Sue: I think the same and it's something that I want to work on this fic. No matter what happens between them, they'll always have each other.
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Hold me till I die
Chap02
They took a vacation from work. It was something unusual for both of them, but this time Jane and Maura needed it. They tried to forget what happened working almost every hour of the day, for three months. Now they realized that a break was needed. The Christmas season was the reason behind their choice. A season of sweetness, of love. A season to enjoy what they have and what they almost lost: themselves.
There were days when Jane seemed tormented, distressed. Her brown-chocolate eyes, always so full of emotions, would become preoccupied and guilty. Maura tried to talk to her, but Jane - being Jane - always shrugged her shoulders, smiled and told her that she was fine. That everything was okay.
Jane looked relaxed only when they went to sleep. She always waited for Maura to enjoy her in "their" bedroom, arms wide open for her. Knowing Maura felt now uneasy to sleep in the dark, Jane always left her bedside table lamp on for her. A kiss on a forehead, or on a cheek, goodnight whispered in the low light.
Opening her eyes, Maura looked at Jane. She was still sleeping, peacefully. The ME took a deep breath, her nose nuzzling Jane's throat to enjoy her bestfriend's perfume. It was something that always soothed her. Maura's heart fluttered feeling Jane's arms unconsciously tightening around her waist. Maura wanted to wake Jane up and talk to her about what she was feeling but watching her friend's relaxed face, she decided to not do it. And her cowardice also helped to take this decision. Instead, Maura buried her face in Jane's neck and went back to sleep.
The serenity of that Sunday morning was interrupted by the buzzing coming from Jane's phone. Half-asleep she reached for it on the bedside table trying not to wake Maura up. Jane's casted a glance at Maura - who was still hugging her in her sleep - and chuckled. Maura looked like a koala hugging a tree. She felt a little uneasy for this thought but she shrugged it off her mind as soon as possible. Kent Drake changed everything. Kent Drake changed her. What she was feeling wasn't fear. It was the weight of the realization that she was feeling something deep and powerful for Maura. Her bestfriend. Her female bestfriend. Her everything. It was the awareness of not being ready to talk about her feelings and maybe change their relationship. Forever. Leave the bubble that they've created around themselves. Take a leap of faith like that was something huge and meaningful.
Her phone buzzed again, remembering Jane that she still had a text message to read. It was from her mother. Her Ma.
"Can we gather for the usual Rizzolis' Sunday dinner? Please, Janie?"
Jane rolled her eyes at her mother words. They hadn't seen each other in months after an horrible and hurtful fight. Angela even left the guesthouse and went to live with Frankie.
"I miss you. And Maura." Another text message and Jane groaned. Guilt kicking in.
"Maur?" Jane whispered kissing Maura's forehead. "C'mon, sleepyhead wake up." Maura answered with a grunt. Maura Isles grunted. Jane couldn't help it and laughed. "God, you're adorable."
What the fuck did I say?
"Who knew Maura Isles, Chief Medical Examiner of the Commonwealth of Massachusetts is so lazy."
"I am not." Maura pinched Jane side to emphasize her answer. Jane gasped over-dramatically and Maura muttered "Such a child."
"Okay, smartass, wake up." The brunette patted Maura's butt jokingly.
"It's Sunday, Jane. I haven't slept so much since the last spring break in college."
"Oh! A story that I really want to hear." Jane's eyes sparkled in delight and curiosity and Maura shoved her a little before let her head rest on Jane's right shoulder. Her hand was drawing random pattern on Jane's abs. The detective shivered a little.
"Ma' sent me a message. She said she misses you…" Jane rolled her eyes to the ceiling. "Us. And…"
"Yes, Jane?"
"If we could… y'know, it's Sunday." And now was Maura's turn to shiver. Jane was caressing her back seeking some comfort. The blond took this moment to think about Angela and her reaction after the abduction. Angela blamed Jane for everything. For choosing such a dangerous job, for not having protected Maura like Maura did with her, hiring a bodyguard. And Jane… well, Jane lost it and the fight began. Jane was already feeling guilty about everything and Angela made it worse. The first few days after she saved Maura, the brunette couldn't look in her friend's eyes, afraid that the ME blamed her for everything. Maura never blamed Jane. How could she?
"If you don't want to see her it's understandable. But sooner or later, you two should talk. This situation is hurting you and I hate that." Maura caressed Jane's cheek forcing her to look down. Then she smiled. "It's not your fault, ok? I've never thought it."
Jane swallowed the lump in her throat and shut her eyes. Tears burning them.
"You should hate me." She whispered and then grimaced in pain, fearful of what Maura would say. But Maura was looking at her like she had two heads.
"I can't. And I don't want."
"You should." Please, don't. Please, forgive me.
"How can I hate someone that I love so much?" Maura answered in matter-of-fact way. Like she had just said the most obvious thing in the world. And it was exactly like that.
"Do what you feel, Jane. But stop feeling guilty about something that was out of our control." Maura kissed her cheek before leaving bed. "Whatever you decide, I'll be there for you."
Jane was too stunned to come up with an "I love you too". She really wanted to, but words got caught in her throat. She looked at Maura make her way to the bathroom and then typed a reply to her mother.
"Dinner at Maura. 7 o' clock."
A/N: I hope you enjoyed this new chapter. Reviews make me happy :)