last chapter. This chapter was inspired by my own beliefs and this video in VK : /video-66354697_167967847
He noticed her right now, she looked just like he remembered long, bright red hair, slender figure and sparkling eyes. He was so happy to see his precious Amy, glorious Pond. These centuries were hell, after Rose was gone he saw no light in his life, people of the village tried to cheer him up but they couldn't fill the void left by…well, by everything, by his friends, his companions, his love, his adventures. Well, at least Clara visited him once and now she was here, his impossible girl. But at this moment, seeing Amy, the memory of happy times flowed through him, he felt truly happy. He was relieved that he was dying frankly speaking. He was so tired, exhausted from constant battles, constant loneliness. He just wanted to be free, even from life, he was glad that someone else will take his place and actually be him, he knew that this knew Doctor will gain his memories, at least partly, but this time it won't be him. It will be hard for him and he even called Clara into the future, he'll need her very much. It's hard to come into life with someone else's memories. The Doctor mildly wondered if this new Doctor will realize that he is brand new, despite the memories. He would be someone very different in all possible ways, his lives were over now and he welcomed death.
He saw as Amy got down, her golden ring was shining in the lights of the TARDIS and he smiled of the memory of Rory, Amelia touched his face and he couldn't help but smile at her, his dear friend. Somehow he knew it was the last gift from Rose, because only she knew what he really needs right now.
-Raggedy Man, - the Doctor's hearts almost burst with joy when he heard his old nickname. – Goodnight.
Goodnight, my Amelia. The Doctor felt like the other creature was overtaking his body, the Timelords were tired of him, he thought, they decided to send someone else, everything Rose said came true. In the back of his head the Doctor heard Clara's voice and then everything went dark.
The Doctor felt something, that was weird, wasn't he dead? And then he felt as his, what, body? No, not body, his something was flying somewhere with the speed of light, he felt like he was dragged through some tube that wasn't there, it was like all of his essence was pulled through, it wasn't painful, just uncomfortable. What the hell is going on? I wanted peace, not some new adventure, I strongly protest whatever it is!..
Finally, the Doctor felt himself somewhere. It was something, it wasn't cold or hot, it was flat he knew that much, he tried to open his eyes, slowly he did that. OK, he can see…something; it felt like was in endless white room. Was he drugged and dragged into the Mad House? It was possible, hey wait a minute, he was most defiantly dying! The Doctor felt cold…is it an afterlife? Oh, God, if it is he must be defiantly in the never ending hell! Alone and trapped and…
-Seriously, love, stop thinking that much you are allowed to take a break, after all you are dead. – he recognized this honey-sweet voice. Wherever he was, some kind of Rose's image was there, if it were hell she is here to torture him for sure. He was afraid to turn his head, because he knew that he would see something terrible, wherever he was.
-You were right, Rose – he heard River's voice – His head is too thick to except the truth.
-Well, he is too smart to gasp the pagan idea of afterlife – said Sarah Jane's voice.
-Oi, Spaceman! Turn that thick head of yours! – he heard Donna's commanding tone.
-I think he is in shock, can the dead come into shock? – asked Brigadier's deep voice.
-Well, when I came here first, Rory needed a lot of time...or whatever is here, to drag me further and considering that this is the Doctor – he heard Amelia's voice and slowly turned around.
He met dozens of beaming faces. He felt that his head is about to burst into flames. A big group of people was watching with amusement and love, these were all his friends he gathered during the years! Well, not all of them, but most! He could see Peri Brown healthy and beautiful as ever, Jamie McCrimmon was wearing his Scottish kilt, he looked young, just as he remembered him. Ian and Barbara was smiling at him, they hold hands; Jo Grant, Liz Shaw and Sarah Jane was standing next to each other, he could see Brigadier and Donna were grinning identically to him, Ace and Adric was almost laughing at his shocked face, Charley and Martha were poking at him good-naturally . He could see River who smiled at him with warmth, but without her madness, her features became gentle and calm. He saw Amelia Pond looking at him with a challenge he got used to during their travels and in the center of that he saw Rose, her eyes were shining, but not with golden power, but with love and joy.
-But…-the Doctor uttered –What?! – he heard his voice and realized he was talking like his Tenth self. He grabbed his hair and face and felt that, yep, he had the appearance of his previous incarnation.
-That is soooo amusing! – exclaimed Donna –Hey, skinny boy! Where did your gob gone? I remember you wouldn't shut up even when we were about to execute!
