Her world was back. Her tiny little home had returned, but she couldn't find it in her heart to celebrate. The joy she expected to feel—wanted to feel—just couldn't be reached. Relief, yes. They had restored the worlds exactly as they had been. She just… couldn't feel happy without her best friend beside her to share this moment.

Kairi had imagined all sorts of homecomings. In all of them, Riku was with her. They would return home, their parents would cry and suffocate them when they returned, their friends would ask questions and Riku and Kairi would have the biggest secret ever to keep from them. Now… all this homecoming had was a beautiful light show and nightfall.

When the lights had died down, the world exactly as it had been when Kairi left it, she gazed across the waters at the lights from the main island that twinkled. How were they going to get over there? There weren't any boats here. All of them were docked in the sand across the way.

"We might have to swim," Kairi chuckled, turning to Aqua.

The Keyblade Master smiled, hitching Ven higher on her back. "Good thing I'm a strong swimmer."

The two of them fashioned a makeshift raft from driftwood and rope left behind on the dock to help keep Ven afloat. It didn't prevent him from getting wet, but it made it easier to bring him across the waters. Aqua pulled the driftwood raft, Ven carefully set upon it. The calm waters made it easier to cross, but the length was exhausting.

When they reached the other side, Kairi flopped into the sand, panting. The salt water stung her wounds from the Behemoth that guarded the Final Keyhole. Aqua pulled Ven up, discarding their raft before taking a seat next to Kairi. She watched the waves lap at the shore as Kairi gazed up at the stars. She didn't think she'd ever seen this many before. The sky was practically ablaze with them, taking her already weakened breath away.

"I wonder…" Aqua released a slow breath. "Maybe when this is all over, we can settle here." She turned to the sleeping boy beside her. "What do you think, Ven?"

"Huh?" Kairi asked for elaboration.

"This is the home of all of my students," Aqua leaned back on her arms. "I wouldn't want to take you away if you wanted to continue training. We could return to the Land of Departure, but… wouldn't it make more sense to stay here?"

"I'm sure Sora's parents would appreciate it." Kairi smiled.

Aqua's smile faded as she pushed forward to hug her knees. "Of course. And your parents, too. And Riku's." she sighed. "I wonder if he… Sora's always had trouble remembering his family. Not just them… but… everyone. I just… I wonder how he'll react when he finally meets them."

Kairi thought for a moment. Sora was always happy to meet new people and Kairi knew his own family wouldn't be any different. She laughed. "He'll be so excited!" she started. "His mom will cry and he'll try and calm her down, but they'll be so happy. And his little sister will probably ask a million questions. She's so talkative. I've only met her a few times, but she was always babbling when we did. She probably knows she had a big brother. And he won't even know what to do. Has he ever met a child? And his dad… he's usually pretty stoic and… weather-beaten is the best way to describe him. But, I think he might break down, too. Sora might actually be overwhelmed for once."

Aqua grinned at her. "You're right." She snickered. "Sora would be ecstatic. Especially if he's forgotten them. I know he thinks of DiZ as his father but… DiZ reminded him that he had a real family out there, waiting for him to come home."

"What about DiZ, though?"

The Keyblade Master sighed. "He loves Sora like his own. But he knows he had to let him go eventually… I just wish… he wouldn't have let him go so soon." She turned to watch the stars. "He really should have seen Sora when he was in the light." She grinned. "He belongs here, Kairi. The darkness just was never the place for him. All that light… and he has the power to open the door." Aqua met Kairi's gaze, nodding assuringly. "They'll come home, soon. I promise."

She must have caught on to Kairi's mood. Happy, but not quite… as excited as she should be. Kairi pushed herself to her feet, helping Aqua up. Kairi was reluctant, but ready to take Aqua to where she could hide Ven for a little while. It wouldn't last for long, but it would hold until they could find someplace safer. With Sora gone, who knew how long it would take for him to wake up?

They walked into the sleepy town filled with stucco buildings and tiled roofs. Palm trees sprouted freely and tropical flora overran every space that wasn't developed. The smell of the sea-salt. The sound of the ocean. The quiet island hadn't changed a bit in the year and a half she'd been gone. But how much time had passed here? Was it like Traverse Town?

Kairi stopped in front of a home, much like the others that surrounded it. Nothing fancy or upscale. Nothing special. It wasn't any castle, but Kairi still called it home.

