So much is going on in my life LOL. Sorry for the delay! School started (kill me), I"m on vacation and volleyball is going on. I promise I will write when I can! I also want to thank the people who are giving this story a chance and are reviewing/favoriting/following. It means the world to me and makes me feel better about my writing. Not to mention, keeps me motivated to write more. Well, here goes Chapter 9!

(Note: I changed the rating just to be on the safe side.)

Meredith's POV:

Derek and I sat in an exam room, waiting for Addison to arrive for our appointment. His arm was draped over my leg with his hand holding the inside of my thigh. Neither of us knew what was to come regarding our future and our baby's future. I glanced at him and he gave me a weak smile. So much had happened to us in our lives which made it was hard to stay strong anymore.

Our gaze was broken when the door creaked open and the tall redheaded woman walked into the room.

Derek shot up out of his chair and walked over to her. "Addison, thank you so much for coming." He said, pulling her into a hug.

I looked across the room at a picture hanging on the wall to avoid watching my husband hug another woman, his ex-wife.

When the hug ended I turned my attention back to Addison and gave her a smile. "Hello," I managed to say as I stood up next to Derek. She gave me a sympathetic smile and walked over to the computer in the corner of the room to read my chart. After a little while she turned to me. "Okay, Meredith, let's take a look. Everything off from the waist down. Here's a cloth."

I stripped off my pants and panties and sat on the exam chair. I hated these kind of checkups. I was so exposed.

Derek took the chair next to me as he folded my clothes in his lap. As he finished he reached out and grabbed my hand and Addison began the examination.

"As of now," she said, "Everything looks good. The blood in the vomit was because of morning sickness combined with the damage of the car accident but we're not going to worry about that right now. The baby looks normal and seems to be on the right track but we are going to watch you like a hawk. I'm going to give you some extra medication just because of your recent history, other wise you're good to go. I'll schedule another appointment in a few weeks just to make sure nothing wrong is happening."

"What about work?"

"You can return to work but no long surgeries. I don't want you to stress your body out."

I thanked her and she went out into the hall.

"Can you hand me my clothes, Derek?" I asked. He was distracted by something and was staring at the door.

He nodded and handed them to me and started to speak. "Meredith, I'll be right back." he said and bolted out the door.

I quickly put on my clothes and grabbed my bag as I made my way to the door. I stopped when I heard Addison's voice. "It'll be fine, Derek." she paused. "You know, we could have had this. This could be our child on the way. What if we hadn't gotten a divorce?"

"You mean if you hadn't cheated on me? With my best friend might I add?"

"Oh, admit it. If I hadn't cheated and you hadn't left we would still be together and starting a family. You were angry about what I did and you couldn't get over it. We could have had a life together."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Did Addison still want Derek back? I quickly exited the room and went the opposite way down the hallway and made my way to the car. I shot Derek a text,

Went to the car, was getting clastrophobic, I lied, Grab meds and meet me here.

Derek's POV:

"Addison, our marriage was over far before any of that stuff happened and you know that. We just didn't work. My life with Meredith is everything I've ever dreamed of and that's not being mean to you because we just didn't go together."

"Yeah, I know. I just couldn't help but think that this could have been our baby. I've moved on and I no longer think of you that way. It was just an idea." She paused and glanced at the floor. "I should tell you something." she said and looked up again. "I'm remarried and pregnant. It's a man named Jake."

Addison, remarried? "Wow Addie! That's great!" She had moved on, and I was glad. Maybe Meredith wouldn't be so on edge. Right on cue, my phone buzzed.

I could see right through Meredith's lies and I could tell something was up. Why had she bolted?

"Um, Addie, just text me about making an appointment. I have to go."

I ran out to the car and found Meredith sitting in it with her arms crossed and a pissed off look on her face. "What's wrong?" I asked as I got into the driver's seat.

"Oh, nothing. Are you done making plans with your ex-wife for your life together?" She said bitterly.

"Woah, Meredith. I'm not making life plans with Addison."

"Sure seemed like it when you were discussing that this baby could have been with Addison! Just drive Derek. I want to go home." She said as she turned towards the window away from me.

I sighed and looked over at her. "I know what it sounded like but we didn't mean anything by it. She was just saying how if some things hadn't happened that this might have been different. But it's not. I'm in love with you. I fell in love with you the moment I saw you and from that moment on, my marriage was over. It was honestly over before I even left her in New York. She's moved on now anyway. Shes pregnant and remarried."

She turned and looked at me and I could see the hurt in her eyes. "That never stopped her before, being married to you and all. And you chose her over me once before."

I couldn't help myself and I was starting to get frustrated. One of the things I'm not very good at is controlling my anger. "Why in gods name would I pick her over you? We have children together, we're having another child!"

Anger was filling her voice too. "For one, she's a freaking super model and I'm me. Damaged, dark, and twisty me. Two, you picked her over me once before and you picked your career and DC over me just a few weeks ago. And third? Are you with me only because I have your kids? Great reason, Derek."

In that moment I could feel her pain as if it were my own because her words rang true in my head about not choosing her. I had been selfish.I put my head down for a while before starting up the car and driving home in complete silence. When we arrived, Meredith went straight to her bed and slammed the door.

