[Kageyama's pov]
I haven't been particularly lucky today…
I have been standing on this dancefloor for about an hour without any kind of progress whatsoever, and I was about to give up when HE came into my field of vision. He was short with bright hair, maybe blonde? It's ridiculously hard to tell how anyone looks like in here, and that's probably why nobody have approached me. All they see is a tall looming figure… hell I wouldn't approach me either…
But this guy did.
We're taking it slow, just some dancing, not even touching yet… well if you don't count the times some guy bumps into him and he falls on me, which is kinda nice. I like being close to him, I like touching him even if it is accidental, I like him. I want to get closer to him, do more with him, but I'm afraid of being too bold. He doesn't seem like the kind of guy who would like to be too touchy feely right of the bat. Which is a perfect match because I came here hoping to find a guy to dance with and then maybe get closer and closer to. Just like a cheesy love story, I know, but I secretly kinda like that kind of stuff…
He put his hands on my shoulders, and I hesitantly put mine on his hips. I'm glad he took the initiative because I'm really bad with that sort of thing. I don't know where the line goes when it comes to matters like this, and I'm generally at a loss for what to do and when to do it. He seems like a perfect guy. He's a little short so he probably doesn't like playing volleyball though… I'm probably going to scare him away immediately after he learns how much time I spend on volleyball. That's usually how it goes…
We slowly get closer and closer and holy crap this is going just the way I wanted it to. He's so definitely the one. Please don't let him get too intimidated by my overwhelming love for volleyball because I REALLY like this guy. Or well… I haven't really gotten to know him yet, but this is one of those moments where you just know that it's perfect. I know he's the one and I just know he's going to have the perfect personality.
When our bodies connect I panic slightly at first because I know I've got a hard on, but when I realise that he's not any better off than me I relax a little. He makes me feel so nervous, but I really don't want him to stop. We're both getting more and more bold with our touches. God we're just like hormonal teenagers in heat… I swore to myself that I'd never be like that, but here I am…
He pulls away from me and I'm so confused, didn't he want to continue this? Doesn't he feel the same way? Did I read his signs all wrong? Does he hate me?
But then he takes my hand and starts pulling me towards the exit and I'm completely taken over by relief and happiness. In fact I'm so completely taken over by these emotions of mine that my alcohol clouded mind doesn't function properly, and I end up just letting him lead me wherever while I stare at the ground and think about all the emotions I'm feeling. I also think about the fact that I really want to kiss this guy, like REALLY want to kiss him. And it would seem that the Gods are on my side because my wish comes true. We're suddenly in an alley and when he's about to turn around I put my lips to his.
And this is probably the best make out session I have ever experienced in my life… not that I have experienced too many, but I know this is the perfect make out session. Completely and utterly confident. Yupp. I don't believe you if you tell me that you've had a better one. I will fight you over this matter.
Everything is so hot and he feels so good… I don't want this to end, or well, I kind of also want to know more about him and I can't do much talking when my mouth is otherwise occupied…
Then we unfortunately part… my mind is still reeling and my eyes are closed. I can't think straight, but then again; I never was straight to begin with…
"KAGEYAMA!?" I hear him shout out in surprise… wait I know that voice! My eyes open so fast… I don't think I've ever opened them that quickly in my entire life. A lot of firsts today, huh?
"I don't- I thought- YOU'RE GAY!?" Hinata say, fumbling with his words. He's blushing and damn he looks absolutely smashing right now, but my mind is still processing the fact that hinata is my perfect guy…
"Dumbass! We just made out with each other… I don't think straight guys do that with each other…" I deadpan. Holy crap it's so easy to ignore the fact that we were hella gay just a few moments ago and go into the behaviour that has become like a daily routine for the two of us…
"Idiot, you can make out with another guy and not be gay! I'm not gay" hinata replies.
