Sorry for the short chapter, I know how it feels to see someone updated one of your favs and its short as hell. But I will try to update quicker. Once the stupid holidays get over it will be better on me. I hope you like it let me know, it was fun writing about Whitebeard. I must say I love him in the anima and I couldn't get enough of hearing him laugh I loved it. Thank you for the favs and the reviews I still get giddy. Remember I don't own any of the characters well accept Phoenix I own her lol.

Chapter 7

I didn't leave my cabin for almost two days. I just laid there and had no choice but to think. I thought about the time I could have prevented some of this pain and that's when Ace stopped when he was thinking about his dad. I could have said something to comfort him then say this was a bad idea explains my worries and why it shouldn't happen. But no fucking libido I sighed and rolled over I can't blame it all on my libido I knew what I was doing. It's just Ace, everything about him is addicting and now it's worse because I had him and tasted him felt his hands on me and him inside of me and I wanted it all again and it hurt knowing I made him so upset that I made him feel like his heart hurt. I didn't know he loved me strong feelings yes maybe but when he said those words to me shit. But did he love me? I don't know he might have strong feelings for me but love? We have only known each other for a few weeks can you love someone that quick? I have strong feelings for him but do I love him? I thought about it I would do anything for him, kill or be killed, the thought of having to leave him hurts the thought of him hurting now is killing me especially when I'm the one that did it. Is that love I don't know I'm only fucking 17 I'm surprised I even know I have all these feeling in me now. I know I'm more mature then normal teenagers. There was a soft knock on my door I sat up in my bed not sure if I wanted to see anyone

"Come in" I said begrudgingly. Marco peeked in his face worried.

"I was getting worried" he whispered "can I come in?" I nodded he stepped in holding a plate and a glass of water, he handed them to me and sat on the end of my bed. "What happened? Ace he...he is very angry but a sad angry he's been brooding around." I shook my head I liked Marco but I didn't want to talk to him about this. "Ok well we will be landing on an island that has a town Pops wants to see you ok" I nodded and he stood up smiled at me and left.

After I took a quick shower and tossed on my still borrowed clothes and made my way on to the deck. I was scared to see Ace and I keep my eyes casted to the ground so I didn't have to set eyes on him. I knew childish and stupid, I made the choice to end it and if I was happy with my choice then I should be able to look at Ace and be fine with it. But I wasn't happy and I realized I did a stupid thing and I hurt Ace and I hated that the most. The fact that I made Ace sad was worse then what I did my self. I rather take all of his pain and hurt and deal with it all and relieve him. If I could do that I would in a heartbeat. Isn't that love? When you felt like you can't live without the person? When you think about nothing but them. I sighed and shook my head and stopped at the door of Pops. "All of this is so fucking confusing!" I whispered to myself. Why is the definition of love so hard to figure out?

I hated seeing Pops when he was in his bed it made him look more vulnerable, I know it was stupid I know he could kill me just as easy laying down in his bed but it made him look more sick and it hurt me. It's incredible how much I grew to love this man in the few weeks I have been this ship. I felt like he was my father and seeing I never knew mine it was easy to call him Pops. I knew he probably knew something was up, even being in his room he knew everything about his crew. I would probably think it was his first mate Marco that filled him in on everything. and standing here in front of his door I knew he was going say something, that was Pops he was nonsense man if he had something to say to you he said it. So I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. I probably looked like a creep lurking outside Pops door. When I heard a deep gruff 'come in' I opened the door and walked in. I smile at him because I couldn't help it I cared for him and he smiled at me I walked over and sat on the chair next to his bed.

"How are you feeling?" I asked looking at the breathing tube in the nose. I hated seeing him like this. He shrugged

"I'm fine, but I didn't call you in here for you to ask about me I called you in here to asked about you and Ace" see no nonsense I heaved a sigh and sat back crossed my arms and scrawled at the floor. I knew I looked like a pouting teen and you know what at the moment I was a pouting teen. Apparently the look was funny because the rumble that Whiteboard called a laugher filled the room, which just made me pout more.

"Would you believe me if I said nothing?" I said after his laughter died down.

"No and I want you to telling me everything and that's an order" I lifted an eyebrow

"I'm not part of your crew you can't use your 'captains orders' on me" I said

"I never said it was caption orders, it was just me saying tell me" one side of my lips lifted, this was one of the reasons I cared and respected this man. "I want to know why my forth was so angry and hurt" he said and I lost my smirk and looked down at the floor. The pain I have been trying to bury the last few days flared.

"I don't know what to do Pops, I...he and I..." I heaved a sigh and rubbed my face.

"Look my Daughter you can say anything to me and know that it will stay with me and I will do anything I could do to help you, with anything. You just have to tell me what's going on" my bottom lip started to tremble and I was proud of myself that I didn't cry the whole day but that's was going to end.

"On the last island Ace and I sleep together, he told me that he cared for me and I..." I rubbed my face again tears started to roll down my face. "After doubt started to set in, how can I hopefully a future member of another pirate crew be with an enemy crew? How if we were together be away from each other? And how would Luffy feel about me and him? I told him it was a bad idea that we should stop before it got worse. He got angry and said he loved me and he didn't want to leave me. He asked me if I loved him and I said no" I shook my head and keep my eyes on the ground not wanting to see Pops face.

"Do you love him?" I eye brows shot up I didn't expect that out of his mouth, I expected him saying I was stupid and an idiot for saying that.

"I think I love him" I sobbed

"Then you're an idiot" I snorted well there it is.

"Ok" I said "maybe I am an idiot, I don't know what to do. All the doubts that are going through my head... but first how the fuck do you know you're in love? I feel for him but is it love?" he smiled and nodded

"What do you feel for Ace?" I looked up at him and thought about it.