She glanced nervously to Aqua. What was she even going to say? Kairi adjusted the blade slung across her back and straightened a piece of armor that still clung by the shell. This was… ugn, this wasn't going to go well.

She rang the doorbell. The lights were still on, so it couldn't be too late. It had been a while since she had slept. She waited, chewing her lip. This was a bad idea. A very bad idea. No turning back now.

A man opened the door. Middle-aged and still wearing a button down he usually wore to work; he smiled warily as he faced his visitors. His smile fell as his eyes widened. "Kairi?"

Her eyes watered as she ran into his arms. "Dad."

He held her tightly, his weight collapsing into her. "Kairi… Kairi, where have you been? We were so worried. So scared you were… Hurry and come inside. You need to explain everything."

As he began to pull her in, Kairi turned to Aqua who still carried their friend. "Hold on," she said, her voice wavering. "Aqua, come inside."

Her adoptive father stepped aside, allowing the two girls to enter. He cupped a hand around his mouth, shouting into the house. "Mai? Mai! Come here! Quick!"

He pulled Kairi back onto his chest, holding her tightly. Tears spilled down Kairi's cheeks, warmth pulling under her chin. She couldn't see Aqua who crossed over to the couch to set Ven down. Her adoptive mother entered from the hallway, wrapping a robe over her pajamas. She was a plump, gentle woman, always there if Kairi needed to talk. She gasped audibly as she swiftly stooped to Kairi's level, taking her face in her hands.

"Kairi… Oh, my darling little girl. You're safe," she breathed, wiping tears from Kairi's face. "You're home."

"I'm sorry," Kairi croaked. "I… I'll have to leave again soon."

"What?" they exclaimed.

"Where have you been?" Mai asked, repeating Tarou's question. "Was Riku with you? Is he home now?"

Kairi shook her head, pulling away from them and adjusting the holster that was skewed when Tarou grabbed her. "I promise… I'll explain everything. Just… let me get Aqua and Ven set up. Please, just…" Kairi wiped her face. "Just let me…"

Mai and Tarou exchanged uncertain glances. Tarou nodded and Mai kissed her forehead. She gave them a watery smile. Seeing them… she almost didn't want to leave again. But she knew she could return. She could go back home. It was here and she was going to return anytime she wanted. She would see them again. She would see her friends again. She could always come back.

Kairi beckoned for Aqua to follow her. As Aqua made to lift Ven, Tarou quickly took the boy in his arms, offering a smile to his guest. He must have realized how rude he had been, ignoring them in light of his daughter's return. Kairi led them to her room where she turned on the light, releasing a sigh of contentment. What she wouldn't give to just flop into her bed and sleep until late the next day. She missed her room with her pastel walls. She missed her music and posters and her video games. She missed the simpler times.

Yet, thinking about it, she wouldn't trade her experiences for anything. As much as she missed home, her adventures were bigger than anything she'd ever dreamed of.

"He can sleep here," Kairi told Aqua. "Until Sora can wake him up."

Aqua crossed over to the window, gazing out at the streets. She chewed her lip uncertainly, folding her arms as Tarou set Ven on Kairi's bed. Mai adjusted the comforter and pillows around him, careful not to jostle him. Kairi knew she had to explain why he wasn't going to wake up.

"If you're certain," Aqua nodded. "I'll cast a cloaking charm around the room. Just in case… it should hold over until I can find a more suitable place for him."

"Like Castle Oblivion?" Kairi asked. Did she think the Organization wouldn't find him if he was hidden again?

"Exactly like Castle Oblivion," Aqua smirked. "That's my home. I'm not going to let a bunch of Nobodies take it from me."

Kairi couldn't help but laugh. In spite of everything, Aqua's tenacity was refreshing. She was filled with motivation as the young Keyblade Master took command. She was driven to take back her home and Kairi was going to stand right next to her if that's what it took.

When Ven was settled in the bed, Kairi and Tarou waited in the backyard for Mai. She was brewing tea and putting together plates for Kairi and Aqua and Aqua was casting the cloaking charm around the room. Kairi shed the remains of the armor, aware of her father's worried glances. Kairi unhooked the holster, setting it with her borrowed Keyblade against the side of the house just as Aqua joined them.

"Dad, this is my friend and master, Aqua." Kairi introduced. "Aqua, this is my father, Tarou."