Meredith's POV:

So much for stress free until the baby comes, I thought to myself. I wonder how we're going to get past this if it constantly keeps getting brought up. I realize that I've been the one bringing it up but it's always in the back of my head. He chose a job over my work.

I drifted into restless sleep after a while before waking to the smell of food drifting through the house. I could hear Zola's laugh and Bailey's coos coming from the kitchen. Amy must have brought the kids home while I was asleep.

I got up and walked down to the kitchen to find Derek teaching Zola to cook.

"Okay, Zo, stir it just like this," he instructed her.

I silently watched them cook from the corner where I couldn't be seen until all of the food was done. Derek turned around to place the food on the table and when he saw me and stopped in his tracks. "Hey," he whispered.

"Hi," I replied as he stared. He broke off the staring when he remembered his task and placed the food on the table.

He turned back to me and looked me in the eyes again."Dinner's ready, if you want some."

I walked over to the table and was greeted by Zola running over to hug me.

"Hi baby girl!" I smiled at her.

"Hi ma-ma. Did you take a nap?"

"I did." I told her as she climbed into my lap.

"Daddy taught me to cook stagetti!"

I laughed at her funny way of saying spaghetti and gave her another hug. "That's great! You're going to be a better cook than mommy!"

"Yeah, you're bad at cooking momma."

Derek, who was walking towards the table, tried to cover a laugh but I could hear it loud and clear. I shot him a glare which only made him laugh harder at me. I couldn't help the small grin spreading across my face. Zola ran over to her place at the table and Derek walked over to me.

"I'm sorry it's just so cute when you're mad. Well, except for this morning. Are you still mad at me?" he asked, giving me his best puppy dog eyes.

His eyes were a weak spot for me and he knew it. "Stop it," I said slapping his stomach and crossing my arms.

"Ouch!" he yelled, clearly over exaggerating. He leaned close to my ear and whispered so the kids couldn't hear, "You're going to pay for that tonight." He nibbled my ear quickly and started to serve Zola and Bailey their food.

I still had goosebumps from Derek's hot breath and nibble on my ear. I laughed to myself as I thought of how great my punishment was going to be.

Derek's POV:

I knew that I wasn't off the hook. It was never that easy. I thought that if I lightened the mood now that maybe things would be easier later.

We finished dinner and I cleaned the dishes as Meredith put the kids to sleep. I was still working on the dishes when she walked in to the kitchen and wrapped her arms around my waist from behind, resting her head on my shoulder.

"Do you still love me?" she asked.

I paused my work with the dishes and set down the plate I was holding. I turned around to face her. "Meredith, you never need to ask that question. You already know the answer."

I pulled her into a bear hug and placed my chin on her hair, occasionally planting kisses there as well.

"Why did you pick her then?"

I never realized how much my actions had really hurt Meredith. It happened so long ago but it was my fault that some of her self esteem had been shattered. I sighed and thought of what to say to her. "I was dumb then. I tried to be the good guy and please everyone else when I should've done what made me happy and what wouldn't hurt you, the one I truly loved. I should've picked you to begin with and then we would have had one more year together."

"She's so pretty though, why did you downgrade to me?"

This question just angered me. She was so perfect but she couldn't see it. "Mer, I don't know how you don't see it. You're so beautiful in my eyes. Why do you think I was so jealous all the time, like when you were with Finn? Any guy would kill to have you. Honestly, I'm the one who doesn't deserve you. I've been an ass to you over the years and you constantly just brush it off. You should be treated like a queen."

She blushed at my comments and I pulled her face in for a kiss. Our lips pushed together for what felt like hours but was only a few minutes. Eventually I picked her up and brought her to the bedroom.

I placed her on the bed and began undressing her as she did the same to me. Soon we were both exposed to each other. I began to place soft kisses on her face and neck.

"I thought you said you were going to punish me." She said, her words labored from the pleasure and heavy breathing.

"Change of plans, tonight is about showing you how beautiful you are. Everywhere I place a kiss is a part of you that is beautiful."

I started with her face kissing her hair, her nose, cheeks, ears, and I placed a few on her lips for good measure. I slowly worked my way down, kissing her neck and each breast. She laughed when I reached her stomach. She was ticklish there. I reverted my attention to her mouth where I placed another kiss. I smiled as I kissed her and told her, "You're laugh is beautiful, too." I slowly moved back down and kissed each and every toe before moving back up her legs again, placing kisses the whole way. I finally reached her wet core. I kissed her there before pleasuring her until she was satisfied and brought my face back up to hers.

She smiled at me and pulled me down by my hair to kiss me and our lips locked again. We kissed for a while before my own desires required attention. It was becoming painful for me and Meredith could tell although I tried to conceal my pain.. Tonight was about her.

"Derek, it's okay." She told me. I looked deep into her eyes and confirmed it with her. Her hand reached down and guided me in.

We went until both of us were pleasured and fell back onto the bed.

"I'm so in love with you, Meredith Grey." I told her. I couldn't describe the feeling but it was strong. I guess it is true, you really can feel love deep in your heart.

Whoop whoop. So there's another chapter but there's more to come! Review please, I really love getting reviews :) It's like opening christmas presents for me. Leave predictions on what you think is going to happen! I love you all, MERDER FOREVER.

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