All Alone

A/N

Beta'd by HACullen (Heather Spaulding)

All Characters and everything twilight remain the property of Stephenie Meyer

Previously

I was about to answer him and tell him how sorry I was to involve him in the mess between our parents, when the door opened and in walked Elizabeth with a smile that lit up the entire room.

'Finally they are going to take me to see my babies,' I thought. I was about to move to get out of the bed when Elizabeth put her hand over mine to stop me.

"I know what you are thinking Bella but you are not strong enough to get out of the bed yet. But I do have some fantastic news," she grinned.

I lay back down on my bed, sighing in defeat.

"Yeah, what is it," I asked sarcastically. If she wasn't leaving me get up to see my babies then it was hardly fantastic news.

"Edward is awake and he is going to make a full recovery," she smiled.

That was an exception.

Chapter 29

EPOV

I felt so peaceful that I never wanted to leave. I was standing in the middle of a meadow that I had always gone to as a child. There was no one around, no traffic, no one shouting action there was nothing but silence.

"Come back Edward. Bella and the babies need you. I need you. You are my little boy. I love you," my mother whimpers in the distance.

Bella! I needed Bella! What was the point of all this peace and quiet if I couldn't have Bella or my babies to share it with. The next thing I knew I was floating before I was suddenly outside a house very much like my nana Masen's. I remember coming here everyday after pop died. My nana followed him only two years later, when I was eleven years old.

Suddenly the door opened and my nana appeared.

"Edward Masen, get your little behind in here," she called.

"Nana! Is that you," I asked in disbelief. I walked up the footpath towards her.

"Yes it is me. I have missed you slugger. Come in and have some lemonade," she cooed.

"Nana, where am I? Am I dead," I asked, following her into the house. She walked over to a table to where a big jug of lemonade stood and poured me a tall glass.

"No slugger you are not dead, but you have been in a serious accident and they have asked me to keep you company until you have healed enough for you to go back," she said, handing me the glass.

I took the glass from her and took a sip.

"What happened to me nana," I asked.

"You were in a car accident slugger. A woman called Carmen Platt was killed on impact. You had a crack in your skull, a broken leg, and broken arm so you were placed in a coma so that you could heal," she explained.

"Nana, I have to get back. Bella...The babies..." I exploded.

"Slugger, Bella and the babies will be just fine. She is a strong girl. You have chosen well," she said. I jumped up off the chair and paced the living room frantically.

"Calm down slugger. Maybe you should go back for a few minutes so that you can see that she is alright," she said.

Suddenly, I felt like I was floating and for a few seconds all I could see around me were clouds until I was looking down over Sam and Jasper, talking about Bella.

"How are we going to tell Bella," Sam asked Jasper. I could see that he was nervous but worried at the same time.

"I wish that I didn't have to tell her Sam, but since I do I am going to take Elizabeth's advice and make sure that there is a doctor with us when I tell her. I want Alice in the room as well, she is the only one who will be able to keep her calm," Jasper explained.

Suddenly, I could feel myself floating again before I returned to my nana's living room. She sat there with a warm smile. Oh how I had missed my nana, but I still needed to be back with Bella.

"There you see. Bella will be fine. She has a lot of support around her. All you need to do is relax so that you can heal. When the time is right, you will be back with her," she explained.

I raked my hands through my hair and pulled hard.

"Nana I know that Bella has a lot of support, but you need to understand what I put her through. It took a while to gain her trust and I need to be by her side," I explained.

"She will be fine slugger, but if you don't believe me then maybe you should go back again for a few minutes and see for yourself," she said before I felt myself floating again. Before I knew it I was looking down at Bella and Alice.

"Ali! There is something going on. Please tell me what is going on," she begged Alice.

I could see her starting to panic.

"Bella calm down baby. You need to calm down," I yelled.

"Calm down Bella. Take deep breaths," Alice asked her. Bella nodded as she took a couple of breaths.

It was like Alice heard and spoke for me. The next thing I knew I was floating again and was sitting with my nana again.

"Is that enough proof for you that she will be taken care of until you are all healed," she asked.

I nodded, knowing that my friends would take care of her for me. It doesn't stop my heart from hurting, I should have been there for her, I needed to be there for her.

"I understand Nana but you need to understand that Bella and I have been through a lot to get to where we are now! I love her with my whole heart and I am going to marry her some day. At the moment she is going through a high risk pregnancy and even though she has all the support she could ever want, she also needs me to be with her," I explained.

