Okay so I haven't gotten a ton of feedback on my last chapter which makes me sad but it's okay. It's only been a day. I'm going to try and make it more interesting I guess! Any review at all helps! Oh, and sorry if any medical stuff is wrong I really have no clue. I'm trying to find previous examples of similar medical situations. Also, this chapter is kind of mature but it's not that bad. ;)

Derek's POV:

It had been 3 weeks since Meredith's accident and I was finally taking her home. After my big speech to Meredith, things had been better but still slightly awkward. For one, she was still in the hospital which complicated things. I couldn't take her anywhere, let alone start anything more intimate with her.

She had a right to be upset with me and I fully understood that. I was no where near done making it up to her.

"Ready to go?" I asked her as she sat down in the wheelchair.

"Could not be more ready." she replied. "I feel gross and I probably look terrible. I just need a shower and some of my own clothes."

I hated it when she thought less of herself. I didn't understand how someone so beautiful couldn't even see it. I wish she thought of herself the way that I thought of her.

"Meredith, you look gorgeous as always." I told her as I placed a kiss on the top of her head and began to wheel her out of the room.

Meredith's POV:

It's crazy how even after all of these years he could still make me blush like a middle school girl. He somehow knew all the right things to say to make me feel better. I guess he knew all the right things to say to make me sad too.

I quickly shoved those thoughts out of my head. I wanted to fix us and if that was going to happen I needed to forgive him. He had been making it easier, I admit. No one said marriage would be easy.

Derek helped me into the car and we began to drive home. It was the first time I had been in a car since the accident and I couldn't help but be nervous. Every time a car would pass us I would cringe a little as thoughts of them swerving at us filled my mind.

Derek looked over at me and seemed to know what I was thinking about. Keeping one hand on the wheel he reached over and grabbed my hand. He made small circles comfortingly with his thumb which calmed me down instantly.

It was like I was falling in love with him all over again.

Derek's POV:

I could see the fear in Meredith's eyes and I knew that she was nervous being in a car again. I remembered that she would calm down if I drew circles on her hand so that's what I did. I was helping her calm down but I was also helping myself by making physical contact with her. Knowing she was right there with me somehow made everything okay.

We pulled into the driveway and I helped her out of the car and up the sidewalk to the front door.

"Mommy!" Zola yelled as her mom walked into the door. I reached out and stopped Zola before she ran into Meredith.

I grabbed her tiny hands and pulled her over to me. "Zola honey, Momma is hurt right now. You can hug her but just be gentle okay? Promise me?"

"I promise Daddy." She then walked over to Meredith and softly hugged her. "I missed you mommy."

"I missed you too, Zo-zo." Meredith said, a huge smile on her face.

Watching Meredith with Zola was a beautiful sight. I couldn't imagine leaving them and missing these moments. They grow up so fast.

If it was even possible, I think I fell more in love with her at that moment.

At that moment, Amelia walked into the living room holding baby Bailey.

"Meredith! You're home! How are you feeling?" she asked as she handed Bailey to me.

"Alright. Just happy to be home. I really need a shower." Meredith gave her a weak smile, picked up her bags and began to walk towards our bedroom.

After Meredith walked away Amelia turned towards me "I was going to bring the kids to daycare on my way to work. I wasn't sure when you'd be home. Do you want me to bring them or leave them here with you?"

"Why don't you bring them to daycare while I get Meredith settled in. She's going to need rest." I handed Bailey to her and opened the door for her. "Thank you, Amelia. I don't know what we would've done without you." I almost never complimented my sister.

"I know, it's because I'm awesome. How hard was that to say?" she smirked, taking full advantage of my words.

I shook my head as I ushered her out the door. "Don't kill any of my patients while I'm gone!" I called after her. "Bye Zo-zo! Bye Bailey! See you tonight!"

Zola waved and got in Amelia's car.

After Amelia pulled away I walked down the hall to the bedroom. I entered the room to find Meredith sitting, crying on the floor.

"What's wrong?" I asked, sitting next to her.

"George is dead, Izzie left, Christina left, everyone's leaving and everyone's dying." Her sobs were taking over her whole body as I tried to calm her down by rubbing her back. "Why do so many bad things happen to us?"

Her head fell to her hands and she could no longer speak due to her violent cries. I wrapped my arms around her protectively. What do you say to someone when everything they said is true?

