Of course the figured my dad wouldn't come till the morning. I was stuck here. The last place I wanted to be right now. I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO BE HERE. I sighed and slammed my hand into the wall. I felt someone's arms around me and I pushed him away. "Just leave me alone." I snapped at him.
"Your mad, I get that but Roza please it is about to storm come inside." He said softly and of course he was right it started to pour down rain. "I promise I will leave you alone if that is what you want but please come inside."
"Fine I'll go inside but I don't want to be treated like I have to be with you, I don't want to be outcast ether. I don't want any more of these games" I said softly and he nodded. I stood there in the pouring rain looking at him a moment. "I am sorry. " I said and sighed waking into his house once more.
"Why are you sorry Roza?"
"I shouldn't have agreed to this I need to go find Lissa's sibling and get her place in office or maybe as Queen I can't do this, again. I shouldn't have agreed to come here."
"You needed to see Sydney, and you know my family loves you. I should be the sorry one and I am very sorry"
I heard what he was saying but for some reason I slipped into Lissa's mind not that I wanted to but part of me did. I missed her and Adrian right now.
"Will you stop it your making me miss her more!" Adrian said softly shaking his head.
"I can't help it I am worried about her and worse she thinks that I, that Dimitri and I…" Lissa said I could feel her distress and pain when she spoke.
"Rose is stubborn she'll get over it" Christian said and smiled at her. I didn't know if they where back together but I hoped I knew Lissa loved him very much. "Just give her time"
"Yes we were close and yes we talked a lot but mainly about her, and how bad he felt for all that he did to her. I just can't bear to … she can't be mad at me she just can't"
"What did he do to her besides break her heart?" Adrian asked.
"I I can't tell you."
"Lissa please."
"No I promised I wouldn't tell and I won't break that promise."
"Then I'll ask her."
"If you must but Adrian leave it alone."
"NO I love her and he hurt her more than just breaking her heart I want to know what and how, how can I help her if I don't know what the problem is?"
"It isn't my place." Rose? I heard her think and I knew she knew I was listening I sighed and pulled back out of her head.
"ROZA?" Dimitri said holding on to my shoulders with a worried look on his face.
"I am ok. Sorry. "I said softly.
"Checking on Lissa? You scared me for a minute you just zoned out."
"Yes I was, she is ok. But Adrian is asking questions."
"What kind of Questions?"
"Like what happened last time we were here"
"Oh… I told Lissa, she wouldn't break a promise would she?"
"No."
"We should go inside."
"Oh Rose your soaking. Here let me get you some warm clothes" Viktora said and ran to her sister's room.
"You should get dressed before dinner, you don't want to get sick." Olyesa said softly.
"I will." I said softly and sighed. Dimitri went to get changed as well, I took the clothes from Viktora and changed in the bathroom. I pulled my hair up and wrapped it around in a bun I hated when it was wet sometimes but it let it go for now.
I walked down the stairs into another Russian conversation and I sighed.
"Well?" Yeva said pure Russian.
"She won't listen, I will keep trying though, and she has to know I still love her, but she called her dad she is leaving in the morning" Dimitri said softly. I will admit it was hot hearing him talk in Russian but I didn't know a word he said.
"Then we will let you go to help her, make her see because I don't want to see you lose her, I can tell how much you love her."
"She is with Adrian as well how can I compete with that"
"Don't give up."
"Ok not to be rude or anything but it really does annoy me when you do that, when I don't know what you're saying and now something about Adrian." I said softly it was starting to annoy me.
"Sorry Roza."
"Come let's eat" Olyesa said softly and we all sat around the table. Now I'll admit some of the food looked a little weird to me I didn't know what it was but I wasn't going to say anything. For the most part it was good.
Everyone wanted to talk at the table, Karoline left to go feed her baby, which was a boy by the way. She named him after Dimitri of course when he was born they thought it was dead. I thought it was cute. After Dinner I didn't want to be around much but Dimitri stayed close to me, somehow we were in his room talking. There wasn't much room now with the new baby so I was stuck staying in his room tonight too.
