A/N: thank you so much to everyone who took time to read, follow, review and favorite this story. You really rock, guys!

Here's a new chapter and I'm sorry it took me time to write and publish it, but life and Christmas got in between and I didn't have time :(

I just want to reply to two guests who commented last chapter: to the guest who said that take away food and movies it's something that those two ladies always do in fanfics and it seems that it's some kind of lesbian date... well, I don't know what you do with your friends, but every Sunday night I go to my bestfriend's house (she lives with her boyfriend) to watch a movie and drink something (cold or hot, it depends on the season), plus we all know that Maura and Jane do the same because we saw it on the show. I want to add that in the first chapter of this ff, they weren't eating, only watching movies and drinking eggnog, so I don't understand your complains and I'm sorry you didn't like this choice.

To the other guest who insulted one of my reader and reviewer, if you have something against this person, let her knows in private and not here, thank you. This isn't the place to do it.

Hold Me Till I Die

Chap 04

The atmosphere in the kitchen was heavy. Neither Jane or Angela spoke a word since Maura left them to change her clothes in a clean pair of yoga pants and Jane's BPD grey shirt. Jane stole glances towards her mother, but she didn't know how to start a conversation. Instead she focused on baking their pizza while Angela was cooking her revisited "pasta alla carbonara" for dinner.

"Still nothing?" Maura asked Frankie once she seated on her couch. Frankie shook his head and took a sip of Blue Moon. Then he sighed.

"They didn't say a word since we came in. Maybe… I don't know, maybe it's better if we leave." He was fidgeting with his beer bottle and Maura put an hand on his. A shy smile graced her lips, but her eyes were full of worry.

"No, no… It's…" She swallowed and nodded to herself. She didn't want the awkwardness of this situation, but it seemed impossible to act natural. They had a lot to discuss, and the timing was the worst one. She wanted to discuss her kiss with Jane in private and not with Angela and Frankie. Not before she and Jane could talk about it. "It's just awkward and a little complicated. I don't want you to leave and I want to leave things like this with you or with your mother."

"You have nothing to explain to me, you know. You two kissed, it was about time, Maura." Frankie raised his beer and toasted silently to her and her sister, a grin on his lips. Maura blushed and looked away, but her smile said everything to him.

"Aww, you're so cute when you blush, Maura." He couldn't help the laugh the escaped from his throat. He wasn't flirting with her, hell no! He was just messing around and teasing Maura without malice.

"I'm going to check on them, maybe… give them a little push in the right direction." Maura patted his right arm and stood up, making her way towards the kitchen.

"Oh my, it smells delicious in here!" Maura's reaction was genuine but a latent nervousness was showing in her voice and in the way she was fidgeting her hands. Jane locked her eyes with her, pizza in the oven, and smiled a little smile. She saw how Maura was fidgeting and knew that she had to put an end to all of this tension. If her mother wasn't going to talk about their issues, Jane was now more than ready to do it.

"Ok, enough. Ma, I know that you're here to talk and not to have dinner with us, so go ahead. Talk, yell, whatever. I really don't care anymore. What you said three months ago hurt me in a way that you couldn't imagine."

That was the only encouragement that Angela needed to face her daughter.

"Really, Janie? You're hurt by me? What about what you put us through? What you put Maura through? Do you think that was okay? That didn't hurt us? Me? Her?" At these words, Maura felt the need to interrupt Angela.

"Angela, please. I can speak for myself and what I've said months ago was the truth. It wasn't Jane's fault and she didn't hurt me. She saved me. She found me." Maura took a deep breath because she didn't want to say to Angela and Jane what Kent was planning to do to her if Jane didn't show up in time to stop him. To kill him. He was dead now, so there was no need for them to know his intentions. "You have to speak for yourself and don't use me against Jane to prove how worried you were or how her job is dangerous. And honestly, if there is someone who have some guilt, well it's me."

"Maura…" Jane interrupted her bestfriend, but Maura raised a hand to stop her. Jane shook her head biting her bottom lip to keep her anger towards her mother at bay.

"Let me finish, please. And it's true, Jane. Drake worked with me. He worked for me. You didn't like him since the first time you met him, but Jane… he was so similar to me that I didn't feel like I was the only one weird. It was nice to have someone who could understand me."

"I understand you and I don't think you're weird."

"Yes, Jane, you think it, but it's ok. I know that you don't think that I'm weird in a bad way, I get it, honey." Maura was so focused on what she was saying that she didn't realized the term of endearment used to address Jane. "He tricked me. I should have known better than this, but I didn't and I let my guard down." So down that Kent even kissed her, but she wasn't going to bring it up again. "So, Angela, you can see that everything happened to me wasn't Jane's fault and I would be really glad if you don't stand up for me in this. Your daughter knows that I don't think that she let me down."

Angela listened to every words Maura said to her and was embarrassed by herself. She didn't think that Maura could stood up like this for Jane. She lost her mind and unleashed her angers and worries at Jane three months ago and the consequences were horrible. She lost her daughter's respect, Maura's and Jane threw her out of Maura's guesthouse.

"I'm sorry, girls. It's just… I was so scared and I wasn't thinking clearly. I still am scared of losing you both and Frankie, what can I do? What can I say? I'm a mother, your mother and I love you so much…" Tears were threateining to fall from her eyes and Jane felt sorry for her. Her work was dangerous, indeed, but it was something that she really loved. She gave up a lot to become a detective, she worked hard, she bore all the sexist jokes, the insults, and she became detective Jane Rizzoli. What if Maura couldn't stand her job either?

I don't like what-ifs, Jane. She could listen Maura's voice in her head trying to reassure her. And Maura never complained about Jane's job. Not even when she shot herself, lost her baby to save a girl, jumped off a bridge. Jane looked over Maura and smiled to her when her bestfriend locked her eyes with hers. They can have an entire conversation with only one look between each other. Maura returned the smile and walked to stay beside her, taking Jane's hand in her.

"Ma', I know that my job it's hard to bear for you and having Frankie following my steps makes it harder, but I love it. I know that I don't wanna do anything else." Maura squeezed her hand to give her some strength. Jane squeezed Maura's hand back and shrugged her shoulders. Angela nodded. She knew that the only thing that she could do was to accept it and support her daughter no matter what and that thought made her realize that it was something that she needed to do not only in regards of Jane's job, but also in regards of her relationship with… Maura? Because they were in a relationship, right? Little she knew that the two didn't have time to talk about it and what she saw was their first kiss.

"So…" Angela nodded towards Jane and Maura's laced fingers.

"So it seems that we finally have a doctor in the family like you always wished, Ma'." It was Frankie. Of course. He listened to them from the couch and when he knew that the fight was over, he made his way towards to the kitchen to grab another beer. Jane rolled her eyes annoyed, then glared at her little brother and at Maura who was giggling. Doctor Maura Isles not only groans when she doesn't want to wake up, but she also giggles when she is embarrassed or amused. Jane wondered how many other cute noises Maura would do in different situations. She stopped her mind before thinking about something inappropriate.

"Damn, sis. You're so lucky. This lady is an hell of a kisser!"

"What?" Jane didn't yell. No, she growled like a wild animal.

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