-I do think he is in shock – said Liz calmly – Rose, your surprise is a bit too much for him.
-Doctor, - Rose approached slowly to him. – Doctor, it's OK, I know it's hard to gasp but everything you see and feel is real.
-What are you? – he asked. He didn't know what was going on but he didn't like that whoever it was, he used his friends
-Doctor, - Amy started – Raggedy man, it's really us and you are really dead and this – she looked around – well, this is afterlife, sort of.
-It's a between, - Charley continued – When you are ready you'll move on. We've been waiting for you.
-Waiting…what? Do you think I am that stupid? There is no such thing as afterlife! Reveal yourself!
-That will take awhile – said Ian, from nowhere a dozen of sofas appeared and part of the group settled themselves comfortably looking at him like he was an amusing show.
Donna, Rose, River, Amy, Brigadier and Sarah Jane remained where they were, Rose tried to approach him again, like he was a scared animal.
-Doctor, listen to me – she started – It's all real, you really were on Trenzalore, you really just saw Amy – Amy waved at him – And you really just died.
-If I am dead and this – he gestured emphatically – real, where is my family? Where is Susan?
-They can't be here, Doctor – answered River – All of the Timelords are still trapped, you are the first one of your kind who got here. All, Rassilon, Susan, Romana even the Master they are still technically alive. Same rules apply to Clara and Jack for example, their stories didn't end with yours, some of your companions already moved on way too further, so here we are. This all is really hard for time-travelers. Plus the more complicated the species, the harder is to get here.
-OK, let's assume that's true – the Doctor's mind was boiling, he was talking to them, TO ALL OF THEM in one place and they were trying to persuade him that this was some kind of limbo. – How can you all be here, all at once! You all died in different time, some of you on different planets and you – he pointed at Rose – Died in another Universe!
-Doctor, - Rose started – It doesn't work like that here, when we met you, we already been dead for you, remember as Clara said? We were ghosts of the past. And me, well, my home Universe is here. I died and then was pulled back, here we all was waiting for you, I am sorry you can't meet your Timelord family, but I hoped that your Earth/companions family would be enough.
The Doctor looked at all of them, whoever they were, they believed in their words. But it didn't prove anything; he met a lot of things who did terrible things just because they believed in something.
-Why do I look like that? Why not the body I died in? – he asked harshly, he was talking to Rose now. He loved all his companions but she, well if it's an afterlife her presence would be enough to feel like in Heaven.
Rose smiled a bit, she could feel that he wasn't hostile anymore, at least not as much. When she first got here, she was terrified too, good thing her mother and her father, real one, was here to meet her.
-You don't have a body here, Doctor. You just look like you got used too, the same thing with us. You could look like a ginger girl…
-Oi! – Donna and Amy exclaimed playfully.
-Or anything you like, mostly people look like they remember themselves, especially at first. You, well you are a weirdo – at that everyone laughed – As a Timelord you have, sort of 13 souls, unlike us. You have one big spirit. Remember the Avatar cartoon? It's like that a bit. Every regeneration triggers the birth of new soul and consciousness while the others are dormant while you are alive. When they are over, you die. Your body can be used for another Timelord, but you, this you, is dead.
-That's….well, that's impossible, like everything else! – he exclaimed, now he felt like his head was hitting by bus, constantly. – You still didn't answer my question.
-I am trying, Doctor – said Rose patiently – A normal Timelord would be here with his latest appearance, but you, well you went further, you gone through metacrisis and separated one of your souls into separate, human body. He lived his short lifespan and than he was trapped, as he couldn't move on without other 12. Remember when I showed you the memories of our life together on Pete's world? – the Doctor nodded – You said that it felt like I returned part of your soul. When I became the Bad Wolf I was given that part of you so I could pass it to you when the time is right. Otherwise you'd be trapped here forever.
-You remember our dates when you were a Bad Wolf? – this whole situation was insanely ridiculous, impossible and mad! But still, something made sense and he felt hope…
-Of course I do. I lived it, Doctor. – Rose was standing really close to him, he could see every freckle on her beautiful face – You look like that, because now, all of your memories in order, because you lived two lives in similar bodies and they summarized like this. Look in yourself, you will remember everything about Pete's world from your point of view and then you can say a proper "Hello" to everyone.
