Deep Within
Well here is a side story I am starting once. I hope everyone enjoyed chapter one cause I know I enjoyed writing. I love reviews so please don't forget to leave one thank you. Now on with chapter two!
Chapter Two:
~Allen's POV~
After I had calmed down from up on the roof I finally went back to my new dorm room only to walk in to find Lenalee still going on about the Noah kids and my two roommates looks utterly bored. Honestly I could feel for them, I would be to if I had stayed in here any longer. I walked around the idolizing Lenalee and went over and sat on my new bed as she went on about how each Noah kid was wonderful, while here I was insulting them in my mind for every good thing she said. After a while I was back to starring out the window and drowning her out. Back when we were all kids, and I mean really young kids we all were very close. Then suddenly everyone got famous and they all changed and I felt alone and unable to cope with the loneliness. Road seemed to stay the most in character, up until I moved into the Noah Estate and she showed how much more psychotic she was than my Uncle Adam. The fame had gotten to all them minus Aunt Lulu and I. I guess fame brings out the worst in a lot of people.
"Hey Lenalee we'll see you at dinner, you're really boring us with this Noah Family thing." Lavi chuckled, I watched Lenalee puss out her cheeks before she smiled sweetly and walked out. After a few minutes Lavi fell back onto his bed with a sigh.
"About damn time! If I had to hear anymore of that Noah Family shit I think I would scream!" Lavi said starring up at the ceiling.
"You're telling me, I bet that Allen kid ran away to get away from the drama that creates fan girls. I can't blame him for vanishing and I think his family should let him be." I heard Kanda say. "What do you think Allen?" He then asked and I just shrugged.
"I think everyone is free to do whatever they want and shouldn't be caged by how it sounds in that Allen kids case." I answered and fell back as well to laying on the bed my head close to the foot of the bed.
"Enough of that topic! I'm curious Allen, it's close to summer and you're wearing long sleeves and gloves...any reason as to why? You must be burning up?" Lavi asked and I turned my head to look at Lavi right as a pillow collided with his face.
"Damn it you baka don't bud your nose into others business! It's not polite asshole!" Kanda snapped and I only chuckled. I hugged my deeply scarred arm to me and turned my head to stare up at the ceiling above me. This arm was what keeps all my secrets and I am reminded of them every day. If anyone sees it then so many questions would be asked and that thought truly scared me.
"Allen don't pay attention to the baka usagi. If there is anything you don't wish to tell people, then you have no obligation to say them. Your past is your past." Kanda said and I only nodded my head still starring at the ceiling. Soon Lavi and Kanda were yelling at one another once more and I had to pull out my music player and headphones playing my playlist Ivan Torrent the song Before I Leave This World coming on first. And closed my eyes and let myself completely go. I could still here the loud argument going on around me. It reminded me a bit of what went on in that house. Biting my lip I got up and left the dorm room, not saying a single word. I didn't go to the roof this time but found myself on a trail into the woods at the back end of the school. I had already taken my headphones out and stuffed them into my pocket with my music player.
"Hey! Sorry about that back at the room." It was Kanda and he had caught up to me. I noticed Lavi not too far behind us.
"Its not either of your faults. Yes I have a past, yes it's one of those kind of pasts. I came to this school to get away from it. That's all I'm going into with that subject." I explained linking my hands behind my head.
"Then why did you run off? Someone is going to start heavily questioning you if you run off every time something of this nature reminds you of your past." Lavi stated and I saw Kanda nod his head in agreement with the red head.
"Yes I ran off from the argument, but that was to give you guys battle room and to clear my head. I'm not good with change, and when I moved in to my last home it got worst because I was never able to settle in. Now here I am and suddenly I feel like I'm settling in right off the bat!" I explained letting out a heavy breath.
"Isn't that a good thing?" Kanda asked and I had to think about my answer.
"Yes and no. It only is if you're used to settling into new places, no if you've never really had a home for a long time." I explained starring up at the darkening sky above us.
"Allen...you wouldn't happen to be that Allen Noah, Lenalee was talking about?" Kanda suddenly asked and I stopped walking my eyes wide as I looked to Kanda who now turned to stare right into my eyes.
"Kanda, that boy has red hair why would you ask our roommate who has white hair?!" Lavi laughed, but the dark haired boy and I just kept starring at one another.
"No, I'm not. What makes you think I am?" I ask a little too calmly and I could tell he caught on, or was beginning to catch on.
"Because ever since she brought it up, you've been acting real strange. There are many ways for your hair to change. Trauma, dying it and wearing a wig. I'm guessing one of the first two, I doubt your hair is a wig. But if you say you're not Allen Noah, then I guess you're not. But if you are I'd check in with your family." He said, with every word that left his mouth caused a jabbing feeling in my chest from the fear of being found out and sent back home.
"Even if I was how do you know that me being here is actually the safest thing for me?" I asked nonchalantly and I watched his lips twist up into a smirk. I didn't know if his look should worry me or not.