"Master?" Tarou questioned, perplexed. She knew the things she was going to tell him were going to break a million rules. She knew the World Order and the laws and the Keyblade were all supposed to be secret. But she needed his help. She needed her parents to understand and she wasn't going to lie to them or not have them ask questions.

She wondered if Aqua was going to object. So far, she seemed to have an understanding about Kairi's intentions. If she wasn't going to let Kairi say anything, she would have already stopped her.

When Mai brought out the tea, Tarou left to grab the plates. Aqua gratefully accepted the mug. Kairi introduced her again to her mother and when Tarou returned with the food, Aqua thanked them graciously, like she had never been shown so much kindness. It was… sweet. And reminded Kairi that Aqua really was just a young girl. Seventeen, she was. A year older than Riku. Physically, anyway. Sometimes, it was so easy to forget because she acted much older and took control very efficiently.

Kairi really wasn't very hungry anymore. She really just wanted to shower and sleep, but she picked at her food as she explained the situation. Her parents listened intently, never once interrupting her. They'd gasp and their worried expressions only furrowed deeper into their features. They weren't going to let her get away so easily again.

"We'll be leaving again," Kairi explained. "Once our friends find us. We have an important job and… Riku needs our help. He's with our friends, Sora and Cloud, and they're in trouble. We don't know how long we'll be gone, but… I promise we'll come back."

"We'll be back sooner than you think," Aqua helped. Kairi was grateful. This was so difficult… "Ven is going to stay here while we clear out a place for him. A safer place. His heart is locked away in another's and... please don't worry about him. He'll be fine, once his heart has been returned. Another one of my students took it to protect him. But now he's left wide open."

"We don't think anyone will come around while he's sleeping. He should be safe here for now." Kairi assured them. "And… who knows? He might even wake up."

"Where do you two plan on going?" Tarou asked.

Kairi shrugged. "I think… wherever our base moves." Kairi leaned back, looking up at the stars. She was prepared to tell them there were other worlds out there, but… how exactly do you bring that up? "The place we had been set up… it was a place where people were brought when their homes were destroyed. And everyone we met there that is helping us probably returned home, since it's been restored."

"Hollow Bastion," Aqua mused. "It might take them some time to set back up. There's still the darkness out there. I just hope Xemnas doesn't try to take up where… Ansem left off." She said the name like a bitter drink on her tongue. She couldn't bring herself to use the fake name Xehanort's Heartless had given himself. They never really did figure out what happened to the real man named Ansem, did they?

"We really can't stay that long," Kairi bit her lip, glancing to her Keyblade, Total Eclipse. "We're going to attract creatures of darkness to the island."

"How?" Mai worried on the hem of her robe. Kairi hated worrying them.

"That," she nodded to the blade. "That. It's called a Keyblade," she shrugged, smiling wearily at her parents. "It's a weapon of great power that chooses it's master and it chose us. Aqua is teaching Riku, Sora, and I the secrets of it. How to weild it, what it can do, the true strength it possesses. But, it's a terrible weapon that the creatures of darkness fear. They are attracted to what can destroy them."

"We should be fine for a while," Aqua assured Kairi. "We've hindered them. We'll be found long before the Heartless find us."

"By who?" her father questioned.

"Our friends," Kairi smiled, tilting her head back. "They'll come to get us. Once the stars came back, I'm sure they put two and two together." Kairi couldn't help but laugh. "Man, I'm going to get an earful. Donald and Goofy won't be happy that we left them out. And the King was probably really worried, with how we left them. And Riku isn't even here to share the blame, that jerk."

"Oh, don't worry," Aqua chuckled. "I'm sure he'll get his own earful when he comes back. I know Sora is."

"You're darn right he is!" Kairi laughed. "What kind of stunt was that? Really?"

"Kairi," Tarou smiled, reaching over to take her hand. "But we still want to know: Where were you?"

Kairi took a deep breath, pointing up at the stars. Her parents followed her finger that lingered on a particularly bright one. She wondered which world that was and if it would be safe from the darkness that plagued their universe. "We made it," Kairi whispered. "Riku and I had always talked about seeing others worlds and we made it."

"… Without saying goodbye?" Mai was not concerned about the fact that she had been across the universe. No, she didn't even seem surprised at the fact that there were other worlds out there besides their own tiny one.

