Chapter Sixteen

To say everyone was uncomfortable was an understatement, Steve had left Natasha and Bucky to it, decided another meeting with the team was much needed. They need a plan of attack.

Natasha took the time to talk to her solider, leaning forward off the edge of the bed she grabbed his human hand in hers and tugged him closer, obediently he came forward. Everything about her was familiar and comforting to him, even if he didn't completely understand why.

Curving her hand around his she marveled in the size difference, noting his hand looked as similar as it has before, rough and cracked beneath hers.

"What do you remember Solider?" she asked licking her suddenly dry lips.

"W-we were friends?"

"Sort of" a lie by omission

"What else Natalia?"

"You were my trainer, my crush, my friend and for a short period of time you were my solider, my lover"

My everything

The soldier frowned, "What happened to us?"

"The same thing that always happened, Hydra wiped your mind and moved you on soon after. We never got to fully happened, the next time I saw you, you were shooting through me to kill my charge." She explained "a part of me was so happy to see you alive, but then I realized you hadn't aged."

That had been one of the worst moments of her life when she saw him, still looking twenty something, as handsome and fierce looking as before. It broke her in that moment when she realized she hadn't fully understood what The Fist of Hydra truly was.

The more she found out under the guise of helping Steve the more she hated herself for not doing something or searching for him sooner. When they had found him or more he let them find him, she had since accepted he would never remember her and was to be watching him from a far for the rest of her life. But now he knew her name, her real name.

"You shouldn't have hurt Barton solider, the guys will trust you even less now"

"Then we leave Natalia, we've come back to each other now, we can go"

A part of her was excited at that prospect, but another part the realistic side of her knew it wouldn't work.

"No solider, we need them and besides, who knows how long you stay my soldier before Bucky comes back. He'll want to be back with Steve." She tried to explain but it felt like a weak excuse.

"I do not want to be here with them, how can you say we need them, they had you drugged"

He had a point.

"A mistake on their part" she hoped. "they will apologise Solider, but if we leave now we'll ruin all chance with them for good. You need more help than I can give you" she pleaded.

The solider stepped even closer between her legs and surprised her by wrapping his arms around her, she tilted her chin up to look at him, leaning down he pressed their foreheads together.

"I need you Natalia" he whispered against her lips, his warm breath was sending her into a frenzy. "I just need you"

"Do you trust me?"

"With my life" his answer was instant and it warmed her lonely heart.

"Then trust me when I say it will be better if we stay"

He sighed, but she knew she had him. He needed professional help and as much as she wanted to be, she just wasn't enough to help him.

"Then we stay Natalia, we stay for now"

She smiled against his lips and enjoyed his light gaps as she slammed her mouth up onto his and licked her tongue along the seam of his lips. She was more surprised when he kissed her back just as hard, she'd missed him, missed his taste.

And if the thick bulge pressing into her hip was anything to go from, he had missed her too. Reluctantly she pulled back and grabbed his hands in hers

"Come soldier lets go find me something I'd actually wear and then find the team and get my apology." With a nod he helped her ease up onto her achy legs and followed her out of the room.