She lifted her head and peered in to my eyes. Her beautiful green eyes were drowning in tears and I felt my heart hurt at her pain. Suddenly she kissed me. I loved her and I loved kissing her but it felt wrong. This wasn't the right time. As much as I didn't want to, I pulled away.

"Meredith, we can't do this like this." I told her as I searched her face to try and see what she was feeling.

"Derek, please. Those are all things we can't control. Car crashes, plane crashes, gunmen. But being here with you, it makes it better. Right now we're in control and all I want is you."

I gazed into her eyes and saw that this would make her feel better. I still wasn't sure if this was the right time. "Let's get you into the shower and we'll go from there."

"Okay," she agreed as she smiled up at me.

I kissed her, passionately. It was the most passionate kiss they had shared in a long time. The feeling was unreal. I pulled away to wipe away her tears and smiled at her. My Meredith would be okay. I would make sure of it.

I scooped her up in my arms and carried her to the bathroom, my lips rarely leaving her skin. All of our movements seemed to be in slow motion as I softly removed her shirt. She seemed so delicate, like one wrong touch and she would break. Soon, she was standing in front of me in only her bra and panties. My eyes fell to the large scar from her surgery. The sight took my breath away and I was barely holding my own self together. As I ran my finger over the scar, our eyes locked and they were doing all of the talking. She looked at me as if saying it was okay and kissed me to confirm that it was okay. She was okay.

She began to remove my clothes so that all I had on were my boxers. Finally, we both removed the remaining garments as we stepped into the shower.

We stood facing each other and I placed a kiss on her forehead before reaching for the soap. I started at her shoulders, rubbing the soap across her skin. It felt like every swipe wiped away the pain and all the bad in her life. I cleaned every spot of her body and moved on to her hair. Her soft moans drove me crazy, but I knew my decision to wait was the right one.

I grabbed her lavender soap and started to massage it into her scalp, careful to avoid her scar on her head. I loved the smell of her soap. I thought of the night when I went to see her after the bomb and she identified her soap as lavender. I hadn't cared for lavender until that moment. From then on, anything lavender drove me crazy.

When I finished washing her off, I reached for the handle to turn off the water when her hand stopped me.

"It's your turn," she whispered, her eyes filled with lust.

"Meredith," I protested. "This is about you."

"I just want things to be normal again." she pleaded with her eyes.

I was about to speak when my breath hitched as her small hands grabbed my length. I lost my willpower and I gave in to her touch as our shower turned even more intimate than it had been just before.

I made love to her in a more special way then usual. It felt like the night of Prom all over again. It was reunion sex, fix it all sex, feel better sex. It wasn't a senseless thing, it put us back together. Pleasure surged through us as we made love to each other.

After we both came down from our high, I helped her out of the shower and wrapped her in her favorite fluffy towel. I couldn't help but smile at her. I never thought love like this was possible. Just being near her, feeling her, I could actually feel the love deep in my heart. I sure as hell never felt this way about Addison.

I thought of how far we had come. I remembered when I first met her and I couldn't keep my mind off of her. I thought of how happy I was when we ran into each other again. It took me so long to get her to be mine. Now I couldn't imagine ever not being with her.

God, I was such an ass. How could I have almost let her slip away?

"Derek?" she questioned,her beautiful voice pulled me away from my thoughts. I snapped out of it and picked her up, placing her on our bed.

I closed the shades before walking over to the dresser. I quickly pulled on my pajamas before turning my attention to her. "Which pajamas do you want?" I asked her.

"Actually, can I wear one of your shirts? Boxers too?" she requested.

"Of course." I retrieved her clothes of choice from the dresser and handed them to her. I couldn't help but stare as she dropped her towel and put them on, catching glimpses of the body that I had just cleaned.

She blushed and turned around after she was finished dressing. "Why are you staring at me?"

"Because you're beautiful." It was cliché, I know, but it was the only way I knew to describe her. I smiled and waved her over. "Come here," I told her.

I flicked the lights off as she climbed on to the bed with me and I pulled the sheets up over us. She pressed her back into my chest and I slipped my arms around her. I was about to fall asleep when I heard her voice.

"Derek?"

"Yes?"

"I love you."

"I love you too, Meredith."

After that we both fell into a deep sleep.

WOAH THAT WAS A LOT OF FLUFF. It's okay though because we were deprived of it in the real episodes. There is still lots more to come so leave reviews on how you think things are going and stay tuned!

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