"It's… complicated." Kairi's hand dropped onto the table as she stared at her half-eaten plate of leftovers. "Do you remember what happened the… night I didn't come home?"

"There was a storm," Tarou said without missing a beat. "A pretty rough one. You and Riku didn't return from the island that day. We thought maybe you ended up having to stay there since the tides got too rough, but… you didn't come home the next day."

How could she tell them there really was no "next day" for this world? It had been consumed by the darkness, shattered and broken. Sora had seen it in the Realm of Darkness. She knew it was gone. But, it seemed life went on in… whatever place the people had been sent to. Nothing changed on this island and the world still spun.

Kairi met Aqua's gaze before dropping it to her lap. Kairi pulled her hand from her fathers, clenching her fists. "… Riku and I built a raft to try and leave the island and see other worlds. The storm… was powerful. We didn't really see it coming. It flung us to another place. That one I told you about, Traverse Town.

"We got what we wanted. We saw so many different worlds and helped so many people." She beamed at them. "With the Keyblade, it's our duty to protect and defend the worlds. I'm breaking so many rules just telling you about this, but… I can't keep something like this from you. Not when… we're asking you to watch over Ven. It's not fair to you."

"Is… that where you're from?" Mai asked, turning to the sky. "Another world?"

"I… I found the place I was born," Kairi grinned, taking her hand. "But this is where I'm from. This place… is home."

They didn't understand. They couldn't. There was too much to tell and to much she couldn't tell. If she spoke of the countless battles and the battle scars and the pain they had been through to get where they were, they wouldn't understand. They'd beg her to stop and stay home. This was the life she chose to lead. The moment Donald and Goofy asked them to join them in their search for King Mickey, she agreed to it. She didn't know the depth of what she was getting into, but did have a good idea. She knew there would be danger. She knew they would get hurt (they were fighting monsters for crying out loud). This was a constant war and the end was getting so much closer.

As much as she missed home, she knew she'd miss the fight even more.

Aqua

Kairi and Aqua struggled to find some clothes the younger had that would fit either of them. Kairi had clearly grown quite a bit since she'd been tossed from her home and Aqua had a good three inches on her. After Kairi had found some suitable sleeping clothes, she allowed Aqua the bathroom first to clean up. It had to have been days since they'd seen the light. Aqua was sure of it and a hot shower was oh so welcome.

After changing into the too-big tee shirt and the shorts that almost fit, Kairi pointed her to the living room, where Aqua could choose between the couch or a futon. Kairi had given up her bed for Ven, which Aqua was greatful for, yet it seemed very unfair to her. When Ven woke up, she had to remind him to thank Kairi for her hospitality. Aqua would leave something for Kairi's parents as thanks. What it was, she wasn't quite sure yet. She'd have to sleep on it.

Aqua took the couch, not caring very much whether or not it was more or less comfortable. She hoped the futon was more comfortable. Kairi deserved it after sealing the Final Keyhole all on her own. Aqua watched the younger snuggled under a throw blanket peer up at her with those blue, almost violet eyes.

"I haven't had a slumber party in years," Kairi giggled. "Riku and I used to have them all the time when we were younger. Selphie would come over sometimes, too. I could never get into the traditional idea of girls night, you know? I guess I really was more suited for this lifestyle."

Aqua snorted, settling comfortably on the arm of the couch. "I've… I've never had one." She mused. "I left my world to train with Master Eraqus when I was really young. I had to have been around… eight or nine. The memory is really fuzzy." Aqua rubbed her eyes, trying to remember. "I remember thinking how I couldn't wait to start training. I thought it would be like… like summer camp, you know? But after a week, I started to really miss my family." She frowned, trying to dreg the murky memories to the surface. "Terra, though. He'd been with Eraqus already for about a year. He didn't have a family. Eraqus found him and took him in… treated him like a son.

"Terra was there for me on the nights when I was really lonely and missing them. I didn't want to tell the Master because I didn't want him to think I was weak. I didn't want him to change his mind." She snorted, amused at the idea. "Of course, he wouldn't have. He would have helped me assimilate to the new environment. But how was I to know?

"Anyway, Terra would just… he'd know when I was upset. And on those nights, he'd sneak into my room with me and we'd have our own sleepovers." Aqua laughed. "Though, more often then not, he'd check on me every time there was a thunder storm. He was terrified of it growing up. Which no one would ever have believed looking at him. He always seemed strong and grounded and powerful when in reality… he was still that hopelessly insecure boy that I'd always known who was afraid of loud noises."

