Arya Scott Cullen

Chapter 5

It was dark, but it was time to go to school. I left without talking to anyone and took one of the cars, planning on not letting Roy be alone. I might even watch out for Bella, for Edward sake. He gave me a thankful nod; I knew he would do the same. It was a black Mazda, one of our simpler cars. I could feel an almost invisible barrier between me and Jasper. We never fought like that before. I drove up to Roy's house and got out. I walked to the door and knocked.

Roy answered. "Ayra?! What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to pick you up for school."

He still looked shocked. "But, what about people at school?"

I chuckled and said. "I never really cared what the humans thought, unless it bothers you of course." I frowned to myself, why didn't I think about his feelings first. Humans can be very judgmental and I don't want him to have to deal with that for my sake.

He shook his head quickly, his eyes earnest. "No, I just thought your family..." I scowled darkly. He frowned and opened his mouth to say something, but then I heard.

"Roy?"

He turned and said. "Bye, Mom! I'm going to school!"

He then followed me to my car and got in the passenger side. I climbed in, started the car and drove off. he repeated his question about my family.

I hesitated and he smiled at me. "Go, it's okay."

I shook my head and looked at him while I drove. He flinched. "Please keep an eye on the road!"

I rolled my eyes, but looked ahead. I hesitated again, but said. "My family...isn't all excepting to me and you. Edward is with Bella Swan now and they haven't been understandable. Some do and then some don't."

He frowned and looked worried. "Am I tearing your family apart?"

I looked at him with wide eyes, shocked that he would even think something like that. "No, don't think that! You did nothing wrong, If it is anyone's fault I'm the one to blame."

He mirrored my shocked eyes. "Don't think that, how is it your fault?"

I gave him a bitter smile as I made a right turn. "I could have made you turn away, but I didn't. It is dangerous for you to be around me." He looked questioning, but I was relieved to see the school. Rose's red car was here along with Edward Volvo.

I said. "Tine to get out." I got out and he gave me an annoyed look which made me grin. I saw Edward and Bella walking together and I raised an eyebrow. I grabbed Roy's hand and clasped our fingers and he didn't even flinch or shiver,

I asked. "Are you used to it already?"

I raised our hands with a smile. He shrugged. "A bit, it's you." I tensed slightly as he seemed so relaxed around me that quickly, but then I grinned again so he would at ease and walked toward Bella and Edward. I saw him stiffen.

I was on his side and I said. "Hello, Edward. Bella."

She looked at me shocked. "Uh, Hi." Well, she talks a lot. Edward shot me a glare. I shrugged and showed him in my mind all he needed to know, that I would protect her too if I was near.

His eyes flickered to Roy and I gotten the message. I asked. "How was your day?"

I was looking at Bella and Roy was sending me a look. I shrugged and she looked in my eyes and then she looked away mumbling. "Uh, Fine."

I frowned and she looked at me and I kept my mind clear so Edward wouldn't know. By his furrowed brow, it worked. I said. "You don't have to be scared of me...I don't bite."

I heard Roy cough loudly, her gasp and Edward's hiss. "Arya!"

He was growling and I looked at her seriously. "I'm serious about that one though, I'd be a hypocrite if I did." I walked off and Roy stumbled after me. I slowed down and gave him a 'sorry' look.

He shook his head. "That was bad."

I shrugged, with a smile. "Edward will want to kill me again for that one."

He yanked on my arm. "That's not funny."

He looked at me seriously. I raised my eyebrows, wondering what bothered him from my comment and then the first bell rang. I sighed and said. "See you at History." I waved and went to my first class, which was Geometry. It was over and then it was Government. I was about to sit in my seat, but someone was there. I raised an eyebrow and the teacher's heart beat a little faster.

"Oh, Miss. Cullen, there has been a seat change. Could you sit by Miss. Swan?"

I looked and Bella stared at me like a deer caught in headlights. I smirked at the comparison. I gave a nod and sat away from Bella. She still had blood in her veins. The day passed by slowly until it ended and then I went to History with Roy.

I sat down with him as we did an assignment on the Jim Crow laws. We had to pick a law, draw and picture and explain it. Those days were interesting. There was so much ill intent during that time with the freed slaves, the Klu Klux Klan or KKK was around. Killing Black people left and right.

I knew most about that because at night time when they them, vampires would suck the blood from the ones that were not their too long; I've done it when we were told by Maria not to draw attention to ourselves.

After that was done, I and Roy went to Lunch and I saw Edward and Bella sitting at a table, though when Edward saw me, he gave me a glare. We sat away from them so it wouldn't be as hard to ignore them.