"Ah I would do anything for him, and the thought of being without him hurts but I would take all the hurt and pain from him if I knew it would make him happy. That's what I want is for him to be happy and smile his huge toothy beautiful smile." he nodded and smiled with all his teeth

"I think you're in love Daughter" I sighed "but right now Ace is not happy and he is pain and it's all your fault." well that was a punch in the face, but I knew he was right.

"but he will get over it, we will get to Loguetown and I will be gone and he will get over me and we don't have to worry about anything, isn't this little bit of hurting better than more hurt later when where together and not being able to see each other, or if the Strawhats and the Whitebeards get to one piece at the same time, or if something happens to one of us in Grandline and there's nothing we can do about it." his face took on a sad look and he nodded.

"Where ever did you hear that love was easy? It's not my daughter. It's something you have to fight for, and if you love the person enough you will fight through anything. How would you feel now if you found out you will never see Ace again?" I thought about it. I knew I was going to be separated from Ace when I join Luffy and even before we had sex and realized we loved each other, before when we were just friends if I found out that I would never see him again it would be the worst thing I would ever have to feel just under never seeing Luffy.

"I would kill me" I said "I know I would be away from him but, I know in my head I would be able to see him again so it fills me with hope and excitement and not deep sadness" he nodded

"So what do you know? That you in fact love him, that you will see him again, that your willing to fight for him. Now if your brother loves you as much as you love him I feel like he would be happy for you not mad." I nodded he's right in fact Luffy would probably find a way to make our relationship benefit him. I shook my head.

"Your right I'm a big scumbag, hurt the man I loved in mopped around and felt sorry for myself for two days, why does he love me?" Pops smiled at me

"There's a lot to love my Daughter, now you know what you have to do and maybe this will help" he reached over and grabbed a little sack and handed it to me.

"What if he changed his mind? What if he hates me now because of what I said and did?" I asked while taking the little sake it was heavy and I moved to open to look in.

"it's not that easy to fall out of love, in fact it's much harder to fall out of love then to fall in" he said smiling while I looked in to the little pouch. It was filled with beli. I looked up to Pops and started to shake my head

"Pops what is this?'

"Ok we already realized your and idiot, that is beli, just think of it as a gift."

"No I can take this pops, a loan ok, maybe work it off but a gift no. what for?"

"For being my daughter, I am allowed to give my family money if I so wish and you need clothes and to take your very pissed off lover out to dinner. So take the money and get your things that you need and take Ace to somewhere nice to eat. then maybe a hotel room" he said winking and I tried not to think how the person I thought a father figure was insisting on taking Ace to a hotel so we can have sex, I instead thought about the fact that I was being given beli from a supposed evil pirate and I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"If I take Ace out to eat I might not have enough for some clothes" I said and I couldn't help but to laugh when Pops burst in to his amazing gruff laughter. And suddenly an hour sitting next to this supposed murdering and thieving pirate I felt better then I have for two days. A sudden jolt to the Moby had me shooting up from my chair and Pops sitting up in his bed. I rushed out the door a ship was moving right next to us and I wonder why me and Pops where not notified before, clearly a fight have been going on for a while and me and pops would not have noticed if the other ship didn't bump us. It fucking pissed me off, I understand not wanting to get pops worked up if it was not necessary but I was capable to fight probably better than some men and I could have helped. Granted they didn't know much about my power but I could still kick ass without my power. I felt pops shuffling behind me probably ripping his tubes and things out of his arms and nose. I wanted this done before he got too worked up. I thought it over I have an option but it was going to take all of my stamina, that was the only down side of my power it was only as strong as I was, if my stamina ran out I couldn't do much, it was something I had to work on to get stronger and I promised I would, but right now I had to do what I could and I was going to try my best to show these guys not to under estimate me.

"PHOENIX!" I looked over at Ace who was giving me the 'get back or I'll kill you' look, I just flipped him off I knew he was the one who told everyone not to tell me or pops. Fucking bastard I love. "GET BACK IN THE CABIN NOW!" he shouted over the fighting and gun shots, he started stomping towards me and I knew I only had a few moments before Ace manhandled me back in the cabin and before pops came out behind me, so I took a big breath and let out. I repeated the process a few times to calm myself building my power. I closed my eyes and concentrated, soon the sounds faded around me and I took on last breath, I heard a faint 'Phoenix' before I whipped open my eyes and ran forward to the middle of the deck I stopped suddenly and threw out my arms and screamed 'Telekinesis Push' the huge force flew from my hands and towards the other ships sails, it was strong enough you could see the ripples form it disturbing the air. the force pushed the sails and did what I wanted it to do it pushed the ship so it was laying it on its side for a moment but it was enough time for a bunch of water rush onto the ship and it dragged it back to its side where it continued to fill with water. All this happened in moments though it felt like hours. The enemies where screaming and jumping in to the water. The Whitebeard pirates where taking up the other chew on Moby and tossing the overboard. I finally dropped my arms to my side and all my adrenalin faded I fell to the deck. I knew it was going to happen always did when I used to much of my energy and stamina to do something like that. I really needed to work on building my stamina.

"Phoenix?" the worried face of Ace appeared over me and I smiled at him.

"Would have saved some time if you just told me from the beginning that we were getting attacked" I whispered because I was too tired to speak louder.

"What the fuck was that?" he whispered back and I snorted.

"I'm a witch asshole" I said smiling and he smiled back

"What else can you do freak?" I just shrugged and closed my eyes

"You know what that was...?" I heard someone yell from my right I couldn't open my eyes to check to see who. "That was fucking AWESOME" he yelled and everyone laughed. Last thing I remembered before I passed out was the weightless felling you get form being picked up and carried the warmth I felt was my clue that it was Ace.