"Are you seriously trying to deny that you're gay!? You just made out with me, and last time I checked I was a guy" I say. Hinata's silent for a little while, and I start contemplating whether or not I should say anything else. I didn't get the chance to say anything though…
"Yeah, last time I checked you were a guy too" hinata replies with a smirk, and holy crap did he just make a joke about the time on the dancefloor!? I couldn't help the laughter that bubbled up in me, and neither can hinata judging by the fact that he is currently laughing… we needed the change of atmosphere because it had been way too tense between us, and we were both nervous and awkward. I feel a lot lighter now after laughing for a while…
"No but seriously, I'm not gay" hinata say… is he kidding me? He made out with me, we had our bodies pressed together like teenagers in a heat, and he even made a joke about boners on the dancefloor… I mean seriously hinata there's a limit to how far into the closet you can get…
I open my mouth to reply, but hinata beat me to it.
"I'm bisexual… how about you?" he say.
Oh…
"I thought… okay… I'm gay…" I reply.
And then we both fall silent again…
We're never silent. We're known for the way we always argue with each other (loudly) and compete with each other (also loudly) all the time. I mean we're never silent unless we're both thinking about something, usually processing some sort of information… and even then we're not silent for too long.
There's one good thing about this whole situation though; I know he won't be intimidated by my extreme love for volleyball…
"So… do you, kinda, maybe, want to… um…" Hinata start saying hesitantly.
"YES!" I reply loudly before he can finish his sentence, which slightly startle him.
"Okay!" He say in response. It's more like it was something that came out of him because he was startled by my loud reply to his unspoken question. And yeah I realise that I didn't get to hear what he actually wanted to ask me, but I am pretty sure it's either "do you want to try going out with me?" or "do you want to try making out again?" and I am one hundred percent fine with both of those.
"Okay, okay… um… you didn't hear my question though…" He utter nervously. I can barely hear him, but I somehow manage to understand what he said. it feels like we have this telepathic connection and remind me again why I've never hit on hinata before.
"I figured it'd be somewhere between 'go out with me' and 'make out with me again', and I'm for both of those…" I say. My face is heating up even more than it already has, and I can barely believe it because I was blushing like mad. My head is spinning and I'm grateful for the fact that my mind and body didn't let me down just now when I said those things because I was completely sure it would…
I watch as hinata's face turns redder and redder by the second and I honestly can't believe that I've never considered him earlier. How come it took dancing and making out with him (without knowing it was him) in order for me to see how incredibly good boyfriend material he really is? I sure have been dense, huh?
"I um… so… we're dating then?" Hinata asks. He's really nervous and unconfident. Not too long ago he was being extremely bold, hell, he was more bold than I have ever been able to be when it comes to this sort of thing.
"Yeah" I say dreamily. Until I realise that I'm kind of making the decision for him. "I mean, if you want to…" I add slightly nervously. I guess he infected me with his nervousity…
"I want to…" he replies, and it's like a hundred Christmases and birthdays all at once. Shit, I've fallen, and I've fallen HARD. It's like this whole experience opened a door within me.
"Oh, but I don't want the team or anyone at school to know that I'm bi…" hinata say hastily.
"Relax, I'm not going to tell them about you if you don't tell them about me…" I reply.
"Good…" he practically breathe out, and his entire figure seems to slump down a bit in relief and relaxation.
That's really been bothering him, hasn't it?
"I… you can… if you want we can try kissing again…" hinata say after a little while, confidence slightly returned.
I don't even say anything, my hands reach up to hold his head in place as I bend down to kiss him again. It's somewhat different this time, but it's a good different. I think it's the fact that I know that I'm kissing hinata now, not an unknown guy I met on the dancefloor of a gay club.
This kiss is a lot shorter and doesn't resemble two uncontrollable teenagers in heat. It's kinda sweet, but at the same time there's a floating feeling of need behind it. My mind feels… well it's hard to explain, but have you ever seen one of those sceneries where there's a soft kind of pink everywhere. Specs of light that resemble dandelion puffs floating gently around, and a lot of other flowers, all in pastel colours, lying about on the ground. And there's this soft music in the background. Imagine that and you have the feeling I'm currently having. A feeling of serenity I guess.
It's all just so perfect.
Then again that might just be my alcohol muddled brain's doing, but at this exact moment I don't care… all I want right now is for this moment and these feelings to continue on forever, but like all good things this will have an end too I guess…
And that's the last thing I remember…
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And I can't promise that I'll post another chapter for the other two fanfictions this month (I am after all in the middle of my kagehina month), but I assure you that I'll post another chapter for both after this month if not during...
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