Nana sat in silence as she thought.

"Ok Edward. I am going to let you go back one more time to check on her," she said as I began to float again. Before I knew it, I was looking down at Bella, sleeping peacefully with Alice and Esme by her side. She looked so beautiful, her hair faned out on the pillow and her hand resting on her belly. I could have watched her forever, however suddenly her eyes flew open and she looked around the room frantically before her eyes rested on Alice.

"Alice, where's Edward? I need Edward," she croaked.

My heart felt like it was breaking as I looked down at her, unable to help her. Alice looked at Esme before placing her hand in Bella's.

"Bells, don't you remember? Edward was in a car accident. He is in a coma," she explained.

"No..no..no..no..no..NNNNNOOOOOOO, EDWARD", she screamed in agony

I wanted to go to her, hold her hand and tell her that I was right there with her, but I couldn't. Instead I had to continue looking down on her helplessly as she soaked the sheets.

"Fuck, mom get the doctor! Her water just broke," Alice yelled.

Suddenly, I was sitting opposite my nana again. I was pissed off at that point, I was taken away from my girl, who had just gone into premature labour.

"Ok Nana, enough is enough. I need to get back now! Bella is having the babies, ten weeks early, and I need to be there," I yelled, but all my nana did was smile.

"Sit down slugger and have some lemonade," she said. I took the glass and threw it at the wall.

"I don't want any fucking lemonade. I want to get back to Bella! NOW!"

"Edward, sit down. You are not going anywhere yet," she said, using her no nonsense tone. I sat down opposite her and started to pout like a little kid.

"Slugger, I have watched you for the past few years and I must say that I was very ashamed of what you had become. It warms my heart to see you so passionate about this girl. I love you slugger and I believe that your Bella came into your life at the right time. I think you are going to make a great father to your babies," she said sincerely. She stood up at the same time as me and pulled me in for a warm hug.

"I believe that it is time for you to go back, but remember one thing slugger. I will be watching over you always," she smiled. I was about to give her a brief kiss before I thought about what she said.

"Nana, when you said always, you don't mean ALWAYS, right" I asked. She looked at me and flashed me the crooked grin that I had inhereted from her.

"Us spirts use our own form of transgression," she smiled.

I leaned in and kissed her on the cheek.

"I love you, Nana."

"I love you too, slugger," she answered before everything around me became fuzzy. My entire body felt heavy as I listened to voices all around me, but I couldn't open my eyes.

"They look so beautiful. I cannot wait to see my grandbabies," my father said.

Grandbabies! Did Bella have the babies? I needed to be there, see them, touch them, touch my beautiful Bella. I struggled to lift my hand towards my father's voice but all I felt was pain.

"Ed..Ed..His hand moved," someone screamed, I think it was Jasper.

Suddenly I felt someones hand cover mine.

"Son, Son, can you hear me? If you can hear me, please squeeze my hand," my dad begged. With every ounce of strength I had, I curled my fingers around his and squeezed.

"Jasper, he squeezed my hand. Call Dr Mitchell and get Elizabeth on the phone. Tell her that our boy is waking up," he said. The next thing I heard was the door opening and shutting as footsteps scurried into the room.

"Edward? I am Doctor Benjamin Mitchell, can you hear me," he asked. It took a lot of my energy to nod once. He continued to speak as I slowly opened my eyes to a bright light.

"Hello Edward, welcome back. You are in Hollywood Community Hospital and were involved in a car accident, " the doctor explained.

"hhhhttttteelllaee," I crooked.

"Relax your voice Edward. I have just taken out your breathing tube and it could be a couple of hours before you can talk normal," he explained.

"Bwewwa, Bwwbbwes," I asked. I needed to know that Bella and the babies were doing alright. I remember that her water broke and it was at least ten weeks early.

"Bella and the babies are doing fine. She was worried about you but your mother is looking after them, You were in a coma for four days and you need to rest," dad said taking my hand.

I nodded as I closed my eyes and left sleep overtake me.

*~AA~*

For the next few days all I could do was sleep. The doctor told me that it was my brain's way of healing itself. All I could do was worry about Bella and the babies. I had to have everyone reassure me that they were doing alright.

My mother told me that the twins were born on the 20th of June, my twenty first birthday. My son was born first, weighing 3lbs 6ozs and his lungs hadn't been fully developed yet, but he was doing well. My daughter on the other hand, weighed 3lbs 2ozs. She was the strong one and refused to leave her brother for a second. She also told me that Bella refused to let anyone know their names until I was by her side, so that we could tell everyone together. That made me happy, I wanted to be there to see my mothers face when she found out their names.

