Hey another chapter, thank you all for reviewing the last chapter. So here is chapter 7.
This chapter has mention on self harm, if any of you don't like reading about it or is sensitive about it. Feel free to skip till you see ****** for that's when the worst of it will be over. Thanks again and enjoy.
Disclaimer- I do not own Victorious sadly :(
I opened the door my hand shaking. The bathroom was dark, and I could barely see anything there. At first look I wouldn't have guessed Tori was in here, but I could still hear her. Her crying must have gotten worse, as she began to choke on her sobs.
"Tori?" I said softly. I ran my hand along the wall in search of the light. The only sound I could hear was Tori's broken cries echo throughout the tiled room.
"Tori, please tell me you're okay" I begged, fear laced into my words. She had to be okay, she just had to be. I found the switch and flipped it. The light blinded me for a moment and I had to blink several times for my eyes to adjust to the sudden difference in light. When they finally adjusted, my whole body froze in the doorway of what was in front of me. Tori sat on the floor, her back pressed against the wall, her arms wrapped tightly around her knees that were brought up to her chest. There was a puddle of blood of red liquid, that I really hope isn't blood, beside her. I moved my eyes to the brunette's face and I saw tears run freely down her cheeks, her bottom lip trembling as she tried to control her sobs, as she brown eyes glanced over to me. The half latina's brown eyes were filled with emotion, pain, guilt, fear, relief. I knelt down beside her, placing my hands on top of her knees. I didn't say anything not trusting my voice to say anything, all I did was look at Tori as she looked at me. I didn't want to look anywhere else afraid by what I might see. I gently stroked away her tears with my thumb, and rested my hand on her cheeks. She flinched slightly at my touch.
"It's alright Tori, it's just me" I said quietly and she relaxed before more tears escaped her eyes.
"I'm sorry," She whispered shutting her eyes "I'm so sorry" She kept on repeating curling in on herself tighter.
"Tori, it's fine you have nothing to be sorry for" I assured her, my voice soft as I rested both hands on her shoulders in an attempt to calm the girl. "You can trust me, please tell me what's wrong" I grabbed both of Tori's hands squeezing them gently. I felt something wet against my palm, I looked down at our adjoined hands watching as Tori pulled away. Red stained my hands, blood. Tori's blood. I felt my insides twist just by staring at it. I don't know why I suddenly felt sick by the sight of it, I had watched so many horror films filled with blood and gore to be immune to this sort of stuff. And I knew I was, except now I felt the need to scrub my hands raw to get rid of it all. I glanced up at Tori who was watching me, her brown blurred by the unspilled tears.
Wordlessly she showed me her wrists, and I felt my breath get caught in my throat. Two cuts ran along the width of both her wrists. Blood was still flowing out of the open wound, and ran down onto the floor. She looked at me, opening and closing her mouth. I could tell she wanted to explain, but I knew she wouldn't be able to give me a reason without crying. So I stood and walked over to the sink, grabbing a flannel and began to run it under the water. I wanted to cry, and scream with anger. I wanted to curl up in my bed and not talk to anyone. But I couldn't. I had to stay strong for Tori. Because if I wasn't there for her, I dread to think what would happen.
I knelt back down next to her, flannel in hand and began to wipe away at the dried blood and to stop the flow. No words were passed between me and Tori as I cleaned her up. I didn't know what to say. What can you say to a person after this has happened? What do they want to hear? I could feel Tori's eyes staring at me, but I didn't dare meet her gaze afraid on what I might do.
I felt as if the only appropriate thing for me to ask was "Where's the first aid kit?" Thankfully my voice was a monotone, showing no emotion.
"In the cupboard, under the sink" She whispered, and I nodded standing up and grabbing the first aid kit and kneeling down in front of her again. Her arms stayed where I left them, and I grabbed the bandages and an antibiotic ointment tube. I placed the ointment gently on her cuts, not applying too much pressure to the wounds in fear of hurting her. I wrapped the bandage around them. Tori glanced down at what I had just done, a blank expression on her face.
"All better" I commented, holding her hands in mine and giving the back of them a small kiss.
"I really am sorry Jade" She whispered again and looked at me.
"C'mon let's go in your room. We'll talk more in there" I said standing up. She nodded and got up as well, flinging her arms around my neck hugging me. My arms wrapped around her waist pulling her closer into me, as she buried her head in my neck. I rested my head on top of hers, and willed my mind to stop any of my thoughts. I can't be distracted or blinded by my thoughts or feelings. Right now is all about Tori. She pulled away from me, and led me into her room.
"Are you hungry?" She asked me and I shook my head till I realized that she wasn't facing me.
"No, are you?"
"Not really" She said before sitting down on the bed pulling me down next to her. I lent against the headrest and Tori cuddled into me. Wrapping an arm around her, she put her head against my shoulder.
"What's your favorite colour?" She asked breaking the silence. I looked at her wondering what she was doing.
"What are you doing?"
"Getting to know you" She said but I knew she was trying get away with me asking what had happened, alright Tori I'll let you have your moment of forgetting.
"Dark dark green, what's yours?"
"Orange, like the sky"
"The sky's blue Vega" I smirked slightly.
"Yes I know that, I meant the sunset orange. It's really calming" She smiled. "When's your birthday?"
I rolled my eyes but answered anyways "14th of November"
"That's really soon, like a week away. Why didn't you tell me?"
"Dunno it never really came up in discussion between the two of us" I said absent mindedly trailing my fingers on her shoulder.
"Well I'm going to get you something"
"You don't have to you know"
"I know but I want to" She said and by the tone of her voice I knew there was no point arguing with her. We sat there again in silence, my arm wrapped around Tori who had her head pressed against my shoulder, as she began to mess with the hem of my shirt.
"I had a nightmare" She said "I've had them before, but this one was the worst. It started off the same, him touching me doing that to me. Usually I woke up after that, but this time it continued. I could hear people, saying things to me. Then…then" She stopped talking as she removed herself from me wrapping her arms around her shoulders.
"I can do this when I'm with you Jade. But when I'm alone, I start to imagine things, hear things" She looked up at me, her brown eyes looking into mine. "Stay with me?" I nodded and wrapped my arms around her laying us both down on the bed. She cuddled into me resting her head on top of my chest, breathing a sigh of contempt.
"I'll never leave" I whispered in her ear, as the brunette began to fall asleep, her back pressed against my front. I knew I should fall asleep, but I couldn't, my thoughts were racing through my head. All of them screaming Tori, Tori, Tori. She told me what happened in her nightmare, well sort of. But I kind of put two and two together as of why she had cuts along her wrist. She woke up alone and terrified, no one there to comfort her or to calm her down. I don't really understand why someone would do this, but I don't want to ask her. But I won't let it happen again, I can't. If something happens to Tori, I don't know what will happen to me.
Tori Vega. Amazing, beautiful, strong Tori. Who can go through anything and still smile brightly. Tori Vega who has a fantastic voice, that I actually love to listen to. Probably the nicest person ever, and the fucker that did this deserves to die. A slow and painful death. Anger and hated surged through me, as my grip on Tori tightened, how dare someone hurt my Tori. How dare they inflict any sort of pain on her, especially this kind.
I buried my head into the back of her neck and smiled slightly, my Tori. I like how that sounds.
So here is chapter 7, this one wasn't an easy chapter to write but I got there in the end and I'm actually pretty proud of how it came out. So Jade is finally showing some sort of different feelings to Tori and it will be a long process you know. They're not going to love each other after a few chapters. Especially with Tori being how she is. So thank you for everyone that reviewed the last chapter and review for this one and I'll see you guys in the next one.