You are my Sunshine Chapter 10, a victorious fanfic

Hey guys, I'm back with another chapter. Sorry about the long wait but I am here now. So this chapter is going to get pretty dark, well that's my intention of it anyways. Last chapter I asked if I should change the POV and I did, so enjoy a chapter from Tori's POV.

Disclaimer- I do not own Victorious

(Tori's POV)

It felt weird not getting up to sing, the whole reason I got accepted into Hollywood Arts in the first place is because I performed when Trina was unable to. But here I am looking at the stage, a certain goth absent from my side. I wasn't scared, I was terrified. Not having Jade by my side was an odd feeling as I was so used to having within reach. The only times she's not with me is those moments at school where we have different classes. But this wasn't class, this was the Full Moon Jam filled with all students that go to Hollywood Arts and Northridge, for all I know the man could be here watching me. A shiver went through me as I wrapped my arms around my body and tried to get the memory out my mind. The feel of his hand going down my body, his hot breath on my neck and in my ear. I clenched my eyes shut and willed myself to think of something else, anything else. So my mind went to Jade.

Jade my safety net, my rock, the reason I'm still going. If I didn't have her I would she be in a much worse situation. I thought about everything she's done for me in the past month. Singing to me, allowed me to heal in my own way, helping me when I was going through that incident a week couple of weeks ago, then staying with me throughout the nights so I don't have any more nightmares. I don't get them anymore with Jade's arms wrapped around my waist, the front of her body pressed against my back. When I'm with her I don't feel afraid, I feel safe. I feel wanted.

A small smile graced my lips as I thought about the green eyed girl who had become such an important person in my life. I put my focus back on the stage waiting for Jade to sing her song. I tried getting her to tell me the song but every time I asked she put that smirk on her face and said 'Well it wouldn't be a surprise now, would it?'

"Not singing a song for us today?" Someone said beside me, I turned around to see a guy I had recognized around school but never actually spoke to. His brown hair was spiked up in different directions, and his brown eyes didn't make me feel like my insides were on fire like a certain emerald green instead they made me feel uneasy and tense. He had a lopsided grin on his face that most girls would find attractive.

"No not this year" I said stepping back a little my hands clenching my top as I tried to comfort myself, this isn't the guy.

"I'm Chip by the way" He said and I could hear Jades voice in my head saying 'What an unfortunate name'

"Tori" I said trying to put on a convincing smile. It's not the guy.

"Oh I know who you are" He grinned stepping closer to me, making my whole body tense up. "So seeing as you're not singing, why don't you and me go off somewhere"

"I would rather not" I said fear creeping through me. It can't be him.

"Why not? Any girl would love to have my attention, but I'm giving it to you" He said his grin faltering slightly "You should feel special"

"I really don't" I said turning around so I could walk away, the only person who could actually make me special was Jade. He grabbed the top of my arm and pulled me roughly back.

"I never said we were done talking" He said and I looked into his eyes and saw anger lurking in his brown orbs. But what if it him? I began to tremble as the memory played in my mind. Hands grabbing, hair pulling, hot breath. The only sound were my cries and his words. Tears formed in my eyes as I was pulled into the memory.

(A/N- this is where some may skip, it's closer to the M side then the T. Skip until you see my second authors note if you want, if not carry on)

A hand grabbed my throat slamming me into the brick wall behind me, a strangled cry came out of my mouth as tears fell from my eyes. I felt hot breath in my ear and I shivered disgusted by it all.

"You had it coming you know," He whispered in my ear, his voice sounded deep and raspy "Walking the streets alone, at this hour. It was like you were begging for this"

I shook my head repeatedly "Please don't" I sobbed. "Leave me alone"

My head flung to one side, as he slapped me around the face "Shut it you bitch. I'm going to give it to you one way or another so you better like it" He growled before slapping me again. I felt my zipper being undone to roughly making it rip my jeans a little. He tugged my jeans down so they were around my ankles and shoved me so my face was pressed against the wall.

No matter how hard I wanted to, I didn't bother trying to escape. If I did something worse could happen to me, so I stood there against the wall tears falling freely down my face. I couldn't see anything, all I could do was feel. I felt his hand gripping onto hips. I felt his hot breath against my neck.

I felt him.

His sweaty body against mine as he gripped my hip hard enough to leave fingerprint bruises behind.

Him inside of me.

"This is your fault you know" He grunted in my ear "All your fault"

I gave up after that. I tried not to focus on him. Just the wall that my forehead was resting on, but it was pretty hard not to.

Once he was done he threw me to the floor, zipping up his pants. He began to walk out of the alleyway but stopped and said "I'd watch yourself bitch" He laughed before walking out the alleyway leaving me on the floor, curled up in a ball alone and violated.

(A/N-It's done, for those who skipped can start reading here)

"Oi!" I heard the soft, yet high pitched voice that belonged to my red headed friend Cat, and I never been relieved to see her. Cat looked at me, before turning her attention back on Chip who was still gripping my arm. "Leave. Her" She said in a tone that I never knew Cat could even do, it was just filled with hatred and anger.

"Or what?" He scoffed.

Cat stepped towards the much taller boy, and I would usually be scared for the petite girl who looked like she couldn't hurt a fly, but I got a glimpse of her eyes and saw nothing but hatred and rage in them.

"I've been best friends with Jade West for years. I think I know how to get rid of several body parts with only using a pair of rusty scissors. Now I'll say it again, Leaver. Her. Alone" She narrowed her eyes into slits moving herself to stand right in front of me. Chip visibly gulped and his grip on my arm loosened enough for me to slip out of. I rubbed my arm knowing there would probably be a bruise there.

"Fine I'm going" He growled shoulder barging past the both of us and disappearing in the crowd.

Cat turned to me her eyes filled with concern "Are you okay?" She asked me. I wasn't okay. I needed Jade. Cat was amazing to have around, but she wasn't Jade.

"Yeah I'm fine" I lied but I knew Cat could see right through that lie.

"You just need Jade" Cat answered and gave me a knowing smile that I had to nod.

"Yeah I do need her"

"Well she's coming on in a moment, and I'll stay right here until she's right beside you" Cat said and I was thankful that she was here beside me.

"Thank you" I said before turning my attention to the stage as Jade walked out and took her place center stage. I took note of the way the light made her pale skin look even paler, and her black hair look darker. To me she looked beautiful.

The music started playing and her eyes scanned the crowd before they landed on me, I smiled at her and waved as she opened her mouth and began to sing using her amazing voice.

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind.

He broke his own heart and I watched

As he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore

That she would never let herself forget.

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling,

You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul

That love never lasts.

And we've got to find other ways to make it alone.

Or keep a straight face.

Her eyes closed as she gripped the microphone tighter as got lost in the music.

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance.

And up until now I have sworn to myself

That I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.

You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,

But I can't let go of what's in front of me here.

I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up.

Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.

Oh-oh-oh-ohhh.

You are the only exception. [4x]

And I'm on my way to believing.

Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

Tears formed in the corner of my eyes as the crowd erupted into cheers and I joined in cheering and clapping my hands together loudly. It was amazing and the way she performed was breathtaking. I hope the song is dedicated for me, that Jade is singing it for me. I truly hope she is, because I don't think I can take losing another person that I care about.

Well here's the end of that chapter, so what did you guys think? Do you think I should do more chapters from Tori's POV or stop altogether because I completely messed it up. Review what you think and I'll see all your beautiful faces in the next one.