He looked at me and asked as he ate his food. "When can we finish our conversation?"

"After school, if you're not doing anything."

He shook his head and I noticed he stopped eating. "Eat."

He looked at me in shock and quickly looked around. "I think you'd be found out."

I looked at him in disbelief, shocked at what he said. "That's not funny."

Roy raised his eyebrows. "Why not, after what you said to Bella?"

I made a fist with my left hand on the table and said in a harsh whisper. "You don't understand how much you put yourself at risk, being with me, I'm the worst vampire you could have picked!"

He looked at me, his eyes reflecting a sort of hurt. That hurt me for a moment, I never wanted to hurt him, physically or emotionally. He does not understand, the Monster I am. He saw what I can do, yet he still stays. That is what I fear.

Roy scowled. "That makes no sense at all."

I looked and noticed people leaving. I stood up, grabbed my bag and said. "See you later after school." I then stormed off to Biology II, hoping Edward would stay out of my mind. It was actually funny, looking at them. Before he tried to stay as far as possible, but now he was really close. The agony he must feel... came in and set up some movie while I was stuck with my thoughts as the two in front of me locked eyes everyone once in a while.

I really didn't know what to do about Roy. I wanted him to leave, but I didn't at the same time. Knowing him, those topics would come up and I wondered when my 'diet' would come up. Speaking of that, I needed to go hunting soon. Last time I checked earlier, my eyes were getting blacker and I hated being around Roy at that time.

Soon enough, the movie was over and so was class. I got up and heard Edward say. "Well, that was interesting." He sounded wary and I had no idea what he was talking about. She sort of just stuttered and they left, I did before them.

I went to my last class and walked in the parking lot, found Roy and said. "Let's go."

I walked away and I heard him run to catch up. "Hey! Hey, hold on!"

He caught up to me and I got in the driver's side and waited for him to get in. "Uh, Arya? You're..." I was already out, his voice was worried. I looked to what he was staring at and saw Rosalie giving him a full on death glare.

Jasper had his arms crossed staring at me and I said. "Get in the car." I looked to see Rosalie frowning and I glared at her, a hiss from my mouth. Emmett then started pulling her in the car. Jasper had a strange look on his face. I got in the car and made a sharp turn out of the space, pulling out of the parking lot and to the road.

I heard. "Whoa, Arya! It's okay, really!" I shook my head in disagreement. They should not be looking at him like that. If he was around a normal human, he wouldn't have to deal with that. The thought pained and I shook my head slightly, it hurt to even think like that.

He asked. "You said we could talk after school?"

I grumbled. "I knew you'd remember that. Where do you want to go?" He shrugged. I drove faster down the the road and stopped in front of an area of trees. I got out and used vampire speed to open his door. He got out with a quick smile and I lead the way in the forest, having a bad feeling about this. We walked in far and I leaned against a tree.

He sat down on the ground and I spoke up. "I'm going first with the questions since that's all you did last time. Why were you upset when I said Edward would kill me?"

I was looked for the obvious answer since that was the one thing that has been bothering me.

He gave me a dumbfounded look though. "Really?! I care about you, that's why, more than anything."

I looked down at him. "What? No, you have no idea what you're saying."

He stood up. "You can care for me, but I can't for you?"

I gave a nod. "Yes, that's how it has to be."

He was louder now. "That's not how it works!"

I crossed my arms across my chest and stepped away from the tree. "It is and you are only deluding yourself of the truth!" My voice was a bit raised.

He was angry, I could tell without Jasper's gift. "What did you mean, about you being the worst vampire?"

I sighed, why did he have to ask that question? "I meant what I said."

He was shaking his head now. "What though!" He was getting aggravated now, it was definitely visible. I could not say I did not feel the same.

I walked forward and grabbed him by the shoulders and against a tree. My voice was raised. "I'm a monster and you should have nothing to do with me!"

I looked at him in the eyes, with the pain in them. He said softly. "I don't believe that."

It was said in a whisper. I shook my head in disgust at the stupidity. "What about my hunger, I drink blood. How do you think I get that blood!?"

He looked at me shocked and stared. "...Animal blood. Y-you told me golden eyes mean animal blood."

I moved closer, ignoring the painful in my throat. "I'm a monster. If being a vampire was not enough, I killed my own kind because of an order. I have no control of this thirst; I'm like a wild beast".

He shook his head, his eyes pleading. "You not a Monster."

