OH GODS HAVE YOU READ TABINOF YET
It´s amazing
Also, Chapter 10!
And, have any of you listened to " The balcony" by like totally eden yet?
I love it so much I wrote this whole chapter about it!
Enjoy!
Judy carries on with her life. After Cecil visited her on that faithful day, she promised to herself that never again she would cry because of Leo Valdez. Never again she would let him break her like he did before. And if he likes Calypso more than her, then that´s just how it is. Sometimes you just have to get over something, and in order not to talk to him again she cut off all contacts to him, meaning she avoided parties and all of his friends. He would never hurt her again like this. Never.
Still, sometimes she lies in her bed, staring at the ceiling, and sometimes she just can´t help but think about the feeling of Leo´s lips pressed against hers, his hand in her neck. And sometimes, she can´t help but laugh and cry at the same time because of those memories.
She likes him, still. After all. But those are just memories now.
Moments are like a star...
She stopped playing guitar, because, hell, everytime now she played guitar, it would remind her of Leo, and that was something she really didn´t need any longer.
She also does not need the memories of him any longer, but it´s easier to get rid of a guitar than it is to get rid of memories.
Maybe soemtimes she wished she could. Getting rid of memories- it would be helpful.
Gone within an instant
There is an aching in her heart, in her head, when she steps out of the building, and there is a voice inside her crying over and over.
It´s just. Not. Fair.
Why does she have to put up with all of this, she thinks as it starts raining. First Leo, now rain when I´m in the building that is the farest away from my dorm, she thinks as she starts running, feeling her hair become dripping wet. Already, her clothes are soaking wet.
Dammit.
And she is running, and the whole path is so slippery, but there already is the library, only four blocks to go.
She bites her lip, continuing running, but everything is so muddy and slippery and wet.
taking with them memories
Also, it´s becoming quite dark now, since it already is November.
Oh, why didn´t she think about bringing an raincoat?
Normally, she always has at least an Umbrella, but of course not today, where she would need one so urgently. She stops as soon as her hair is dripping wet. There is no way now she will get to her Dorm at least a bit dry, so she is walking now.
And then, there is someone behind her, she hears breathing, and her whole back arches.
Who is there, why are they following her, are they going to...?
Her eyes widen in suprise when there is an umbrella over her head, right in front of her, and a boy, a boy as wet and drippy as her holding it out for her to reach.
The boy´s eyes are full of apologies and hurt and love and everything else. His hair is in his face, and dripping water down his nose. He´s only wearing jeans and a shirt, over it a grey jacket, but not one that will prevent him from the rain.
She looks at the boy and she knows his name.
She knows his name and she really wants to say it.
I had of you and me
" Judy" The boy says. " Take the Umbrella, yes?" He says, and she nodds, still speechless, still suprised.
Her mouth opens, but she can´t say the name, there is not a single word leaving her mouth.
The boy smiles at her, this smile that makes her inside so weak. That smile that makes her want to kiss him. Again.
And her brain is screaming at her, telling her just to leave him behind, telling her to just walk away. Her brain is screaming at her to just let him stand there, just go away.
She leans up and kisses him.
Well, at least she tried to do what her brain says, didn´t she?
And now, she feels Leo Valdez stiffening, and she feels how he calms down.
She feels how he smiles into the kiss, and she feels how he gently pulls away, pressing his forehead against hers and for one second, the rain doesn´t bother her any more, nothing bothers her any more. All that matters right now is looking into Leo´s eyes.
you were like a shooting star
gone within an instant
He is still holding the Umbrella, just yet realizing it. And then, he steps away from her, and she is thinking that maybe she did everything wrong, and he just wanted to be nice to her.
She looks down at the floor, a tear running down her cheek, when he holds up the umbrella, opening it.
" I don´t want you to catch a cold" Leo says, before he pulls her in for another kiss, and this time she doesn´t even smell smoke, and he still is holding the umbrella, but above them both this time.
Did I fall for a shooting star?
Her head is still screaming at her, but the voice gets quieter, and even if she thinks that this is how every second goddamn movie is, it still feels great, being kissed in the middle of the rain.
She never expected that to happen to her, to anybody maybe, but not to her, good old Judy Morstan.
And yet it is happening and she is smiling and crying at the same time. It feels great.
When they both pull away, she feels like she is flying, and everything else feels like finally it´s making sense again.
She feels great and she looks at Leo who also is smiling like an idiot.
Yes, but the idiot you are in love with, she thinks.
" Judy..." Leo whispers, and she nodds.
" Yes?" She asks, and looks at him.
turn the page maybe we´ll find
a brand new ending
"...I´m sorry for everything with the fire..." He says, and holds up his hand, a tiny little flame dancing in it. " But, like, I can´t change this about me."
" I can´t help but freak out, and maybe I can work on this." She says.
" Yeah, but, it´s like a curse. It will never go away." He says.
And she looks up, and with all the courage she has and ever will have she takes his other hand, and she looks him in the eyes.
And she says: " I´d rather have you. Cursed or not."
one where you don´t
burn out all too soon
oh am I a fool
who sits alone
talking to the moon
when I could
be on my balcony...
talking to you?
because when push
comes to shove...
I might as well just jump
how can you care
if you´re not even there?
I didn´t wanna cause a fire
didn´t start a flame, but I guess
I only have myself to blame
the dampness of my heart
stopped the burning spark, or
maybe it was the lies
behind your eyes
oh you know how to
save me
so why couldn´t you
save yourself?
turn the page maybe
we´ll find...a brand
new ending
one where you don´t
burn out all too soon
oh am I a fool
who sits alone
talking to the moon
when I could
be on my balcony...
talking to you?
because when push
comes to shove
I might as well just jump
how can you care
if you´re not even there?
how can you care
if you´re not even there?
Man tbh this is the best piece I ever have written.
Ever.
This hopefully will be my legacy, but there are more chapters up soon!
One special on October 28 to celebrate the #Jazellyn (James and Hazellyn)
Ah yis my and my boyfriend´s anniversary ( 1 year) is soon #jazellyn
-Hazy (super happy) xxx