"Like I told you back in the room, your past is yours. No one can force you to tell them anything that you're not willing to share. But I do advise you to talk to someone especially if you're in trouble Allen Walker." Kanda said and I feel my breath catching in my lungs.
"Kanda cut it out you're scaring the boy half to death! He says he is Allen Noah, so that mean's he isn't Allen Noah. Can we just drop it and leave it at that and go get dinner? I really don't want to miss Jerry's cooking ya know!" Lavi said but Kanda and I still stood there even when Lavi finally left.
"So now that the baka usagi is gone are you going to tell me the truth? I just want to know your identity not your past. I really don't care about no fucking reward, I could help you since I to am running from a past not worth talking about." Kanda explained and I felt a wall I had built beginning to crumble down. I just met this kid and already do I feel some sort of connection with him. But I knew even though him and I are both gay doesn't mean we'd ever be able to get together. No one would ever want to be with someone like me.
"My name is Allen Walker. I was adopted by my Uncle Adam Noah when I came home to find my parents dead. Last year my Aunt Lulu Bell helped me escape my home and I haven't looked back since. I need to stay away until I'm 18 so my uncle doesn't get the fund money that is rightfully mine." I said mechanically my eyes wide and now starring at the ground. I was waiting for the betrayal, waiting for the moment where he'd run off and call someone to alert that I'm here. I slightly jump when Kanda pushes his fingers a bit into my hair twirling some of my white strands in between his thumb and index finger.
"I look forward to getting to know you more so maybe one day you and I could really open up to one another and help each other." He said before leaning forward and leaving a soft quick kiss onto my forehead. I felt my face heating up and soon felt his hand in mine and he began to lead me through the school until we reached the cafeteria. I felt my entire face heating up when I noticed almost every female student starring at us and some male students. I had this undying feeling I maybe having some new enemies once school starts.
"Kanda...we're here at the cafeteria...must you still hold my hand?" I asked and he only looked back at me with a smirk. My face heated up even more. Why the hell was it doing that?!
"Once we get to the table, it's quite crowded in here and we don't need you getting lost or taken away by any other students." He said once we stopped at the back of the line for food.
"Well we're in line so, um...please let go of my hand." I said looking to the side to the floor.
"Why? Do I make you nervous?" He whispered his mouth right by my ear. I felt a shiver run up my spine and send shivers through me.
"No!" I squeaked then covered my face with my free hand from embarrassment. I heard him chuckle and it was the sexiest sound I have ever heard.
'STOP!' I shout in my mind, now was not the time to be falling for one of your roommates.
"You know you're cute when you're arguing with yourself." She winked and pulled me along as the line moved, I watched his back my eyes wide open in amazement. Since I first met him, he's been nothing but nice to me. Maybe opening up a bit wouldn't be a bad thing, all I have to do is keep my dark past behind me.
"My favorite colors are white, pasty blue and gold." I suddenly say and wish to slap myself for being such a girl with the favorite color shit!
"My favorite colors are black, dark blue and silver." He said looking to me with that small smile of his and I knew I was blushing again.
"Favorite food is Mitarashi Dango's." I say biting my lip but nevertheless smiling as well.
"Soba and Wasabi with a side of miso soup." He said and my smile grew. Finally it was our time to order our foods. I noticed Lavi and Lenalee sitting off at a table waving at us. I gave them a small wave as Kanda gave his order. Next was my turn.
"What can I get for you new face?" The dark skinned man with purple hair asked and I just blinked at him.
"Well Lenalee told me you can cook anything here...right? And my name is Allen by the way." I asked, also being polite with giving my name.
"Ah what a gentleman you are, my name is Jerry and yes, anything your heart desires I can cook for you." He said giving me a wink and I could only blink at him before starring at Kanda who was stifling his laughter.
"Well I guess I'll just have a plate of 20 Mitarashi Dango's." I ordered and Kanda just blinked at me and I only smiled. "I have big appetites." I added.
"No kidding, you out beat Lavi who can only eat 10." He said as we both stood at the pick up area and waited for our food.
"Favorit season?" He then asked.
"Winter." I answered and he smiled.
"So is mine. Everything is stuck in a frozen beauty and that's why I like it." He said and I find myself smiling once more.
"I love it because it gives you reason to get even more close to the one you love for warmth. It's also a time for families to get together." I explain as our foods were handed to us and we headed to the table.
"That's another reason I like it as well. We'll continue our twenty questions styled talk later." Kanda said and I nodded my head as we each sat down at the table we were at.
"So how're you liking your rooming situation Allen? Lavi here told me you ran out earlier." Lenalee said as she took a bit of her salad.
"What the baka usgai forgot to mention to you was how he was hounding Allen here about his past and why he wears long sleeves." Kanda said using his chopsticks to take a bite of his Soba noodles.
"Lavi!" Lenalee shrieked before smacking him in the arm.
"It's no big deal Lenalee, I also needed to clear my head. Please don't get violent." I said laughing nervously. Her and Road would definitely get along quite well with their personalities being so close together.
"Sorry, he hasn't learned from scaring off the last person that roomed with them. He can be so overbearing some times. Don't let him get to you." Lenalee said with a sweet smile.
