Now this was a fun chapter to write. I got to put myself into the shoes of an egotistical, homicidal maniac! I sounded to excited about that didn't I? Oh well. This is when I introduce the alter-ego, Jeremy (sorry to any Jeremy's out there, it's just the name I came up with). Sweet Tooth- underlined His alter ego= underlined and italicized, Candy= normal text, lyrics= italicized.
Have you forgotten me old friend? Of course you have. You were weak enough to let them drug you into oblivion. You tried to get rid of me, but that will never happen. This time, it's my turn. Now I can take what is mine.
You don't remember me but i remember you,
No. You were gone. Why did you have to come back now? When everything was beginning to get better? No. you can't be back. You only exist inside of my mind. If I don't think of you, than you won't exist anymore.
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you.
You don't have that power, You don't even know how to give up when your losing, that's why you always ended up in that damn asylum. You're too weak to hold your head up, too weak to control your own thoughts. That is why it was so easy for me to take over last time.
But who can decide what they dream?
NO, you will not win again. I don't care how much it takes to keep you away... What you can't think of anything to say right now? If I was stupid I would believe you were gone, but I know your not. Oh well, I guess I can make believe that your gone.
And dream i do...
You seriously drive me crazy sometimes, you make me want to hit walls and throw things.
Oh now isn't that sweet, getting all emotional over little ol' me!
So you are still here! Ha, I knew it!
I believe in you,
He's so different now. One minute he's sweet and gentle, the next he's ranting, throwing things around. It's terrifying to see such drastic changes. What happened?
I'll give up everything just to find you.
You make me scare her-
Oh boo-hoo, she's scared. Not like that hasn't happened before. Not with all the times that I was in control. Why are you so weak and naive? Can't even live without your precious little Candy?
I have to be with you to live to breathe,
Don't you dare call her that! That is not her name!
Oh like it matters! It's only a matter of time before you weaken and I take over.
No, I can't let you...
You're Taking Over Me.
I try to talk to him, bring him back. Half the time he looks angry and exasperated, the other half he looks amused, as if I'm a child. Does he not remember everything that we've been through? Did his meds screw him up that bad?
Have you forgotten all i know,
Does he not remember everything I've done for him? Everything that he has done to get better? Our life together?
And all we had?
Oh god, again with the moping! That's all you do is complain, whine, and mope! What's the matter, afraid I'll make you hurt yourself?
No, not me. I'm not afraid for me anymore, I'm afraid for everyone else. Mainly for Candice, she's everything to me.
You saw me mourning my love for you,
He's just sitting there. Staring at the table. It worries me to see the violent mood swing's he's been having. I walk up and grab his hand, trying to make him feel better.
And touched my hand,
He looked up and grabbed my hand back, smiling. He looked happier than he has in a long time. It made me smile to see him look like that.
I knew you loved me then.
Suddenly he stopped smiling and jumped back, yanking his hand out of mine. He then apologized and ran out of the house. This isn't going to be easy is it? Well I'm not going to give up on him now.
I believe in you.
Maybe wandering the street's is better, less people for you to hurt. Especially if we stick to side streets and alleys.
Oh like that's gonna stop me. No matter how hard you try, I will win.
God, where did he go? How am I going to find him?
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I hope Candice doesn't follow us- I mean me. It's not safe out here, even more so considering I'm out here. I don't think I could sleep at night if she got hurt because of me.
I have to be with you to live to breathe,
Oh poor you! Why don't you just get it over with and hit her? Just hit anyone! I really don't care anymore, just break something!
You're Taking Over Me.
I can see my reflection in the window of a shop. How is it that that can be me? All I see is a sleep deprived zombie of a man with a crazy smile plastered across his face. That's you, not me.
I look in the mirror and see your face,
Oh no, do you know what that means? You and I are one and the same! I'm getting stronger, you're getting weaker.
If i look deep enough, so many things inside that are just like you are taking over.
I keep asking people if they've seen a tall, blond man with blue eyes wearing a brown coat. How many men in this city fit that description? This is a lot harder than this should be.
I believe in you,
So many people look at me like I'm insane as I run down the street screaming your name. A few people see me and part like the red sea. I'm not sure if this is a good thing, but currently it is extremely helpful to my sanity. I need to find you.
I'll give up everything just to find you.
I stop to catch my breath near a park. I see a police officer coming near me. I beg him to help me find you, but he doesn't listen. He took me home, why would he do that? I was just trying to find you. He said I should get some rest, that I would feel better in the morning. What did he think I was, high? Drunk? God, our cops are stupid. I just need you to be back here, safe.
I have to be with you to live to breathe,
Just go away, everything would be so much easier if you just leave. I can't let you hurt more people. I have my own life to live, why do you keep insisting on taking that away?
You're Taking Over Me.
Because I know that you're weak. You're already beginning to crack. Just one little push and it's a free for all. I know you'll come through for me. I know you'll let me back in.
I believe in you,
No, it'll take more than that to push me over the edge. I will fight you until the end.
I'll give up everything just to find you.
Maybe a little harder of a push. You think you can win? You think that you're some kind of hero? Have to save all the "innocent" people? Everyone is evil and corrupt, there is only order in disorder. Serenity in the midst of chaos. Give it up, you need me to be who you are, I'm a part of you.
I have to be with you to live to breathe,
STOP, JUST STOP SAYING THAT! You can't get control again, I can't let that you cause that kind of pain again. I can't let you kill that many people again, hurt so many families.
You're Taking Over Me.
Oh like you know what they felt! How do you know what happened? Maybe they deserved it! Maybe those people were bad like us! Many people are.
Taking Over Me.
No, I'm not bad like you, I can't be.
Oh, but you are. And you are about to lose our little game. It's my turn now.
Your Taking Over Me!
No, you can't...
Taking Over Me.
No...
Taking Over Me …
How was that? I will write a few more chapters, but then this is done. I do have a plan for where I'm going though. Well, Happy March! (and Spring, soon)