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Chapter 4. Haruka's only mother
It had been few days since the man called Kuran Kaname claimed himself as Haruka's father came, and in these days that guy was nowhere to be seen. It made Haruka feels so relieved, he was just a little boy, and he didn't know how to react over such thing like Kaname confessed to him.
But Haruka would be lying if he said he was not happy with the truth he still had a father, however Haruka had always loved his mother, Zero so much. He loved him dearly more than anyone else in the whole universe. Even if he had Kaname, as his father, he still could not be apart from Zero. His beloved Mama, the only one who had been raising him since he was abandoned by some people.
And Haruka was hurt to remember the fact that he was abandoned by his family, when they suddenly came and claimed themselves as his family, how could he accept them easily? He could not do that, even though he was just a baby, most of people who were close to Zero have been telling him about how Zero found him, and how hard Zero raised him till now. His mother had already sacrificed everything, Zero should have been married, or at least dating someone, however Zero had already given all of his affections to Haruka. He had no time to be in love or to be in relationship. He was happy being a mother of Haruka. Because he no longer had a family, it was such a happiness to have Haruka as his family.
Although Zero was aware of the fact that Haruka might leave him one day, he still was happy to be with his son for years. Just maybe, Haruka would be the only person he considers as his family, though he had Kaito as his bestfriend, but Kaito would always be his bestfriend not more than that. They were always brothers, but Zero could not claim Kaito as his family. Because he just could not... for him, Haruka would be the only one who's part of his family.
"Mama!" Haruka called out for Zero cheerfully, he just woke up from his sleep to find his mother cooking their breakfast. As Zero turned around to face him, he gave Haruka his warm smile while cooking the potato omelette which was known as Haruka's favorite meal.
"Haruka, go take a shower and brush your teeth! Mama will finish your breakfast soon after you finish your shower..." Zero muttered smiling sweetly.
Haruka just nodded and rubbed his eyes lazily, he was still sleepy but he needed to go to school. His Mama would be angry if he was being lazy and refusing to go to school. His Mama had always said that he should be a smart boy so he would be a successful man in the future, and Haruka knew exactly that what his mother said was true. He had no doubt in everything Zero said. He always obeyed it no matter what, because what Zero said, had always been for his good. He knew his mother wants the best for him.
The little boy slowly walked off from the kitchen, leaving Zero who slowly stared at his son's back with the sadness in his eyes. "Haruka...Please forgive Mama..." he whispered to himself painfully.
His tears were already falling onto his flawless cheeks...'I believe, it is the best for you my son...'
KazeKaze
"Kiryu Haruka!" A teacher whose name Kim Kibum calling out Haruka's name. Haruka immediately put his right hand up, while said "Present, Bummie-seonsaengnim!"
It was Kibum's daily life to check our his students' presences. And this handsome little boy was one of his favorite student, should he say his most favorite one? since Haruka is the smartest boy in his class. He was only 4 years old, but he had known how to read, even Haruka could read English and of course simple katakana and hiragana because he was a Japanese after all. Such a fantastic student Kibum has here.
"Okay, we will start our class with practicing for our show the day after tomorrow... so, are you guys ready? Have you guys decided what you guys want to perform?" Kibum said, after finished checking out his students.
All the students shouted in union happily. "YESS SEONSAENGNIM!"
"Good, and remember to not tell your parents until tomorrow okay? Let them be surprised by your presents for them..." Kibum said, giggling cutely. He was too amused to see how cute his students were.
Kibum glanced at his favorite student who was surrounded by the little girls in the class, since Haruka was like a prince in their fairy tale stories which their parents told about. Haruka just ignored them, he was too busy with his assignment for the show. He wanted to give his best for his mother. It would be his special gift ever! To present such a wonderful gift for his mother in front of people would be the best thing he had ever done. He would do anything for Zero, because Zero was his mother, the only mother he loves dearly.
"So, what are you going to perform, Haruka?"
Haruka just smile hearing the question from someone no other but Kim Kibum, his favorite teacher. He looked up to find his teacher giving his sweetest smile to him, Haruka could just smile back in return then nodded vigorously. "Haruka will perform a poetry written by Haruka for Mama!" he exclaimed cheerfully.
Kibum chuckled and then took a seat next to Haruka, as he patted Haruka's head gently. "Good, Haruka's mom should be proud of Haruka... Since Haruka is so smart and a good boy..." he complimented, making Haruka blushed shyly. Haruka had always loved when people complimented him, especially if it was his mother who said so, he would smile nonstop because of that.
Seeing how cute the reaction of Haruka's was, Kibum just giggled silently. He always knew how much Haruka loved Zero, moreover Zero and Kibum had known each other for quite long time. Thanks to Kaito for that, since he was the one who introduced Zero to him.
