Sorry for the late update! I decided to join volleyball and school is starting soon ugh. Cry. Chapter 5, LETS GO.

Meredith's POV:

"Who is Owen? And why are you grabbing my hand? You picked Addison, Derek. You made your choice so stop flirting with me all the time!" I yelled as Derek tried to hold my hand. What was going on?

I watched as Derek's face fell. His bright blue eyes dimmed and sadness flooded his face. Why was he so sad about this? He had just picked Addison.

The doctor I didn't recognize grabbed Derek's arm and pulled him outside. I could faintly hear Derek's voice yelling.

Everything was so confusing. Why was Derek so sad? Why was he yelling? Who was that Doctor?

Alex walked into my room. "Hey Mer, how are you feeling?"

"Confused. Small headache. What's happening?"

He looked confused as he walked over to my bed. "What do you mean? I already told you about the truck. Do you remember that?'

"Yeah I do, but who is that redheaded doctor, and why is Dr. Shepherd acting so funny?"

His face was hard to read. He looked almost as confused as me. "Are you talking about Dr. Hunt? And since when do you call your husband Dr. Shepherd?"

"Wait wait wait, hold on. Husband? What the hell is happening, Alex? What happened to Addison?"

"Meredith, it's 2015. You're an incredible general surgeon, you married Derek Shepherd, you have two kids, Zola and Bailey. Do you not remember?"

I couldn't believe my ears. Did I really not remember my own life? I had kids, my own kids. And had I really married my one night stand? This was crazy.

As I was trying to make sense of everything, the redheaded doctor, who I now knew was Dr. Hunt, came back into the room. Derek must have left. I couldn't help but wonder where we lived if we were married. Did we still live in my mom's old house?

"Meredith, we are going to have to do another surgery to correct your memory loss. There is a brain bleed that is clouding your memory." Dr. Hunt explained. "It's a simple surgery that Dr. Nelson will be performing. Do you have any questions?"

"What if it doesn't work? I don't remember my life. Alex told me about Derek and my kids. What if I don't get my memory back?" I couldn't imagine how life would go on.

"Don't worry, Dr. Grey. You're in good hands."

"I'll be there the whole time, Mer." Alex reassured me.

I nodded and watched as Alex and Dr. Hunt left the room.

Derek's POV:

After I had left Meredith's room I went straight to my car. Driving always seemed to calm me down. It was always just me and the road and nothing else mattered. All I needed was to get my mind straight.

I never ate junk food. Being a doctor, I knew all of the bad things that junk food can do to you. But for some reason right now all I wanted was McDonald's. Without even thinking about it, I ordered Meredith's favorite. McChicken and a medium fry.

It was such a small thing but for some reason it made me happy. I began to see the bigger picture. DC was not what I wanted. I wanted those days where Meredith and I didn't work and we stayed in bed all day because the kids were gone somewhere. I wanted the surgeries where we both worked together and we got endless hours together just talking. I wanted tea parties with Zola and teaching Bailey to fish. I wanted my family. I needed Meredith. I needed her to survive.

I finished my meal and drove back to the hospital to wait for Meredith to get out of surgery. I thought about the good things and the things I loved about her and not the bad things like if she didn't regain her memory.

A few hours later I was woken by Owen. I shot up out of my chair.

"Owen, her memory-"

"Go see for yourself."

I entered the room and walked over to her bed. "Meredith, how do you feel?"

She looked up and me and smiled her same smile that I fell in love with. "Sleepy, hungry. Can you get me McDonalds?"

A huge grin spread across my face as I leaned in to kiss her. She was okay. I never wanted to come up for air. The possibility that I'd never be able to kiss her again scared me.

"Derek?" she asked, taken aback my my sudden kiss.

"Meredith, I love you."

"Derek, I-" she tried to interfere.

"No, listen to me. I need you to listen. Trust me. I know I haven't made it easy for you to trust me over the years. I break my promises, I left you when you needed me the most, I didn't tell you about Addison. I have made way to many mistakes in our relationship and I have to make it up to you. I thought that DC was what would make me happy. I thought that it was everything to me. It took me too long but I finally realized, you are everything to me. You, Zola, and Bailey. I love you. I love your smile, the way you crave McDonald's at least once a week even though it's terrible. I love how you think that the calories don't count if no one sees. I love the smell of your hair, the way you get us all moving in a crisis. I love you. You keep me going, Meredith. I need you. If I had nothing else in the world but you, I would have more than I deserved. I don't tell you that enough. Someone like you should be told every day how beautiful you are. You deserve to be loved every day and I can't imagine anyone but me telling you that. I haven't treated you how I should. You could have died and I never would have been able to fix this. You got a second chance and I hope that you will give me one."

Meredith's POV:

Tears formed in my eyes after Derek's speech. He really loved me. I missed the Derek that I had fell in love with at first.

"Come here," I told him.

I could tell that he didn't know if this was a good or bad thing as he stood up and walked over. He hesitantly climbed into my bed and lay facing me.

I gave him a small grin as I reached out to touch him. "I love you Derek Christopher Shepherd." I told him as ran my hand through his hair and stared into his eyes.

"Will you hold me?" I asked.

A smile spread across his face as he leaned in to kiss me. I turned around and cuddled as close to him as I could as he wrapped his arms around me and we fell asleep together.

WOO HE MADE A BIG SPEECH. You may thing this story is over but I promise you it is not. I have big plans for this story and you can never have to much MerDer. I will write again soon! Leave reviews please, kind people.

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