The doctors told me that I would be there a while, but I already felt myself starting to go stir crazy. I needed to be with Bella and my children. I was told that Bella would continue to stay in the hospital for at least a week as she needed some extra time to heal after having a cesarean.

I was sitting up in the bed, wondering how I was going to eat the shit they gave me, when there was a knock on the door and Sam and Seth walked in.

"Hey mate, how you feeling," Sam asked.

"I would be feeling a whole lot better if I was out of this bed and over at Mount Carmel Hospital," I sighed.

I noticed Sam looking at Seth nervously and could hear Seth mumbling "No, he is not ready yet." I knew that something was going on and I needed to know what it was.

"What the fuck is going on between the two of you. Tell me," I spat.

Sam shrugged his shoulders and mumbled, "He is going to find out some time, it may as well be now," before taking a piece of paper out of his back pocket.

"Edward, while you were unconsious you had a visitor," he said, looking at Seth. He knew that I hated vague answers and before I could let out my frustration, he continued.

"It was Emily. We don't know how she got in and out of your room with all the security, but she did. By the time we realised she was even here, she was already gone, but she did leave a note," he said before handing me a piece of paper.

I took it into my shaking hand to read it.

My darling, but fucked up Edward.

Well, how does it feel to be the cause of so much pain. You, you bastard, killed my mother. All she wanted to do was protect me from you and because of you, she is dead.

I cannot wait to tell your daughter what a fuck up her father was. As for your son, I think that it is only right that he should cease to exist, just like my baby that you killed. And as for your precious Isabella, she should meet a sticky end, just like my mother did, so that you can wallow in grief for the rest of your miserable life.

An eye for an eye you bastard.

Emily

I was so angry, I couldn't see straight. I threw the blankets off and tried to ignore the pain as I attempted to stand on my broken leg. Sam quickly came to my side and steadied me before I fell flat on the ground.

"Edward, calm down," he said, helping me back into bed. I groaned in pain as my head hit the pillow and looked over at Sam.

"My place is with her Sam. That sick bitch is threating the lives of the love of my life and my children," I growled, but all Sam would do was shake his head.

"Edward, do you really believe that we would leave Bella and the babies unprotected? We have doubled up on security over at the hospital. On top of that, Alec moved here from Forks to be with her and is with her 24/7. Now, the best thing you can do for Bella and your children is stay here and get better. If you want to talk to Bella, you have a phone right next to you," he said pointing to my bedside table. Sure enough there was a phone on it and I wasted no time in picking up the receiver with my good hand, dialing the number of her cell only to get her voicemail instead.

Sam let out a little chuckle when I set down the headset in defeat.

"Let me guess, you rang her cell," he laughed. I nodded as he picked up the receiver again.

"Her cell is turned off while she is in the hospital, I suggest you ring her room," he said as he dialed a number, handing the phone over to me once he was done.

The phone rang twice before the sweetest voice I had ever heard answered.

"Hello?"

"Baby, is that you? Are you alright," I asked.

"E..Ed..Edward? Oh my god, thank you. I miss you. How are you feeling," she stuttered.

I smiled at her nervousness, but it warmed my heart to know that she worried and missed me.

"I'm fine. No scratch that, I won't be fine until I have you in my arms again. I miss you so much baby," I cooed.

"Edward, we have a son and daughter. They were born on your twenty first birthday. I haven't seen them yet due to the fact that they are in the NICU and I need to heal. I want to see them for the first time with you, but I don't know if I can wait that long," she said desperately.

"Baby, once I am out of here the first thing I will be doing is heading straight to you and our children. Once I'm there we can tell everyone their names. Thank you for waiting for me, so that we can tell them all together," I said.

"I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you, my Edward," she said.

"I love you too, my Bella," I answered. I slowly put the receiver back and laid back on the bed. I barely heard Seth and Sam leave the room as I fell asleep.

*~AA~*

It had been three days of phone calls between Bella and I, but nothing could have compared to being able to see her. That was why I woke up this morning with a huge smile on my face. The doctors had agreed to let me see Bella and the babies for a little while, arranging with my mother to have me transported to Mount Carmel Hospital by ambulance. The only condition was that nurse Swanson be with me at all time, and while I wasn't happy with the choice of nurse coming with me, nothing could have stopped me from going. Nurse Swanson was a fake blonde bimbo that repeatedly tried to come on to me; she couldn't seem to take no for an answer and I didn't want her trying to pull any shit with me while Bella was around.