Zero was the most beautiful guy Kibum had ever met, he was not only beautiful, but also sweet, cute, kind and sincere. And he had known how hard it was for Zero to raise a kid like Haruka, that's why Kibum volunteered himself to take Haruka in this preschool, and become his teacher.
Kibum could not deny the fact that he loves Haruka so much, he was a sweet boy, in fact he had never been a burden for Zero or him, or someone else. This little boy already acted like a mature even though he was just a little boy. Even though he was just some foreign in this country.
"Haruka will do the best for Mama, so Bummie-seonsaengnim, please dont tell Mama about what Haruka going to perform nee!" The little boy made a pose, putting his index finger on his lips cutely.
His teacher just nodded in reply while pinching Haruka's cheeks. "Dont worry, little boy... Seonsaengnim promises not to tell your mother..."
With that, Haruka smiled widely in return, he became so impatient, waiting to perform his poetry for his beloved mother.
KazeKaze
Zero sighed hardly on his seat, he kept spacing out for these past few days. He had been crying secretly when no one was there, he was deep in his sadness, and he could not say what his problem was.
"Zero... remember, it was your decision, like or hate it... you have decided it. please think straight!" He warned himself as the bitter smile formed on his plump lips.
If only, he could avoid this thing to be happened, if only he could run away from this matter with Haruka. He would be the happiest man alive, he was still not ready yet. And maybe he would never be able to be ready. It was too painful, it was too hard for him. How could he let it happen?
But... it was for Haruka's happiness... and he needed to do it,it was for Haruka, for his beloved son.
"Mamaa!"
Zero gasped then turned to see his beloved son who was now standing there. Not to mention how bright the smile that Haruka made was, it was too bright for Zero until he was not able to hold back his tears.
The tears quickly ran down his cheeks, he had no right to blame God for everything happened in his life. But, it was the saddest thing he needs to do, he needed to sacrifice his happiness as long as Haruka was happy. As long as his little angel was happy.
"Mama, what's wrong? Why Mama crying?" Haruka ran over his mother. as he looked up, he was seeing how hurt his mother was, Haruka was confused, he had nothing to do. "Haruka..." Soon, he felt he was pulled into his mother's warm embrace.
"Mama..." Haruka mumbled, he didn't know why suddenly the tears slid down. It hurt him a lot to see his mother crying like that. "Mama, Sorry, if Haruka had done something that makes Mama crying...Please no no cry, Mama…" he apologized between his sobs.
Zero quickly shook his head as he looked at his son with his teary eyes. He waggled Haruka's bangs, wiping away the tears on his son's cheeks tenderly. "Please dont say like that Haruka, Mama is always proud of you. You are the only son that Mama could be proud of... Mama is just feeling so sad... Haruka, dont need to worry, okay?" His mother spoke up, faking a smile.
Haruka just nodded, he had no words to say. He knew that his mother was lying to him. But, he didn't want his mother to feel sad if he asked what's wrong with him.
Meanwhile, Zero just hugged Haruka tightly as he cried silently. 'God... Please make me strong...' it was the only thing he could pray at the time.
KazeKaze
The next morning was the same for Haruka, his mother still looked so sad and fragile. As if he was about to break into pieces. And those smiles were no longer sweet, it was so fake and so bitter.
Haruka had been worrying his mother when he was studying at his school, and he made Kibum worried to death. Haruka told Kibum everything, and Kibum just told him to finish his poetry, so his Mama would smile again.
He agreed with that idea, with the image of his mother's sweetest smile, Haruka wrote his poetry vigorously, he had poured all the sweetest words in his mind for his mother. and he was sure, his mother would be happy to hear his poetry.
After school had finished, Haruka walked home alone as he hold his poetry happily. He had become impatient to perform his poetry, even though he only needed to wait a day, but it felt years for him.
Haruka was surprised to find a strange car in front of his mother's shop. He didn't understand why suddenly he felt so worried, but then, he decided to ignore it and happily walked in the shop.
But then the little boy gasped in horror to find the old man who came a week ago appeared in front of him with a wide smile. "Haruka!" said the man.
Haruka could not help but feeling so scared, he was searching for his mother, as he found his mother, the older guy just sat there, staring at him coldly. "Here is your luggage, please leave this place. and dont ever come back here..." it was harsh, and Haruka was crushed to hear that.
Haruka ignored his father who wanted to get close to him, he just walked quickly towards his Mama, as he was about to reach his mother, Zero immediately stood up before slapping Haruka's hands harshly. Making Haruka winced in pain as he fell on his bum, the paper on his hold fell on the ground slowly.
Kaname was so pissed to see what Zero had done to his son, he glared at the beauty angirly, sending shiver through Zero's spine. "What the hell are you fucking doing to my son, you bitch!" he cursed angrily.