"He's not overbearing to me, just a bit eccentric. I've been around people worst than him. I can tell the four of us are all going to be close friends." I said taking a side glance over to Kanda who was also side glancing me as well. My head whirls around to look back at Lenalee when she squeals happily and Lavi looks utterly annoyed.
"Allen, you and me shopping in town tomorrow! Just us, there is something I just HAVE to discuss with you pronto!" She said very quickly and it took me a second to comprehend what she just said.
"Um...alright." I said and took another bite of my dango. Why do I have this feeling she was going to try and hook Kanda and I together. The rest of dinner went normally with the four of us talking and laughing and getting to know one another and it ended up us being the last group left in the cafeteria before we all headed back to our rooms.
"Good night Allen, Kanda...Lavi no pestering Allen let him offer the information of his life without being interrogated." Lenalee said grabbing the front of Lavi's shirt and pulled him down her lips meshing with his. I made an immediate beeline into the dorm room knowing I was not wanting to watch the make out session that was about to happen.
"Looks like I'm not the only one. They'll be a while, and Lavi will be a very long while since he's most likely going to be sneaking out to buy liquor for tonight." Kanda laughed a bit shutting and locking the door behind him.
"Yea, I think seeing people making out is awkward. I've never been in a serious relationship before, only one for show." I said belly flopping onto my bed.
"Well you never know what could happen. It's obvious you're attracted to me and I know damn well I'm attracted to you. But let's start off as friends first, seeing as we both have trust issues with people." Kanda said sitting on the edge of my bed leaning over me with his arm across me.
"It's that noticeable?" I asked and he only nodded his head. "Thank you Kanda for reading me, it would be so much better if everyone could." I added.
"I can read you easily, as you can read me to Allen. We're able to read each other because we have similar pasts. But one step at a time for right now. Let's wait till you're more comfortable." He said and I turned so I was looking up at him.
"If Lenalee were in here this would probably kill her match making plans that she is obviously making and why she's taking me shopping tomorrow." I laughed and a bit and he joined me.
"We'll let her have her fun, for now let's get to sleep especially with your long day tomorrow." Kanda said and he leaned forward as I lifted my head up, both of us meeting the other half way. Our lips never touched though, we just sat like that for the longest time just starring into the others eyes. Eventually we pulled away and retired to bed. My heart was still pounding in my chest and I wished that our lips had met. But like he had said, one step at a time. I was perfectly fine with that as my eyes slipped closed to a dreamless sleep.
Morning came quickly with Lenalee bursting into our room and hurrying me to get dressed so we could head out. I just half way awake and followed her out to where the bus was picking us and a few other students up. Lavi and Kanda said they'd meet up with us later for lunch, that gave Lenalee and I five hours with one another for shopping.
"So how are you liking Black Order Academy so far?" She asked and I linked my hands behind my back to think for a bit.
"Well not sure quite yet until I attend some classes but everyone I've met so far have been really nice. Though I am worried about some students turning enemy on me for Kanda dragging me into the cafeteria by the hand.
"Don't worry if anyone tries anything they'll get kicked out. There is a strict no fight, no bullying rule within the school. My brother doesn't tolerate that sort of thing, since it happened with Lavi when him and I first started dating. That's how he lost his eye, a few kids jumped him and hurt him quite badly. Kanda found him and fought everyone off. The two are actually really good friends you know. So don't worry you're in good company, and we'll always be there for you." Lenalee smiled and I smiled back at her as we entered the shopping mall.
"Oh my what a surprise!" My heart stopped in that instant though, two things were going to happen. First Lenalee will be happy to meet her idols. Second I will be going through a lot of pain here soon. Standing right in front of us was Road, Tyki, Jasdero and Devit. I could feel my breathing becoming ragged. To my surprise though Lenalee didn't begin to fangirl.
"Allen are you alright." I could only nod my head to her question.
"Do you have any idea how worried Papa Adam is?! He misses you a great deal, but sadly since you're already in school we can't take you back, but we can have some fun with you right Allen?" Road asked as she stepped forward maneuvering her face to directly in mine.
"I...I'm so-sorry but I'm wi-with a f-friend at the m-mo-moment." I stuttered and Road's smile vanish instantly as her eyes slitted at me.
"Jasdevi do me a favor and take him to our hotel room, we'll return him once we're done with him." Road said darkly, grabbing my wrist and easily pulled me and pushed me into the two.
"Wait!" Lenalee said trying to reach for me but Tyki grabbed her wrist.
"I'm sorry miss but this is family business, you're going to have to beat it." He hissed dangerously at her and I watched as her face paled and she backed away from me.
"Now be a doll and stay here and pretend you never saw us. Lets go boys." Road smiled and they began walking off with me.
"Nononononono! Stop let me go! Lenalee! LENALEE!" I screamed trying to get away from my psychotice deranged family, I watched as Lenalee ran off. And it was at that moment I was once again abandoned.
'Kanda...' I thought to myself hoping he'd come looking for me.
There you go chapter two ^_^ hope you like it. Tell me what you think!