The Doctor swallowed and closed his eyes. His non-existing hearts pounded with excitement and fear that all this is a trick. Because if Rose is right, he will be able to recall their lives and he'll have to accept that all this is real, because no one could have those memories except for his human self. The Doctor gasped. He could see it, he could actually see and feel everything, from the moment he woke up in the console room in from of astonished Donna to his last breath in the bed he and Rose shared in Pete's world. He could see every fight, every happy moment, he could see their daughter, he could see little Jack and the TARDIS growth. He felt…he didn't even know what he felt. He opened his eyes.
-Rose?..- he whispered hesitantly, she beamed at him with all she was worth, everybody was smiling some of them cheering. Adric and Peri cried : Hurray! And he couldn't control himself anymore, he grabbed Rose into hug than got Amy and Sarah Jane and eventually it transformed into one giant group hug, everyone was crying and laughing at the same time. The Doctor realized how ridiculous and cheesy they must look, but he didn't care. He felt so, so happy, so light. And then he found Rose again and kissed her deeply, it felt so real, whatever they said about "not-really-bodies". Everyone shushed, they kissed and kissed and kissed. Than River couldn't take it anymore.
-Hey, you two! Get a room! Seriously can we transport to the afterlife before you two start…
-Shagging – added the very tactful Donna Noble.
Rose and the Doctor broke apart, than something hit the Doctor, he never promised anything to Sarah Jane or Charley, but…
-River, I am so sorry. I…
-No, it's fine, Doctor – at his expression she laughed – I am serious, the moment I got here I realized how screwed up our relationship was. I mean it was fun and exciting, but we never loved each other, as soon as I was free from my brainwash I realized that. You two on the other hand…Well, you have my blessing – she winked in the very River manner – In the next life I'll find someone available and not crazy.
-You two – added Amy with a smile– are so sweet that it's a bit revolting.
The Doctor smiled genuinely, it was all too good to be true, he loved them all and he was touched that they met him here, he still couldn't believe that he got into the good place, he always believed that if there is something after death he is destined…well for less pleasant.
-So, what's next? – he asked – Is there a paradise? Hell? Something else? – he couldn't wait to find out.
-Something else, Doctor. You'll see, - Rose smiled – The afterlife is not scary, there is no hell, no heaven, just afterlife, everyone will get there eventually – she said mysteriously, than she took his hand. He could see as all his former companions disappearing slowly, they were all smiling at him, everything was in fog, all he could feel Rose's hand. – Close your eyes, Doctor and let go.
He obeyed, Rose's other hand covered his eyes, he felt as he was carried by a light, warm wind.
-Open your eyes, love. – said Rose – Welcome to your new home.
He opened his eyes and smiled widely. No words can describe the beauty of this place, it was unending, he could see the horizon of the bluest sea ever seen, the trees and flowers were huge and so, so different, like someone gathered his every favorite scenery and put it here, but he could also see some unfamiliar things.
-That is mine – said Rose, they started to walk to a small mansion. – I saw it once a long time ago and it became my dream house.
-So, this place recreated our favorite places?
-Sort of, yeah. But everything about this place is in constant change. Here, the thought can do everything. – she stopped and looked at him seriously. – I can stay here, with you, if you want. Or you can live here on your own.
-Why would I want that? – he asked in surprise. She had to be joking, the unknown world, no death, Rose here with him! How can she even ask?
-Well, you know. It's a brand knew world for you, it's never-ending and changes every minute, there is an immense knowledge here, everything you can find about the Universe, you can visit every friend you ever had, every person you ever wanted to meet and…
-I most defiantly want to share everything with you. We even can make a visit to your mother – she smiled at this - Rose, - he put her hand on his chest. – We've been through so, so much. And now, when we can have really have a happily ever after you think I can let go of it?
-I just thought…Well, you know we will stay here until the new big bang! It will be plenty of time and…
-You think you will get tired of me? – the Doctor said jokingly – I love you, Rose. Always have and always will. And I want us to share this – he looked around – if you want to.
Rose didn't say anything she just kissed him lightly. They looked at the landscape in front of them, content and happy, holding hands. The Doctor was wearing his blue suit and Rose was wearing a simple white dress, they were watching as giant birds crossed the colorful sky. And like all those centuries ago, in their fragile mortals' lives the Doctor looked at Rose and asked her:
-How long are you going to stay with me?
She turned her head and smiled, right now she can answer him without the fear:
-Forever.
Author's Note: Thank you again, for everyone who shared this journey with me^_^ I wanted to make this kind of the story for a very long time and finally I did it. I know that's this ending is a bit too cheesy and lovey-dovey, but I wanted the Doctor and Rose to be together so badly, at least in death. Thanks again for your time. ;)
