Jealousy
By- Fangirl 2
*YOU MUST BE MATURE TO READ THIS CHAPTER WARNING MUST BE MATURE*
Mary Elizabeth POV
October 30th, 1999
Dear Diary,
the dance was tonight. So much has happened, I don't know if I can fit all of it in these pages. Goal: 2 pages, possibly 3. The night was so freaking long. Right now, it's the next day, and it's 2:00 am. I just got home an hour ago and got dressed in my pj's. My mom is asleep. I think she fell asleep watching her favorite tv show, Real Housewives Of blahbidy blah, There's way too much for me to count. Orange county, Florida, Hollywood, and so on.
So, I decided to be a black cat. I know, a little bizzare because I'm not into animals, that much, but I have been costume-less for the past 3 weeks. It was at party city. I went with Sam, Pat, and Charlie. They called Charlie and he said he didn't want to be interrupting us with our friendship but Sam said "Oh, Charlie, why would you think that? You're a great young boy and a good friend! Plus, it's a week from Halloween, you NEED a costume, unless you have one already." Since Charlie was on speaker, I heard him sigh and said. "Oh, alright. Pick me up in 15 minutes? I'm almost done with math." I smiled. At least he takes his schoolwork seriously. I thought. "Okay, be ready." Samantha finished and hung up. "We're 15 minutes away, what do you wanna do now?"
For the rest of the time, we sat at the playground that was a block from Charlie's. We started talking about what we planned to be. Sam wanted to dress up as a nurse. The teenager nurse costume, not the little kiddy ones. She's not usually like that but on Halloween, a bunch of girls need to be like that, and if you aren't dressed like that. If you don't, well, then you're gonna feel like the most awkwardest person ever, and trust me, that isn't a good feeling. "I think I'll be a nurse this year." She mentioned. "Why a nurse? I never pictured you being a nurse." Sam shook her head. "No, this one. Here, let me show you." She got out the Party City Magazine and pointed to it. "Woah." I said, my eyes widening. "Isn't that a little bit revealing?" She shrugged. "Last year I felt like crap because I was in a bunch of sweaters and didn't show anything. I hated that feeling. I don't want to go through it again, a second time." I nodded. I understood. I think that problem happened to all us girls at one point.
Then, we asked Patrick. He said that he's gonna be like one of those guys from Kiss. "So, you're gonna be yourself." Sam said laughing. I laughed too. I had to admit, that was pretty funny. That's one thing why I'm friends with Sam, she is like the only person I know that can make me laugh. Sam looked at me. She loves it when I laugh, it's one of the rarest things that ever happen to me. "Yay, you laughed!" She exclaimed. "What? Is it not normal to laugh?" I asked. "Not for you." Patrick was grinning. "Stop, grinning!" I pointed at him. That made him laugh and Sam laughed even more. "God. you guys are a bunch of dorks!" I exclaimed and started laughing myself.
We picked Charlie up from his house ten minutes later.. He was in the same outfit that he wore earlier. "Hey, guys." He called to his mom and said "Hey mom! They're here!" Her mom came rushing down the steps and waved to the car. Sam waved back. His mom kissed him on the head. "MMMooooommmm….." He said. I giggled. "Was that a giggle that I heard?" Questioned
Sam. I hit her not too hard on the shoulder. "Shut up." I said. Charlie climbed in the black Ford truck and buckled himself automatically and closed the door. "Hey, Charlie." Sam greeted him first. Charlie smiled. "Yo, Charlie." Patrick said and high-fived him from behind the chair. "Hi, Pat," Then, it was my turn. "Hi, Charlie." He turned to me. "Hi, Mary Elizabeth." Sam smiled. Being me, I would probably flick her in the head or something but with Charlie here, I felt like I had to be more mature.
"So. what are you gonna be for Halloween?" He asked Pat. "One of those guys from the band, Kiss." "With all that makeup? I can't wear that, ever." Pat smiled. "Well, It may make me look weird…." "You're already weird." Sam cut in. I laughed a little as Sam did too. "Shut up!" "What about you, Sam?" "I'm gonna be a nurse." She responded. Charlie look interested. "Cool! Mary Elizabeth?" I looked at him. "Yeah?" "What are you gonna be for Halloween?" I looked down and smiled. I don't know why. I always smile at Charlie and I don't understand why. It's so weird. Okay, I'm getting off topic.
"Black cat." He gave me a thumbs up. "I like cats." Okay, that made me feel weird! Like super weird. I was gonna act like super girly like "Oh, you do? Me too! Which is your favorite? Omg me too! Yeah they're so fluffy and cute." Haha, no… N O. Instead I just gave him a thumbs up back. "Yeah, they're nice." Okay, I didn't nail it there but I was just being super awkward. Obviously, there was an awkward tensity so Sam being Sam, she broke it up. That gives me another reason why she's my friend. She backs me up, with everything! Like for instance, one time in Sophomore year, I was caught cheating with this boy named Derrick. My boyfriend's name was Harold but everyone called him Harry. Sam backed me up by saying that she dared me to do that. I played it off and ended up losing both boys. Oh well, they suck anyways.
"What are you planning to be?" Sam asked Charlie. "Well, uh, nothing really. Just dress up in a suit and tie." Sam laughed. "Really? You can't do that, on Halloween! We'll try to find something for you. Mary Elizabeth is good at that stuff, dressing people up." Charlie glanced at me. "Really?" I nodded. " 'll find something that fits you." I gave him a mini slap on the back. "We'll be there in two minutes!" Pat announced. "Awesome." Sam mentioned. She got a cd from the singer, Outkast as "Hey Ya" came on. We all danced and that was pretty amusing, especially with Pat's voice very very off key.