I moved away and jumped to another tree, hanging there and then I jumped down, walking back to Roy. "Do you want to know why we moved here two years ago? It was because I lost control. I did! I drained a human of blood till he was DEAD! I made my Coven leave because I could not control myself and you expect me to be able to be around you? I killed so many humans before you a century ago and after that. So many bodies drained of life to let me walk, even some children to the mix."

He was looking at me shocked and horrified and another emotion I could not see, shaking.

Wide blue eyes stared at me and I felt as sick as a vampire could feel. I made that look on his face, I swore to protect him and I made him feel this. I found a new disgust, but aimed at myself. I should not have lost control of my emotions like that; I was older and knew better.

I shook my head angrily. "Come on, we're going now."

He didn't say anything, but followed me. I drove with a scowl and tight knuckled hands on the wheel, being careful not to break it. It was quiet until we arrived to his home and I gave him a nod. He gotten out, opened his mouth to say something and closed it, walking inside. He was at the door before I drove off. The look he gave me that screamed agony filled me with new self-hate and I drove off.

I arrived home and I was thankful that my thoughts were not open.

I felt depressed and I saw Jasper's head snap up at me from the couch. "Arya?"

I looked at him, suddenly feeling tired for one that does not sleep. "What is it?"

He shook his head and I ran upstairs to my room and on my bed. I looked at my ceiling with my arms behind my head. Later on I heard Carlisle come in.

I didn't even bother looking. "Arya?"

I said. "Yes, Carlisle?" He was quiet and I sat up and stood, as it was respectable to do.

I stood straight with my hands folded behind my back and looked at him, he chuckled. "You don't have to do that, just like you don't need a seat, take one anyway."

I nodded and sat on the bed. Strangely, he sat next to me. "Arya, is there something bothering you, is it the boy, Roy?"

I smirked slightly, he always will know when something is bothering me and it scares me slightly. "Yes, sir."

I managed to keep my self-hate from showing. He sent me a worried look. "I never had these many issues with you before, all of them surrounding a human boy. You and Jasper were always quiet and introverted'.

I frowned, it shows that much? I sighed. "Sorry, I'll do my best to control it."

He shook his head and placed a hand on my shoulder. "No, no! That's not what I meant at all."

I sighed again and replied quietly. "I'm a monster Carlisle."

He moved a little closer. "We are all the same; would that make me, Edward, Alice, Esme or Jasper monsters too?"

I scowled. "It's different." He patted my shoulder and stood up. He walked away and I heard him talk to Jasper. Right now, he was not a person I wanted to speak to.

But Jasper came in alone and said. "Arya."

I replied stiffly. "Jasper." I felt calmness surround me and I glared.

He stopped and said. "At least I'm getting a reaction that time."

I smiled without meaning to and he did too.

He said, growing serious. "We need to talk about the human thing, I'll admit, I was wrong."

I shook my head. "No, you were right."

He raised an eyebrow. "How so?"

"Jasper. I'm a monster."

Jasper made a noise in the back of his throat. "What does that make me, a saint?"

I scowled at him and snapped. "The things I've done."

"I've done the same."

I stood and said. "You didn't try to get with a human; your mate is a vampire. I will ruin this human, I know it."

Jasper looked at me, the strange look was back and I recognized it, a perplexed expression. "Your emotions are all over the place, regret, pain, guilt, longing and self-loathing. You care a lot for this human."

I corrected. "Roy."

He studied my face and I tried to make myself impassive. "I've seen or felt you happy, upset, angry, hungry and almost insane and a bit happy, but never this much. I know you wouldn't do anything to harm the Coven and I'll tell Edward the same about this 'Bella'. They don't seem to be too bad."

I laughed at that; everything was fine with us now, as it should be. I still posed one problem, I whispered. "The look on his face, you had to see it. I told him what I did to make us leave. What I've done to walk on this earth all these years and I even told him the children I drained. You had to see it, he looked horrified, shaking, but there was one that I couldn't understand but I do now, sadness for me. After all I told him, how could he still care for me?"

"Arya, the same way Alice did for me, the love of my life. She came to us on a vision and that only. Without her where would we be? The Hu-Roy is the same."

I smiled. "Thank you, the choice is clear to me now, Jasper."

"Good, if you need anything else?"

I shook my head. "No I'm-wait, when was the last time you went hunting?"

He shrugged. "A while ago why, later do you want to?"

He smirked. "I bet you I could catch more kill than you."

I smirked back. "You on, brother."

I have most of the chapter for Twlight written except for the last bits and I still have to edit the written chapters since it was done on Notebook. I'm hoping to finish twilight before school starts on August 17th. I'll be a senior, so I'll be busy with credits and stuff like that. The same goes for my other stories. These will also be separated in 'books'.