"I am sorry about talking in Russian, I should have thought before I did." He said softly looking down.
"You're sorry for a lot of things aren't you?"
"Yes I am."
"How are we going to do this tonight anyway?"
"I'll sleep on the floor. It's fine. You can have the bed"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes my Roza I am sure."
"I am not your Roza, I am with Adrian."
"You will always be my Roza and always have my heart"
"Quit playing games Dimitri"
"I am not"
"How can you not be. You tell me one minute love fades yours has, you treated me like I didn't matter you acted like you didn't care and after I risked EVERYTHING to save you. After I gave up everything to you wanted nothing to do with me…..you're not making any sense you're driving me insane"
"I am sorry. For what I did I was wrong I shouldn't have lied, because it has been tearing me apart. I LOVE YOU ROSEMARIE HATHAWAY. I always will."
"Love fades yet it also grows I am with Adrian now. And I am kind of sleepy, so I am going to sleep maybe I'll get lucky and get Adrian in a dream."
"Stop throwing him in my face"
"Stop playing games with me,"
"I am not Roza I love you"
"You pushed me away"
"Damnit Roza… I am sorry. "
"Just leave me alone"
"Fine." And with that he walked out of the room. I felt bad because I saw tears in his eyes. Why would he cry if he didn't mean it. He never cried almost never I have only seen it a few times. I sighed and feel back on the bed and cried myself to sleep.
It would only figure I would have a night mare but something was different, it was the same yes as it had been before Dimitri was a Strigoi keeping me as his little blood whore tempting me wanting me to say yes. But someone was watching. I couldn't see who it was and I was lost caught up in a high. Dimitri had left again and I looked over in a weak state at the person watching who it was.
"So he kept you as a blood Whore? He used you like that?" A voice said and I knew it right away.
"Adrian… what ?"
"I figured I'd try to see your night mares. Rose how you can love him after that. I don't understand"
"I I don't know."
"I will always love you and I promise I will never do that, but do not bring him back to Court I will kill him."
"No Adrian please"
"I will kill him I am not kidding Rose after seeing that I ….. God "
"I love both of you it is hard and complicated"
"Rose I love you very much, I want to be the only one in your heart I want to give you everything you always wanted, everything you deserve but how can I if you still want him?"
"I made my choice I love you, I wanted to be with you that night."
"Then you made a huge deal in church, Rose I know you love him"
"I love you too"
"Come back to me please"
" I will"
"I trust you with my heart Rose. Don't you see I never loved anyone like I love you you mean so much to me I just I can't lose you"
"You won't Adrian."
"Lissa is worried"
"I saw, it is ok tell her I am not mad at her anymore and I believe her and tell her to be happy with Christian."
"I will."
"Good."
"I'll let you go it's almost time to get up here"
I started to say ok but the dream faded and I woke up I knew he got up but when I woke up I was in Dimitri's arms. He must have moved from the floor to the bed while I was sleeping or crawled next to me and I didn't notice. But it was nice being in his arms like this, it felt so right so perfect but in a way so wrong I didn't understand it. I sighed and bit my lip a little watching him sleep I wanted to stay like this close to him, how I missed being close to him. I just moved ever so slightly to watch him sleep wondering why he was in the bed with me now.
"Roza? No please listen" he said softly talking in his sleep, which was very cute by the way. "I lied I love you please I didn't mean it when I said love fades, I could never stop loving you, please stop please come back I need you I need you….Roza I love you….. Please don't "
"Don't do what?" I said softly wondering if he would talk to me in his sleep unknowing I was awake.
"Don't leave. Don't kill yourself I love you" he said softly back still fast asleep.
"I am not going to kill myself Dimitri." I whispered.
"I am sorry I love you Roza." He said.
"I love you too Dimitri." I said softly and sighed. I did love him I loved both of them I was so in love with two. My sigh must have scared him because he woke up and looked at me. "Dreaming of me?"