Aqua had gotten lost in her memories of Terra. There were so many with him and… so little with her own family. She vaguely wondered what happened to them. Had her world been taken by the darkness? Did her family know where she was? Had they wondered what happened to her? Had they tried to go looking for her? She was sure after no communication for over a decade, they might have thought she perished.

The thought was troublesome. She would try to reconnect with them when this business was over, she promised herself. Nowadays, when she thought of family, she could only picture Sora and DiZ.

Aqua felt Kairi's eyes on her. The girl's brows furrowed, her mouth trying to form what she wanted to say. "Aqua… are you…?" She sighed, shaking her head. "Never mind… Are you okay?"

Aqua… wasn't really sure. The weight of everything that had transpired was finally crashing on her now that they had time to relax. In the darkness, there was no time to process. She only knew points in time with no meaning behind them, much like her first journey as a Keyblade Master. Her and Sora landed on Ansem's ship. The Organization showed up, looking to protect the Heartless. Riku, Kairi, and Ven arrived, evening the playing field. Riku and Kairi cleared the way to finish off Ansem. Ansem said something that set Sora off before throwing him into the darkness. Riku and Kairi finished him off. They were separated during their fall. They landed in darkness. They found Sora and Ven. They found Kairi. She had sealed the Final Keyhole.

Sora and Riku were trapped once again in the Realm of Darkness.

"Yes," Aqua gave her an assuring smile. "I'm alright. Tired. We should get some sleep."

Kairi agreed, reaching up to turn off the light that stood beside the armchair. They were cast into the darkness; the only light visible was from a room down the hall (most likely Kairi's parents, still awake and discussing her return) and the stars that shone almost too brightly through the window. It wasn't long until Kairi's breathing grew even and heavy with sleep. Sometime after that, the light down the hall went out.

And still, Aqua had trouble falling asleep.

All she could think was did we kill Terra?

Aqua had no idea what defeating Ansem would do. She had no idea if his heart would return to the darkness, as he had said, or perhaps free Terra's. She was hoping, praying, and begging the universe that Terra would come out of all of this alive. She needed him. Ven needed him.

She didn't know. The uncertainty of everything only made her anxiety grow. Her heart pounded erratically in her chest as her heavy lids tried to force sleep. Did she just make a huge mistake? Did she ruin any chance of her friend returning to her? It grew later and later and still, sleep would not take her. Finally, exhausted, Aqua stood up. She pulled the light blanket around her as she walked out the front door, barefoot and still in her pajamas, and closed it quietly behind her.

She needed to walk. She needed to do something to occupy her mind and keep her from falling into an anxiety attack. She never had a problem with those until she started seeing Ven in Sora. The guilt of mistaking this boy she was supposed to protect for another shook her every time. He looked to her for guidance and then… he became invisible to her because she could only see those bright eyes and that playful smile and brown somehow became blonde.

That's what this was. Guilt. It wore her down, her heart aching so dearly in her chest. For a moment, she envied the Nobodies and entertained the idea of ripping her own heart out. It would be nice not to feel this.

Aqua found herself on the beach she and Kairi had been forced to swim to. Rowboats lined the shore, pulled back far enough to protect them from high tide and crashing waves. Aqua sat down beside one, leaning against to stare at the stars. The air was chilled, much cooler than she expected the islands to get. Before, even after pulling themselves from the water, it was comfortably warm. Now, she could see her breath in the lamppost by the path.

The cold wasn't enough. The lapping tides weren't enough. The innumerous stars that rivaled the view from the cliff where Ven would often stargaze weren't enough to stop the pain wracking her heart. Aqua squeezed her eyes shut, burying her face into her knees. She just wanted answers. She wanted to save him. She wanted her friend back.

When a dim light touched the horizon, Aqua felt a presence with her. She stood up, pulling the blanket closer to face the figure that approached her. She instantly recognized the black coat and, as the man drew closer, took in his broad chest and hooded face. She couldn't see him in the light of dawn, but she was certain he wasn't there to hurt her.

"Master Aqua," the figure enunciated slowly, as if learning these words for the first time.

Without a beat, she walked up to him, adjusting the blanket around her shoulders. She reached up to push his hood back and touch his silver hair, following the motion with her eyes as she smoothed over the locks that brushed over his shoulders. She gazed up to meet those golden eyes.