Suddenly the door opened and in walked my mother, a massive smile on her face.

"Are you ready son? I better warn you, no one has told Bella that you are coming. We thought that it would be a good surprise for her," she grinned goofily.

I smiled and nodded as she settled me into the comfortable wheelchair popping my broken leg up before wheeling me out to the waiting ambulance.

Standing by the ambulance was Seth, Sam, and Slutty Swanson. I shudered as she took over for my mother, grazing my neck with her disgusting fingernails. I looked over my shoulder and plastered a fake smile on my face.

"I would prefer it if my mother stayed with me and pushed the chair," I told her, there was no way that I wanted to be alone with her. She didn't look happy but stood to one side, and let my mother wheel me on to the ambulance.

*~AA~*

Finally, after the longest forty five minute drive of my life the ambulance pulled up outside the Mount Carmel Hospital. I couldn't believe it, I was finally going to see Bella and my children.

The doors opened and the paramedics unfolded the wheelchair, helping get me settled into it.

Once I was settled, my mother took over and rolled me into the hospital with Slutty Swanson in tow. She didn't look happy that my mother was with us, but what did she think was going to happen? She knew I was coming here to see my girlfriend, who had just given birth to twins.

We passed by the nurses station and several of them came up to me, telling me that they were happy I was doing well and that Bella would be beyond happy to see me. I smiled and told them 'thanks' as my mother continued towards Bella's room. My heart was beating so fast and hard that I was surprised it didn't beat right out of my chest. We finally stopped outside of Bella's room, next to a huge security guard, as a doctor came around the corner and smiled at my mother.

"Good afternoon Dr Masen! I take it that this is your son," he asked. My mother nodded and smiled.

"Yes Dr Murphy. This is my son Edward. Edward, this is Bella's doctor. He delivered the babies," she said. I looked up at him and offered my hand for a shake, which he willingly accepted.

"It is good to meet you, Edward! Elizabeth and Bella never stops talking about you," he said.

"It is nice to meet you too, doctor. Thank you for taking such good care of Bella and my children," I answered.

"Now, do you know what is happening today," he asked.

I nodded as he continued.

"Bella doesn't know that you are coming today. We wanted it to be a surprise for her. I also know that she is anxious to see the babies and we thought that it would be good for both of you to see them together. Considering that they were born ten weeks early, they are doing extremely well, but both are still too weak to leave the NICU. Your son's lungs aren't fully developed but he is holding his own. Your daughter on the other hand, is a stubborn one and refuses to leave her brother for a second," he laughed.

I laughed along with him and looked up at my mother, begging with my eyes that she allow me to go to Bella now. She nodded before looking back at Dr Murphy.

"Thank you doctor, but I think Edward wants to go into Bella now," she said. He nodded and shook my hand again.

"No problem, just let me know when they want to go to the NICU and see the babies," he said before walking away as nurse Swanson opened the door, with a scowl plastered on her face. I had almost forgotten that she was there.

As soon as the door opened, the sight before me almost took my breath away. Laying on the bed was my Bella, her eyes closed as she slept peacefully, long thick hair fanned across her pillow like a curtain and her hands placed over her flat stomach as Alec sat next to her, holding her hand. It didn't take him long to look up and notice me entering the room. He quickly stood up and patted me on the shoulder.

"Good to see you man! I am happy that you are alright," he smiled.

I smiled back and nodded my thanks. He took his hand off my shoulder and looked over at Bella.

"She'll be so happy that you are here, even though she will probably castrate the rest of us for surprising her like this," he chuckled.

I barely listened to him as he continued to speak, I simply couldn't take my eyes off the beauty that was laying in the bed. I heard Slutty nurse Swanson huff behind me, but I choose to ignore her. Nobody was going to take that moment away from me. I asked my mother to wheel me over to her and help me out of the wheelchair so that I could sit on the edge of the bed.

I could feel the pain in my leg as she helped me, but I didn't care. Instead I spoke to everyone in the room, refusing to take my eyes off Bella for a second.

"Could you leave us alone for a few minutes," I asked. I could see that the slutty nurse was going to object, but my mother stopped her.

"Of course! Just push the button by the bed if you are in any pain or when you want help getting back into your chair," she said before leaving the room with the nurse and Alec.