Zero remained silent, he glanced at Haruka then at Kaname silently. "Please take your son away from this place, I dont need him anymore. He is just being a burden here..." It was a cold statement, but Zero needed to say it... he clenched his hands to hold back his emotion. He kept screaming in his mind to remain strong.
The beauty quickly turned away and took a seat on his usual seat. He just showed Haruka and Kaname his back, because he knew he was not strong enough to face them.
Haruka had already cried loudly, he took his paper and walked towards his mother, there was a table which prevented him to get closer to Zero. "Mama... why Mama being so cold towards Haruka? Why Mama asking Haruka to go with this Uncle?" He asked sadly, the tears refused to stop falling. He cried out loudly, making Zero bit his lips, enduring the emotion which kept flowing.
"Please go... go away! eoseo! Dont ever you show your face on me anymore... I am sick of you..." he said coldly, but... slowly the tears fell hard down his cheeks. He was not strong enough to be this harsh towards Haruka, but he had to do it, or Haruka would refuse to go with his birth father.
He remembered how he begged Kaname to let him stay with Haruka for a week, how he tried to not look sad in front of Haruka. He had treated Haruka so special for a week, he cooked every Haruka's favorite foods, buying lots of toys that Haruka would like. He remembered how he cried alone in the night while watching Haruka's sleeping face.
Zero loved Haruka so much, so much till no one knows how he feels. He had treated him like his own son, like he, himself was Haruka's realmother, and no one knew how hard it was for him, and how hurt it was for him to act harsh towards his precious son. Zero's heart had been shattered the moment he said those words to Haruka, his heart had been broken into pieces the moment Haruka cried so hard because of him.
"Mama... Mamaa... Please dont hate Haruka, Haruka loves Mama so much.. Please don't ask Haruka go... please Mama... Haruka wanna be with Mama..." Haruka was begging between his tears, Kaname, his father who was there could just stay silent, watching this painful scene.
He didn't want to see Haruka crying like this, but he wanted to live with his son, after waiting for years, he finally found his son. He was so happy, but to see his son refuse to stay with him, to see how his son ignore him, it hurt him like hell as well.
"I said to you already, are you dumb? Just go away from my sight! Just dont show up yourself anymore, please..." Zero shouted angrily, but deep inside his heart he kept saying, 'Please Haruka... please dont make Mama say horrible things to you... Please dont let me being an evil mother...onegai...'
Haruka was hurt by those words, but he still loved his mother no matter what... he didn't understand why his mother suddenly acted like that. Haruka was not ready to be away from his mother. He loved his mother so much until it was hard for him to let him go.
"Mama... Please... Dont be like that to Haruka, Mama... Haruka doesn't want to be taken away from Mama... Mama please... Please dont be like this... Mama..." He sniffed as he stared at Zero's back painfully. "Mama... Please read this... Please... Haruka wrote this for Mama..." he placed the paper on the table, hoping his mother to read it immediately.
But Zero didn't move at all, he still sat on his seat not caring about Haruka. In fact, he didn't want Haruka to see him crying... or everything he had planned was ruined by his stupid action.
Kaname who was getting mad over it immediately grabbed Haruka and took his luggage with him, his driver had been waiting outside, and he wanted to introduce Haruka to his family as soon as possible.
"Dont touch me! Let Haruka go, Mamaa Mamaaaa!" Haruka cried out, struggling from Kaname's grip, however he was just a little boy his strenght was nothing compared to Kaname.
Zero still haven't flinched at all, his tears kept falling hard whenever he heard that crying voice of Haruka's. He slowly took the paper on his table, not looking at Haruka and Kaname at all.
"Mama... MAMAA!" Haruka kept shouting for him, but Zero didn't dare to look at him, because he knew he would do anything to get Haruka back from Kaname if he looked at them.
Zero was hurt by his own actions, but he didn't know to whom he should complain, he was broken, he was hopeless, he was alive but his heart was dead, he even didn't know what to do, 4 years was not a short time, for 4 years his life had been filled with happiness, with Haruka's laughter, Haruka's smiles... Haruka was his happiness, he was happy as long as Haruka was happy, but to see Haruka like this, was this a right choice to do? He was confused, he was scared he might have done such a stupid mistake.
Mama...
I was just a baby... but you was there for me...
when no one wanted me, when no one was there for me...
you were the only one who stayed by my side...
Mama...
you are the star in the sky, you are the sun in the afternoon, and you are the moon in the night...
you have always filled my life with happiness...
you have always filled my life with your love...
Mama...
your smiles are as bright as the sun, light up my world...
when no one hate me, it is always you who would stand for me.
when no one abandon me, it is always you who would be there for me...
Mama...
My life is yours, you bring me to a life which always fill with happiness...with love...
You are not only beautiful, but you are so sweet, as sweet as honey...
you can melt an ice with your smile, you can break the rock with your kindness...