"You need a haircut, Terra."

"I could say the same for you," the Nobody replied, not so much as flinching at Aqua's touch. His lips pressed together, like he had more to say. Aqua waited, only to receive silence.

His face was much older. Then again, he had spent his time here, in the light. The darkness couldn't freeze time for him, as much as Xehanort must have wanted that. She took him in as much as she could with the little light she was offered. "Look at you. All grown up."

"You haven't changed at all." He only spoke in short sentences, as if he were trying very hard not to talk with her. She regarded him, frowning as she took a step back. He was right here in front of her. Mutilated beyond hope of saving and she couldn't do a damn thing about it.

"What are you here for, Xemnas?" Aqua finally asked, her jaw tightening as she readied to fight. She would if she had to and he was so very clearly aware of that. "Or Xehanort? Just… who do you think you are? Do you even know anymore?"

Xemnas chuckled, his smile almost kind enough to be Terra's. "I was investigating for survivors."

"Don't you have your… following to figure that out for you?" Aqua blanched, not believing for a moment it was just a recon mission for him.

"I wanted to see for myself who had taken out two of my members and my Heartless." Xemnas confessed. "I wished to see if, perhaps, he had taken any of the Warriors of the Light with him. Now that would be a tragedy."

Aqua grit her teeth. "Lucky for you, then, we all made it out of the fight just fine."

"And the darkness?" Xemnas pressed. "It did not consume any hearts?"

How much did Xemnas know? Did he know Ven had went back to sleep? He knew something about the Chamber of Waking that much was for sure. Did he know Ven was inside, sleeping for almost twelve years? What did he plan to do once he found Ven? Aqua didn't want to know. She couldn't tell him about Ven. "We're all safe."

"Undoubtedly," Xemnas snorted as he began to circle her. "I am glad to hear Ventus is safe. And… your pupil."

The way he said it made shivers crawl down her spine. What exactly was he so happy about? There had to be a reason he was here and talking to her. Recon couldn't possibly be the only thing he wanted. "You're going to have to be more specific," Aqua clenched her fingers, ready to summon her inherited blade. "I have more than one pupil now."

"Your first pupil," Xemnas held up a finger. "The one you could not deem a master despite his… talent." He laughed. "When I read the reports, I could not believe it." He held out a shaking hand, as if grasping for something he could not contain. "Such raw power," Xemnas clenched his fist tightly. "The darkness had done him well. He is no longer a boring, ordinary boy."

"He doesn't use darkness," Aqua insisted. "And he—" Something about what he said finally dawned on her. It just… he wasn't making any sense. "What are you talking about? Sora has never been boring or ordinary. He's always been… exceptional. From the moment I met him, before he could wield a Keyblade, nothing about him was unremarkable."

Xemnas shook his head. "In time, you may learn. There is so little you understand."

"Like a broken record," Aqua muttered under her breath as she summoned her Keyblade and threw off the blanket. If he wasn't going to tell her what he was talking about or why he had such a keen interest in Sora's safety, she could certainly beat it out of him.

She ran at him, the sand pushing against her as she swung at the Nobody. There was a flash of red as he deflected her attack and thorns of black and white threw her back. She landed on her feat, ready to attack again, only to see him vanishing in a corridor of darkness. She ran at him, hoping to catch him before he left, swiping at the darkness that swirled into itself.

She headed back to the house as the sun broke the horizon. She brushed sand off of herself and the blanket and washed her feet with the hose around the side of the house before going back inside. Kairi was still sleeping and her parents were just waking up from the sounds echoing down the hall as Aqua curled onto the couch.

Her short sleep was restless, as her encounter with Xemnas did nothing to ease her mind. She allowed herself to awaken after Kairi, but would not bring herself to sleep as long as she should have. They ate, dressed in more of Kairi's almost-too-small clothing, and left to wait for their friends.

For the day, they headed to the island.

I kind of wanted to explore a little bit of what it might be like to return home after saving the worlds. And then I wanted to show how Aqua would react to Xemnas. Xemnas is a creep who likes to talk to his friend's armor and Keyblade and is hunting for a sleeping body, so I kind of imagine he feels... something for them? Like, he genuinely doesn't want to hurt them. He just misses them. If he could, anyway. Because that hate and rage Xemnas remembers is def all Terra.