I looked down at my girl sleeping peacefully as I leaned in to kiss her. As soon as my lips met her forehead, her eyes flickered open and looked up at me with love and amazement.

"Ed..Edward," she blinked.

I smiled as I bent down to kiss her pouty lips.

"Yes Baby, its me," I answered. She sat up suddenly and threw her arms around me, my leg jerked painfully but nothing, and I mean nothing, would have tainted that moment.

"Oh, how I missed you! I love you," she said repeatedly.

I laughed as I held her closer with my one good hand.

"You have no idea how much I needed to hear that baby," I said.

We spent god knows how long in each others arms before the door opened and my mother walked in with Slutty Swanson. She looked at the two of us with fury flashing in her eyes.

"Excuse me, but what do you think you are doing? You could have injured him worse then what he already is," she spat, her anger directed at Bella who looked close to tears. Suddenly I saw red, forgetting my broken leg as I attempted to get up and confront the bitch, only to collapse back on the bed in pain when I jerked my leg.

"Now do you see what you did you inconsiderate bitch? Eddie is hurt worse because of you," she spat as she came to my side.

"Don't worry, we will get you back to the hospital and back into bed," she said, putting her arms around me as she fluttered her eyelashes. I shook her hands off me and pushed her away, not caring what I was doing.

"Stay the fuck away from me, you whore! I don't know where your hands have been and you will regret speaking to my girl like that," I spat my voice laced with venom. She looked taken aback by the sound of my voice but quickly masked it.

"I was only looking after you," she said. I was about to tell her to fuck off when my mother spoke for me.

"I do not appreciate the way you spoke to Miss Swan Sophie, rest assured that I will be speaking to your supervisor when we get back and demand your immediate dismissal. I will look after my son from here on out, you may wait for us at the ambulance," she said coldly. Slutty Swanson looked at the three of us, left out a sob, and ran out the door, leaving me with my mother and Bella.

My mother looked at the door before glancing at Bella and I.

"Well now that the rat is gone would you like to go visit your son and daughter," she smiled. I looked at Bella and watched her face light up at the mention of our babies. My mother didn't need to do any more convincing, our answer was written all over our faces.

She came towards me and helped me get back in the comfort of my wheelchair before leaving the room. It was then that Bella noticed the extent of my injuries and her face fell.

"Oh Edward, I forgot about your injury's! I shouldn't have jumped you like that," she said remorsefully. I leaned in and stroked her right cheek with my thumb.

"Bella, holding you was worth all the pain in the world," I answered lovingly.

We continued to stare in each others eyes until the door opened and my mother walked in with Dr Murphy. He gently lifted Bella up and helped her get settled into a wheelchair. I bristled at the sight of someone else touching my girl but wisely kept my mouth shut.

"So today is the day, huh! You finally get to meet the troublesome twosome," he chuckled. I laughed when Bella rolled her eyes as he pushed her out, mum pushing me after her.

Suddenly, we came to a stop outside the NICU and it was as if my heart was beating out of my chest. I was happy to see two huge security officers standing guard however, confident in the safety of our children. Dr Murphy waved at a nurse and pointed at the two of us; after a few seconds she came out with protection caps and masks.

"This only a precaution," she explained as we put on the items. Once we were ready, Dr Murphy pushed Bella into the room as my mother pushed me.

We came to a stop at two incubators. One held a baby with coppery unruly hair, I knew straight away that this was my son. He was hooked up to all these machines, helping him breathe until his lungs were fully developed. I never thought I could have felt love like that towards something so small. I looked at Bella, tears falling from her eyes as she looked down at a little brown haired baby. I knew immediately that this was my daughter; Bella reached out and took my hand as she looked from our daughter to our son. I felt my eyes water as I looked down at the beautiful little girl in the incubator.

We were snapped out of our thoughts when the nurse in charge spoke.

"So, do you have any names picked out or do we continue to call them baby boy and girl Swan?" I immediately wanted to correct her and tell her that they were called Masen, but kept my mouth shut.

I looked at Bella and silently asked her if she was ready to reveal the names of our two angels. She nodded before looking at the nurse.

"Yes we have names picked out," she said as she put her hand on the glass of the incubator that held our daughter.

"Our daughter's name is Arabella Alice Masen," she smiled down at Arabella. She looked at me and nodded for me to reveal the name of our son.

"Our son's name is Riley Anthoney Masen," I said happily as I placed my hand on his incubator.

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