Flashback 10 months ago
We walked in a comfortable silence down the halls. Arizona was still showing me the rest of the hospital. She's been quiet since she gave me her background story.
"Callie?"
I turned to look at her and realized that I had zoned out. I'm pretty sure she was asking me a question.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to zone out, it's a lot to take in, this place is amazing"
"Ha, no worries. I was asking why you decided to go into Ortho, and why this hospital?"
"I guess bones have always intrigued me more than anything. The thought of having to break something in order to help heal it and make it stronger seems to be the epitome of life."
I feel like that last part gave a too much away about myself. I quickly went to the next answer before she could comment.
"This hospital and staff is the best, and I want to be part of the best, and contribute to being the best"
I see that she is nodding, but doesn't say anything.
We finish the tour and I shake her hand and thank her for her time.
She smiles and tells me no problem. She seems to hesitate for a second, and then offers her phone number in case I need anything.
I smile and punch in her number into my phone. I can't help but think that she already seems to be the type of person that doesn't just give out her number.
Maybe I have a chance!
Present
I have to go back to work.
I've been staring at the ceiling, feeling broken.
Ironic how again my bone metaphor captures my life.
Right now, I don't feel so strong, but dammit im going to heal.
The first step is to take a shower, and remind myself that I'm a bad ass.