We got to Party City at 4 pm. When we walked in, it was full of a bunch of creepy Halloween things, which were pretty appropriate because it's October 1st. Some made me jump, like usual, and Pat did mini jump scares with masks on me and Sam. Charlie didn't participate in that. I felt bad for him. He was younger and he was new, so we haven't been friends for a long time. "Come on, Charlie." Sam waved for him to come over and he walked over calmly before Pat jump scared him as well as us.
Pat found his outfit first.. Boys always find everything so easily. They don't have to worry about their size or how they look. It's just like bam there ya go. So unfair. Sam laughed at his outfit and of course they got in a mini girl fight. I actually saw Charlie chuckle, which made me happy.
Sam found hers second. A doctor/nurse outfit. It was a little revealing but not as bad as the photo on google. "I'm a nurse!" Sam said. "I like to check people's house. Boom boom boom boom." She said laughing. I took the outfit and mimicked her. "I like to give people shots and they will cry!" She laughed and took it. "But it makes them not sick!" I took it back. "And I deliver children!" "And cute children!" She added.
I found mine next. A cat. Size- Large. It fit well. Sam even said she'd do my makeup. "Meow!" I said. "Kitty, go get the mouse!" Pat teased me. I hissed at him. Charlie was acting like I was a cat and pet my head. I guess you could say we kinda creeped out some of the Party City workers. Haha.
Lastly, Charlie finally found his outfit. He decided to be Michael Jackson. It was really funny because he also decided to get a wig too. Let me just say, Charlie looks different in a wig… hahaha.
A week later, was tonight. Everyone was really excited, taking pictures of themselves. I promised my mom that I would be good and to not be naughty. Thankfully, I wasn't really naughty. I'm not having a kid, which is a goal for the night because in high school, you can do things that you want to regret right away, not that I wanna regret those type of things.
I started walking to their house as I saw Charlie. "Hi, Charlie. Lost?" He nodded. "Follow me." I talked to him for a while about how we have this Halloween party every year since freshman year. "Yeah, I guess I liked my old school." "What were you known for? Smart? Athlete?" "Uh, well, you see, I was a wallflower. I still am, kinda." "A what?" "An outsider, no-one. Fill in the blank." "Oh, I'm sorry. You're not a wallflower in our group." We crossed the street. 5 more minutes. Sam and Pat literally live on the other side of the subdivision. "Yeah, I guess you're right." He looked up at me as I looked down at him. I smiled He looked away. "Why don't you make eye contact?" I asked. "Just shy." I shrugged. "I am too but you can't let that take over you." "It's hard, okay? Sorry, just, it's… it's just hard." I understood. I was just as shy in middle school and I'm still shy, now in high school. Some things about people never change.
We got there at 6:50 pm. Everyone was rather eating, watching whatever was on tv, or talking. Sam's boyfriend, Craig opened the door. I never really liked Craig. Self-obsessed good-looking freak. He WAS good looking I'll give him props for that but I was never fond of his personality. He was always saying how he did that wonderful touchdown Saturday or how he got a new tattoo and never hurt him, you get the point. "Hey, Mary-Elizabeth." He greeted me. He knows I deeply dislike him but that doesn't bother him. "Hello, Craig." When he saw Charlie, he glanced at him suspiciously. Craig knows everyone so when he realized that he didn't know Charlie, he was surprised that he didn't know him. "Who's this?" He questioned messing up Charlie's hair. "Charlie. He's a new kid in freshman year," "Aww, a cute little freshie. I never saw a freshman on the list." He replied. "Just let him pass, he's with me, and this is Sam's place." Sam appeared from behind Craig. "Yeah, Craig, let him in." She mimicked me and smiled. She wrapped her arms around his neck from behind to whispered in his ear. I didn't hear it but I saw him smile and kiss her back as he sighed. "Get your butt in." He glared at me as I smiled. Too bad sucker. I thought.
Later in the night, everyone was drinking more and eating more. At spin the bottle, Charlie had to choose between me and Samantha. He picked Sam.
And I wasn't surprised.
Sam gets all the boys, but that's because she's… well… Sam! She's perfection and there's so much more that I can say but I can't. It's almost bad that she's so perfect. I'm not trying to diss her or anything but ugh.. you know what let's move on.
I went to the bathroom upstairs and I saw Charlie sitting on the bed. He had a red cup. I drank a little too but it was only 5 cups. Okay, that may sound like a lot but it isn't. Well, not at the time. "Hey Charlie, what's up? Are you okay?" I flopped on the bed. This room, was I'm guessing, Sam and Pat's parents' room. Charlie closed the door and locked it. At the time, I didn't know. He came towards me and was breathing heavily. "You okay?" I repeated myself. Without noticing, I grabbed his collar of the shirt as he threw off the wig. He began with taking off my cat ears and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He breathed heavily on my neck as I unbuttoned his shirt. I took slid out of my cat outfit as he stared at me. I stared at him back as I finished unbuttoning his shirt. His hands slid over my pelvis and my hand rested on his chest. He leaned in, pulling me close. He calm lips made contact with mine. I pulled him closer and closer as my shoes fell off. His hands held me towards him and my body was attached. I couldn't let go.
It went on.
At the end, I wrapped my arms around his waist and his chin rested on my head.
I don't remember after that. I just asked him. "Charlie, why did you pick Samantha over me?" He shook his head. "I don't know. I should've picked you… I'm sorry." I looked at him as I kissed him. "It's okay, I love you, Charlie." He kissed me back, laying his hand on my shoulder. "I love you too."
I got home by walking. I realized that I was drunk when I stepped foot at home. I flopped on my bed and got you out, diary.
I don't know what I will do now.
My reputation may be ruined.
~Mary Elizabeth