Mama...
Dont you know? I dont need someone else, as long as you are with me...
I dont need anything but you...
you said to me that you want me to reach my own happiness...
But what should I do when you are my happiness?
Mama...
Thanks for being with me, thanks for staying by my side...
Thanks for smilling for me, thanks for loving me...
You are my one, precious gift that God has sent to me...
Mama... it might be only 3 words I could say...
Dear my mother, Kiryu Zero...
I love you...
with love, Kiryu Haruka.
Zero was crushed, he cried loudly while reading that poetry belongs to his son, Haruka. He was so touched, yet he was being so selfish... he should not have done it in the first place, Haruka was happy with him. He should have known it, but he had already known, he had no right to be with him... to be with Haruka, his baby...
The tears which had fallen so hard, falling harder in all of sudden... Zero immediately ran outside to find the car was no longer there, he scanned the road as he saw the black car walking not too far from his shop, without any hesitation, Zero ran off towards the car, he could see Haruka was crying inside the car.
"Mamaa Mamaaa! Please stop the car! Mama is running for Haruka, pleaseee!" Haruka cried out, telling the driver to stop the car. The driver was hurt to see this innocent boy crying like that, begging to him. He was about to stop the car, but Kaname would not let it happen.
"Dont ever you dare to stop the car! or you will lose your job in second!" threatened Kaname. He was too pissed at the moment, Haruka should be happy to live with him. But Haruka was still crying so hard, he didn't want to stay away from his fake mother who Kaname bloody hated. How could Haruka treat him like this? He was his birth father. And Zero was nobody. He should listen to him, to not Zero.
"Haruka... Harukaaa!" Zero shouted between his tears, his eyes had been swollen, he didn't care with those people who were staring at him.
"MAMAAA! MAMAAA!" Haruka cried out for his mother, he kept struggling from Kaname, he even kicked Kaname, and punched him hard, but Kaname was not an easy man, he kept holding Haruka tightly.
"You devil! Please stop the car! Please dont take Haruka away from Mamaa...!" He screamed on the top of his lungs. But Kaname still didn't flinch at all, he just stared at his son coldly.
Behind the car, there was Zero who kept running behind it, he didnt care how far he had run, as long as he could take back Haruka, he would do it. He needed Haruka in his life, he didnt care whether Kaname would report him or not, because he was the one who had raised Haruka. Haruka was his son, despite of the fact that they were no related by blood.
"Haruka... Harukaa! My baby!" He panted harshly, he was so tired, but he didn't want to give up yet.
"Please drive faster!" Kaname ordered his driver, the older man just nodded and drive faster. While Haruka was still struggling from his grip, Kaname was smirking evilly. Soon, Haruka would forget about this wretch.
"I hate youu! I hate youu Uncle! You are not my father! I would not accept you as my father!" Haruka exclaimed angrily, he glared with a lot harted filled in his eyes.
Kaname was so upset hearing that, he wanted to make Haruka takes back what he just said, but it would make Haruka hate him more, to hear those words had already hurt him so much.
"Haruka!" Zero shouted again and again until he tripped on the rock as he fell hard on the ground. "Akhhh!" he winced painfully. "Haruka... Haruka!" he kept calling out for Haruka, until the black was no longer be seen.
As Zero fell on the ground, Haruka screamed once again calling out his mother, "MAMAAA!"
"PLEASE STOP THE CAR, MY MOTHER JUST FELL! PLEASEEE, UNCLEI!" He begged the driver, but the driver was scared of Kaname, he just kept driving, acting like he didn't hear Haruka's plea.
"He would be okay, you dont need to worry Haruka, let's just go home, okay?" Kaname said, trying to assure him. But Haruka just sent a dead glare to him as he slapped Kaname's arm harshly. "I will never forgive you, Uncle! Dont ever you wish to make me accept you as my father!" he exclaimed.
Haruka then looked outside, his mother was nowhere to be seen any longer. He then cried loudly again while praying hard for his mother.
Meanwhile the car was no longer be seen, Zero kept calling out Haruka's name, he was hopeless, the tears never got tired from rolling down his cheeks. He felt like he just lost his life the moment he no longer saw Haruka.
"Haruka, my son... Please Forgive your mother... Haruka... Mama cannot live without you..." He muttered as his head felt so heavy. Many people had been watching him in confusion, they didn't know anything at all, but they could feel the sadness that Zero was feeling at the time.
Zero lifted his right arm as his hand trying to reach for nothing in particular. His hand kept reaching to the direction where he lost the car from his sight. He didn't even care with the wounds on his knees.
Slowly, Zero felt his head getting heavyer, without he realized, suddenly his sight had turned black...
'Haruka... Please forgive Mama... Aishiteru Haruka...'
TBC
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